The beauty of rebirth

Zhong Yuan leaned on the sofa, and just after hanging up the phone, he saw Lin Rui walking towards him.His thin and slender limbs were covered with his own pajamas, which seemed a bit loose and empty, but it matched the man's bleary-eyed appearance very well.

"Are you awake?" He raised his hand to look at the time, and couldn't help laughing, "It seems that I should tell you that the afternoon is good."

A faint smile flashed in Lin Rui's eyes, he didn't speak, just walked to Zhong Yuan and sat down.He doesn't talk much, Zhong Yuan has gradually gotten used to it.Although he still clearly remembers that Lin Rui used to be a very talkative and talkative person, it doesn't matter, he will always love him, no matter what he has gone through and what he has become.This is something I never question.

Thinking of this, Zhong Yuan couldn't help smiling, and stretched out his hand to embrace the person next to him, until he felt his slightly cold body pressed against his side.He raised his head and looked straight at the pattern on the wallpaper in front of him, but it gradually became darker.After a while, he opened his mouth and said slowly: "The Fed called me just now."

Lin Rui leaned his weight slightly towards Zhong Yuan, and froze a little when he heard this, and then asked lightly, "What did he say?"

"It's about going to Milan." Zhong Yuan's voice was a little low, so low that he couldn't hear any emotion, "He said that the doctor and accommodation over there have been contacted, and the air ticket has also been booked. Close up the stall, and go there early next month."

"En." Lin Rui responded slowly, feeling Zhong Yuan's palm covering his own, and a sense of stability slowly rose in his heart.However, this feeling was quickly replaced by a feeling of unease, which made his heart tighten suddenly, so tight that it hurt a little.

milan.Italy.

That day my attention was attracted by Fed's abnormal behavior, so that I didn't care when he said it.But at this moment when he heard the place name again from Zhong Yuan, he suddenly realized that he had to go back to the place he fled in a hurry after he became Lin Rui.

He doesn't want to think about what kind of mood he might and needs to use to face such a revisiting old place, but those many things have already come to his mind irresistibly at this moment.

Lin Rui.Yao Qi.These two names are placed side by side, even after so long, it still causes new pain in my heart.However, this kind of pain seems to have been used to and even immune to it physically and mentally, and it is not as wanton and obvious as before.It's just that it has been suppressed in the deepest and softest part of my heart, and it hurts faintly.I tried my best to avoid it countless times, trying my best to pretend not to touch it, as if as long as I did this, those people and lives who had gone away from me would really never exist.

He has always known that it must be the best result to let the former Lin Rui completely withdraw from his life.However, the greatest sorrow of a person is not that he doesn't know what he should do, but that he knows clearly and has insight, but he is unable to do what he wants.The bits and pieces of being with the former Lin Rui will always be inadvertently touched by any possible scene, and then willfully come to mind.I tried my best to suppress it, but it could only make my memory clearer and clearer.

This back and forth struggle made me feel physically and mentally exhausted all the time.He is reticent, he is lethargic, and he thinks that he will slowly learn to take things lightly, and eventually he will not care about anything.However, in the end, when he found that he could not care about anything, he still couldn't let go of the past that he most wanted to let go but was unwilling to let go.

He knows that this past is like an old scar in his heart that will never heal, a trace that cannot be erased even if he meets a new person.

My mind is a little messed up.Lin Rui couldn't help exhaling heavily, and put his arms around Zhong Yuan's waist.The body of the person who was hugged suddenly stiffened for a moment, and then quickly relaxed as if relieved, and the arms around him were also tightened.

My heart suddenly became very warm.Lin Rui didn't know how to define his feelings for Zhong Yuan, but he knew that this feeling was what he longed for.Even... Even if he is not Lin Rui at all.But so what.He suddenly thought, if he pretended to be Lin Rui, would he be able to keep doing this and gain the affection of this person all the time.Pretend this feeling to be for yourself, maybe you will gradually forget that this is actually a kind of deception.Then, maybe one day he will no longer remember Yao Qi who once loved Lin Rui deeply.

It's kind of idealistic.Lin Rui smiled self-deprecatingly, but suddenly realized that he had been remembering the past all this time, and his thoughts just touched the unknown future inadvertently.

Is it true that only those who have hope for the future will imagine instead of reminiscing?

And who gave this hope?

Lin Rui suddenly let go of his hand, and looked up at Zhong Yuan, only to see a face that was clearly outlined by the light, which was as delicate as any photo taken by a plane model.It's just that Zhong Yuan's eyes are still staring at the front with some sluggishness, his expression is calm, but he looks thoughtful.

"What's the matter?" Lin Rui asked after a pause.

Zhong Yuan came back to his senses, gave him a gentle smile, and quickly reached out to wrap his arms around his shoulders.

Lin Rui didn't speak, and it took a while to hear Zhong Yuan's voice again: "Are you afraid?"

When he was talking, he kept looking straight ahead, Lin Rui looked up at him for a moment, then slowly shook his head.

Zhong Yuan suddenly turned his face and looked at him for a while, with an indescribable look in his eyes, and then repeated after a pause: "I know... this process will be extremely painful, and there may even be life that is worse than death." feeling. Are you... afraid?"

Instead, Lin Rui smiled lightly and shook his head again.

Seeing his reaction, Zhong Yuan slowly smiled, but there was a hint of loneliness and mockery in the smile.Lin Rui was feeling a little surprised, but felt that Zhong Yuan held his hand, and said slowly and affectionately: "It's okay, I will be with you."

Lin Rui looked at him and suddenly didn't know what to say in order to respond best.

"Although I have always wanted to do something for you, the Fed will always take care of everything before me, and even rush to take the blame for me." Zhong Yuan smiled mockingly, "So this time, I will definitely tide over the difficulties with you."

"Thank you." Lin Rui nodded slowly.However, when Zhong Yuan brought up the matter of Fed again, I felt inexplicable and strange again.

After hanging up Fei Zhongcheng's phone call yesterday, he stared at the sleeping Fed for a long time before slowly realizing that what he originally intended to comfort might become a kind of hope that shouldn't exist for the other party.He knew that from the moment he decided to hand himself over to Zhong Yuan, his body and mind had deviated in that direction irresistibly, and maybe... there was no room for turning back.

Maybe Fei Zhongcheng is right, since you can't give what you want, don't even keep hope at all.

I just don't know why, when I left home, I just felt like my heart was blocked by something.He could only smile mockingly, knowing that he was actually unwilling to hurt Fed in his heart.

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"Tell me, it's rare for you to come to me once. Who did you fall in love with this time and let me hook you up for you?" Linda leaned back slightly, leaned against the back of the chair, raised her chin and looked lightly at the woman in front of her. people.

Solomon is in the shape of "T-shirt + shorts + flip flops", with his hands in his trouser pockets, sitting sideways at her desk.The blond hair is combed very casually, but when matched with the whole outfit, it is unexpectedly a bit of just right looseness. Due to her occupational problems, Linda always observes each other's attire intentionally or unintentionally. Solomon's attire, if she changed to another person, she would definitely hate him so much that she wouldn't let him enter the office, but the person wearing the clothes was changed to Solomon, apart from her own selfishness and eccentricity, she really had to admit Very own taste.This reminded her of what a veteran in the fashion industry said: a model is a shining creature who can wear a rag.It seems that Zai Zheren has been completely confirmed.

"What? What are you talking about?" He smiled lazily and said disapprovingly, "Based on my ability, I still need other people's help to catch a winner?"

Linda couldn't help raising her eyebrows, a little surprised that he had comprehended such an authentic usage in a short period of time.It probably belongs to the range of commonly used words, so it is extra proficient.

"Just inflate yourself." I didn't bother to argue with him too much, "You didn't come to me just to show off this to me, did you?"

"Of course not." Solomon shrugged, stood up and turned around to look at her, still with a lazy smile on his face, "I'm here to tell you that I'm going back to Italy."

Linda's heart tightened, but the expression on her face did not change.After a while, he said: "It's fine to talk about it on the phone, why come here in person."

"Anyway, I'm fine," Solomon said flatly, "If it's really not, you can just pretend that I'm here to see you."

Linda looked at his perpetually cynical expression, sighed and said, "Didn't you say that the boss gave you a vacation, and you will stay in China for a while. Why are you so anxious to go back all of a sudden?"

Solomon looked at her for a while, then suddenly smiled and said, "I've already soaked up all the goodies here, so I'd better go back to China and continue looking."

"Okay. I wish you the best of luck." Linda's face darkened immediately, she paused and asked again, "When are you leaving?"

"How about next week."

Linda nodded, not knowing what was going on in her heart.Suddenly remembered something, and said: "By the way, Lin Rui and the others will also go to Italy after you."

"Lin Rui? What is he going to do?" Solomon raised his eyebrows.

"I don't know. The Fed called yesterday and said it was to prepare for the ready-to-wear exhibition in Milan next year, so I asked for leave first. It seems that Zhong Yuan will also go there."

"January next year, it's over now, it's really early..." Solomon frowned, thought for a while and then smiled, "But it's very interesting that the three of them will pass, it seems that I have to find time Go take a look around."

"You really have a lot of free time." Linda gave him a sideways glance, "I just mentioned it casually, but it is said that this matter has not been announced to the outside world, so don't say it, or you will cause trouble again. I guess They probably went out to avoid the limelight in the past, and what happened a while ago was indeed too much trouble."

"Well, I'm leaving soon, so where do I go to publicize this?" Solomon smiled and said, "Forget it, there's nothing else to do, editor Linda can keep busy, I won't bother you."

Linda watched him turn around and waved his back to her.After hesitating for a moment, he wanted to say something, but he opened his mouth, but just watched him go out, and closed the door behind him with a "bang".