i love you after all

When did it start?

Danjin finally sat here.

There was a faint smell of disinfectant in her nose, and she could only hear the rustling sound of the pen tip rubbing against the paper in her ears, which made her distracted.Liang Bohe, who was wearing a white coat opposite him, took a pen and wrote a few words on a piece of paper, then his sharp eyes passed through the lens of the glasses and landed sharply on the big star in front of him.

"When did it start?"

he asked again.

Dan Jin's eyebrows trembled, and when he came back to his senses, there was a moment of blankness in his eyes, "What...what started?"

Liang Bohe was silent for a while, and said in a low voice: "Xiao Jin, you never let yourself show this expression before. It seems that you really never loved me."

"..."

When I was in Danjin, there was a major change in my family. My mother, Meng Hong, was transferred from the original No. [-] Mental Hospital to Jinjiang No. [-] Hospital. The hospitalization expenses tripled, and the family could not afford it at all.At that time, in order to allow her mother to continue to receive treatment in Jinjiang Fifth Hospital, Danjin fell in love with her mother's attending physician, Liang Baihe.

For some bitterness, it is easier to talk with a tender lover than with a cold doctor.Of course, it didn't take long for her to join Yunzhou Entertainment. After receiving her first salary, she broke up with Liang Baihe quickly.

He was just a stepping stone for her.

Of course she hadn't loved him.

"...You just said that you feel that you have a different feeling for a person." Liang Baihe leaned into the soft back of the seat, his eyes were fixed on Danjin's face, "What do you think, from what? From time to time, she is different to you?"

Dan Jin lowered his eyes and thought for a while.

"Maybe it's because...in the few days when she appeared on the variety show on the island, she...was very brave, as if she had grown up all of a sudden."

"Since you realized that she has grown up, she treats you differently, right?" Liang Baihe narrowed his eyes, "Why is it different?"

"...I used to always think that one day she will find a boy to fall in love with, just like other ordinary 17-year-old girls," Danjin said in a soft voice, and it was not easy to express her inner thoughts "But a boy really appeared, and I realized that I was actually very sad. I imagined how she would marry someone else and have children. When imagining, for the first time in my life, I wanted to die because of an illusion. .”

"..." Liang Bohe looked at Dan Jin, as if looking at a stranger.

"I...have I been waiting for her to grow up?" Dan Jin muttered to herself, "It's like, I knew that the early autumn when I grew up must be mine, so when I realized that she had grown up, I decided She belongs to me. That's why... it hurts me so much to see her go to someone else."

"It seems that you know where the sticking point is."

"Of course I know, of course I know that all of this means that I'm in love with her." Dan Jin smiled lightly, "I've really lost control too many times, even if I'm a fool, I should understand my own heart. "

She admitted it so easily.Even if she knew, admitting this was tantamount to admitting all sins.

This is the deepest and longest hidden sin.

Liang Baihe smiled wryly: "A person like you will actually give his heart to like others one day."

"...You won't understand. There has never been such a person who completely put me first in her life." Dan Jin's eyes inadvertently revealed rare tenderness, "I am a person who has been loved since childhood." People abandoned by God live in the dirtiest and most corrupt bottom of the world. I don’t believe that anyone who has no blood relationship with me will really love me, let alone even if there is a blood relationship, it may not necessarily... ..."

Liang Bohe's eyes showed distress: "Xiao Jin, I told you that I really love you."

"The real love in my eyes is the love that is willing to exchange life for life." Dan Jin met Liang Baihe's gaze, stubborn and stubborn, "I believe that you love me, and I also believe that Jiang Yanran loves me, but I don't believe that you will Die for me."

"..." Liang Bohe was stunned.

"But I believe in early autumn."

"..."

"Maybe that's why I'm willing to give my heart to her." Dan Jin then laughed at himself, "Unfortunately, she doesn't need me now. She has chosen another person."

Liang Bohe's hand holding the pen became tighter and tighter, "She is already with someone else, do you still want to like her?"

"I'm a stubborn person," Dan Jin looked at the leaves outside the window, with a tenderness Liang Baihe had never seen before, "I'm sure it's her, then in this life, she will be the only one."

Liang Bohe was very angry in his heart. Although he didn't know what he was angry with, his whole body suddenly relaxed, and more powerlessness surged up.

"Actually, I didn't want you to cure me of any illness when I came to you. I just wanted to find someone to talk about these things. Otherwise, I might never have the chance to say that I like her in my life. What a pity."

What a pity.

When Liang Bohe saw Dan Jin saying this, regret really flashed in his eyes.

He knew that he was probably the only one in the world who was lucky enough to hear Dan Jin say "like".

"No matter what, thank you for choosing me to speak your mind. I thought..." Liang Baihe sighed with a smile.

Tan Jin looked at him and shook her head.

"I chose you not because you are special to me," she has always been so cruel, so cruel that she refused to leave any warmth to each other, "just because you are a doctor with professional ethics, I know you won't Tell others about the patient's privacy. That's all, Bai He."

Liang Bohe gritted his teeth, feeling that the roots of his teeth were about to be crushed by himself, "...I almost thought you had become a normal person, but you are still the same as before, not a single bit changed."

Dan Jin said softly: "This is good for you and me."

Liang Bohe was silent.

It wasn't until he sent Danjin out, returned the medical record to her, and watched her take five steps, that he looked at the ethereal figure, with a choked tone in his voice:

"Tanjin!"

The slender figure paused.

Liang Baihe's eyes were red, and the mature man spoke in a tone of accusation and grievance: "I'm 35 years old and haven't gotten married yet, no matter what I think, it's all your fault."

And Danjin didn't stop her pace of leaving, but when she left the corner of the corridor, she lightly sent a sentence:

"sorry."

Dan Jin went back to the villa.Besides returning to this place, she couldn't think of any other place to go.

When she entered the door, she saw Chu Qiu sitting on the sofa very stiffly, and there was no one else beside her.Danjin didn't look at her more, didn't say hello to her, and went upstairs.

After returning to the room, after putting down the bag for a while, there was a knock on the door.

Don't even think to know who it is.

Dan Jin was stunned for a while, and after hearing the door was knocked twice, she walked over slowly and opened the door for Chu Qiu.

Chu Qiu's eyes were red, her standing posture was cute and awkward, she seemed to have something to say but didn't dare to say it, she held back for a long time before saying: "Where did you go?"

Dan Jin smiled helplessly.Obviously she was the one who took Xiaoqian's hand and disappeared in front of him, and it wasn't her who was left behind, so she came to ask herself where she went.

"I, after I came back, they said that you went out, so I sat on the sofa and waited for you. Where did you go?" Chu Qiu's voice became smaller and smaller, "I haven't come back for so long..."

Dan Jin lowered her eyes, remained silent for a while, and replied, "I went to see my ex-boyfriend."

Chu Qiu's body visibly froze, and subconsciously mumbled, "Why?"

"It's nothing, I want to talk to someone about something." Dan Jin tightened his fingers on the edge of the door frame, his nails dug into the cracks of the wood, and a feeling of depression surged in his heart, "You go to Xiaoqian, I'll rest first gone."

With that said, she was about to close the door.

But Chu Qiu resisted the door lock and shouted her name anxiously, "Danjin!"

Dan Jin's eyes were tired, "What else?"

Chu Qiu thought and thought, desperately came up with a topic to delay time, and hurriedly said: "You knocked on the corner of the table this afternoon, there must be bruises on your back, may I rub some medicine for you?"

"……no need."

"Wipe it, anyway..."

Dan Jin looked at that young face, and felt a faint pain in her heart again, "Would Xiao Qian not mind such an intimate thing as applying medicine?"

Chu Qiu was stunned, not knowing how to answer for a while.

"Although I don't agree with you being together, my attitude is just my attitude. After all, you are already lovers. I can't be with my sister..."

When Dan Jin said this, he stopped in time, almost revealing what was in his heart.

"Lover...relationship?" Chu Qiu murmured and repeated.

"...No matter what, since you have decided to be with her, then..."

Tanjin couldn't speak anymore.It's not easy to say something you don't want to say.

"..."

Chu Qiu weakly put down the hand blocking the door.

She regretted agreeing to Danqian to do her that favor. Danjin is a person with very upright moral values, but as long as their false lover relationship exists for a day, Danjin will not allow herself to go farther.The gap between them seems to be getting wider and wider, and the distance between her and her seems to be impossible to catch up in a lifetime.

That's right, Danjin is Ran Chuqiu's god, so why is Ran Chuqiu Danjin's?

This 30-year-old mature woman already has her own career, relationships, and assets. She has countless zero deposits, and many ex-boyfriends whose names she can't remember, who lived 13 years longer than herself. In time, there are many people and things that you don't know.Ran Chuqiu is just the most inconspicuous of the many things she has.

She can't talk about whether to hold her tightly or not, because she can't hold her at all.

But she would never know that in her eyes, such a woman who was as far away as a god said to another person a few hours ago:

"I'm a stubborn person. I've decided it's her, so in this life, she will be the only one."

Fortunately, a lifetime is long.In the early autumn, there are still many opportunities to understand that that person has already lived in her palm and is within easy reach.

The author has something to say: ["Admitting this is tantamount to admitting all sins." from Wang Xiaobo's "Golden Age"]

There is no doubt that Danjin is her god to Chuqiu. In fact, Chuqiu is very different to Danjin. You can go back and have a look. The thieves in early autumn are good at flirting. Children don’t deliberately say something Words are really easy to fall for.