i love you after all

Gold-plated pen clip, golden bird logo, flickering pen barrel, delicate and complicated two-color nib.

Dan Jin smiled and turned back the cap of the pen, "What day is today?"

Chu Qiu replied softly: "It's not a day."

"Then why did you suddenly give me a pen?"

"Anyway... I didn't give you a gift last Christmas, so you should be my Christmas present."

Danjin thought hard and asked, "When did our family celebrate Christmas?"

Chu Qiu sighed: "Why do you have to choose a festival when you give gifts? Can't you give them just because you want to?"

"What you said makes sense. Well, I'll accept it." Dan Jin put the pen in the pen holder on the table, but she didn't put it back into the pen case but put it into the pen holder, which means that she really intends to use it. "By the way, go and clean up, and come home with me in the afternoon."

Chu Qiu didn't move, and repeated the two words Dan Jin said just now: "Go home?"

Aren't they at home now?

"It's back to my parents." Dan Jin packed up the Pelikan box and paper bag on the table, "You will know in the afternoon. Go back to your bedroom to pack and dress decently."

With that said, Danjin threw the balled up pencil case and paper bag into the trash can.

Chu Qiu stared at the trash can tightly, without saying a word, with unspeakable emotions in his eyes.

Dan Jin glanced at her: "Why don't you go?"

"Did you just throw away the pen box?" Chu Qiu asked in a low voice.

"I'm not going to change hands, and it's useless to keep it. Don't worry, I have Nishijinori's pencil case, and I can't treat it badly."

"……All right."

Chuqiu walked out of Danjin's bedroom listlessly, and as soon as he went out, he happened to meet Danqian who was about to come in, he said hello and went back to his room.

Dan Qian took a second look at Chu Qiu's back, and asked curiously after entering the door: "Sister, did you scold Chu Qiu?"

"What am I scolding her for? Don't reach out to hit the smiling person, not to mention that he just gave me a pen." Dan Jin tapped the brand new m400 in the pen holder with his chin.

"It's rare for her to remember that your old one is broken." She shook her head with a faint smile, "She doesn't know yet, does she? You just bought a new white turtle two days ago, and now she's sending you another one that's exactly the same. Chuqiu If you know, you will be very sad."

"So what's the matter?" Danjin took the white turtle that Chuqiu gave her and played with her fingertips, "But I think she is the smartest among all the gift givers."

Danqian understood the meaning of Danjin's words, and looked at each other with a tacit understanding and smiled.

"I just called home to confirm, Dad..." Dan Qian paused in the middle of her words, and immediately changed her words, "Dan Zhanfeng said, you can go after three o'clock in the afternoon."

"Then let's leave after three o'clock." Dan Jin rubbed his temples, "I deliberately spared this day's free time in the midst of my busy schedule, but in the end I have to adjust the time for his work and rest. It's chilling for me before I go gone."

"Sister...Actually, I've always wanted to ask you..." Dan Qian hesitated to speak, "That's...have you gone to the hospital for a physical examination?"

Dan Jin paused while playing with the pen.

"...I don't need to go to the hospital."

she says.

Lightly sighed silently through his nose.

I don't know when it started, but Danjin became extremely repulsive to the hospital. She was unwilling to do any examinations, and she even stopped doing the basic examinations every year.Among all the examinations, the routine blood test was the one she disliked the most, and it became so serious that she would feel nauseous just by smelling the disinfectant.For so many years, she had caught a cold and had a fever, and never went to the hospital again. Once the fever was too severe, it was Jiang Yanran who forced her to call her personal doctor and put the bottle on her at home.

In fact, Danqian could faintly guess the reason.

"Sister, you can't always be like this, like carrying a dick that doesn't know when it will explode." Dan Qian softened her voice, "Go for a thorough examination earlier, if there is, start eating Hydroxyurea earlier. If not , can't you let go of this heart disease earlier?"

"I don't want to check." Dan Jin's expression gradually became faint.

"But……"

"I'd rather die suddenly in a normal life than live my whole life in fear knowing I might die."

Lianqian listened, she was taken aback for a moment, then her eyes were moist, she smiled as if mocking herself, and said in a low voice:

"Like me?"

Dan Jin looked at her younger sister, her fingers trembling slightly, "Xiao Qian, you won't die."

"Really?" The corners of Qianqian's eyes turned red, "...But I have already undergone three blood vessel operations." The red blood cells in the blood are getting narrower and narrower, and the oxygen supply capacity has dropped below 40%. One day , either died from lack of oxygen, or died from blockage of blood vessels in the organs.'Is this what the doctor told you last time?"

"Everyone is going to die," Dan Jin's tone became serious, "We can delay the day of your illness as long as possible, and when it is long enough, you will be no different from normal people, and you can live the same age."

"What about you? You didn't even give yourself a chance to procrastinate, didn't you think about what I would think?" Wan Qian asked, "If Chu Qiu finds out, what will she think?"

Tanjin fell silent.

After a long time, she made a compromise: "I will consider it."

"Sister, I'm not forcing you." Danqian suddenly choked up a little, "I love you, and I love you to live your life like this."

"It's nothing to be distressed about. This is my retribution."

Dan Jin got up, walked to the balcony, looked at the car ready to go in the yard, and whispered to himself, "I did too many wrong things for money back then. Now that I have enough money, I will naturally have to pay the price. "

Looking at her sister lightly, she didn't know what to say.

She still remembered that year in the hospital, her sister's confession to herself, she listed those people she was sorry for one by one, she said that she was greedy for the money Jiang Yanran secretly spent, she was greedy for the resources and opportunities Luo Shen brought her, Also use the most innocent early autumn for hype.It's not that she doesn't know right from wrong, she knows that she has done something wrong, but she has no way to remedy it.Those glooms, those selfishness, those pessimisms, and those exploits back then were just four words in the final analysis——

boy.

However, perhaps as Dan Jin himself said, a mistake is a mistake, and there is always a price to pay.

A group of people set foot on the way home.

The house that Dan Jin bought for his family is in Jinjiang City, where Dan Zhanfeng, Meng Hong, and Dan Xiaojun all live.Danqian was driving, Danjin and Chuqiu were sitting in the back seat, and Chuqiu was asking Danjin how to solve Jiulianhuan.

In fact, Chu Qiu would have solved it a long time ago, but she just likes to lean against Dan Jin and let her teach herself every time she rides in the car.Because when Danjin is explaining, she always subconsciously leans towards herself. She can feel the temperature of her body, and can see her white fingers turning over and over on the hoop, and she can even catch it with her own skin. Her breath.

Today's Danjin pressed Jiulianhuan and said, "Another day."

"What's wrong?" Chu Qiu asked.

"I'm going back today. I haven't been back for two years." Dan Jin crossed his fingers together and rubbed them lightly back and forth. "I need some time to think about it. When I go back, what should I say first?"

The driver smiled slightly and said, "Sister is nervous."

"It should be," Dan Jin smiled, "I always feel that after so many years, everyone should be different."

"What's the difference? Dan Zhanfeng asked you for money two days ago."

"I know."

Dan Jin was silent for a while, and his voice became much softer: "He used to be very cruel to me when he took the money, maybe... maybe now, he will treat me better after taking the money."

Chu Qiu's fingers tightened instantly.

She suddenly thought of the long-sealed diary, the seven-year-old Dan Jin wrote the following sentence on the day she committed suicide:

"I think, no matter how much he doesn't like me, he probably doesn't want me to die. Maybe, like other people's fathers, he will start to pity me, start to care about me, feel sorry for me, and then take me to see a doctor. Bandage the wound."

It seems that no matter how grown up and mature this woman is, she will never be able to escape her stupidity and innocence in the face of family affection.

But now, at least she's by her side.

Chuqiu held Danjin's wrist and said softly: "If anyone treats you badly, I will kill him."

Dan Jin just smiled, not paying attention to Chu Qiu's words.

The three of them came to the community where Dan Zhanfeng lived, parked the car, found the corresponding building, and took the elevator up.

Dan Zhanfeng opened the anti-theft door early, and only closed the outer screen door to keep out mosquitoes.When Dan Jin opened the door and went in, he saw Dan Zhanfeng busy in the kitchen, and 15-year-old Dan Xiaojun was sitting on the sofa watching TV.

"Sister, you are all back." Dan Xiaojun didn't get up, and waved lazily in greeting, "Dad is cooking for you."

"Can he still cook?"

Although Dan Jin's tone of voice was quite mocking, a little smile could not help but bend his lips.

"Sister, you are getting more and more beautiful," Dan Xiaojun smiled and let them sit down, "The other two sisters are also very beautiful."

"You, too, have grown a lot taller." Danjin gave Chuqiu a wink, and asked her to take the toy she bought for Xiaojun.

Chu Qiu took the gift and handed it to Dan Xiaojun who never raised his ass.Dan Xiaojun took it with one hand, and thanked him casually: "Thank you, sister Chuqiu."

A strange feeling rose in Chu Qiu's heart.She always felt that she was only related to Dan Jin and Dan Qian, but until this moment, she realized that she was actually related to the entire Dan family. People are "family".Dan Xiaojun, who had never met before him, could call himself a sister as a matter of course.

Dan Zhanfeng came out of the kitchen with two dishes, put them on the dining table, and said with a smile: "They are all here. Sit first, sit first. Xiaojun, pour water for the sisters, and bring out the fruit plate."

"Okay." Dan Xiaojun lazily went to get the water glass and fruit plate, but he didn't bother to fill up the glass, and only poured a small half of each glass.

Dan Zhanfeng wiped his hands, walked to the living room, with a smile on his face all the time: "The bones are stewing in the pot, and you can eat after stewing."

Dan Jin had never received such treatment before, and didn't know how to react for a while, so she just nodded bluntly.

"Xiao Jin, at this moment, Dad wants to discuss something with you."

Dan Zhanfeng rubbed his hands and sat beside Dan Jin, his dodging eyes seemed to contain something hidden.

Danjin understood, and said to Chuqiu: "Chuqiu, take your toys and go to his bedroom with your brother to play for a while."

"But..." Chu Qiu hesitated.

"Go."

Chu Qiu had no choice but to get up obediently, carrying the toy and avoiding with Dan Xiaojun.

Dan Zhanfeng watched the two children go away, and with a smile, he grabbed a piece of chocolate from the fruit plate and put it in Danjin's hand, and then picked up a piece of toffee and stuffed it for Danqian, "Come, come, eat candy, eat candy."

Dan Jin holds the chocolate that Dan Zhanfeng gave her, her eyes are a little dazed.

"Eat, didn't you like eating chocolate when you were young? I knew you were coming, so I went to the supermarket to buy a catty."

"Do you remember me... when I was a child?" Dan Jin asked softly.

"How can I not remember, I am your father, not an outsider." Dan Zhanfeng's tone seemed to blame Dan Jin for being alienated from him.

Dan Jin slowly peeled off the tin foil of the chocolate, twisted a small piece, broke it lightly, and put it in his mouth.

"How are you recently? There's nothing wrong with your body, right?" Dan Zhanfeng smiled wrinkled all over his face.

It seemed that for the first time in 30 years he was concerned about his health.

The tip of Danjin's nose was a little sore, she lowered her eyes as if to cover up, and replied in a low voice: "It's all good."

"It's fine, it's fine, your mother and I are fine too." Dan Zhanfeng nodded gratifiedly, he took a sip of tea to moisten his throat, and then changed the subject, "This... your brother, you know too , I am almost an adult. I plan to buy him a house and put it there. When he gets married, it will be considered as pre-marital property. It will be more secure. The house is all optimistic, but it is only 50 yuan short. Look at this no……"

The second small piece of chocolate that was about to be delivered into the mouth was in mid-empty.

Dan Jin slowly turned her head and looked at Dan Zhanfeng, her hand holding the chocolate trembled slightly.

"So you cooked for me today, and gave me candy, all for this 50?"

Dan Zhanfeng became anxious: "Look, how can you say that your father is so mercenary? People say that your father is a white-eyed wolf." As he spoke, his voice became smaller and smaller, as if he was getting more and more mercenary. Feeling more and more guilty, he went to get the water on the table again, using it as a cover, and muttered in a low voice while drinking, "What's wrong with asking for money, you earn so much, you should have been close to your brother."

Danqian who had been silent all this time couldn't help but said: "How can you say that? My sister's money didn't fall from the sky."

"When did you get to talk? Aren't you sucking your sister's blood too?" Dan Zhanfeng was very rude when he spoke to Danqian, "Don't fucking yell at me, although I never raised you, But after all, you are bleeding from Lao Tzu, do you know how to write filial piety!"

"you……"

"What are you staring at? Look at other people's families. Who doesn't have a sister who raises a younger brother, huh? Your younger brother can extend our Dan family's surname. What about you two? When you marry someone later, you will be the wife of another family." , the money belongs to other people's family, shouldn't you give more to your mother's family?"

"Xiaoqian," Danjin held onto Danqian, her voice was very low, "forget it."

"Sister..." Danqian gritted her teeth.

Dan Jin raised her eyes, her face was pale, and she only asked, "Where is the toilet?"

Dan Zhanfeng pointed inward angrily.

Danjin slowly got up and walked towards the toilet step by step.

After closing the door and locking it, she knelt in front of the toilet, clutching the edge of the toilet, and began to vomit uncontrollably.

The mouthful of chocolate that she had just swallowed was vomited out of her throat mixed with sour water, and she coughed heavily, because of the movement of vomiting, her eyes were forced into tears.She just knelt like that, coughing, while letting tears flow from the corners of her eyes.

The author has something to say: ["For all the gift-givers, they are the smartest." from O. Henry "The Gift of the Magi"]