restless youth syndrome

When we are most in love.After returning home, we also live together.I continue my work, he likes to paint, and always goes to some art exhibitions, I can't talk to him about it, and I don't know when he met another person who also likes to paint.He went out to play with that person without telling me, and almost fell to his death on the cliff, but I saved him.In the hospital, I asked him if he didn't love me anymore, and he answered no, I believed him.Unexpectedly, he eloped with that person in the end.I found him and asked him, did he not love me from the beginning?He said that he really loved me at the beginning, but now he loves that person even more. He said that he and I are not from the same world.I think he can break up with me calmly, I may not refuse to agree to him, I respect him very much.But he chose the extreme.I killed that man, he hated me, locked him in the house, he didn't think about committing suicide, seeing how he cries every day, I really feel sorry for him.In the end, I compromised, and I said to him, let's make up, just like at the beginning, I can pretend that this time things didn't happen.He said yes. "

Having said that, Zhang Zechen paused. I noticed that he had been rubbing the scar on his right wrist with his fingertips unnaturally.I have a hunch that the scar must be related to this incident.

He continued, "How could it be possible to reconcile? He hated me and wanted to kill me, and he did. That night, we slept in the same bed. I didn't guard against him because he was my lover. , if he wants to kill me, I will admit that I will die under his hands. At night, I felt that he found something from under the pillow. It was a knife, which he had been hiding under the pillow, and he held it tightly. Holding the knife, hanging above my head. I pretended not to know, thinking that if he wanted me to die, then I would die. But he was chanting the name of that person, saying to avenge him. Before the knife fell, I felt that I had been stabbed severely. He told me that it would be great if he didn’t meet me, if he didn’t have me in his life, and if he could marry that person. I I asked him for the last time if he never loved me from the beginning. He answered yes, heartbreaking. I took him back to the cliff where he almost fell to his death, provided him with nutrient solution, and told him that if He said he still loves me, then I will take him back. I stayed on the cliff for two weeks, he hung below for two weeks, until he died, he didn’t say anything.”

This is the story of Zhang Zechen and Bai Yushi, Zhang Zechen's oral version.

The reason why it is Zhang Zechen's oral version is not that someone told me a different version later, but I think what Zhang Zechen said is absolutely different from the real situation.This is my hunch without any basis.

But this is indeed a love that cannot be looked back. In this love, not only two young lives were sacrificed, but Zhang Zechen was also sacrificed.

I touched Zhang Zechen's face with distress, and whispered to him, "It's okay, you still have me."

"Lele won't betray me, will she?"

"of course not."

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The spores of love grow into saplings, watered by lies.

It is impossible for me to know in my life that this is a well-designed scam. From the time I saw that diary, no, from the time I met Ye Yiming, no, from the time I didn’t know Zhang Zechen, everything was carefully planned. Well, wait until I step in, get caught, bewitched.My life after that was all based on the script that was written. I seemed to be living in history, and everything in the future had a fixed plot.My short life was all lived under the shadow of Zhang Zechen, but I foolishly fell in love with such a terrible person.

Luckily, I'll never know for the life of me how horrible he really is. ?

tenth disease

?I had a strange dream.

I stood under a towering tree, surrounded by many children, holding hands and singing.I wanted to join them too, but a kid came up to me and said, 'Big Brother, can't you play with us? '.I lowered my head and found that I had no legs at all, but I was standing.

The scene got farther and farther away from me, and I was dragged into the darkness, at which point I was startled awake.

I sat up quickly from the bed, and the fur ball jumped to the ground with a meow, arched my back, and the fur stood up. I looked behind me covetously, and when I turned around, Zhang Zechen pointed a gun at me. Facing my stomach, there was a lot of blood, and a bloody child appeared out of nowhere, crying. At this moment, the fur ball jumped up, grabbed at Zhang Zechen, and was picked up and thrown by him. I fell to my death on one side, I looked at him in horror, only to see that he was smiling, and what he was holding in his hand was no longer a gun, but a knife. A child with the umbilical cord still attached to me.

The surroundings were gradually surrounded by the cries of children, Zhang Zechen said something to me viciously, but I didn't hear anything.

At this time, I suddenly felt someone slapped me, and I turned around, but there was no one.

I really wanted to hear someone calling me, but no matter how I searched, I couldn’t find it. I ran and ran, ran a long way, and suddenly fell over. When I looked down, my legs had been hugged by the child, and I couldn’t move. no.

I don't know when I woke up. The dream and the reality seemed to be connected together. I just woke up unconsciously. When I looked up, Zhang Zechen held my face worriedly. My face was wet. Touch is tears.

Seeing that I woke up, Zhang Zechen asked me a little uneasy, "Did you have a nightmare?"

I hesitated and nodded.I can't tell if it was a dream or not, it was very real, but I can remember very little in retrospect.

I looked around for furballs, and she was sitting by the window, her fur glistening in the morning sun, licking her paws and grooming herself, nothing happened.

Seeing this, I breathed a sigh of relief, telling myself that it was just a dream, maybe because I was stimulated by seeing those things yesterday, a big man doesn't need to worry about these small things.

During breakfast, Zhang Zechen asked me several times if I was alright, and I always replied that I was fine, and I also felt that there was nothing wrong with it, it was just a nightmare, and no one has ever had a nightmare.

Thinking of those children in the dream, I unconsciously touched my stomach, and my heart suddenly became uneasy again.There was a slight bulge there, and I didn't pay much attention to it before. I told myself that it must be because I had a good life and got fat.

Because of the nightmare this time, I mustered up the courage again to suggest to Zhang Zechen that I should go out for a walk. I always stay in the manor, and I am about to fall ill.I had already prepared for the worst, whether Zhang Zechen would abuse/abuse again because of this, but he thought about it for a while, and finally agreed.

When I told Ye Yiming about this, he couldn't believe it.

"Brother Chen really said yes?"

"Of course! What did I lie to you about? I lied to you to be struck by lightning."

"It's the first time I've seen him vomit... Then why are you telling me?"

"Then what... since he let me go out, I have to settle the matter? I have been missing for more than three months. My classmates and my family have to have an explanation. I want to contact them. So I want you to give me my phone."

"..." He didn't answer me right away, he bowed his head in thought for a while, and then he still put on a smiley face, "For the phone, you can ask brother Chen directly, but I think he will give it to me even if you don't ask." You. But I advise you, live your own life well, new life, that home, don’t go back.”

What he said was inexplicable, and when he said this, I saw a serious expression on his face that he had never had before, but the more he refused to let me go, the more I wanted to go, besides, I felt that something must have happened at home What's up.The worst idea is, Zhang Zechen won't kill them all, right?But thinking about it carefully, he didn't need to do this, and he had no reason to kill them. Zhang Zechen would not do anything that was not beneficial, because those two people really couldn't pose a threat to me, and I didn't have deep feelings for them.Although I was sure that Zhang Zechen would not kill someone, I still felt an inexplicable sense of guilt.

I don't want anyone to die because of me, anyone is fine.

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In the afternoon, I went out in Zhang Zechen’s red Bugatti. After the gate of the manor, there was a gentle downhill road, with trees on both sides, all of which were green and new leaves. There would be an old-fashioned street lamp on both sides of the road. Man, I think the security work of this manor is too exaggerated. It is almost catching up with Buckingham Palace. There are gunmen everywhere. Is this to defend against people or against Ultraman?Moreover, this is the only way in and out of the manor, surrounded by undeveloped woods, and there are so many guards at the gate of the manor, there is no need to send people to guard such a large area, and how much it will cost to hire so many people.

Going out from the mountains is the outskirts of the city. You can see large areas of modern buildings in about half an hour on the highway, and it takes another half an hour to reach the city center.

Looking at these familiar scenes, I felt very cordial, and finally returned to society.

"Where do you want to go? Or follow me?" Zhang Zechen asked me while waiting for the red light.

I looked at my watch. It was five o'clock. My father and Aunt Chen were not at home at this time. It was meaningless to go home. Let's go to the university."

"There are still classes in college so late?" With the green light, he put out his cigarette and started the car.

"No, my club is still active at this time, and the people I'm looking for should be there."

"What society?"

"Literary club. It was established by the seniors of the previous class. Our club has a