Doomed

The train has been traveling for three hours.Pang Hui put the thermos cup in his hand in front of Shen Yang and let him take a sip.Shen Hang's face was facing out of the window, looking at the oppressive blackness outside.

Shen Lang and Pang Hui are bunk beds, and two women are sitting opposite them.One looked very masculine, like a handsome guy, and the other had long hair and looked about ten years old.

Two men and two women were lying in a box, which made Pang Hui a little embarrassed, but Shen Yang didn't respond at all.

Pang Hui looked at the sky outside.The sky was already pitch black, it was already ten o'clock, and neither the stars nor other things could be seen outside, only Shen Yang reflected in the window.

Pang Hui said, "I drew the curtains, is that okay?"

The two girls who were playing games together looked up at him, and the long-haired girl said, "It's okay, just pull it up."

Pang Hui asked Shen Rang again, and seeing that Shen Rang didn't respond, he closed the curtains.As soon as the curtain was drawn, Shen Hang turned around with a frown and leaned against the wall without saying anything.Pang Hui said, "You sleep on the upper bunk."

Shen Yang looked at Pang Hui, sat up slowly, and went to salute.Pang Hui went out to wash a hot towel, and handed it to Shen Xiang who was taking out the milk. Seeing that he didn't answer, he rubbed his face.

The long-haired girl on the opposite side let out a "puchi" laugh.

Shen Hang gave the girl a cold look, causing the girl to immediately cover her mouth.The short-haired girl said, "I'm sorry, I didn't mean it." She looked masculine, but her voice was not very masculine, just a little cold.

Pang Hui quickly said: "This is my younger brother, he is used to being taken care of."

The two girls looked at them with an inexplicable look, but didn't answer anything.After Pang Hui washed Shen Hang's face, he looked at the long queue outside the small toilet, and didn't even think about brushing his teeth.He and Shen Rang each chewed two gums and lay down.After Shen Lang climbed into bed, he felt a little stuffy, and the low ceiling made him feel a little impenetrable.He lay with his eyes closed for a short while before opening them.

When Pang Hui heard him crawling off the bed and standing on the head of his bed, he touched his forehead unconsciously, but didn't find any heat, so he asked, "What's wrong?"

Shen Yang said, "Bored."

Pang Hui immediately discovered the problem.He frowned, looked at the two girls across from him, got up and said a little embarrassedly: "Girl, can you change the bed with my brother?"

The short-haired girl was sleeping on the lower bunk opposite, and she was about to say no, when Pang Hui said, "My younger brother is a bit claustrophobic, and it won't work in a small environment. We are both men, and you are safe down there. "Pang Hui now tells a set of lies that are beneficial to Shen Yang, without any psychological burden.

The girl on the upper berth poked her head out, and said for the short-haired girl on the lower berth, "Okay."

Shen Rang then switched to the opposite side of Pang Hui.Seeing Shen Yang in the visible range next to him, he also felt a little relieved.Much easier than being able to see a girl as soon as you open your eyes.He closed the door of this small room, then tucked the corner of the quilt for Shen Lang, and then lay down in his own bed.

Shen Yang tossed and turned several times, and he heard the girl with short hair on Pang Hui's upper bunk also tossed and turned several times.None of the four people in the carriage fell asleep.Shen Yang doesn't travel often.He doesn't know when to start, leaving any place he is used to has become a risk and torture for him.He remembered that when he went home last time, he seemed to be the only one in the sea of ​​people at the station.

The means of transport he carried was like a ladder that took him to a country from which he could never return.He felt the darkness suppressed from all sides with extremely strong fear.This time is the same.But the uneasiness did not spread with the coming of darkness, perhaps because of Pang Hui's presence.

Shen Yang glanced at Pang Hui through the light from the crack of the door.Pang Hui remained motionless, falling asleep like a soldier.Shen Yang remembered that he cleaned and changed his body, fed him urine, and also remembered that he bravely and embarrassingly led him to escape chasing and killing again and again, and even more remembered that he said "I love you" in the dark.

Shen Yang moved a little uncomfortable.He didn't feel depressed anymore.Pang Hui was right next to him, separated by a small table.But he couldn't see Pang Hui's face, only Pang Hui's body.Shen Yang knew that the distance between the two of them was much closer than when they were sleeping at home, but Shen Yang just felt far away.He tossed and turned in bed for hours, eventually closing his eyes.The month in the hospital seemed to have given him the habit of being able to go long without sleep.Shen Yang knew that this was not good for his health, but he could no longer fall asleep under sleepiness.

Pang Hui stopped moving after rolling a few times, and Shen Yang closed Wu Busheng's case from the beginning with his eyes closed.From the discovery of drug negotiations at the beginning, to the catching of Wu Busheng, to his entry into prison.In this series of developments, Shen Yang has the upper hand.But when Wu Busheng entered the prison, things took a sudden turn for the worse.Even if Shen Yang came out of prison, he still suffered a strong blow.And when he was about to see the light, Wu Busheng committed so many crimes in a row this year, which made the constrained Shen Yang unable to fight back.Without Pang Hui, he might have left this world.

Shen Yang was never afraid of death, but he didn't want to die before Wu Busheng.He used to think that maybe Wu Busheng was his goal in this life, and if Wu Busheng was killed, he would be liberated.But now he wasn't so sure.For the past nine years, he has relied on Pang Hui to survive. He cannot do without Pang Hui, so what about Pang Hui?

Shen Yang had never considered this issue before. He always believed that Pang Hui had his own life, and he didn't want to interfere too much.But now he suddenly thought that Pang Hui had been by his side almost all the time in the past ten years, and his body was already full of Shen Yang's "smell". How could he be considered an independent person?

Shen Yang wasn't sure if Pang Hui thought so. In the past, he didn't even want to and didn't dare to speculate, but since Pang Hui said his mind, things have embarked on an irreversible track.Shen Yang didn't know whether it was good or bad.His life deviates from his established plan, and he sees a world different from the past. Perhaps it is a good choice to step out...

Shen Yang was thinking in a half-dream and half-awake state, and his thinking was not controlled by reason, and continued to develop.It was the first time for him to think about Pang Hui so deeply and for a long time, thinking about the future between him and Pang Hui, but he had no experience and no ideas.

When Shen Yang woke up the next day, Pang Hui was already up.Pang Hui stood outside with an unlit cigarette in his mouth.When Shen Yang got up, Pang Hui immediately looked at him. He walked towards Shen Yang, pointed to the toiletries on the small table, and said nothing.The two girls were still sleeping, and Shen Lang didn't make too much noise. After he went to wash up, he came back and stood side by side with Pang Hui by the window.It's still early.Shen Yang has developed almost the same sleeping habits as Pang Hui. He goes to bed very late, but wakes up at around six o'clock in the morning, half an hour after Pang Hui wakes up.It was still dark, but the scenery outside could already be seen.Shen Hang stood by the window in a daze for a while, Pang Hui took out a coat of his own from the luggage, and put it on Shen Hang.Shen Hang was wearing Pang Hui's big coat, which made the whole coat look a bit empty.He took the breakfast from Pang Hui's hand, ate a little casually, and then heard the two girls get up.

The train was about to arrive in two and a half hours, and the people who got up one after another made more and more noises, and there was also a long queue in the bathroom.

When Shen Yang returned to the small room, the two girls were helping each other take out the toiletries.Pang Hui waved to Shen Yang, and Shen Yang sat on Pang Hui's bed.On Pang Hui's bed, he felt more at ease.He leaned against the wall, looking at the scenery outside, and his movements were exactly the same as last night.

The two girls sat across from each other, ate some bread and milk, and looked at Pang Hui and Shen Lang secretly.After getting rid of the drowsiness from getting up, the girl with long hair said to Pang Hui, "Are you traveling or are you going home?"

Pang Hui was stunned for a moment, then smiled politely and said, "Accompanies my brother to visit relatives."

Hearing this sentence, the two girls looked at each other.Pang Hui said, "Accompany my brother back to visit relatives", which shows that they are not a family related by blood.

The long-haired girl smiled immediately: "I still wonder why the whole family doesn't look alike."

Pang Hui realized that he had made a loophole, so he had to laugh dryly twice.

"We came out to relax," the long-haired girl tilted her head and said casually, "running away secretly."

Pang Hui froze for a moment, didn't he run away from home?He took a closer look at the two girls, both of whom were only ten years old, probably still in school.For a moment, he was a little uncertain whether to continue to follow her words, or to persuade them to report to the family that they were safe.

"Your family..." Pang Hui said slowly.

"Our family didn't agree with our relationship, so we ran out." The long-haired girl smiled and said nonchalantly, "I really envy you, you are old enough to do whatever you want."

Pang Hui was stunned for a moment, feeling his heart beating.He glanced at Shen Yang subconsciously, and Shen Yang's face froze slightly, a little unnaturally.

Pang Hui was embarrassed for a while, and said: "You are still young, don't worry about your parents, you have to go home."

The short-haired girl spoke at this time: "We have grown up and can take legal responsibility."

Pang Hui shook his head secretly.He has seen many children in the rebellious period. Women actually have a longer rebellious period than men. If they become rebellious, no one can say anything.

"Everyone has to go through such a period, don't you think so?" The short-haired girl smiled, "Society's tolerance for us is too low, and you have to think carefully before embarking on this path. Brother, you are at this age. You must have been frivolous before."

Pang Hui wanted to say no, but when he remembered that he hadn't been home yet, he felt a little nervous and couldn't say anything.Shen Yang has almost cut off contact with his family, but Pang Hui still calls back several times a year.Everyone in the family understands that he is a special soldier, knows that he is busy and can't help himself, and understands his stripping, but they don't know that Pang Hui is in love with a man, and there will be no offspring for the rest of his life.

Thinking of this, Pang Hui suddenly admired the two girls, but he also knew that this kind of relationship might not last long under too much social pressure.

The long-haired girl introduced herself as Meng Jiang, Meng Jiang from Meng Jiangnv, and the short-haired girl was named Xuan Wenwen, both of whom were from the north.They have traveled thousands of kilometers, and every time they go to a place, they sell the souvenirs bought in the previous place to make a difference.After earning enough difference, they start playing.This free way made both Shen Yang and Pang Hui a little stunned.To be honest, neither Shen Rang nor Pang Hui had a reason to stay in that city, but Shen Rang didn't like traveling, and Pang Hui was afraid that he would be unsafe in crowded places.

"When are you going to go home?" Pang Hui couldn't help asking.

"Wait until they accept us," Meng Jiang said. "It always takes time for them to accept us. We love them very much. This is the best way."

Xuan Wenwen said: "It will take a long time for them to accept it, and they may never accept it." Compared with Meng Jiang, she obviously has more personality, and her gaze is more gloomy. "Then we'll go to the south and find a small city to settle down."

"Brother, were you in City H before? What did you do before?" Meng Jiang chatted and started talking.Pang Hui said: "Our friends are in City H, and we live in City H now. I am a soldier."

"A soldier! There must be a lot of pressure." Meng Jiang exclaimed a little, and then glanced at Shen Yang enviously: "I used to admire soldiers very much. My brother doesn't look like a soldier."

"He's a doctor," Pang Hui said, "he's relatively weak."

When Meng Jiang saw Pang Hui mentioning Shen Yang, the stiff expression on his face softened, and he couldn't help smiling, "You two have such a good relationship."

Pang Hui froze for a moment, touched his nose, and took a look at Shen Rang. He felt his face was burning a bit, but when he took a look at Shen Rang, he found that the base of Shen Rang's neck was also red.

Pang Hui suddenly felt that his face was not burning, and a sense of satisfaction that he had never felt before surged up. He grabbed Shen Yang's hand and said, "Well, the luckiest thing for me is to meet him."

Shen was curled up on the bed, his legs were curled up, and his feet were bare|bare.He flinched even more when he heard Pang Hui's words.Pang Hui held his hand with one hand and covered his feet with the other, warming his cold feet with the temperature of his palm.Meng Jiang's eyes were a little red, and she couldn't help hugging Xuan Wenwen's arm."If only we had a day like this," she said.

When getting off the car, Meng Jiang and Pang Hui left each other's phone numbers.Pang Hui's number is used by the military, and it is not suitable for outsiders, so he left Shen Yang's mobile phone number.Shen Hang wrinkled his nose and didn't speak.After Meng Jiang saved Shen Yang's name, he reported Xuan Wenwen and his own number to Pang Hui.Pang Hui saved it for him, and then stuffed the phone back into Shen Hang's pocket.

When we parted, Meng Jiang waved his arms and said, "If we encounter any problems in dealing with family problems in the future, I will come to you to learn from you!"

Pang Hui couldn't help feeling a little guilty, but also thought Meng Jiang was cute, so he smiled and said, "Okay."

Shen Yang didn't say a word from the beginning to the end, but only said "goodbye" at this moment.But even so, Pang Hui was a little surprised.

Shen Yang only talks a lot with strangers when he is predicting. Normally, he hardly pays attention to strangers. When others chat with him, he goes in one ear and out the other, completely closing himself in a small world.Pang Hui knew that this was his way of protecting himself, but this time he quietly listened to the chat between Pang Hui and Meng Jiangxuan Wenwen.This has to be said to be a big improvement.But Pang Hui was also worried in his heart, for fear that Shen Yang would be like the passive prediction last time, so he immediately asked about Shen Yang's situation, until he was so annoyed that he repeatedly said "nothing", "didn't see", "nothing".

After leaving the station, you only need to take a regular bus to get to Shen Yang's parents' apartment, but Pang Hui called a taxi directly.The starting price of taxis in this small city is very low, and the models are relatively old.This made Pang Hui think of the city where his parents lived, and couldn't help feeling a little nostalgic.He watched the scenery outside the car window in the car.This is obviously a developing small city, some high-rise buildings are bright and beautiful, and some are very dilapidated.In some places the road is wide and smooth, in others it is potholed.When Shen Lang left, those tall office buildings and spacious asphalt roads were not so popular, and everything was moving forward, only those people still stayed here without changing.

Pang Hui knew Shen Yang's home address, but the address reported by Shen Yang was not his, but a high school.Pang Hui immediately understood.Shen Yang's younger sister, Shen Chengyao, is 9 years younger than him, so she is about the age of her third year of high school and college. Now, it must be the year she is going to take the college entrance examination.

It's not surprising that Shen Yang knew Shen Chengyao's high school, Pang Hui would tell him roughly information about his family every year, which was also one of Pang Hui's jobs.If Shen Yang can get closer to his family, it means that his sociality has improved, and Pang Hui has been worrying about this every year.

The taxi stopped in front of a high school, it was already noon, but it was Saturday, Pang Hui didn't know why Shen Yang came to the school at this time.

At twelve o'clock, the school bell rang, and then a large number of children gradually poured out, and Pang Hui realized something.The children who are facing the college entrance examination have tutoring on Saturdays. After tutoring for a morning, Pang Hui only told Shen Yang once, but Shen Yang remembered it.So is the time when he asked to buy a ticket also based on this decision?

All the children started to go out, but some stayed in the school.It wasn't until a large number of children were picked up by their families that a few students came out slowly.At this moment, Shen Yang took a step forward, and a gleam of light that Pang Hui had never seen flashed in his eyes.Shen Yang called out: "Yaoyao."

A girl walking with a ponytail and bowed her head suddenly froze for a moment, then raised her head suddenly, and let out a scream when she saw Shen Yang, which shocked everyone around her.She rushed towards Shen Lang like a baby swallow returning to its nest, and slammed into his arms.Shen Rang was hit by him and fell back a bit, Pang Hui hurriedly supported him, half-circling Shen Rang.The girl hugged Shen Yang tightly, raised her head and called out: "Brother!"