only love is not enough

If... if... if... no amount of ifs can change the established fact.There are unpredictable things in the sky, and people have misfortunes and blessings, but when things happen to me, I still can't help complaining about the injustice of the sky and the ups and downs of fate.

Li Zinan didn't think of going home until Zhou Zheming called. He didn't know whether he wanted to laugh or cry, but just twitched the corners of his mouth.He was exhausted, this day and night, as long as a century, drained his energy and exhausted his mind.When that tense nerve relaxed, he felt more and more afraid.

Standing outside the ICU ward, Li Zinan looked at the paper-thin cold inside. With an oxygen mask on his face, his nose was bruised and his face was swollen. Various pipelines were connected to his body, and a bunch of instruments were constantly monitoring vital signs.He closed his eyes silently, and called Yan Han over and over again in his heart, hoping to pass on his call to his beloved through his thoughts.

I will go back to Li's house with Li Zinan tomorrow, Yan Han is a little nervous, but more happy and looking forward to it.For this day, they waited for seven years. Although they no longer need others to admit anything, they still hope that the Li family's parents can officially accept them.

They planned to go back for a week, and Yan Han started to arrange work early.It is rare for him to ask for leave as a leader. Everyone knows the purpose of their trip, and they all look forward to celebrating their return.

After closing the office door, Yan Han greeted his colleagues and left work.It was only past three o'clock in the afternoon, and he stood under the warm sun of early winter and took a deep breath.The sky is very blue, with a few wisps of white clouds, and Li Zinan will be home in two more hours. Yan Han went to the supermarket to buy ingredients for dinner, looking forward to spending this memorable night with Li Zinan.

In order to go back to Li's house, Li Zinan also worked overtime. He had already been on a business trip for a week. He was supposed to come back yesterday, but he was delayed until today due to unforeseen circumstances.Before boarding the plane, he called Yan Han, Xiao Biesheng was newly married, and the two of them had already accumulated a whole room full of thoughts.

It's not time to get off work, and there are not many people in the subway station.Yan Han moved the shopping bag to his right shoulder, grabbed the handrail of the elevator with his left hand, and stood up cautiously.

"Robbery...robbery...stop him..." A woman screamed from behind.

Yan Han had no time to react, and the right side of his body was hit hard. The huge impact made half of his body and his right leg hang in the air. He leaned forward, and the shopping bag slid to his bent right elbow and was thrown out. The forward thrust and downward pull knocked Frost off balance in an instant.He grasped the handrail tightly with his left hand, but he couldn't hold his fallen body. He wanted to grab something with his right hand, but he couldn't lift it up.

Everything happened too fast, in the blink of an eye, Yan Han only heard screams, and Li Zinan's smiling face appeared in his mind, until his eyes became dark and he lost consciousness.

When Li Zinan rushed to the hospital, Yan Han was still in the operating room.He lost the ability to think, and just sat there in a daze, looking at the door of the operating room.He told himself that this was a dream, it would be fine if he woke up, and they would go home together when they woke up.

The severe cold was sent directly to the ICU ward.The doctor told Li Zinan that when Yan Han fell from the elevator, he suffered a severe impact on his brain, and the original injured area bleeds again. Although the operation went well, the bleeding was heavy, and the critical period will not pass until tonight.

Li Zinan stood stiffly at the door of the ICU, her eyes never leaving the severe cold of the hospital bed.He wanted to pray for something, even curse something, but his mind was blank, and he became an empty shell like a walking dead.This night, he counted the seconds, every breath felt long, and every blink of an eye, he was afraid of disturbing the unstable factors in the air.The strings in the brain are getting tighter and tighter, and the heart is like a fragile ice surface, with more and more cracks.

It was dawn, the severe cold was over, and Li Zinan also collapsed.He sat on the floor of the bathroom and cried loudly, beating the wall of the pool with his fists, until the doctor talked to him, the back of his hand was already red, swollen and bleeding, and he slowly recovered after the nurse cleaned and disinfected it.

Because of the second intracranial hemorrhage, and the amount of bleeding, the doctor asked Li Zinan to prepare mentally in advance in view of Yan Han's original physical condition. The right limb was completely paralyzed. It is conservatively estimated that Yan Han will no longer be able to walk, and some parts of his life will not be able to take care of himself. , As for other influences, we have to wait for the severe cold to wake up before we can accurately judge.

Li Zinan wasn't worried, for him, as long as the severe cold was still there, he didn't care about the rest.No matter how severe cold becomes, as long as severe cold is by his side, he must be by his side, because only by holding severe cold's hand can he feel that he is alive.

He is no longer the stunned young man who was looking for severe cold in the broken village, but Li Zinan, who is mature today, understands the meaning of severe cold to him.The severe cold had already melted into his life. Without him, life would go on, but it was just to finish the days that should be gone according to one's duty.

"Who is talking? Such a familiar voice! Calling who? Me? Calling me! It's Li Zinan, it's him calling me, calling me..." Yan Han wanted to open his eyes, but his eyelids were so heavy, so heavy!

On the third day, Yan Han woke up briefly, and Li Zinan was extremely excited.The doctor told him that his condition was relatively stable due to severe cold and that he could be transferred to a general ward. However, his right face was paralyzed, his language area was damaged, his left limbs were paralyzed, and his bowel movements were uncontrollable. Yes, but not fully recoverable.

The sky was getting brighter, and the severe cold woke up again.Looking at the ceiling, he knew that the ward had been changed, and his left hand felt being held. He turned his head with difficulty, and saw Li Zinan lying on the side of the bed, asleep.

Although it was still early, he still wanted to wake up Li Zinan and let him not worry.However, Yan Han couldn’t cry out anyway, it wasn’t that there was no sound or the volume was low, it was because he didn’t know how to make a sound, and after trying several times, it still didn’t work. In desperation, he wanted to pull out his left hand, but he wanted to let him go. No matter how hard I tried, my left hand still didn't move.

The long-standing memory came back to life, and the familiar feeling swept over him. Yan Han couldn't believe that he was repeating the nightmare of the past.He wanted to bite his tongue hard, wanting to confirm that it was just a dream, but he could only feel saliva flowing from the corner of his mouth.He couldn't move his whole body, couldn't speak, and he couldn't control his lower body anymore, so he closed his eyes in pain.

Can you still stand up?Can you still walk?Can I still work?Or in this life, I can only be like a useless person, with the bed?Natural disasters have caught up, man-made disasters have caught up, what else is waiting for him?It's not easy to have today, what did he do wrong, God punished him like this? —— Yan Han was thinking desperately, he was afraid that Li Zinan would leave, and he would become lonely again, he thought that this time it would be better to die, and it would be over once and for all.

Tears slowly ooze out, and they are gently kissed away before they slip off.Li Zinan's voice echoed softly in Yan Han's ears: "Don't cry, honey, don't cry! I'm here, always here, by your side, always here!" Yan Han burst into tears, Li Zinan kissed and caressed Looking at his face: "Don't be afraid, baby, don't cry, no matter what happens, no matter when and where, I am always here!"