Strawberry West Toast

There was a female teacher on duty in the school doctor's office. It was the second time she came here and Wang Zhen knew the way, sat on a chair, and waited for the female teacher to apply medicine to her.

"How did it hurt?" The female teacher asked while looking for medicine in the medicine cabinet.

"Scratched by paper." Wang Zhen made up a random excuse, sitting with his back to Pei Yiwei, his eyes wandering up and down.

The place where he was sitting was facing a mirror hanging in the past. One of their gazes fell inside the mirror and the other fell outside the mirror. The mirror turned their gazes into a labyrinth of twists and turns. Wang Zhen saw Pei Yiwei standing behind him—Gao A tall boy, staring at him very silently, like a tree that doesn't understand the world.

Wang Zhen lowered his head. While the female teacher was treating the wound, he didn't raise his eyes to look in the mirror again.

Pei Yiwei took the rest of the Band-Aid for him, put it in Wang Zhen's bag, and asked him "Shall I go?"

"Go." Wang Zhen replied softly.

Where to go is the question.Now the English class back to the classroom is halfway through. This is the last session. After the class, it will enter the rest time before the evening self-study. When I go directly to the dormitory, I can take a shower early to prepare for the evening self-study.

After the showdown with Wang Xiuming, Wang Zhen fell into chaotic self-blame. Everything was disrupted. It is the fastest way to restore order to the emotions and return to campus life step by step. However, Wang Zhen does not want to escape the emotional disaster. Keep thinking, there is always a way to solve the problem.

"I'll go out for a while." Wang Zhen threw the bag to Pei Yiwei.

Pei Yiwei hung the bag in his arms and asked him where he was going.

Wang Zhen said: "It doesn't matter where you go, let's talk about it after we go."

"Don't go, don't be stupid." Pei Yiwei said.

"What." Wang Zhen was stunned.

Pei Yi opened his hand slightly, and suddenly gave him a hug.

This hug lasted less than ten seconds, and Wang Zhen heard his heartbeat suddenly quicken, and his skin was also slightly numb, as if it had been drenched by rain, or a pampas grass had fallen on his neck.

He asked his uncle to save the scene, and he did this again, what was he thinking?

Wang Zhen suddenly felt a sore nose, and his eyes turned red disobediently.

The emotional gate suddenly collapsed, and all the loss and sorrow poured out, which was uncontrollable and powerless.

Pei Yiwei didn't expect that Wang Zhen would suddenly lose control of his emotions, he was at a loss for a few seconds, then grabbed a piece of paper and handed it to him.

"Pei Yiwei," Wang Zhen took a breath, trying not to sound so embarrassed, "Can I ask you something?"

"Tell me." Pei Yiwei said.

"Do you think..." Wang Zhen said, "Do you think I'm an abnormal person?"

Pei Yi was slightly stunned, and said, "No."

Wang Zhen waited for him to continue, but the man was speechless.

"Be more specific." Wang Zhen wiped his face with a piece of paper.

Pei Yiwei thought for a while and said, "You're fine."

Wang Zhen was stunned and had nothing to say, Pei Yiwei would not comfort anyone at all.Wang Zhen wiped his eyes clean, and said, "I'm asking you for nothing, you're not a good talker."

Pei Yiwei laughed when he said it, and asked, "Then what do you want to hear?"

"I don't want to hear anything," Wang Zhen grabbed the bag from his arms, "Let's go."

The steps he just took were stopped by Pei Yiwei, who held his forearm, and a voice came from behind: "I know what you want to hear."

Wang Zhen froze on the spot, and slowly turned his head.

Pei Yiwei's expression was calm, his long and black eyebrows were raised slightly, his eyes were cold and clear: "Follow me to a place."

Wang Zhen seemed to be bewitched, and Pei Yiwei's sudden sharpness contained some kind of temptation. He knew that there was something he wanted in it, and he suddenly realized that all the losses in the past were not his alone, and Pei Yiwei was an accomplice—they completed this game together emotional game.

The process of driving to the finish line was silent and depressing, Pei Yiwei didn't say a word, and Wang Zhen couldn't find anything to say.It seems inappropriate to say anything now.Pei Yiwei was about to give him the answer, but it was still unknown whether it was the end or the flowers.He is so cruel, giving him the answer he was waiting for after he confessed his intolerance to his loved ones.He didn't have the strength to lift the curtain, and in the face of the huge sense of loss, he wanted to call "pause".

"Stop." Wang Zhen called out to him in a low voice.

Pei Yiwei didn't speak, but speeded up the car.

"Stop." Wang Zhen almost shouted.

The car stopped.

Wang Zhen jumped out of the car and walked in one direction without looking back. He didn't know where he was going, but he didn't want to stay with Pei Yiwei.

Pei Yiwei called his name from behind, he called "Wang Zhen", as if he was calling another person, the real Wang Zhen hid, and it was not Wang Zhen who came out to make trouble, but someone Wang Zhen didn't know.

"Don't go." Pei Yiwei chased after her and repeated, "Don't go."

Wang Zhen's forearm was caught in his hand, Pei Yiwei said: "It's almost here."

Wang Zhen stared at him without speaking.

Pei Yiwei is speechless when Wang Zhen is like this. Wang Zhen is actually more ruthless than Pei Yiwei when he is cold. Pei Yiwei's edge is gentle, but Wang Zhen never hides his emotions and writes his rejection all over his face.

"It's class time now," Wang Zhen said, "If you're absent from class, you're a top student."

Pei Yi frowned slightly: "Don't do this."

"Let's go," Wang Zhen said, "Now we can still catch up with the first self-study session when we go back."

"Can you speak well?" Pei Yi held Wang Zhen's forearm slightly, not daring to let go.

"Okay, let's talk about it," Wang Zhen didn't leave, turned to stare at him and said, "Pretending to be a straight man is fun, isn't it?"

"I didn't," Pei Yiwei said, "You think so."

Wang Zhen was so angry that he wanted to laugh, he used his empty hand to break Pei Yiwei. This guy was stronger than him, and he didn't break it for a long time, so he could only stare at him and say, "Is this the trick of Xueba?"

Pei Yiwei ignored his question and just said: "You may not want to hear what I say next, but I still want to say it."

Pei Yiwei's voice was very deep.

"I didn't play with you."

Wang Zhen's breathing stopped for two seconds.

Pei Yiwei let go of the hand holding the person, and said clearly: "I can probably guess what you are thinking in your heart. You hope that someone will promise you and give you a sense of stability. You think I don't care enough about you if I don't take the initiative to break it. But I don’t think it’s like that.”

Pei Yi paused for two seconds and said, "Have you thought about the future?"

It was unexpected that Pei Yiwei would ask Wang Zhen.He seldom considers the long-term impact when he does things. He does what he does, and the boat will be straight when he reaches the bridge. In his opinion, he can't do anything.

Wang Zhen couldn't understand. He thought that Pei Yiwei was worried that the two of them would not be able to go on because of social pressure, so he stared at Pei Yiwei and said, "If you give up the present because you are worried about the future, you will be too tired to live. I know that people will change, and feelings will change. It will change, but how do you know you won’t regret it if you don’t try it?”

Pei Yi was silent for a while, Wang Zhen misinterpreted his meaning, he didn't know how to answer.

Wang Zhen didn't want to force him.He didn't leave because he believed that Pei Yiwei would give him a definite answer, whether he refused or something else, he would accept it.It's normal for him to choose Pei Yiwei and Pei Yiwei not to choose him.But when he clearly has feelings, he uses the elusive answer of "I haven't thought about it later" to deny everything in the past, and he doesn't admit it.

"I don't believe it. To put it bluntly, the relationship is not up to that point," Wang Zhen said, "You are afraid of taking risks, so you choose to sacrifice me."

Pei Yi pursed her lips slightly, and looked straight at Wang Zhen without dodging or avoiding: "I didn't sacrifice you, everything in the past was true, and I don't hope that one day in the future you will regret it when you think of me, so I hope we will be more careful with each other, So I let you come with me."

His tone was so firm that Wang Zhen almost believed him completely for a moment.

He looked at Pei Yiwei expressionlessly, said nothing more, put on the helmet, and said flatly: "Then let's go and see what you said."

Pei Yiwei parked the little sheep on the square of Nansan Medical University and led Wang Zhen in.

On weekdays, the hospital is crowded with people. After waiting for 10 minutes for the elevator, the car is still overcrowded.Wang Zhen proposed to take the stairs, but Pei Yiwei did not refuse.The two walked upstairs one after the other, but no one spoke.

This moment reminded Wang Zhen of the state when he climbed the residential building of Pei Yiwei's house.The graffiti-covered corridor is not wide, the steps have canine-tooth-like missing corners, and there are few pieces of patent leather left on the handrails. Only the dim light gives the dilapidated scene a little rough life.

They go down that corridor chatting, not thinking about what's going to happen next, so they're happy.People who don't ask about the future are happy.

Now he is going to face his doomsday, the doomsday given to him by Pei Yiwei, he has to watch, listen, smell, and remember every detail he gave him, it is unique and only once.

When he reached the stairs, Pei Yiwei finally spoke, he said: "Follow me later, don't talk."

"Yeah." Wang Zhen nodded.

The door is white, with a green sign of "405" hanging on it. There is a huge window on the right side of the door, but the curtains are drawn from the inside, and the contents of the room are unknown.

Pei Yiwei knocked on the door lightly, a nurse poked her head out and asked him who he was looking for.

Pei Yiwei briefly chatted with her, the nurse nodded and let the two of them in.

The room is very large, with two beds on both sides of the wall, but the hospital bed is not the main body of the room, it is more like a leisure center somewhere, with bookshelves, chairs and TVs, all the patients lie on the bed, and one sits in the corner, One stood by the wall.

Pei Yiwei did not go inside, but stood quietly at the door.The door was not wide, so Wang Zhen could only stand beside him.

Both of them were silent, because the situation in the room was terribly depressing.

The patient kept the same movement stiffly. From the moment Wang Zhen entered the door, no one moved, not even a slight stretch of hand.They lack expression, not the usual state of ordinary people when they are tired, no, but numbness, indifference grown from the depths.They are like plants.

The middle-aged man sitting in the corner—the one Wang Zhen noticed first—saliva slowly dripped down the corner of his mouth, flowed silently through his chin, and into his collar.The passing nurse wiped it twice with paper, but the man was lost in the forest of consciousness, lowering his head expressionlessly, as if the saliva flowed from another person's mouth and had nothing to do with himself.

Pei Yiwei turned around and walked out of the ward. Wang Zhen was stunned for a few seconds and followed.

Finding a row of chairs to sit down, Pei Yiwei spoke again, her voice was like the smoky winter sky.

"Catonic schizophrenia," Pei Yiwei said, "is abnormal in perception, thinking, and emotion, with alternating states of stupor and excitement, a lack of perception of external stimuli, and a tendency to destroy things and hurt people. This is my mother. sick."

Wang Zhen knew that he was explaining to himself what he saw. A vague premonition came from deep in his memory. He turned his back and quickly entered the five words "schizophrenia" in the search bar.

He didn't dare to look at the content that jumped out, and all doubts fell to the ground.

"Inherited...difficult to cure...medicated for life..."

For a moment, his mind was filled with terror.