Deep sake

I feel that I have a lot of resentment now, but this resentment has nowhere to go, because this is wishful thinking, this resentment, this thought, is all wishful thinking.I will never admit that it took me two and a half hours to arrive at Xiao Xiujun's house, and begging her grandma to give her a chance to continue studying was to reassure me.

Her home is really far away, and I need to walk over a mountain, so I couldn't find Xiao Xiujun's home, so I asked Li Shenjiu to take me there.

I told him frankly: "The Xiujun you talked about is from my school. She just didn't come today. I thought something happened. I went to meet you." He listened I said it as if I was a little embarrassed: "Ms. Shao was worried. Her mother-in-law Li urged her to say it a few days ago. I am almost old, so I had to agree to meet and see."

"You are very young," I said, touching my temples, and then looked at his hair. His hair is very black and thick, but it is messy and messy, and grows like weeds. "I haven't married yet Woolen cloth."

"How old is Teacher Shao?"

"28."

"Don't Mr. Shao's father and mother urge you to find a companion for Mr. Shao?"

They urged, of course, I told them the truth after I had no reason to prevaricate, told them that I could not live with a woman for the rest of my life, it was a lie, it was a crime, and they said they were the ones who did it.

Naturally, I didn't say these words out of my mouth, but turned around: "Why are you talking about me again? I said Xiao Xiujun, she is very easy to learn, and the most serious one in the class."

He didn't speak, apparently he didn't understand what I was suggesting to him: "If you agree to this kiss, she won't be able to go to school."

"If I don't agree, she still won't be able to go to school. She has an older sister, a younger sister and a younger brother. It's not her turn."

Li Shenjiu's words were too realistic, and then I remembered that the young man in front of me had undergone a transformation long ago. His dream was drowned in the river with his parents a few years ago, so it was inevitable.But I still refuted him with a fairytale-like reason: "At least she still has hope."

As soon as the words came out, Li Shenjiu stopped talking.He asked, "What does Teacher Shao want?"

"Go to Xiao Xiujun's house and talk to her parents."

"it is good."

He didn't say much, just agreed.

When I arrived at Xiao Xiujun's house, I realized that reality is sometimes embarrassing.The first thing I saw was a little doll playing in front of the house. It looked like a girl doll with two braids and a dirty face. Before I could stop, she ran into the house as soon as she saw anyone coming.The house had no threshold, it was a one-story house, the paint on the walls was so peeled off, it was hard to tell when the house was built, and it was not big.The child ran in "dumping" and the yellow dirt dog rushed out again. The dog barked twice and kept circling around the two of us. Teased that dog, I just escaped.

Before I went in, a woman came out. She looked very simple, with a tired face, a doll on her back, and a washboard in her hand. She was taken aback when she saw someone coming, and saw Li Shenjiu, who was behind me, hurriedly greeted with a smile again: "Jiuzi, come to see my Xiujun, she is in the house."

After a while, she realized that I was there, she didn't recognize me, so she could only look at Li Shenjiu, and he pulled me over: "This is Teacher Shao."

"Ah Teacher Shao, why are you here, a distinguished guest in our village, come in quickly, I'll get a glass of water."

The woman went back to the house, together with the washboard in her hand and the doll on her back.Li Shenjiu led me into the house after the woman.

The inside of the house was not painted, and the red bricks were exposed on the surface, giving people the illusion of entering a cave. Then I saw Xiao Xiujun, who was practicing her name on the matt paper I handed out. The handwriting was not good , but very neat.

"Xiujun, your teacher is here, and... and your elder brother Shenjiu!"

She turned her head in surprise, but I couldn't tell whose surprise it was for.

She took a few steps forward: "Are Teacher Shao and Brother Shenjiu here to see me?"

Brother Shenjiu, it sounds really deaf to me, but comparing it with a little doll is too ridiculous.

I put on a smile, and just about to speak, Li Shenjiu took a step ahead of me: "Teacher Shao has something to do, I'm bringing him here."

"What's the matter, Teacher Shao?"

Holding a bowl of steaming water, the woman came over just in time to hear what Li Shenjiu said.

Xiao Xiujun is too young, you can let her continue to study, maybe she will have a chance to become famous in the future, so there is no need to rush to get married.

I was typed up on the way here, and now I can't say a word.Seeing the situation clearly, I can no longer speak casually without any burden, all the objects here are crowded, barren walls and light dust, even the air is so oppressive that I can't breathe , In just a few 10 minutes, I already felt a sense of powerlessness. How can people who have lived here for more than ten or twenty years have illusions about such illusory things as "hope".

I licked my somewhat dry mouth, and then asked, "Is Xiujun planning not to study?"

The woman laughed: "I didn't intend to, so let her go and listen to Mr. Shao's insight from your class leader."

"Oh, so, what about Xiujun, don't you want to come too?"

Before Xiaoxiujun could answer, the woman laughed from the sidelines: "This girl thinks about Brother Shenjiu every day, how can she know how to read? Every time I go home after your class from Mr. Shao, she always talks to me, "Brother Shenjiu If you are educated, I have to make up some', I can't help it with the baby."

The little girl hid aside, half of her face was red and blushing.

My heart sank. I used to have a reason to save the girl with ideals, but now, this glamorous reason is gone. If I say it, it is really to satisfy my unbearable thoughts. People in this room see Come on, just mind your own business.

People are in love with each other, and I thought, what the hell am I doing? I climbed the road for two and a half hours and thought I was here to be a hero. I have always had illusions about such illusory things as "hope".

I still supported my smile, and twitched the corners of my mouth: "Okay, okay, Li Shenjiu is a good kid, very good..."

Continuing to chat, I seemed to be playing the role of Li Shenjiu's parent, chatting with her about the two children, the woman finally said: "That's it, Jiuwazi is really good."

That's it, a journey and battle that began to delude myself and think it was noble, and I raised the white flag before it even started.It's just that I have to spend another two and a half hours going back.

The way back was very quiet. Li Shenjiu led the way in front of me. It was very quiet, and I was also very quiet.

He didn't ask me why I changed my mind, just quiet, and the quietness was abnormal, I could feel it, but I couldn't do anything, I couldn't say anything.

However, Li Shenjiu walked too fast, and I couldn't keep up. When he was about to drop me into the wild mountains and forests, I finally shouted to the people in front: "Li Shenjiu!"

He stopped suddenly, still turned his back to me, turned around again, and walked towards me quickly, almost running away, I thought he was going to throw me down, but finally stopped in front of me.

"Why?"

Li Shenjiu was angry, I recognized the first sentence.He was so angry that he spoke his native dialect directly.

"Ms. Shao regards herself as a member of my family, right?"

"Why do you decide? Who do you think you are!"

"What kind of one-man show are you doing there? Do you think I'm dumb? Do you still think I'm your baby?"

"My father and mother are dead, but I don't need others to pity me! I can't let an outsider decide my marriage for me!"