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Nate knew that Jiao Zilie was avoiding him deliberately, so he also wanted to give him some private space. He would not go to him when he was at work, and he would stay in his room when he came home from get off work.

The weather on Saturday was fine, and God Zilie got up at seven o'clock. After packing up, he went downstairs to buy breakfast.

When he got home he knocked on Nate's door, "Are you up?"

Nate who came to answer the door was obviously up early, and the room had already been tidied up. "Well, wake up."

"Come and have breakfast, after we finish we will climb the Great Wall."

The two didn't talk much from dinner to the car to the Great Wall. Nate wanted to talk to God Zilie, but seeing that he was not in a high mood, he didn't want to force him.

After walking non-stop on the Great Wall for an hour, the two found a high point and stopped to rest.

Jiao Zilie looked into the distance, feeling the breath of nature. "Nate, it's time we talked."

"I've been waiting for you to be ready."

"Although I have made many friends since I was a child, you are my most sincere, trustworthy and most admired friend. It is really a pity to lose a friend like you. I value the relationship between us very much. emotion."

Nate didn't speak, just quietly waiting for the sentencing.

"You also know the situation in my family. My parents are not a harbor where I can dock, but you are. I am used to sharing all my joys and sorrows with you, studying, working and living with you. But all of this, Not out of love. It may be cruel for me to say this, but I believe that what you need is my honesty."

"I actually knew this would happen a long time ago." Nate lowered his head and adjusted his emotions. "Although you and I are very close, you have never shown any intimacy that a lover would have. In fact, I just wanted to try hard once. What is the result?" It's not that important, the important thing is not to leave regrets for yourself. Don't feel guilty, you are right. Instead of hiding from me to avoid this problem, it is better to tell me your truest thoughts directly."

"Can we go back to the past?"

"Of course, I still regard you as my best friend. As long as you don't avoid me, I have no problem."

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to avoid you, I just need a little time to think."

"I see."

"You really don't think I'm an eyesore now? I just rejected you." The godson whispered.

"Actually, I have been mentally prepared for a long time, but when faced with it, I will still feel a little weak. Don't be stressed, I'm fine. For a person with such a big heart, I can let it go if I can afford it."

The godson doesn't know if this is Nate's real idea, but people have already said so, and he really can't lose this friend, so it's better to let everything go back to the most natural.

"Thank you. With a friend like you, I will die without regret."

"It's almost time to rest, continue? Don't tell me you can't climb anymore."

"Don't think that you are stronger than me because your muscles are bigger than mine, don't underestimate me!"

Nate followed him with a smile, as long as it brought him happiness, was it really that important to him?

After the two frankly faced each other, they both relaxed a lot, and their life was back on track, as if nothing had happened.Cheng Chong has not shown up for two weeks, but every day he will call or send text messages to God to remind him to eat and take care of his body.God Zilie was actually planning to have a good talk with him, but since he was so busy that no one could see him, it's better not to make trouble for him at this time.

Cheng Chong didn't call or text when he went to bed that night. Jiao Zilie stared at his phone for a long time, and finally fell asleep despite the drowsiness.

I got up in the morning and picked up my phone, but there was still nothing.

"I don't know if I'm so busy that I don't have time to make a phone call or send a text message."

After Cheng Chong returned to China, his performance got better and better, so Cheng Jiandong entrusted him with more and more tasks, and the people in the company began to change his attitude towards him, and people in the industry also praised him full of praise. .As Cheng's lawyer, Jiaozilie knew his strength when he saw the growth of the contract.In contrast, he will become more and more busy.

There was no news of Cheng Chong for three days in a row, and Jiao Zilie always checked his phone from time to time, wondering if something happened to Cheng Chong.After get off work, he finally couldn't hold his breath and decided to make a phone call, but Cheng Chong's phone was turned off, which made Jiao Zilie worried.

When I got home, I stood downstairs and looked towards Cheng Chong's apartment. The light in the bedroom on the top floor was on.

"He's at home?" The godson was overjoyed.

God Zilie rang the doorbell for a long time but no one answered, so he called again, but the phone was still turned off.He could only knock on the door and yell at the door. After yelling for 5 minutes, he was about to give up, but he heard a sound in the room.

"Cheng Chong, is that you? Are you inside? Open the door for me."

The door opened, but the lights on the first floor were off. Through the light in the corridor, Jiao Zilie saw Cheng Chong with a haggard face, messy hair, and wrinkled clothes. He was extremely decadent, without the brilliance of the past.

The godson quickly entered the door, "What's wrong with you? How did you make it like this?"

Cheng Chong didn't speak, just returned to the sofa and continued to sit.Only then did God Zilie see the mess of the room, the table was full of cigarette butts and empty wine bottles, and he felt his heart tighten.

"What's the matter with you? I'm worried about you like this."

Cheng Chong looked at him, but his eyes were empty and unfocused. "My mother is gone."

"Gone? You mean...?"

"Ah."

"My condolences by the way." Jiao Zilie crouched in front of Cheng Chong, looked at him, and slowly hugged him into his arms. "Cry out when you feel bad."

Cheng Chong didn't speak, but Jiao Zilie felt the person in his arms trembling, as if he could feel his heartache.Cheng Chong let go of God Zilie, held his face in his hands, and looked at him slowly.

"Fortunately, I still have you."

The godson nodded silently.Cheng Chong leaned forward and kissed his lips. It was a kiss that needed comfort. God Zilie didn't resist or avoid it, but responded to the kiss silently.

"Don't go tonight, okay?"

"Well, I'll be with you."

"Mom, she... walked too suddenly, without any warning at all."

"I haven't seen you for almost a month. What exactly happened?"

"She was not feeling well before, but she didn't have any serious problems, so she didn't pay much attention to it. Then she started to have a high fever, and taking medicine didn't help, so we had to send her to the hospital. At first the fever subsided, but later Repeatedly, finally the high fever persisted and led to pneumonia. Because my mother's illness has been dragging on for a long time, her body's resistance has been exhausted. In the end, she was in a coma for a few days and left when her body could not resist the disease."

God Zilie watched Cheng Chong talking calmly, but his eyes were full of sadness.

"You have to cheer up, otherwise Auntie will leave without peace of mind. Why didn't you tell me about such a big thing? Even if I can't do anything, I can still accompany you."

"At the beginning, no one expected such a result. Everything happened so suddenly. I was stunned and didn't know what to do. I didn't find anyone. Jiang Xian and the others were notified by my dad. It's okay You came today. It's good to see you!"

"Tomorrow, I will ask for a day off to accompany you. By the way, I will clean up your house. The mess is full of smoke. You haven't eaten yet, have you? I'll buy you something to eat." Jiao Zilie got up and was about to leave.

Cheng Chong hugged him, "Don't leave me."

God Zilie patted his hand, "I'm just going downstairs to buy you something to eat, and I'll be right back."

Cheng Chong still hugged his godson tightly, and didn't intend to let go.

The godson shook his head helplessly, "Okay, I won't go, I'll go and see what you can make and eat at your house." Cheng Chong then let go.

Jiao Zilie couldn't find any ingredients, so after a long time, he brought out two bowls of egg noodles.

"Let's eat together, I haven't eaten yet."

"Why is it so late and you haven't eaten yet?"

"So you have to cheer up, I won't remember to eat without you reminding me." God Zilie smiled.

"If you stay with me all the time, I think I'll cheer up a little bit sooner."

"I'll come over if I'm free, okay? Eat quickly."

After dinner, Teach Zilie to let Cheng Chong go to bed and lie down to rest, but Cheng Chong insisted on lying down with him.In desperation, God Zilie still lay down, and the two stared at the ceiling for a long time.Cheng Chong turned around and put his arms around God Zilie's waist, and buried his head in his neck. "Xiao Lie, you are so kind."

"We're friends, don't be so polite."

"I don't want to be your friend, I like you, I want to be with you."

Before, Jiao Zilie wanted to make it clear with Cheng Chong that he only wanted to remain friends.But with all the current circumstances put together, is he really just a friend to him?

Seeing that his godson hadn't spoken for a long time, Cheng Chong turned his face to him, "Xiao Lie, I'm serious. No matter what I was before, I've never been serious to anyone. But you are different. You are the one I want to take care of, promise me, okay?"

God Zilie will be sad because Cheng Chong is sad, will be happy because of his phone and text messages reminding him to eat every day, will be worried because he cannot be contacted, and will be moved by the love words he is saying now.What's even more frightening is that Cheng Chong seemed to have kissed himself several times, but instead of stopping him, he enjoyed it a little bit?This...is because I like him?

"Xiao Lie, why don't you speak? Promise me, okay?"

Jiao Zilie came back to his senses, looked at Cheng Chong whose eyes were full of expectation, and nodded slightly.As he said, maybe it's not that he doesn't like it, but that he doesn't know.Since I feel like I should like it now, then follow my heart.

"Really?! That's great!!" Cheng Chong hugged Godzilie tightly, "Mom will be happy knowing that I have you in heaven."

"Go to sleep, you've been so tired these days."

"Yeah." Cheng Chong put his arms around God Zilie, closed his eyes with satisfaction, and fell asleep within a minute.

Seeing Cheng Chong who was asleep, Jiao Zilie couldn't help but feel distressed, and touched his haggard face with his hands. These days, he must have been under a lot of pressure physically and mentally.

It was almost noon when Cheng Chong woke up. Since his mother was hospitalized until now, he really hasn't had a good night's sleep. For the first time, he slept peacefully all night.When he went downstairs and saw that the house had been cleaned up by Jiao Zilie, Cheng Chong couldn't help feeling a little bit sorry.He knew what kind of mess he had made at home, and in the end he had to teach Zilie to deal with the aftermath.

"Are you up? Did you sleep well?"

"Well, I feel better today."

"Then go take a shower, I'll buy lunch, you can eat after you wash."

"it is good."

After getting ready for lunch, God Zilie didn't see Cheng rushing down yet, so he was a little worried, so he hurried upstairs.He saw Cheng Chong wrapped a bath towel around his body, didn't even wipe off the water on his body, propped his hands on the sink, and stared at himself in the mirror in a daze.

God Zilie took a bath towel and walked over, "What are you thinking?" He asked while helping him dry off the water on his body.

"It's still incredible to wake up every day and think that my mother is gone."

"I know you won't be able to get out of grief right away, but I will be by your side and work hard with you."

Cheng Chong hugged his godson, "I'm such a lucky person, my mother left, but brought you to my side."

"Okay, let's go downstairs and eat."

Jiao Zilie went to the kitchen and took out the soup that was hot on the stove, "When I was buying lunch, people said this soup supplement, I think you have worked too hard recently, so I bought it for you to taste."

"Okay, thanks baby."

When God Zilie heard the word "baby", his face turned red to the back of his ears. "Why didn't you change your clothes?"

At this time, Cheng Chong was still only wearing a bath towel, and the sunlight on the top floor was sufficient, giving his strong muscles a brilliant color.

"It's delicious, I want you to have a better appetite and eat more." Cheng Chong actually forgot, but couldn't help but tease Jiao Zilie.

"I think you're all right now, you don't need anyone to accompany you, so I'm going home."

"Don't go, don't go, I'll go change immediately."

Cheng Chong put on his clothes and combed his hair and sat back. Jiao Zilie saw that he was much more energetic than last night, so he felt relieved.

"Want to go for a walk today?"

"Well, it's okay, it's hard to hold back at home for two days."

"Where do you want to go?"

"Let's go to the park for a walk, want to see something lively."

"it is good."