all things

When he woke up, Yu Jinle heard the sound of dripping rain outside the window. He shrank his neck and tightened the quilted pajamas on his body.

It was past eleven o'clock when he finished his homework half-understood, and he immediately put on the master paper and pencil, but his spirit had already been worn down by a bunch of incomprehensible science questions, and his consciousness was chaotic. His mind was as sticky and heavy as over-soaked noodles. The theme and corresponding requirements that Chen Miaomiao had just told him were all stuck in that lump, and he couldn't even figure out the slightest clue.

He stared at the white paper in front of him and sat for at least 10 minutes before rubbing his eyes and decided to wash his face to wake up. As soon as the cold water came out of the tap, he couldn't help shaking twice. In winter, the weather can still keep a little warmth during the day when the weather is fine. In contrast, it is especially humid and cold after sunset.

Yu's father and the two young ones went back to sleep early, the wall lights in the living room were dim, and Yu's mother was still watching a family ethics drama full of marriage and marriage with relish, and she heard walking around barefoot. Without even looking back, he said, "Go and put on your slippers. The weather forecast says that the temperature will drop tonight. Don't just think you're young and strong. I'll see how you do your final exams when you catch a cold!"

Her care for the children at home, food and sleep, everything seems to be linked to studying for exams.

Yu Jinle replied disapprovingly, but didn't take it to heart.Since the beginning of winter, the weather forecast has made a big battle every time the temperature drops and the low temperature warning, but how long has it been since the winter solstice?The temperature during the day is still around [-] degrees, and the city has failed to enter the winter several times. They, a group of young people who are full of blood, have never thought that the weather forecast is a thing, and they are all fooling the fools in the city. !Only Mama Yu and the rest of the housewives would be nervous because they were so busy.

But I didn't want it to really rain in the middle of the night.

Once it rains, this small town can't help but not enter the winter.

Compared with the gentleness and softness of the water towns in the south of the Yangtze River, the water in Tucheng is a little less soft and graceful, and a little more sharp and resolute, which is the difference between the rushing sea and the small river.The water here strongly and domineeringly controls the four distinct seasons of a small town: a winter rain in winter is a little cool; a summer solstice a shower is once hot.

Just like a seal, this symbolizes that the unsealed rain will not stop for a day, and the four seasons will not be able to rotate for a while.

It was freezing cold, Yu Jinle was wrapped in a thick cotton robe, and he closed the doors and windows tightly. In order to concentrate, he turned off the headlights, leaving only an eye-protecting desk lamp on the countertop to prop up the square inch in front of the table.The excessive consumption of brainpower in the early days inevitably made him sleepy. He yawned, his knees retracted to the edge of the chair, his jaw clicked, and his eyelids closed with a click.

The consciousness drifted away, and then fell into a dream.

In the dream, he was standing at the door of the classroom and found his name from the seating chart.

That was Yu Jinle, a freshman in high school.

I didn't think about it in my dream.

——No, it's not that they didn't think about it, but that they didn't have the acquaintance that stemmed from the back door collision.

The days seem to be the same, but they are different.

While thinking about the squad leader Bian who is still the focus of the crowd, the young man in fresh clothes is flamboyant.

Wang Zhichao, Zhang Hongkuan, Li Qin... Familiar faces surround him. They are everywhere on the football field, basketball field, and track and field. Gently poke the thread into the bubbles of the carbonated drink, and the crystal clear youth is shattered all over the place.

No matter how beautiful words are, they are not enough to describe the beauty of youth.

On the campus in September, osmanthus orchids were fragrant, and Weng Lin walked towards him with a little bit of sweetness.

She was wearing a school uniform shirt that was one size bigger, and the hem barely covered her legs. The knee-length pleated skirt was deliberately cut and shortened to a large extent. Only the wavy creases were exposed at the bottom of the hem. Thinking step by step, a burst of fresh fruity flavor intertwined with vitality and greenness jumped out.

The teenagers on the court lined up in a row pushing each other, and after one, two, three, they raised their voices in unison and called out "Sister-in-law".

The shyness of the girl and the pride of the boy suddenly turned into sparkling water full of sweetness amidst the laughter resounding through the sky, it was so greasy that the roots of the teeth went soft.

The millennium, the sports meeting, the cultural festival, the top ten on campus, the basketball game... She accompanied her as she thought about it, walking through every indelible memory belonging to her high school life.

Yu Jinle seemed to be a wandering soul that had been separated from his body, watching the familiar smiling faces with cold eyes.

Then he saw himself.

He who didn't bump into Bian Xiang saved himself from suffering, and also lost the opportunity to have an intersection with Bian Xiang.

Going to and from school on time every day, with the lowest grades, negative activities, mediocre consumption and inconspicuousness, I only glanced at them from the corner of my eyes when I passed by them.

He changed to a new schoolbag, the style is actually not bad, but there is an inconspicuous LOGO printed on the corner, Zhang Hongkuan saw him, and pulled him exaggeratedly, and said "Oh world famous brand", and there was a burst of laughter around , probably because their own embarrassment brought them a little bit of self-satisfied amusement, and the laughter spread one after another.

While thinking about leaning over from the front of the chair leg he was leaning on, he glanced at him slightly from the side, laughed a few times with everyone, and then cut off the topic at the right time before the frolic.

He also saw Lu Jing and Cheng Shuo.

Outside the laboratory, the young man's brows were so bright that his dazzling red earrings Yousun three points; Cheng Shuo got up to meet him, his expression was so focused and his gaze was so strong that others had to back away three points.

They walked hand in hand, as if no one else was there.

Without thinking about this "medium", they no longer interacted with him.

Yu Jinle clutched his chest in a daze, his fingers turned white and he couldn't feel any fluctuations there.

The desolate and empty dead silence is the vastness where the pulse has been cut off and the colors have faded like a tide.

Yes, in fact, he understands that the shallow bond between him and Yu Zhong all comes from thinking.

Without thinking about it, he is an outsider walking alone. Inferiority and cowardice make him stop, like a trapped animal. That circle is like a magnetic field with the same polarity as him, pushing and repelling each other.

But he still longed for it after all, because there was a figure that he desperately wanted to chase.

He tried his best, but he just couldn't penetrate the membrane that separated the two.

They seem to be in different spaces in the same place: he just went upstairs with a book in his arms, and while thinking about it, he led Weng Lin down the small stairs from the other side; He just left through the back door; he rushed to the stadium, thinking that he had already driven the big black shark out of the school gate...

They kept passing by each other and staggered each other by accident. Yu Jinle ran all over the city and even the city, but he still couldn't catch up with the step he wanted.

Time came to the end of the last semester of the second year of high school, and the thoughts disappeared.

It disappeared abruptly and completely.

In the whole world, it seems that he is the only one who still remembers such a boy named Bian Xiang...

His front desk was suddenly vacant, but Weng Lin, Zhang Hongkuan, Wang Zhichao, Li Qin, and even anyone in the school didn't seem to notice it, as if no one had been there before.

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Yu Jinle opened his eyes dripping with cold sweat at the knock on the door.

It was raining outside the window, and it was ticking on the awning, making a loud noise.

Outside the door, Yu's mother lowered her voice to remind him that it was time to rest. He hurriedly responded, but his consciousness had not yet fully returned, and he still couldn't remember what he was doing for a while.

On the table in front of him was a pencil draft with messy lines.

"What's going on tonight, it's past one o'clock and you haven't finished your homework yet?" Yu's mother didn't see him turn off the lights, but she was still unyielding, "Could it be that I was distracted early in the morning and was doing some idle work!"

She has a very delicate control over the house. Every night, she has to walk around the house carefully, looking at the water, electricity, doors and windows to be at ease. Occasionally, she is really sleepy and goes to bed early. I will definitely catch some insignificant details and talk about it to Jin Le, the Wannian sleeper. She feels that without her, this family will collapse in the next second.

So she always sleeps the last one every day.

Normally, Yu Jinle would be ready to take a rest after finishing his answering, but tonight he just stared at the pencil draft in a daze.

He hugged his knees, his heart was beating so hard that he still had lingering fears, and he didn't dare to close his eyes, for fear that once they were closed, he would return to the world without thinking.

Fucking respect, fucking retreat!

He regrets it!Now he just wants to think about being in front of him, going to and from school, eating and sleeping, day after day, and beginning again and again.He didn't want to be the hand that let him go, and he didn't want to understand his pursuit and desire at all!

He didn't want to say beautiful words anymore, he was worried when he was worried, and fear was just fear, he was afraid that he would not know the severity, and that he would never return.

Yu Jinle is timid and cowardly by nature, and his little bird-sized courage is not enough to support him to finish watching "Jurassic Park" alone.He didn't have the courage to take the initiative to fight for anything because he was afraid of failure and blows. He was only good at finding a cover for himself in advance before the impact came, and then showed his maturity and politeness with a seemingly free and easy attitude. .

He hated himself for being powerless, but the cowardice in his bones repeatedly made him choose to escape.

God knows how anxious he was when he said those words!

The window was not closed, and the low temperature outside the house was invaded by the humidity, and it was biting into the bones through the cracks. He shivered, and felt his uselessness clearly.

"It's too cold." He thought, "How can I live a winter without thinking about it..."

The winter spanning from 2000 to 2001 seemed to be particularly long. As the time went by, it seemed that there were many things to do.

In the corner of the parking lot, the nest that I was trying to build for Xiaobai suffered from rain and wind, but it was still a bit thin after all. As soon as Yu Jinle approached with a disposable plastic lunch box, broken cotton wool flew out and stuck to his trousers.

That silly cat, even if he rejected him without hesitation, would stalk Xiaobai step by step, and disappeared without a trace.

He stood there for quite a while, searching carefully under the chassis of each car, fearing that it would hide under the family's engine to keep warm if it was afraid of the cold. He even meowed a few times, but he never saw the car. An awesome master.

He searched back and forth, left and right, but found nothing.

Maybe he went somewhere, he thought optimistically.

When he went upstairs, he inadvertently mentioned that Yu's mother was collecting the clothes, and when she heard the words, she turned around and splashed cold water on him: "It's cold, so you shouldn't be taken away?"

Going around, definitely not going home to raise——

Yu Jinle stood in confusion for a while, remembering the news that wild cats and dogs would often go missing when the weather was cold, and they would end up at roadside game stalls.

A heavy air pressure suddenly collapsed, making people breathless.