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They finished moving their things and were walking towards the back door, when they suddenly quieted down, there was only the sound of slapping balls and yelling from the other side of the basketball court, thinking it was almost a side glance, and caught Yu Jinle secretly sipping mouth moment.

His latest measured height is 185, a little taller than Yu Jinle, and the angle formed by this height difference is very subtle.

Thinking about pressing his eyelids almost calmly, he would be able to meet his thick eyelashes. When he pursed his lips, a shallow dimple was formed on his left cheek—it was not a dimple in the true sense, but just a dimple on his face. It is a shallow concave dimple formed by the pulling of the internal muscle groups, but it looks very cute.

His quiet appearance has a sense of the quietness of the years. As I thought about it, I suddenly realized that I really like him following behind me quietly. The feeling of liking is like a sudden pump in my heart. The warm current, warm and moist, ran with the blood all over the body, making the whole body comfortable and very satisfying.

"Lele~" As soon as he was thinking about speaking, he had a conditioned reflex and wanted to stretch out his hand to pull Yu Jinle, but for some reason, he felt an inexplicable embarrassment. There are no two boys walking hand in hand" as an excuse to quickly convince myself, the direction of the hand also turned a corner, and grabbed his schoolbag belt, "You say, we will always be like this from now on, it's fine no?"

Accustomed to his convulsions from time to time, Yu Jinle is already resistant to his whim-like words. Anyway, he has no hope for this secret love, so he asked absent-mindedly, "What will happen in the future?"

He must have a heart like a rock in order to be undisturbed.

"Even if you have different classes in the third grade of high school, you have to go together every day. Even if you are in different schools for the college entrance examination, you have to be in the same city. Of course, it is best to be in the same university town. Different schools can also be said to meet each other. Work after graduation. , at least in the past few years, I can fight for the same city, and when I stabilize, there will naturally be ways for you to come to me..." Thinking about it, it seems that the future can be settled so easily.

Yu Jinle asked again: "What about the future?"

Later?

Thinking about it seriously, the road of life is nothing more than studying, graduating, getting a job, and getting married... So he started to run the train without drafting: "In the future, even if we are married, we will buy two houses. , door to door, how convenient it will be for the two families to communicate! Usually I look at you and you look at me, and the two families travel together during holidays, and our children can be like us..."

Yu Jinle's expression couldn't be discerned, and his thoughts were tossing and turning, but his figure remained as motionless as a bell: "Yes."

You know that this dog can't spit out ivory. If there is such a day, do you think I will appear in front of your eyes?

Thinking about it, he took it for granted, and laughed like a foolish son of a landlord's family. Even what the two children would enroll in extracurricular special classes began to be included in their life plans.

Yu Jinle: "..."

So, why would you fall in love with such a fool?

The silly joy of thinking didn't last long. At this moment, he didn't know what kind of turning point his life would face after today.

Although Shen Yunjia denied that there was any problem with her body, when he really realized that things were not that simple, he saw her lying on the sink and retching twice in a short period of less than three hours It was shocking.

Once when he just arrived home, the orange fire on the stove was still jumping and licking the bottom of the darkened casserole pot. The cauliflower was simmering in the soup, but no one was watching, so he turned down the fire. After that, I wandered along the house all the way to find it, and found Shen Yunjia lying on the washstand in the bathroom.

His father told him not to go home for dinner, and to keep his big boy under the age of [-] at home. On weekdays, he doesn't touch the spring water, and doesn't worry about anything except his studies. When this happens, he just treats her as nothing. Stomach discomfort, helped her out, sat down and rested outside, ran in and out, poured warm water, and went to the drawer to find out the stomach medicine. Shen Yunjia watched him hesitate to speak, but never said anything.

She finally drank warm water and did not take the medicine.

The second time was that after he finished writing the physics chapter test paper, he planned to take advantage of the Saturday night to relax, and planned to go to the study to surf the Internet and find some movies to pass the time.

As soon as he left the room, he heard Shen Yunjia vomit earth-shatteringly in the bathroom.

While thinking about standing at the door of the room a few steps away, my heart sank.

He doesn't like chasing dramas, but it doesn't mean he doesn't know the plots of those Chen Qiao bad movies.

He just discussed the gossip about the new members of Wang Jingjing's family with someone in the afternoon.

The answer was almost ready to come out, and various questions seemed to pop up from the bottom of his heart. He wanted to step forward to ask the question, but the question was already stuck in his throat and was about to come out——

But he remained silent all the time.

This time, it was him who hesitated to speak.

Before Shen Yunjia found out, he silently retreated into the study.

Tired for more than half a month, I finally managed to get through to the successful conclusion of the school sports meeting, and it was a weekend, and it was still far away from the end of the term. It was supposed to be a relaxing Saturday night, but it was cast in a haze.

He is much calmer than he imagined, and his brain commands cooperate with his body movements, and every move is the same: close the door, turn on the light, turn on the power, sit down, turn on the phone, connect to the Internet, activate the QQ icon on the desktop...

The class group flickered, and more than half of the people's heads on the list were lit up, and the news in it was scrolling quickly, thinking that he seemed to have read every sentence, but he didn't seem to see clearly, his mind was empty.

A kind of coolness with the sword of Damocles hanging on the head and the knife hanging behind the neck.

It's like he's waiting for a trial.

In fact, this kind of mentality is ridiculous. In my own home, what is the trial or not?No matter how bad it was, his father couldn't possibly do anything to him, but at that time he was half awake and half confused, as if he had gotten into a dead end, bumping around, unable to get around that corner.

He saw Yu Jinle's head light up.

In an instant, he seemed to have grasped the life-saving straw. He clicked on the "Bubble Fish" dialog box, his eyes were fixed on the cursor flickering, and his fingers were hovering vaguely on the keyboard——

Ten minutes passed, and the dialog box of the class group just hung on the desktop like that, and his face flickered with the news that was uploaded rapidly, and the dialog box of "Bubble Fish" was still blank.

Still haven't typed a single word.

Once the seeds of doubt fall to the ground, it is only natural that they take root.

While thinking about it, it seems calm, but in fact, the boiling in my heart has already rolled into the sky.His mind couldn't settle down, he didn't have much energy to do anything, he hastily turned off the phone and prepared to go back to his room to sleep, but his father came back as soon as he left the study.

At that time, Bian Zhenhua was so busy that he didn't even touch the ground, thinking that he almost didn't see his father a few times in December. When he saw his father came back, he forced a smile and called "Dad" He didn't even dare to meet his father's eyes, so he flew back to his room, with the intention of escaping.

It's obviously not his problem, but he is guilty of being a child who has done bad things and dare not admit to his parents.

However, some things cannot be avoided.

He was lying on the bed with his arms under his head, and his legs were firmly supported on the bed—this lying position was a bit interesting, seemingly relaxed, but actually vigilant, and he could jump up at the slightest movement.

As soon as the curtains were drawn, the room automatically formed a closed space. He closed his eyes, and besides the "rustling" sound of the wind blowing leaves outside the window, he could also hear his father and Shen Yunjia walking around outside the door.

They seemed to be talking about something else, but through the door panel, he couldn't hear a few words even with his ears upright, but soon he heard the sound of the door closing.

The public dormitory complex where the Bian family is located has a certain number of years. The most common plywood door panels were used for uniform decoration back then. The sound insulation and quality can only be maintained at an acceptable level. I have lived in it for a few years. , Small problems caused by aging are also normal.

The door hinge of the master bedroom of the Bian family has this small problem - in the dry season of autumn, it often makes a harsh "click" sound when it is opened and closed, and Shen Yunjia is nagging almost every day I wanted to find the master to deal with it, but every time I turned around, I forgot all about it.

The sound of closing the door that I wanted to hear didn't have a "click", so they went to the study.

That was the place where Bian Zhenhua dealt with business seriously, he closed his eyes while thinking——

Up until now, there has been some unexplainable cold precipitation in his heart.

He recalled many old memories about his dad.

Compared with his biological mother with a similar color scheme, Bian Zhenhua played the role of backbone and pillar in his growth. This person is resolute, brave, strong yet gentle, supporting the sky of his entire childhood and youth. .

Affected by the army's habits, Bian Zhenhua's education method for him is quite vigorous.

He has been full of energy since he was a child, and he led a group of friends in the compound to act like a king of the mountain. Every day, he can come up with new tricks and tricks to toss repeatedly.At that age, it is simply whimsical to sit in class for four or ten minutes with this kind of temperament. Often, the first 10 minutes is prudish, the middle 10 minutes starts to wander, and the next 10 minutes starts to fumble around, making fun Mess with the same table and the front and back desks. If you don’t listen to the class, you have to provoke your classmates to fight with him, and you won’t change it after repeated admonition. 10 minutes, when he is tired from playing and calms down, there are only 15 minutes left for him to rest and wait for the end of class.

When the second grader was promoted to the third grader, it was the turning point of Chinese composition from "looking at pictures and writing words" to topical composition. This is the time to test everyone's basic skills, and he can't sit with a long buttock like him. The unlucky kid who lived all day thinking about going out, naturally became the bottom group, and wrote all the nonsense in the composition text. During that time, the composition class every two weeks was simply a nightmare for him.Later, the teacher couldn't stand it any longer, so he sued Lao Bian, that's great!The old man has been busy all year round, the discipline is not in place, and he has a little bit of confidence in the family's child, but he didn't expect to be able to become that kind of virtue. He took the composition text of his own son brought by the head teacher, and saw it at a glance. Seeing the nonsensical "clouds are falling, go home and open the window and see it's raining" staring at the nonsense above, my face turned black and the bottom of the pot.

After that, his father and the teacher teamed up to catch him to death. He had to be beaten when he made trouble in class during the day and returned home at night. give up.

The heart of a child, when he was punished, he hated and was afraid of his father, and felt that he was so pitiful. The parents of other people's families have never seen such cruelty to their children, but compared to before, his father was so busy. When he disappeared, he subconsciously liked this kind of treatment, because this was the feeling of being valued by his father.

Moreover, Bian Zhenhua punished him not just for the sake of punishment. Every time he got up after handing in his homework, Bian Zhenhua would wipe his face, take a bath and reasoned with him. too much.

Although he is skinny, he is not stupid. Even if he is too hypocritical to admit that it is the kind of "fatherly love" mentioned in Fan Wenli, he has to admit that the treatment given to him by Bian Zhenhua is a father who accompany his son in training .

During that time, he was "forced" to read a lot of composition anthologies, and he read a lot of newspapers and magazines subscribed at home. He read a lot of descriptions about "fathers", and found that the "fathers" in them were all calm. , Serious, and reliable pronouns, and he was particularly surprised to find that all the "fathers" constructed in these passages seemed to be based on his father.

His dad seemed to be all the great, brave, dependable, tough dads in the world rolled into one.

His admiration for his father did not happen in one step, it involved too many complicated and long mental journeys.

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Note: I have forgotten many details. In 2000, QQ was still called OICQ. I have forgotten whether there was a group chat function at that time. . .If it wasn't there at that time, let's just assume that the plot needs to be brought forward (Ban Shou)

These chapters are the most important turning point, it’s time for Xiao Bian to grow up