whisper to him

One day, Zhou Che went out alone, leaving Jiang Lexia at home alone.

Recently, in order to prepare for the last exam and graduation report, Jiang Lexia temporarily asked for leave and did not go to the company.In the afternoon, feeling a little tired, I decided to relax.

Put down the book and walk into the auditorium, choose a piece of classical music and put it into the stereo, take off the sound aid, adjust the volume of the stereo to the maximum, put the speaker on the left ear, close your eyes, and feel the audio vibration of the speaker .

He often does this when Zhou Che is not around. He can't hear any sound in his left ear, but he feels that the notes can penetrate into his ear one by one through the vibration frequency and reverberate in his body.

Zhou Che, who came home early, opened the door and heard the loud music, frowning and walking towards the auditorium, but his footsteps stopped at the entrance of the auditorium, and his frowning brows were instantly smoothed away.

He saw Jiang Lexia sitting on the ground, with half of his cheek pressed against the speaker, the fine mesh of the black speakers made his skin fairer, Beethoven's Symphony No. It's quiet.

Zhou Che's chest throbbed violently.

Not wanting to spoil the dreamlike scene in front of him, he stood by the door and watched quietly, immersed in the majestic music with the boy, and listened to the chorus voice shouting the ode to happiness that was actually not happy.

You say, who in this world can really distinguish which notes are happy?Which notes are unhappy?

After a long time, Beethoven finally put away his excited baton, and the music that almost hurt the eardrums suddenly disappeared. The world seemed to freeze at this moment, and there was silence, but something was still stirring.

The boy was still lying there, as if he had entered the eternal tranquility with the world. After a while, he sighed softly, his eyelashes trembling, and slowly opened his dim eyes.

Only then did Zhou Che suddenly wake up, the world had voices again.

The sound of the kitten sighing, and the sound of his own heartbeat.

At that time, the sun was shining brightly, reflecting clear and warm light on the young man through the glass.

In an instant, Zhou Che imprinted this scene deeply into his mind. Whenever he recalled it later, he would think that what he saw was actually a white kitten with angel wings...

Seeing him, Jiang Lexia reached out to get the hearing aid on the side and put it on, and greeted him naturally: "You're back."

After a pause, he replied, "Well, I'm back."

Zhou Che came over, picked Zhang Xin's film to change into, sat next to him, then hugged him and sat with his back facing him.

He likes to hug Jiang Lexia like this, wrapping his arms from back to front, sometimes gently stroking his hair and body, sometimes scratching his sensitive waist, tickling him, making him giggle in his arms Rolling struggled.

It was like holding the cat he had raised, stroking its fluffy and soft white long hair, and playing with it.

At this moment, the two didn't talk much, they leaned against each other silently, listening to the lazy French chanson.

The elegant and soothing rhyme flutters in the tranquil atmosphere, and they seem to smell a sweet, fragrant, somewhat strange and somewhat familiar fragrance, like some kind of fresh and sweet berries that can only grow in the mysterious rainforest , to lure them in search of the charm of love.

"I'll take you to Paris when I'm free. It's a beautiful city, and you will definitely like it." Zhou Che said aloud. "But you have to pay attention to the ground when walking in the alley, otherwise you may accidentally step on dog poop."

"Oh, really?" Jiang Lexia chuckled.

"Really, I've stepped on it a few times, but they like to have little fountains all over the place where people can wash their feet, probably because there's too much shit."

Jiang Lexia laughed again when she heard the words, the laughter could not be described as a vulgar silver bell, but to Zhou Che's ears, it was simply the most beautiful sound of nature in the world.

Jiang Lexia has gradually gotten used to this kind of life, and frankly speaking, this kind of life is very stable and simple, except that Zhou Che's sexual desire is too strong, which often makes him a little unbearable, but he has gradually adapted to it, and gained sex from it Comfortable pleasure, enjoying Zhou Che's tenderness towards him after the passion.

Zhou Che likes to bathe him very much, and said with a smile that the owner is obliged to bathe the pet, which is one of the joys of keeping pets.So no matter before or after sex, even if you haven't made love that day, you still insist on washing him clean, hugging him in your arms like a dog and smelling his whole body, saying it smells so good.

But usually when I smell it, I can't help licking it, and then licking and licking, licking until I can't help but burn myself, and then I can't help but throw down the delicious kitten.

The relationship between them is actually sweet, but Jiang Lexia still can't really be happy.

A stable, simple and materially rich life is not necessarily the life a person really wants.

Deep in his heart, he still has an indelible admiration and admiration for Zhou Che. Whether it is Zhou Che's gentleness or domineering, he can often sink him into it.

Maybe they fell in love with Zhou Che a long time ago, before they met each other, when this man only existed in media magazines.

After meeting, the long-term longing came to him with an elegant and dangerous posture, so close, there was joy, disappointment, panic and anger, but he still fell in love with him uncontrollably .

Because of this, he would always think that, in terms of Zhou Che's status, he must think that he is not worthy of the word "lover". To put it bluntly, he is just a pet for play.

The difference in their identities is too great, compared to Zhou Che who is close to perfection in every aspect, Jiang Lexia can't help but feel a strong inferiority complex for her incompleteness.

Although his family and school taught him not to think that physical defects are a kind of shame, let alone belittle himself, it is impossible to say that he is not inferior at all. I remember that when the neighbors laughed at him as a deaf child when he was young, he cried sadly for several days. Growing up, the feeling of being hurt still vaguely exists.

But because of this incident, the neighbor kid was punished by his own mother and sent to his house to apologize to him. Later, they became good friends instead.

Now recalling the past bits and pieces, I suddenly feel a sense of trance like a world away.

What happened after meeting Zhou Che seemed like an unreal dream, but for a while I couldn't tell if it was a good dream or a nightmare, maybe there was a combination of both.

A mirage is an ethereal phantom, but what is reflected is the real thing.

To him, Zhou Che was a painful dream, but also a gentle nightmare.

"What are you thinking about?" Zhou Che asked, often seeing Jiang Lexia showing such vague eyes, his eyes were empty, and he didn't know what he was thinking.

Jiang Lexia shook her head, she didn't really think about anything, she just felt Zhou Che's breath and body temperature, and felt that even if it was a dream, it was nothing more than that.

"Lele...do you love me?" Zhou Che lowered his head and asked close to his left ear. He didn't understand why he asked that, he always scoffed at the so-called love, didn't he?

For a moment, Zhou Che was also at a loss.

Are those words that I only dare to say to Lele’s deaf left ear, doubts and denials of self-worth that I don’t even want to face?

For feelings, it is not contempt, but inferiority?

Because I was afraid of not getting it, I simply despised it and treated it like dung.

Just like when he was a child, he reached out to his parents time and time again, but was turned a blind eye and even pushed to the ground again and again, so he knew that it was a luxury he couldn't get, and he hated it ever since.

Jiang Lexia felt the warm breath in his left ear. Although Zhou Che often spoke to his left ear like this, he understood that he actually didn't want him to hear those words, so he never asked, and didn't want to know, but now But there was no reason to want to know what this sentence was, so he asked: "I can't hear what you said, can you say it again?"

Zhou Che was silent for a while, moved to his right ear, and asked again: "Lele, do you hate me?"

I couldn't help being stunned for a while, and fell silent, as if thinking about how to answer.

Zhou Che didn't expect his answer. How could he not feel resentful towards a bastard who played with him, raped him, and robbed him of his freedom? !

Do I hate Zhou Che?Jiang Lexia tilted his head slightly to think about this question, and once again asked himself, he should hate him logically, but why didn't he want to?Hating this person doesn't make him feel happy. I don't deny that there is always an indelible affection for Zhou Che in my heart, and this affection has quietly grown and developed into love.

So, is there a way for him to really hate Zhou Che?

After thinking for a long time, even I couldn't find the real answer, so I had to answer honestly: "I don't know."

Zhou Che smiled wryly, thinking, at least he didn't say "I hate you" without hesitation.

There are too many people who hate him in this world, even he hates himself, so he doesn't care, but once upon a time, he cared about how this child felt about him.

He suddenly didn't want Jiang Lexia to hate him, it should be said that he didn't want to face Jiang Lexia's hatred for him, which made him feel unspeakably uncomfortable.

Couldn't help but asked again: "So, are you happy?"

Jiang Lexia couldn't help being stunned for a while, never thought that Zhou Che would ask him this question, he thought that Zhou Che didn't care about his thoughts and feelings at all, this man has always been domineering and domineering, even if he Tenderness is also self-centered tenderness.

Now, he keeps asking questions that he can't answer for a while.

"Lele, are you happy?" asked again, seeming eager to know the answer.

"Do you want me to be happy?" asked rhetorically.

"I hope you are happy." Zhou Che stared at him seriously. "So, Lele, are you happy?"

Jiang Lexia stared at him quietly, pondered for a long time, tried many times, and finally found the answer hidden in the bottom of her heart──

I want to believe that you really want me to be happy.

I am also willing, as long as you want me to be happy, then I will make myself happy.

Jiang Lexia blinked, and suddenly, at this moment, she seemed to have figured out something, her eyes that were always confused and melancholy suddenly became clear and bright, with a gleam of light.

Turning to face Zhou Che, he said:

"Be happy from today on."

Changed her mind, Jiang Lexia no longer faced many things negatively, and even cherished every moment she spent with Zhou Che, thinking, while Zhou Che still likes him, try to have as many memories as possible.

Maybe one day Zhou Che will not want him, but at least he has had it, which is also a kind of happiness.

No matter how humble a person's desired happiness is, the essence of happiness is the same. The happiness that no one embraces is more abundant, and the happiness that no one holds in the palm of his hand is more barren.

He didn't long to spread his wings and fly high. A stable and simple life is happiness.

Ordinary, sometimes a kind of vastness.

Zhou Che's thinking seems to have changed, and he no longer treats Jiang Lexia with the eyes and the way he treats pets. Although Jiangshan's nature is hard to change, and he can't change his domineering and domineering, but it is a willful and capricious attitude towards the people he likes and his family. Let go of all defensiveness and hypocrisy.

He still dotes on Jiang Lexia, even more so, but he will ask about his wishes and ideas about many things, and he no longer always does whatever he wants.

But Jiang Lexia's whole body suddenly brightened up, her previous depression was swept away, her smiles increased, and she even took the initiative to speak, she no longer always looked like a timid abused daughter-in-law.

In Zhou Che's eyes, this kind of Lele is even cuter, and he likes it very much.

There seems to be a new beginning between the two of them deliberately and unconsciously.

It is no longer the owner and the adopted pet, but like a true lover and family, sharing many bits and pieces of common life.

They are all changing quietly, willing to change themselves for each other.

One day after dinner, Jiang Lexia went to the study to read a book, and unexpectedly, he saw a photo album full of the same cat, a very beautiful long-haired big white cat.

Curiously asked Zhou Che, is this his cat?

When Zhou Che saw the photo album, a trace of nostalgia flashed in his eyes, he smiled slightly, and looked at the photo album with him in his arms, talking about the cat while reading.

It was a mixed-breed white jinjila male cat, which was larger than ordinary cats. After being negated, it became even larger due to fat, approaching the size of a medium-sized dog.

"Many people will ask the same question when they see it. Is it really a cat? Are you sure it's not a dog?" Zhou Che recalled laughing.

Its golden eyes were large, and so was its head, which was made even larger by a fringe of shaggy fur around its neck that resembled a lion's mane.

"I often laugh at it as a big-headed cat or a big pancake cat, and wrap its entire head and face with the palm of my hand, like this." Spreading his long fingers and wide palms, covering Jiang Lexia's small slapped face, teasing the little guy haha laugh it out.

It looks majestic in appearance, like a little king of beasts, but in fact, it has a strong appearance and a timid personality. If a stranger comes, especially a tall man, it will hide under the chair or get into the closet in fear. inside.If you hold it out, you will be so scared that you will tremble and dare not move. It may be because of natural timidity, or it may be the relationship between being bullied by other cats in the past.

Zhou Che told him: "I moved to live with my grandparents when I was nine years old. My grandmother kept many cats, and this is one of them."

At that time, he didn't like these furry and meowing things, he always thought they were very noisy, and they liked to rub around people's feet, which was very annoying, and sometimes even jumped on his lap, using cat paws first Stepping around, then curling up in a circle, sleeping, willfully using him as a meat pad.

Jiang Lexia couldn't stop laughing when she heard that, she could imagine how ugly Zhou Che's face was at that time, it must be covered with black lines, haha.

However, Zhou Che inadvertently noticed that the big white cat was always alone, and no other cats wanted to play with it. will attack it.When eating, the cat boss will let other cats eat first, and then give him food last, so he often only eats the remaining small amount of feed.

Thanks to its big size, it dare not fight back to take the position of the cat boss, what a useless bastard!When Zhou Che was a child, he despised its timidity and cowardice. He didn't expect that because he was the largest male cat, he would feel threatened to other cats, especially the cat boss, so he would be guarded and isolated.

"Once, I just threw a few peeled shrimps to it. Since then, it has been entangled with me, asking me for food from time to time. It also likes to sneak up on my bed when I'm sleeping and sleep on my feet. side." It was hard for him to forget the way it devoured those few shrimps like a starving ghost.

It suddenly occurred to me that when I took Jiang Lexia to dinner for the first time, I also peeled a few shrimps for him. Later, if there were any shrimps in the meal, I would definitely peel them for him. Did he subconsciously know that cats love shrimps? Ah?

"Later, when I decided to live independently away from my grandparents, my grandmother forced it to me and said it would accompany me."

It was also hard for him to forget that when his grandmother stuffed it into his hand, he had only one thought—Damn it!So heavy, this is actually a white-haired pig disguised as a cat!

Later, he raised it so that its white hair was plump and shiny, and its body was even fatter, like a veritable pig.

When it is lying on the ground with its belly turned over and its limbs spread apart, people can't help but step on its fleshy belly and let this big fat white hairball roll left and right until it expresses its dissatisfaction With a sound of protest, he bent his body and grabbed the bully's feet with four cat paws, and bit them lightly.

It won't really bite hard, and its sharp teeth will only cause slight pain. A few times it accidentally bites too hard, Zhou Che yells at it, it will immediately let go, and look at it with big innocent eyes. She stared at him, then stuck out her rustling tongue and licked where it had just bit.

"I actually like to play tricks on it. I purposely waved his favorite dried fish around in front of it."

The two bright eyes will stare at the small fish dry, and the flying cat paw will pounce over and over again. After he can't pounce for a long time, he will not pounce on the small fish dry. Instead, he will fly on him and grab his feet Or arms, meowing at him angrily, as if shouting "Give me! Give me! Give me!".

Reminiscing bit by bit, Jiang Lexia couldn't help but be amazed by his gentle eyes without any impurities, no scheming, no conspiracy, pure love and tenderness.

Who would have thought that the domineering Zhou Che and the decisive general manager of the Zhou family had ever raised a cat, and cared for and loved it like that, which is unbelievable to many people. He should raise wolves, tigers and leopards. He is of the same kind.

However, cat lovers believe that everyone has a cat that fills you with tenderness.

It will first melt you like an ice cube in the sun, and then it will capture your heart.

After it captures your heart, you will become a willing slave for it──

Commonly known as "cat slave".

Zhou Che recalled that he was definitely not a competent master, let alone a cat slave.He likes to play tricks on it, and he will not condone its willful behavior. One human being is enough, and there is no need for another cat.

He often even left it irresponsible and stayed at home alone for several days, only asking part-time workers to feed it regularly, but there is still a deep relationship between people and cats, and it is probably the one that can be clearly remembered in life except for grandparents Warmth.

To him, it's not just a cat, it's his family.

The only thing is that he will not push him away, will not hate him, will not severely hurt and attack him, and will tolerate his family with tenderness no matter what.

Now, he thought, he had found another such family.

It had accused him in a dream of being this big fool who would lose the most important thing one day.He thought, if it came back to his dream again, he would tell it, I have got the most important thing in my life, and I will cherish and protect it carefully, and never lose it.

He said to Jiang Lexia: "You are not that cat, but your status is the same as it." Even higher, more important, and more irreplaceable than it.

Now he is sure that Lele is the person he has been looking for all along in his life, the precious piece that fills the void in his soul.

Not pets, but lovers, lovers, family.

It is a partner who wants to cuddle together for a lifetime from now on.

He added: "I allow you to be self-willed and even lose your temper with me, you are too quiet."

"Actually, I..." Jiang Lexia hesitated to speak.

"how?"

Shaking her head, she decided to keep her love and infatuation for him a secret, and keep it deep in her heart, maybe she won't be able to help but say it until she is about to die.

"You don't say it, let me say it, Lele, in fact, I really like you." Zhou Che frankly said what had been in his heart for a long time. "I can't say I love you, because I still don't know what true love is, but I think I can't leave you, so don't leave me, okay?"

When Jiang Lexia heard his words, it would be a lie to say that she was not moved, but she didn't know how to express it, and she was ashamed to express it. No matter how close the two of them were, they had done all kinds of shy things, but for Zhou Che he always Can't take it off shy.

Zhou Che suddenly thought of something, let go of him and got up, and took out another very familiar loose-leaf folder from a box in the corner.

It's his scrapbook!Jiang Lexia's heart pounded violently.

"I've seen them all." Zhou Che brought it over as if offering a treasure, and grinned triumphantly. "Actually, you like me very much, and you have liked me for a long time, you can even say you are in love with me, right?"

After discovering the secret she was trying to hide, Jiang Lexia pursed her lips and said nothing, but a faint blush appeared on her cheeks.

Even the ears are red, so cute.

Thinking back carefully, from the moment they met, he felt that Jiang Lexia was so cute, then she became more and more cute, and now she is so cute that he often feels unbearable.

It doesn't matter if Xi Shi is in the eyes of his lover, he just takes it for granted that his Lele is the cutest and cutest person in the world!

"Yeah, this photo makes me look ugly, but this one is not bad." Zhou Che opened the file folder and commented freely on various reports about himself. "Oh, I didn't expect you to even have this kind of report. The general manager of Zhou's private meeting with the wealthy daughter, the golden boy and the jade girl are about to have a good thing?"

Jiang Lexia was deeply impressed by this report. Looking at the photo of Zhou Che and the beautiful wealthy daughter in love, she couldn't help but feel inferior again.

Regardless of whether they are good or bad, these reports have repeatedly reminded him that their identities and backgrounds are very different, like clouds and mud, and Zhou Che's novelty about himself will fade away at some point.

Although Zhou Che said that he likes him just now, how long can this love last?

Jiang Lexia suddenly realized that he had become greedy. He didn't just want to have short-lived good memories, he wanted more and more... He hoped that Zhou Che could love him, just like he loves Zhou Che...

Hey, this is undoubtedly an unattainable luxury.

"One day, you will not want me." Wei Wei whispered sadly.Even when he is old, the kitten is still his kitten, a beloved and loving baby in the palm of his hand.

Even when he is old, the kitten is still his kitten, a beloved and loving baby in the palm of his hand.He can even imagine that Lele, who has become an old man, is still such a cute little old man in his eyes, and he is probably still an annoying old man.

"Really?" Jiang Lexia didn't believe it, but couldn't help but look forward to it.

Zhou Che saw those big black eyes looking at him, full of cautious hopes, couldn't help smiling, leaned his head close to Honghong's cute left ear, and said: "You are not a pet, you are a family member, so please stay with me. By my side, be my family for the rest of my life, okay?"