his plaything

It has been said that it takes the slightest miracle to retrieve something that has been accidentally lost.

Shen Zean has been with Qin negative for a long time, and he naturally learned to smoke.

He leaned on the balcony, took out the lighter, and skillfully lit one for himself.

Thanks to this thing.

Otherwise, I didn't know how to get through the tormenting days before.

He exhaled a puff of smoke, took a few more puffs, and slowly closed his eyes, enjoying the pleasure of the cigarette.

As soon as Qin Ling came in through the gate, he looked up and saw Shen Zean smoking.

As a person who witnessed this person fall from the altar to the same depravity as him, ordinary people will feel sorry.

But Qin negative felt that Shen Ze'an at this time was more like what he wanted in his heart.

No, more insane.

Could this be the real him?

Stubborn, pathetic, crazy.

"Want one?"

Someone noticed his gaze, and a smile appeared involuntarily in his eyes, and the flickering light was faintly visible in the deep pupils.

Qin negative quickly looked away, he didn't say a word, he went back to his room directly,

Shen Ze'an still kept smiling.

It wasn't until the cigarette had finished its mission and the hot ash scalded him that he suddenly came back to his senses.

"drop."

A message came from the phone.

Shen Ze'an clicked on it and saw that it was a room number sent to him by Qin Negative.

"Haha." He couldn't help laughing, and then took out another cigarette.I don't know if it's because of the severe hand shaking, or because his eyes are blurred by tears.

Pressed the lighter, but failed to light a cigarette.

Finally, Shen Zean violently threw the lighter to the ground.He covered his face uncontrollably, slid down against the wall, and whimpered a few times.

This kind of paranoid and twisted love tortured him into a ferocious monster.

Shen Ze'an sometimes thinks.

If he hadn't fallen in love with Qin negative at the beginning, what kind of life would he have lived.

As parents wish?stand by one's dreams?

Unfortunately, it has nothing to do with him now.

When Qin negative came to knock on the door, Shen Ze'an had already cleaned up the mess on his face.

"I called a car for you."

"Brother is so caring." Shen Ze'an hugged him, his voice was a little hoarse, "It must be very unfortunate for someone who can be liked by my brother... After all, no one can love my brother more than me."

605.

Shen Ze'an checked the information on the phone.

He put on an innocent and harmless look, thinking about which smile to use next.But when he was ready to face it, when the people inside opened the door, he almost wanted to escape.

Someone he knew.

It's his high school classmate.

It was his good friend.

Shen Ze'an looked at each other complicatedly, perhaps it was too long since they met each other, and even the opening remarks became awkward.

"Why is it you?"

The other party seemed to have known it would be him, and skillfully pulled him into the room to make out.

"Why...it's you, Tang Jing!" When Shen Ze'an pronounced the name, it seemed that all his strength had been exhausted.

Tang Jing paused for a moment, then bowed her head and kissed him, depriving him of the right to speak next.

Shen Ze'an never thought that his reunion with Tang Jing would be resolved in the hotel bed.

Once upon a time, Tang Jing was also the dream of all high school girls.

Shen Ze'an doesn't like him, but he will still be shaken by Tang Jing's self-confidence and sunshine.

Their relationship is very good, their grades are comparable, and they are also a class and a study group.

What happened in the college entrance examination later, when he saw Tang Jing's unbelievable eyes, he knew that their friendship was coming to an end.

Silent encounters are deadliest.

They were entangled fiercely, and neither of them would speak first.

"What happened back then was because I was too cowardly."

After it was over, Tang Jing came out of the shower and sat next to Shen Ze'an.

"It's normal." Shen Ze'an lay on the bed, showing his smooth and delicate back, with a face full of disapproval, "I was only so old at that time, and when I heard such things, it was too late to hide, let alone face it."

"Why do you..." Tang Jing hesitated to speak, and after thinking for a long time, decided to put it another way: "I didn't expect it was really you."

Shen Ze'an smiled softly, "Are you looking forward to it?"

"It's more of a surprise." Tang Jing's face turned red all of a sudden, "I thought it was a lie, or I was dreaming, hallucinating or something."

"Huh? Did you still dream about me?"

"Occasionally." Tang Jing nodded honestly, "Actually, I should have liked you a long time ago. But I dare not admit it. Until that incident, I didn't mean to alienate you on purpose, I was too angry... Then I went abroad to study, and I heard that you repeated it for a year, after I returned to China, I lost your news, I asked many people, and they didn't contact you. "

"Then how did you find me now?" Shen Ze'an's meaningful gaze stayed somewhere.

"I got contacted by a guy who said you're doing...doing this...industry."

"Really? How much?"

"Five thousand."

It seems that he is not too cheap.

Shen Ze'an thought that because of Yi Qin's negative temperament, it was fine to deliberately torment him without giving him money.

"Mr. Tang, if you are satisfied with my service this time, don't forget to help me promote it. Business is not doing well now, and it is difficult to find a customer. At worst, next time you come, I will give you a discount for the sake of old acquaintances." .”

"An'an, with your brains and aptitude, why did you choose this path?" Tang Jing frowned, maybe it's really been a long time since we haven't seen each other for a long time, and time can always make people look less human.The current Shen Ze'an is really far from the Shen Ze'an he knew before.

"I like."

"what?"

"I'm just a slut, eager to be fucked." Shen Ze'an's eyes were still fixed on something, "Right...Brother."

Tang Jing didn't like Shen Ze'an like this.

He is like a bird that has lost its vitality and its wings.

Can't embrace the blue sky.

He should have belonged there.

"Do you have someone you like?"

"Yes, I have."

Shen Ze'an answered very simply and frankly, Tang Jing took out a cigarette and smoked it on his own.

"Together?"

"Should not count?"

"Then you do this...does he know?"

Does he know?

He must know.

This time, Shen Ze'an didn't answer him, and Tang Jing probably guessed from his face.

"An'an, you have to learn to love yourself."

Shen Ze'an took the cigarette in his hand and took a puff.

Looking at the lingering white mist.

He said: "Sometimes, I feel like I'm a mermaid. Losing my voice for him, dancing on the tip of a knife, and finally listening to his sweet words melt into foam."