His Royal Highness the First Prince of Daliang

"What did you say?"

Qi Changfeng asked, but didn't hear his own voice for a long time.At first, he thought it was because of the rumbling in his ear canal, but after a while, he realized that his voice was completely hoarse, and the words just now couldn't make any sound at all.

"What nonsense is your Highness talking about?" He cleared his throat before he was able to make this sentence with a feeble struggle.

In fact, Qi Changfeng himself doesn't know what's the point of making such unnecessary cover-ups.Looking back much later, he realized that he was almost a complete walking dead at that time.

That is actually something that is difficult to put into words—or as early as the summer night when Qi Changfeng fed his lover the poison with his own hands, a certain part of him had already begun to decay gradually and slowly.

The sweet love covers up the rotten smell, but it is difficult to cover up the truth of the collapse under the skin.

There are always things that people can't bear, no matter how strong they are.Principles, nature, beliefs, and strength—all in Qi Changfeng's soul were changing sharply, beating wildly, zooming in and out during those few months.

He is almost different in front of Kang Ning and in front of others.In front of Kang Ning, he is still the former Qi Changfeng, because he subconsciously understands what his lover recognizes as himself.

And who he gradually became in front of others, even he himself almost didn't know.

Or maybe Qi Changfeng is still in both states—but he can feel the gradual worry, rejection, estrangement and strangeness from the imperial concubine, Bi Tao, Geng Fei and others towards him.It can't be said that Qi Changfeng doesn't care - but he actually doesn't have the extra energy and interest to care about this incident.

Occasionally he thought—as long as, as long as the lover is saved.As long as they are saved, everything will be fine again.

But before everything gets better, the last fragile calm that Qi Changfeng worked so hard to maintain seems to be in jeopardy.

This ridiculously weak description is probably the only reaction he can give at the moment.

"I said I'm going to die." But Kang Jing looked at him quietly:

"Uncle and Agui came back at the same time, medicinal material merchants from Northwest and Northwest gathered in Beijing, and you left me again and again at such a juncture—I guess...the poison that Emperor Yang gave is hard to cure? Meng Meng Did my sister ever say how long I can live?"

The bones and blood of Qi Changfeng's whole body seemed to be drawn away by an invisible hand in the void in an instant.

For a long time, although it seemed that it was for the sake of the little prince's emotions that he maintained an appearance that everything was fine.But it is precisely because of this fragile and pale appearance that Qi Changfeng is able to leave a bit of room to breathe in the ubiquitous thirst.

He looked at Kang Ning in despair, and suddenly his whole body went numb, as if his heart ached so much that he lost consciousness in an instant, and he couldn't hurt anymore:

"Your Highness... when... did you know?" Qi Changfeng asked.

when--

It's probably been a long time.

Just when he asked Qi Changfeng not to "suppress the bandits" in person; when he hugged Zhuozhuo and regretted that he could not see her grow up with his own eyes; on the night when he desperately wanted Qi Changfeng to take him away; In the arms of the second princess, the moment when he said that he was anxious to see her get married——

Well, even earlier.

Earlier, Kang Ning was leaning on the side of the pavilion near the water, and slowly opened his hands.The Jinpa, stained with bright red blood, fell down and was slowly soaked by the lake covered with fresh snow. It only had time to spread a circle of light red that dissipated in a moment.

"What are you doing standing there and blowing your hair?" Yan Gui called him from behind, "Look at your cat scratching my hair, I have to get someone to comb it again."

A little earlier, he had chosen a husband and wife for Bitao and the others with a handwritten pamphlet.That day, Bi Tao was always angry, and he didn't care about her, he just said to himself: "Well, with such a temper, I'm afraid it's not easy to get married, so I'd better prepare some dowry for you."

There is still a shortcoming that I can't get a guarantee to cherish myself from Agui.In fact, he has never been very worried about Ah Gui, but he just thinks that Yan Gui loves to take the lead and is too arrogant. He just wants him to restrain himself a little bit, and let himself know that he is still living lawlessly in some corner of the world.

And the earliest source he could think of, maybe it can be traced back further—but Kang Ning only remembered the farewell night that he mistakenly thought was a dream.

All the tenderness, all the regrets, all the suspicions and loneliness, and all the frights, in fact, have drawn an ending symbol that made Kang Ning satisfied enough so long ago.

From then on, even if he knew that the person who loved him wanted him to be a fool in the Crystal Palace, even if it was his own body, his own life and death, and the few times he had left but was forced to be ignorant, Kang Ning would never again asked.

It seems that the little prince has been deprived of something all his life.From being deprived of the right to know the truth of the world since childhood, to now being deprived of the time to bid farewell to death.No one needs to hear what he wants, but those who love him say that everything is for his own good.

He is willing to do their will.

But he obviously said it all: as long as Qi Changfeng can accompany him well.

But Qi Changfeng not only couldn't accompany him, but he didn't "do well"—Qi Changfeng seemed to be in a mess.

"Actually, after Ah Gui came back this time, he once asked me a question - he asked me why he likes you?"

The little prince's eyes quietly fell on Qi Changfeng, as light and cool as the first snow falling on the eye sockets:

"I said... because I seem to have only seen you since I was a child. I have only seen you, so I can't see others when I grow up, so I like it."

"But Qi Changfeng...you are really different from when you were a child. The ones I knew and the ones I liked at first are different."

"You even look... going crazy."

The lover's perception is always the most painful and sensitive, how could Kang Ning not feel it?

It's just love - love can be considerate and gentle without seeing it, or it can be a scar that is cut out for him when corruption comes.

"Do you know who you look like now? You're starting to look like Yang Han. Like the crazy Yang Han after losing the prince—I don't know what you're going to do this time. But I can't let you go."

Kang Ning's expression was gentle and sad, "But Qi Changfeng, I know you are not like this. You have never been like this. What you hated the most since you were young is King Xi Nan, who disregarded human life. These seven years of war have not really changed your mind. nature--"

"I'm dying, don't let me be the one to destroy you at the end, okay?"

"Qi Changfeng, I love you. I don't need you to save me, as long as you love me too."

Qi Changfeng's lips moved slightly.At that moment, he no longer had the strength to deny or explain anything, or to cover up that he hadn't become extreme and crazy.

He didn't even realize that he had stepped into the dark vortex, as if he had hypnotized his five senses, until he saw the hand of his lover extending to save him.

For too long, he was in extreme fear of losing Corning all the time.People cannot stay in this state for a long time.Or maybe Kang Ning left on that summer night at that time, which might cause Qi Changfeng a huge, disintegrating pain, but it would not cause him to degenerate silently in the day-to-day irritability and violence.

He no longer has the extra energy to think about what he has become, and whether he likes it or not—maybe he also instinctively avoids this question subconsciously.

But when Kang Ning made the choice for him and tried to pull him out of the muddy cliff—Qi Changfeng felt at that moment as if a drowning person had regained fresh air.is to be saved.

He took a step forward as if he lost his strength, and then fell down stiffly.

Kang Ning paused slightly, then knelt down, put his head in his arms, and patted his long hair and neck like soothing a child.

The little prince could feel Qi Changfeng's tears streaming down his palms.But they didn't speak or move, they just stayed at this moment quietly, just like the little prince who bumped into Qi Changfeng on the day of his parents' funeral when they were young, and quietly hugged him, and curled up in his arms.

"I still want to go, Your Highness." After a long time, Qi Changfeng opened his mouth in a hoarse voice, "It's just the last medicine. Your Highness's poison will definitely be cured. I can't give up hope. I promise I won't." Those who act too violently, I can discuss, ask them, and exchange with what the Chi people need—" It seems that the ability to think rationally and control the situation is finally slowly returning to Qi Changfeng's body at this time.

"His Royal Highness's antidote is there. I can definitely get it!"

"No. As long as you still have the heart that you must get it, I will not let you go," Kang Ning gently wiped his tears, "Qi Changfeng, no one must live, even if he treats you again important……"

When the prince died, Kang Ning was forced to understand this: "Qi Changfeng, you have to...you have to do it—maybe everything is not going so well, I might die soon, you have to be able to accept this."

"I can't..." Qi Changfeng wanted to refute violently.

"You must." Kang Ning pressed his lips.At that moment, the little prince's expression was unprecedentedly calm and cold, "Not only you, but my father, mother and concubine, even Bi Tao and the others... must accept it."

"I don't want to hear about who can't take it anymore, who can't hold on anymore, and I don't want to bear the pain and despair in my life anymore. To be honest, it's tiring-it's obvious that I'm about to die. I don't have the strength Don't take other people's emotions into consideration anymore. Are you sure you want me to die with infinite guilt?"

"I can always be an ignorant fool who can't even control the end of my own life for your self-righteous 'for my own good'. Why can't you even live a good life for me?"