only in this mountain

Both Jiang Ruoxue and Jiang Ruomeng came back from the third year of junior high school. They were supposed to talk about Jiang Ruomeng's marriage, but no one was in the mood, so they put it on hold.Although they all felt sorry for Jiang He, they couldn't fully understand why he was beaten, and they often advised him not to be stubborn to the end.

The annual leave is only seven days, and the eldest and second sisters left on the sixth day of junior high school.Sensing that her mother was restless, whether it was because her blood pressure had risen again or she was crying frequently, and the edema in her eyes had not disappeared, Jiang Ruolin was worried about her physical condition, so she took a few more days off and did not go to work immediately.

"Xiaolin, tell me, can a man and a man really be together?" Mother Jiang finally asked her daughter the question she had been thinking about for a long time.

Jiang Ruolin doesn't seem to know anything about homosexuality. She can see the difference in Jiang He's attitude and painting habits, which is enough to prove this point. There is a gay couple in their company, which is much different than most heterosexual couples. It's more romantic to live a more decent life, and it doesn't make people feel that there is something abnormal about them.

"Sexual orientation is not something that can be determined subjectively by oneself. It is likely that there is something different from heterosexuality in the genes. Will heterosexual couples who live a bad life be able to grow old? Now the divorce rate is so high, I don't want to There are many people who fall in love and get married, so they must be old and have nowhere to go? Men and men are nothing more than having no children, why can't they be together?"

Jiang's mother was still struggling: "Then the incense in our house will be cut off?"

Jiang Ruolin frowned, and vomited out the unhappiness that had been suppressed in her heart: "Is Xiaohe the only child of yours? Didn't my sisters and I be born with your father? In those years of family planning, there were so many families with only daughters. Does their family have no successors? I told you a long time ago that you have to change your thinking, if you just want to continue this surname, then my children will follow my surname Jiang from now on."

Jiang's mother still didn't think it through, she just said: "Then your husband's family won't agree."

Jiang Ruolin replied nonchalantly: "There will be no in-law's family. I won't get married. If I earn more money, I can buy high-quality sperm and give birth to myself."

At first, Mother Jiang felt that her daughter was a little shameless, how could an unmarried girl say such words so loudly, and then she began to struggle: "Why don't you suddenly want to get married? Maybe you also..."

"I simply don't want to get married. I live a happy life by myself, so as to avoid trouble and anger."

Mother Jiang's heart was even more confused by her daughter's words. She seemed to feel a little bit of her daughter's accumulated resentment towards them over the years, and it was not without feeling aggrieved. After all, there were many things she could do nothing about.In the past, she didn't know the thoughts of her children, and she really ignored too many details, and forced so many things she couldn't understand at once.

These days, the daytime is always calm, but at night it seems to hear very violent wind noises. As I get older and have something on my mind, I always feel that my forgetfulness has become greater.

I don't know if the backyard door is closed properly, if the unfinished fish on the stove is put into the refrigerator, if there will be a night cat running into the house...

She got up and went to check it before she was relieved. After going upstairs, she heard voices coming from her son's room.

Jiang He slept very restlessly, and felt that something was pulling him from time to time. He struggled to call for help, obviously feeling hoarse and exhausted, but no one could hear him.She tried her best to get rid of the nightmare, but when she opened her eyes, she saw a pale face.

Mother Jiang pushed the door open and walked in, her tone more panicked than Jiang He's: "What's wrong? What happened?"

When the light came on, the pale face disappeared, and suddenly there was a fluffy ball under the quilt. It should be that the yellow shirt was sleeping beside her in a human shape just now.

Jiang He shook his head and said he was fine, and told his mother to go back and rest quickly.

Jiang's mother sat beside Jiang He without moving. Seeing that he was sweating profusely, his lips were dry and white, and there were deep dark circles under his eyes, she couldn't help being surprised that he had been sleeping for the past few days, but he still didn't seem to be sleeping well.

"Xiaohe, is it still in pain? If the weather is fine tomorrow, you should go out and do some exercise. It won't be good if you always lie on the bed and feel depressed."

Jiang He wasn't very depressed. In fact, he didn't have the heart to think about things at all. Except for eating and going to the bathroom, he rarely woke up. He didn't know which muscle his father had broken in him, making him so lethargic.He promised Jiang's mother, but Jiang's mother still didn't leave, so he asked, "Mom, is there anything else?"

Jiang's mother hesitated: "That...is it true that no one else can do it except him?"

At first Jiang He was confused and didn't understand, but after he understood what his mother meant, he buried his chin in the quilt and didn't make a sound.Seeing that Jiang's mother's eyes were red again, Jiang He hurriedly said, "Don't worry, I won't go to him, and I won't embarrass you."

Mother Jiang's tears fell instantly, and she complained to him: "You know...why do you still..."

Jiang He also wanted to cry, and kept apologizing to his mother: "I'm sorry, Mom, I know I'm selfish, except for this, I will never make you angry and make you sad, I'm sorry..."

Rather than watching her son cry and admit his mistakes in front of her, Jiang's mother prefers to see him jumping up and down, laughing and dodging her stick. She hugged her son and cried loudly: "Who told you to say sorry, is it useful? I regret giving birth to you. Come down, can you go back into my stomach again?"

Jiang He's parents stopped hugging him as long as he could remember. They are not good at expressing emotions, and they are always busy with this and that. They have worked hard all their lives just for their siblings to eat, clothe and go to school. Jiang's mother is thin and weak. Short, holding him like this for so many years, he has long forgotten the feeling of nostalgia, and all that comes to his heart is unspeakable guilt and distress.

"You are all the meat that fell from me. Do I want you to have a hard time? I can't accompany you for the rest of your life. You should go on your own in the future. Your father and I are old, young When you are old, you care about saving face. When you are old, no one is afraid of someone talking behind your back. They are all people with half of their legs in the ground..."

Following Mama Jiang's departure, the lights went out, and the room fell into extreme darkness.

Jiang He felt that the darkness was a bit unusual, it was quiet and cold, and it also carried an increasingly strong smell of dampness.Panic began to spread. He wanted to hug the yellow shirt to increase his sense of security, but he didn't know when it was empty.

When something rushed towards him in the darkness, he subconsciously rolled over under the bed to avoid it. The bed board made a creaking sound. He groaned in pain again, and there was still something screaming vaguely.

Not long after, those voices disappeared, and the light in the room was turned on again with a "snap". Huang Shirt's face was pale, and he withdrew his hands and sat on the edge of the bed, gasping for air. There was a puddle of water on the bed.

"What happened just now?" The weak monster looked very unaccustomed to it. The usual city and cunning were replaced by a sick face, and the limp body was a bit pitiful.

But the monster didn't seem serious when he spoke, and he was still giggling: "I'm going to spend all my money and life for you, so think about how you can repay me."

"Can you stop joking? What the hell was it just now? Why did the water suddenly appear?"

Huang Shirt coughed a few times, and although there was still a smile on his face, there was no trace of warmth in his eyes: "Hmph, it's just rotten mud." Seeing Jiang He's puzzled expression, he explained, "As soon as you came back, you will be killed." That thing is staring at it, he is constantly infiltrating you and absorbing the energy of the mountain god stone, after you were beaten, you were in the weakest state and gave him an opportunity, I put a ban on your room to resist it, but He can't wait to possess all the power of the Mountain God Stone, and it was through your mother that he entered the room just now."

Jiang He's head was full of question marks: "Can mud become fine?"

Huang Shan shook his head and said, "No, he can also be a fish, a water plant, or a rock...but he was originally a mountain god."

This monster can clearly say that that thing is a mountain god, but he insists on playing tricks to make people stunned first. Since it is a mountain god, why would he come to snatch the mountain god stone in his body, isn't he himself the source of power?

"The power of the mountain god comes from the mountain and the vegetation on the mountain. With the mountain, the mountain god will naturally be born, and the mountain god will make everything more harmonious. It can almost be said that whether the mountain god is strong or not is closely related to the natural ecology of the mountain. It is very unlikely that a barren mountain will give birth to a mountain god, and when the forest is destroyed, the power of the mountain god will also be weakened."

"I didn't expect that there is a gap between the rich and the poor in the mountain god... That's why I came to grab the mountain god stone."

Huang Shirt nodded: "The fact that he can come to grab it shows that he wants to change the status quo. I went to the mountains when I was free during the day, and I didn't meet many living things. In some places, there was not even a blade of grass. It can continue to exist for 80 to [-] years. The original ecology is not bad, since when did it start to change?"

Jiang He doesn’t know exactly when, but he only remembers seeing pheasants and rabbits on the Bagua Mountain when he was in elementary school, and he would see snakes if he accidentally walked on the field stalks in summer, so he didn’t need to go to Chashan in the woods next to the reservoir. Woodpeckers can be seen, and wild boars and wolves were common in the parents' generation.He likes to play in Bagua Mountain with his grandfather who herds cattle and sheep, and listens to him tell various legends about the mountain. There are giant pythons that wrap their tails around the mountainside and stretch their heads into the reservoir to drink water, and finally turn into dragons. The tortoise that blocked the flood lay there without moving for ten thousand years, and its body grew into a mountain, which is now the Bagua Mountain... Then he didn't know what happened. First, the tall pine trees disappeared, and then even the smaller pine trees disappeared. The old man drove the cattle and sheep to another mountain. The most regrettable thing is that many wild fruits disappeared before they knew their names, and no one opened up wasteland to plant crops. Bagua Mountain became a bare mountain with weeds .

"Also, I used to hear deafening thunder on sunny days, and then it was like an earthquake. My mother said that it was another village blowing up the mountain, and several new stone factories were built in the town. People always have to eat, and the economy To grow, including at the cost of sacrificing the environment, but stone factories are almost all opened by outsiders. The resources in the mountains are limited, and they will not stay in the mountains all the time. According to my mother, the wells in some villages are full of water. They can’t drink anymore, even if they are far away from the stone factory, the dust can affect their normal life.”

It is right to seek development, but when the current generation has run out of use, what should future generations do?

Hearing Jiang He's words, Huangshan frowned and said, "The mountain is elevated and the meridians are damaged. These are impossible to recover. That's why the mountain god hides underwater and lives by the creatures in the water. We can't save the mountain god, and we can't save the mountain god." It is impossible to destroy the water source in order to resist the mountain god..."

I thought Huang Shirt was really thinking about the problem before he paused, but he didn't expect his eyes to shine brightly in the next second and said: "In this case, let's run away quickly!"

Jiang He shook his head and said, "No, I've already made up my mind to take my parents and leave together."

Huang Shirt covered his mouth and smiled: "Don't worry, your man can afford it."

Jiang He: "You monster—" I didn't know how to continue for a long time.

"Your filial piety is commendable, but it's hard to say that your parents can leave with you, and it's hard for you to understand their so-called nostalgia. Moreover, wherever you take the mountain god stone is a time bomb, it's not for other mountain gods I mistakenly thought that you would pose a threat, and I wanted to suck you dry just like now. Don’t think that the mountain god stone can’t play a role on you. For the harmony of one party’s creatures, you have to go back to Nanxing Village. The new mountain god—"

After Huang Shan had finished speaking, he deliberately stopped and looked at Jiang He, so Jiang He easily discovered the point of his words: "Didn't you say that the mountain gave birth to the mountain god? Why did it become the mountain god stone again?"

"How do you think the mountain god stone was formed? Did it come out of nowhere? It was conceived and grown in the belly of the mountain after tens of thousands of years of evolution and condensed all the aura of the mountain. The mountain gods have their natural years, and the time has come. The mountain god will die and turn back into a stone, and when the time is right, the mountain god stone will be transformed into the next generation of mountain god."

Jiang He still didn't understand: "So, you didn't want to grab the mountain god stone at all, did you? You've always been protecting the mountain god? Now that the mountain god stone is in my body, it's equivalent to..."

Huang Shirt burst into laughter: "Congratulations, you are pregnant with a mountain god."

Jiang He raised his head to look at the ceiling, and suddenly wanted to eat meat. Weasels fried monsters and yellow shirts.

The monster's words were half true and half false, and Jiang He didn't intend to believe them all. He wanted to go back to Nanxing Village so much because he was thinking about the chickens he raised.Before Jiang He left, he returned the chicken to Huang Shirt, and he followed him here again. Spring is coming, and if the chicken didn't die, Xiong Xiong's hibernation should have ended.

"Even if you don't go back to Nanxing Village, no matter where you are going, your parents already know that you like men. The fact is, they won't feel any more comforted by your reasonableness. It's impossible for you to take your parents now Go, it’s not the same if you go alone.”

As a human being, he, a monster, would not be able to understand his troubles. It was impossible for Jiang He not to argue with him, but to see him getting weaker and weaker.

After Jiang Ruolin's vacation expired again, she had to go to work. Only the elder and Jiang He were left at home, and her parents started to get busy.

Strong cheer up, he told his mother about his plan to leave home.

Jiang's mother was expressionless, and only said to him: "Let's go, your heart is not here if you stay at home." It sounded full of resentment.

Even so, Jiang's mother still prepared some things for Jiang He to take with him, including smoked sausage and beef, as well as peanuts and pickled vegetables that he peeled himself, etc. Jiang He's box couldn't fit it all.

"Do you want to bring some rice too?" Jiang's mother wanted to scoop up rice but Jiang He stopped her. Wasn't he going to live in the wild so he was afraid that there would be no rice?

"Sigh." The children will eventually leave their parents one by one when they grow up, and Jiang's mother sits alone on the chair, haggard and sad.

Jiang He felt sorry, called his mother and said, "In two years, you and I will go live in other places."

Jiang's mother smiled sadly and said, "Your father and I are both old, and we can't adapt to other places. Besides, your third sister said that she wanted to be an old girl. We are all gone. Your third sister doesn't even have a family. I didn't get back." Jiang He wanted to say sorry again, but Jiang's mother didn't give him a chance, and continued: "We just want you to live well, and we can't help you with other things. We can do nothing to trouble you. The biggest help. Xiaohe, don’t blame your dad, just say a few words to him before you leave. His ideas can’t be changed for a while, but he still regrets hitting you. Enlighten him, maybe he will be able to accept it in the future.”

It is to enlighten him, but also to enlighten oneself.

Jiang He nodded, and took out his own bank card and handed it to his mother: "Let my dad buy a car, a new truck or a car, the money is not too much, plus your own money will probably be enough."

Of course, Mother Jiang didn't want it, and put the card back: "I don't need to save any more money for you, you are the poorest in our family now, do you still need to pay?"

With tears in Jiang He's eyes, he hugged his mother and acted like a baby: "Mom, I will try my best to treat you better."

Jiang's mother was not used to her son doing this, so she pushed him and said with disgust, "The eldest is still getting into my mother's arms, are you living longer and getting back? Go away, I'm going to cook."