Yo huh?Daughter-in-law's yin and yang eyes?

Chapter 39

Taking a vacation means being able to relax.No need to go to that depressing school, no need to sit in the classroom rigidly and fill your brain with piles of troublesome things, no need to communicate with people... and no need to see that person who often looks at himself in a daze and shows an inexplicable smile It's a girl...in fact, this is pretty good...

Sun Xuanmu clicked the mouse twice to open the small dialogue icon that kept jumping.That's what Shen Qingqing said, "What if the school needs to notify everyone that you don't know what to do if there is any urgent matter?"Or join the class! 'For such a reason, the class group that is forced to come in, in this group, Sun Xuanmu is a diver through and through. From here to now, he has never said a word. I never showed up, as if blocking this group.It made everyone a little bored, and over time they forgot about her existence.

The class, which has been quiet for two days, suddenly boiled like a frying pan today, and the small icons kept blinking, with the momentum of not giving up, not blinding your eyes, not giving up, not annoying to death.Sun Xuanmu clicked to minimize, closed the novel page and opened the class.She didn't know how they could have something to talk about even though it was a holiday.

【You have 320 unread messages, click here to start over】

"..."

Really underestimated their ability to chat.It was only half an hour... Sun Xuanmu impatiently clicked on the option to read from the beginning, holding the mouse and patiently watching what these people were discussing.After a rough look, these people seem to be preparing for a gathering before the year, because it is a new class and we don't know much about each other. They are planning to go somewhere to eat barbecue, and by the way, deepen their relationship and make friends.Everyone was discussing in the group, and they also listed a few people who must come, jokingly praising that if there are no these people to support the venue, it may be cold at that time, so these people must come and so on... They said The people who must come are the funniest girls in the class, the class monitor, and finally Shen Qingqing.

【Shen Qingqing is simply the warm-up king. Oh my god, last time I quarreled at the same table with me, and she helped us resolve the cold war between ignoring each other. It would be too embarrassing not to call her when we went out to play! 】

[Hey, it also depends on whether people want to come or not, everyone is as idle as you with long hair!People might have something to do. 】

[What's the matter, she just had a holiday... can't you push things away? You see, people in the class like her so much, it would be too shameless not to come~]

They talked to themselves, as if what they said was the most appropriate arrangement, and they were thinking about the whole big group.At the end, what did he say 'if she doesn't come, tie her here! 'In this way, it will attract a few cute girls to swipe Yanyi emoticons together.

"...." Sun Xuanmu tightly squeezed the palm of the mouse, her pale knuckles protruded slightly along the white skin of the back of the hand, and she pinched the thumb on the edge of the mouse as if she wanted to crush the mouse. Looking at the computer screen, a vague feeling of discomfort gradually sprouted in my heart.It seems that it is very, very wrong that Shen Qingqing is so popular with the class.Because this kind of feeling is like the toy I just bought is being missed by others, like someone will come to snatch this thing that belongs to me... Although Shen Qingqing has nothing to do with me, but Sun Xuanmu still had a feeling of extreme loathing for these people from the bottom of his heart... It was as if the hatred was about to gradually become apparent.

She silently closed the chat page, staring at the desktop in a daze.Most people will set the computer desktop to a more eye-friendly color, or to a character or scene that they like very much.The same is true for Sun Xuanmu.The picture on her desktop has a pitch-black background, with clusters of ferocious flames mixed with bright red and dazzling orange, as if they are about to jump out of the desktop and pounce on people's faces.Amongst the sea of ​​flames is a little girl, depicted as a pure white silhouette with no face except for a curved line representing her smile.She has a pair of white wings, like an angel... and behind her is the silhouette of another little girl painted in gray. The corners of her mouth are wide open, like a demon from hell, a black star The skull is held in her hands, adding a sense of mystery to her whole being... Such an obscure and frightening work is exactly one of Sun Xuanmu's favorite paintings.It is said that after painting this surrealist work, its author, the almost unknown abstract artist, committed suicide... There are rumors from the outside world that she couldn't bear it in the process of painting Because of the depression, I chose to end my own life. Some people said that in that unsafe age, disappearance and death were very common, so there was no need to spend so much money...

Contrary to their ideas, Sun Xuanmu felt that this painting could calm him down.The meaning it contains is not as simple as what people see with the naked eye, and the artist doesn't just want to express his own repressed living environment... She noticed that the silhouettes of two little girls in black and gray, The shadows under the feet are connected together, that is to say, the girl who is like an angel is also the girl who is like a devil.And this daunting flame also burst out from her dark side. Doesn't this just represent that the white silhouette used another self to complete the catharsis?Doesn't this just imply that there is a sleeping or awakened demon living in people's hearts?Will that demon sooner or later be like the one depicted on the screen...destroy everything that has nothing to do with him?Sun Xuanmu's current mood couldn't be more suitable...

She even wanted to... erase the image of Shen Qingqing from everyone's minds.I want Shen Qingqing to lose all related friends and relatives...I want her to have only myself in her life...and only herself...I want her not to be relied on by anyone, not to be mentioned by anyone. ..Sun Xuanmu, who just found out that she had such thoughts, was very frightened. She didn't understand why she had such a mentality... If she really did this, then she...wouldn't be destroying Shen Qingqing?Destroying her life, destroying her future, destroying everything about her... It's like the flame that devours everything on the screen... I'm like a demon that shouldn't exist in this world!

She couldn't destroy that excellent girl Shen Qingqing, so all she could do was force herself not to have any fantasies about her.Once a good impression is born, it is very difficult to extinguish it... Now that he has realized his unique attitude towards her, Sun Xuanmu thinks it is better to strangle this impossible longing in the cradle.Since staying at her house that night, Sun Xuanmu has become cold towards her.I forced myself not to look at her, and when I was drawing, I also focused on my own picture. Occasionally, her questions would be ignored, and even after the exam, she who came to talk to me in the same exam room would ignore it and leave. Hang the person's outstretched palm in the air.But now, it's already a holiday, so I don't need to see her, so I'm naturally much calmer.Life seems to be slowly returning to the way it was before... She has nothing to do with me, how others like her or want to make friends with her has nothing to do with me...

[Hey, I saw a sophomore in high school who confessed to Shen Qingqing on the day of the final exam. 】

Just as he was thinking, such a small message appeared in the dialogue pop-up window again, and Sun Xuanmu immediately clicked on the class group again without even thinking about it.The speed was beyond her imagination, so that the dialog box popped up, and she was still in a daze about what she had just done...

【Ah...you see it? /sweat】

【Of course!Why are you so not friends!Senior sister confessed to you without telling us! 】

【I didn't even accept what I told you...】

What catches my eyes is the conversation between Shen Qingqing and the girls who just proposed to go out for a barbecue. Shen Qingqing seems to be very shy about the confession of her senior high school sister to her, and she took the topic away in less than a few words .Even so, Sun Xuanmu still felt that his chest was tight and he couldn't breathe... It was as if someone lifted a large stone and pressed it hard on his chest, cutting off his breathing...

He clearly agreed not to care about her affairs, clearly agreed not to care about her... Since he wants to be a stranger, whoever she confesses to doesn't seem to have anything to do with him, does it?Um?What does she have to do with herself if she doesn't associate with others?What I have to do now is to turn off the computer honestly and finish the painting left from yesterday, then take a good sleep and rest the nerves that have been tense for almost half a year.

Lying on the bed, the familiar shutdown music of the computer came into the ears, but all the echoes in Sun Xuanmu's brain were Shen Qingqing's voice... What kind of praise for myself when I was painting, why did I help myself remove the water droplets on my hair? The seriousness when she wiped it off, the humor when she was joking with herself... I can't get her image out of my mind... Compared to when I was in school, it's even more so.In this way, the effect of rest will not be reflected at all, it might be better to say that it is enslaving the brain more heavily in disguise.Sun Xuanmu reached out to pick up the phone, played the music to the loudest, no matter how soundproof the cheap house was, he just threw the phone on the bed, closed his eyes and fell into a drowsy sleep.

She knew that she was escaping, but besides escaping, what could she do now?If you can't... then it's better to stay in your own world and not go out, don't provoke others, don't make friends, don't want anything, don't destroy anything.Maybe this is the real shortcut...