Ji Yu

When I left Lecheng and settled in Shanlenduo, I discovered that Jiyu had a secret box.It was locked all the time, and he never opened it, just kept it in the corner.I thought it was something like a property contract, but he gave them to me for safekeeping.So what's in the box?

I asked him and he said it was just some miscellaneous stuff.Just why should the sundries be locked?The more he doesn't let me know, the more I want to know.

This box never existed before.It should have happened during the two years when I was not by my side.Did you meet someone at that time?What token did you leave behind?Or commemorate?

I know I should trust him.But I still can't help but think wildly.It is extremely rare for him not to marry a wife and take a concubine for me, how can he be the only lover in his life?When I'm not around him, it's justifiable to do things with others occasionally, right?

I don't really mind too much if he's slept with other people, but I wonder if he's ever inside someone else.He kept that box all the time, did he still have that person in his heart... Maybe it's just that I am more important in comparison?So he chose to come back to me...

If he sleeps with someone else, but as long as he doesn't care about that person and is just having fun, I don't care.

He said he didn't sleep with anyone in those two years, I believe it.

But even if he didn't sleep with someone else, but pretended to be someone else, it would make me sad as hell.

I hope he only has me in his heart.

In the past, I took advantage of it. When he was young and lonely and helpless, I broke into his life and broke into his heart.He has his own set of principles in life, and he will double his gratitude to those who are kind to him in return, so he should not let me down.

But with the broadening of his horizons, more and better people appeared around him.Those people make me feel inferior and make me nervous.Even trusting him, I was still nervous.

My mind involuntarily revolved around that secret box.I made a lot of insinuations, but this usually very sensitive person didn't know whether he was pretending, or he really didn't understand what I meant, so he just didn't answer my words.Naturally, I didn't have the chance to open that box and see what was inside.

I wanted to sneak a peek at the contents behind his back, but felt that this was not good.

At last an evil thought got the upper hand.That time he was drunk by a young man in the village at their wedding banquet, and he fell asleep when he returned to his room.The thought of opening the box tickled my heart, and I finally took the key from him and opened the lock.The hand that opened the lock was trembling slightly.

After hesitating for a while, I followed my heart's wish and opened the box.

Inside are fine jade pendants, luxurious clothing, special wooden shoes, scented paper fans, fur cloaks, and many more... You can tell at a glance that they are carefully prepared gifts.My heart can't help but sink.Is this something someone gave him?

There was also an envelope with a stack of thick letter paper inside, and I opened it.

"Qiyu, although I was still angry with you before I left, some of your actions really made me sad. But after being away from you for a few days, I still start to miss you..."

"Qiyu, I have arrived at Daming Lake. It is beautiful here, and I hope to bring you here in the future... But do we have a future? I don't know..."

"Qiyu, I have arrived in the southwest mountainous area. The weather here is hot and humid, and I am a little unaccustomed to it. After recuperating for a few days, my body gradually recovered. When I went out to find a place to settle, I was bitten by a snake in the mountains. Fortunately, there was a I was saved when the old man in Shanlenduo went out to gather medicine. If it wasn’t for him, I would hardly see you. Would you be sad if I died silently in a place you don’t know? Fortunately, I was saved .

However, it takes a long time to recover from injuries. The people here are very nice, and I am used to the food.While recuperating from my injuries, I also bought a house and used the money to set up a private school here.It can be regarded as repaying their kindness for saving me.It is very poor here, and the children here are illiterate.I give them lessons myself, but I can't stay here forever.So I hired a down-and-out old scholar, he is quite upright, although his knowledge is average, he is more than enough to teach children.In his spare time, he likes to chant poems against me, which makes me have a headache.You know, I'm not very interested in those.But he is good at Go, which can be regarded as a solution to my loneliness when I was recuperating.

I think maybe this should be left to Gu Shao.He taught me a lot and I am truly grateful to him.But still don't want to be used by him.Only by preparing a way out for him can I relieve the guilt in my heart for wanting to escape from him.If he really came here in the future, he might be able to be a teacher here.He will be a good teacher.

The customs here are different from ours. Men and women are not so heavy on defense. Whenever they hunt big prey on the mountain, the whole family will gather around the campfire to eat barbecue, drink and dance.

Those unmarried young men and women also sat together, whispering.I miss you so much, how good would it be if you were by my side right now?

I miss you.I want to hug you, I want to kiss you.

Maybe I drank too much and wrote some stupid words.But it's inconvenient to deliver the letter, and I don't know when you will see this letter.Maybe you were by my side then, and you'd laugh at my stupidity. "

"I arrived in Yancheng today..."

"I saw the sea. It's so blue and so vast. You'll like it here. I bought a house in a small fishing village. Qiyu, I don't know how much future we have. I want to be with you for the rest of my life. But You seem to be the only one who doesn't think it's enough. Qiyu, what exactly do you want?"

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"Qiyu, Beyond the Great Wall is very good. I have been to so many places, but here is my favorite. "The desert is lonely and the smoke is straight", and "The wind blows the grass and the cattle and sheep" are the portrayal of the beautiful scenery here.

I want to live here.Raise a few horses, a few sheepdogs, and a flock of sheep.Live in a tent that can be removed at any time, and go wherever there is delicious grass.

But, Qiyu, do you like this place?You like ostentation, fancy clothes, and those are inconvenient here.But there are good furs here, I bought you a snow-white fox fur cloak without a trace of miscellaneous fur.Imagining you wearing nothing but wrapped in this cloak makes my blood boil.

It's been too long since I left you.I miss you so much in my heart, and my body also misses you so much.Go back soon.do you miss me?

I really want to see your face when you see me. "

I looked at it, my heart was soft and warm, and my face was also a little hot.But very sad.He couldn't help but slapped himself hard twice.What have I done?He was so kind to me, he wrote me letters and bought gifts all the way.He was thinking of me all the time.And me, what did I do...

When he came back that day, I was still drinking in the flower building.When I was summoned by the servant, I hurried home. He said some ugly things to me at that time.

I finally understood how he felt at that time.

I'm such a wolf-hearted thing.

I have always been afraid of being betrayed and hurt, so I have my own little calculations.Because of his introvertedness, I always thought that I was the one who paid more emotionally between the two.Turns out I'm the kind of person I've always looked down on.

I will never doubt him again.Never again.

Quietly put the letter and everything back in its place.I like all the letters he wrote me and the presents he bought me.But these may remind him of the harm I caused him.Then let these things continue to be sealed.

Maybe one day, Ji Yu will let go and show these things to me.

I'm in no hurry.There are such good people by my side to protect me.What can't wait?