only love is not enough

Li Zinan began to run to Yanhan every now and then at noon.Because Yan Han told him that the cleaning vehicle must be sent to the garbage disposal station at the end of Zonger Road before 05:30 every afternoon, but even if Li Zinan got off work normally, it would be six o'clock, not to mention that it is normal to leave work later, so there is no way to go to Yan Han at night up.

Regarding her diligent performance and mentality, Li Zinan euphemistically called it "sympathize with the disadvantaged and help friends in difficulties".He sees that Yan Han either eats steamed buns or plain water at noon, or eats white porridge with pickles, so he always brings lunch with him, and of course he order a few more dishes, and coerces and lures Yan Han to eat with him.But what about Yan Han's self-esteem, Li Zinan couldn't afford to ignore it.

"Again, like this, don't, come!" Yan Han frowned and turned to ignore Li Zinan.

"You're here again, don't be so fussy!" Li Zinan said flatteringly.

"Sympathy, I, just, no, I, yes, friend!" Yan Han maintained his little self-esteem, "I, poor, disabled, but, no, pity! No, pity!"

These words made Li Zinan speechless, and even criticized his psychological reasons for beautifying his behavior.Li Zinan went back disheartened, depressed for a few days, then regained her strength, but changed some strategies.

He didn't bring lunch at first, but went there empty-handed after eating, and chatted with Yan Han, and Yan Han no longer resisted, so Li Zinan took the opportunity to ask for Yan Han's mobile phone number—it was a small button phone, just like many years ago. It's the same as the elderly phone given by the pre-charged phone fee.

Later, Li Zinan would bring some fruits and snacks with him, not many, just enough for one person, and eat together while chatting.Severe cold is not good and always refuses, and gradually accepts Li Zinan's behavior, and doesn't care too much about it.

Seeing the severe cold, Li Zinan is a little used to it, so he occasionally eats fruit, occasionally empty-handed, and occasionally lunch, just like meeting friends, casually.

While picking the skin of the dragon fruit, Li Zinan looked at Yan Han who was concentrating on his studies, and asked in puzzlement, "Why do you want to read high school books?"

"No, go to high school." Yan Han thought about it and said, "I think, there must be, high school, level, and culture."

"Then you learned everything by yourself from the first year of high school to the third year of high school?" Li Zinan asked in surprise, "You understand everything?"

"Liberal arts, okay. Science, read books, if you don't understand, do it, practice."

"Is there still practice?"

"Student, graduation, it's useless, give it."

"You are really good! Xueba!"

"Graduated from junior high school, No.1, our town." Yan Han rarely boasted, and smiled shyly.

"Why don't you continue to study in high school when you're so good?" Seeing Yan Han's smile suddenly congealed, Li Zinan understood a little bit, and asked softly, "Because of your body? How could it be like this?"

Yan Han didn't seem to want to say it, but Li Zinan looked at him very seriously, and finally he spoke slowly: "In the summer vacation of the third year of junior high school, I went up the mountain, chased sheep, and fell."

"Hurting sheep? Raised at home?" Li Zinan was really curious. He started working part-time during the holidays of high school, mainly working as a shopping guide in a sportswear store or distributing leaflets. Raw sheep!

Yan Han shook his head: "Help, someone else's house, hurry up."

"How did you fall?" Li Zinan asked carefully.

"Heavy rain, I couldn't see clearly, it was slippery, so I fell." Yan Han said expressionlessly.

"Will it be serious?" After so many years, seeing the severe cold like this now, it must have been much more serious then.

"Brain, hemorrhage. Can't get up, can't, talk, eat, difficult. Money, spent, hospital, can't afford it. Go home and lie down, wait for someone, get dressed, scrub, take shit and urinate." Severe cold The more he talked, the faster he spoke, and he was a little slurred, but Li Zinan had been with him for a long time and was familiar with his voice and intonation, so he could almost hear everything clearly.Yan Han stared at Li Zinan fiercely, Li Zinan was as uncomfortable as a cat scratching his heart, and he dared not show any sympathy or pity on his face. "Study, you can't go to school, and you don't have money to go to school. If you have money, it's a waste. It drags people down, and others hate it. It should be. I hate it! It's rotten and smelly. It's better to die. It doesn't cost money and doesn't grind people. Go. Come on, let's go..."

"Severe cold... Severe cold..." Yan Han's gaze passed through Li Zinan and looked at the past, only his eyes became brighter on his blank face, his left hand tightly grasped his right wrist, Li Zinan pulled it away forcefully, and gently caressed, "Don't say Come on, stop, stop talking..."

Yan Han's eyes slowly returned to Li Zinan's face, and after a while, he exhaled and slowly said sorry.

Li Zinan didn't dare to ask any more questions, but held Yan Han's hand tightly, trying to warm up those cold hands.

Yan Han patted Li Zinan's hand, "It hurts, let go. Doctor in the village, help me, look. I'm working hard and exercising. Now, it's fine!" Yan Han showed his signature soft smile, Li Zinan couldn't bear to look at it, and looked up The sky, "It's getting hotter and hotter, it's at least 37 degrees now!"

Ever since hearing Yan Han's words, Li Zinan always felt uncomfortable and unhappy.

One day, Li Zinan took two bottles of yogurt and was about to leave the car dealership when Zheng Xiaomei from the Care Department came in with a big bag of longan and a watermelon, "Brother Nan, where are you going? Come and eat longan, it's big and sweet!"

"Boyfriend sent love again?" Li Zinan took a longan and peeled it off. It was really juicy and sweet.

"Nothing. I grow it at home, let everyone try it." Seeing that Li Zinan was about to leave, Xiaomei grabbed a handful of longan and stuffed it into his bag.

Li Zinan and Yan Han were eating longan while solving math problems.Li Zinan's grades in high school were not bad, but she only passed a second-tier school in the college entrance examination. She was ignorant in college, and after so many years of not studying, she was not as good as Yan Han, which gave Yan Han a small sense of superiority.

"You're good at it! I can't figure it out, you can figure it out yourself!" Li Zinan stretched her hands behind her hands, stretched her long legs straight, and fiddled with a piece of debris on the ground, "You also Stop looking, take a break!"

When Yan Han closed the book, Li Zinan took out the yogurt and handed it to him.Yan Han shook his head, "No, you drink."

"I can't drink two bottles by myself, so you should drink it!"

"Already eaten, longan."

"Then what's the matter? Can't these two be eaten together? Or are you thinking too much? I just said that the longan is grown in a colleague's house. Let's taste it together. I really didn't buy it on purpose." Li Zinan hurriedly explained , Afraid of the severe cold and thinking too much.

"I know. But, it's..." Li Zinan waited for Yan Han to continue, but Yan Han didn't know what was wrong, her face turned red suddenly, she lowered her head and didn't speak.

"But what?" Li Zinan asked puzzled, "Don't keep silent, let me worry."

"I, drink water." Yan Han said softly.

"Does it matter? It's so hot, you should drink more water, not to mention you are always under the sun." The more Li Zinan heard it, the more she couldn't understand, "Your lips are a little chapped, which means you don't drink enough water. So, Drink the yogurt!"

"No, toilet." Yan Han finished in a low voice, biting his lower lip.

Li Zinan didn't know how to answer, he could now say: I'll take you there.After that, he could only come here at noon, not every day.He thought about all kinds of possibilities in his mind, and asked again: "When do you start working every day?"

"In the morning, 5:[-]. I, slowly, can only push and walk."

"So, you've been on the road all day?" Li Zinan couldn't believe it.The whole day, it's so hot, but it's so cold, but I only drink a little water from a plastic cup, just so I don't have to go to the toilet.

If you heard Yan Han talk about the injury before, it was a pity for the irreversible past, but hearing Yan Han say this now is the naked helplessness of reality.