restless youth syndrome

Therefore, Qi's mother did not win Qi Le's custody.

In the end, Mother Qi committed suicide when she was only in her twenties.

Because of the pressure from Zhang Zechen's father, Qi's mother's father also plummeted in the road and died unexpectedly.The family that raised Qi Le's sister was also implicated and all of them were killed, but Qi Le's sister was not. She was left behind and planned to marry Zhang Zechen.

At that time, Zhang Zechen was already very frightening in the Tao. It would be a disaster for any girl to marry him, because he had a tendency to abuse/abuse.

Fortunately, Zhang Zechen liked men, so he let sister Qi Le live, and told his parents seriously that he was going to marry that boy.

It was this year that Zhang Zechen met Qi Le for the first time.

Qi Le may have forgotten that when he was six years old, he went to the Zhang family's big mansion, wearing dirty clothes, and met Zhang Zechen who was a head taller than himself.

Zhang Zechen helped him wash his body, put on expensive clothes, sat on a long table and ate a silent dinner, was asked a lot of questions, and then was asked to cry, Zhang Zechen coaxed him and stuffed him Mouth full of candy.When sleeping with Zhang Zechen at night, he ran to sleep on the carpet in the middle of the night because the bed was too soft, so Zhang Zechen accompanied him to sleep on the carpet for one night.

At that time, Qi Le was too young, and Zhang Zechen was at an age of strong desire/desire, the two were separated soon, and they agreed to marry Zhang Zechen after Qi Le.

In the blink of an eye, more than ten years have passed, and Zhang Zechen has learned about Qi Le's life from various channels every day. He has changed from a burden that must be married to a person who truly loves.

He couldn't help but want to talk to Qi Le, and couldn't bear to just look at Qi Le from a distance or from the picture.

So he acted in a play that could keep Qi Le by his side forever.

——"Don't look at the car when crossing the road?"

The opening of the play was not surprising.

——"Ye Yiming told you everything?"

But make the only audience immersive.

—— "Then let me settle accounts with you alone."

Let him know he can't escape.Let him know who he belongs to.

Everything is going on like a script, no matter what the cost is, he must be inseparable from himself.

— but the child was an accident.

Let him meet Ye Sheng, let him play outside, let him encounter the dangers that he has already arranged, and then he has a reason to give him the last punishment, which is to ruin his feet.

But because of the appearance of the child, nothing can be a reason for him to punish Qi Le.

So it dragged on until Christmas day, when Qi Le saw him having sex with someone else and ran away angrily.

He now has a reason to punish Qi Le, because Qi Le escaped, no matter what the reason is, no matter whose fault it is.

That day in the hospital, Zhang Zechen planned to completely destroy Qi Le's self-esteem and smash all the bones in his calf, but he didn't have the heart to do so in the end.

Then he saw the two children.

It was as if what happened back then was repeated.

He sent the boy away by mistake.

Today it is today.

Once again the plot deviates from the script.

He didn't expect Qi Le to meet his sister—?

No.20 The six diseases and the world without you

?Everyone's face becomes ugly.

Qi Le felt as if he was lying on a mountain of corpses, staring blankly at the top.

This mountain of corpses is composed of 'self', and all the dead 'self' are lying on the bottom, and the self is about to die.

Why is the face of a familiar person caught in his eyes so ugly?

When all the memories flooded up, some things seemed to be linked together, as if they could be explained.

I have experienced the feeling that all the past that I have forgotten is now in front of my eyes.

He felt that nothing was important anymore, at least not as important as before.Those things that I didn't dare to look directly at, can now face them calmly, because so what if I know them?Even if you know it, you can't escape, even if you know it, you can't change it.

Qi Le thinks he is a patient with Stockholm Syndrome, and he has developed love for his abuser, but he doesn't want to admit why he fell in love, because he doesn't know why.

So he evaded, if he could not escape, he would forget it, if he could not forget it, he would die.

But, why is it so uncomfortable?

My heart really hurts.

Out of breath.

It really hurts.

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Qi Le smelled the smell of disinfectant, but that smell seemed to be pushed away by something, and then the mixed smell of Marlboro and incense flooded into his nostrils.

Qi Le felt that the smell was very familiar and reassuring, but the more reassuring he felt, the more painful his heart became.

The forehead was covered with something warm and soft, and it didn't leave for a long time.

I really want to know what it is, I really want to know what makes my heart throb.

Qi Le slowly opened his eyes, and saw a very handsome face very close to him. The traces of time were all engraved in those long and narrow eyes, making them look scarred and bottomless.

His face was itchy, and something scratched his cheek.Qi Le reached out to wipe it away, it was tears.

why cry?Is it painful?Qi Le himself couldn't figure it out.

The owner of the handsome face cupped his own face with his slender hands, and pressed his forehead against his, without saying a word.

During the past few days in a coma, Qi Le would cry and cry regardless of day or night.

How much Qi Le cried in his sleep made him worry, every cry was like a knife cutting Zhang Zechen's heart.

Seeing Qi Le wake up, he had mixed feelings in his heart, those confused eyes made Zhang Zechen think that Qi Le had lost his memory again.

It was just waking up and not having the energy to focus.

After taking a few breaths, Qi Le's mind gradually cleared up. He looked at Zhang Zechen, and said in a heavy voice, as if the breath he exhaled could overwhelm him: "Do you know how much I love you?"

Zhang Zechen felt guilty, which made him unable to say a word, and the thousands of words in his heart disappeared without a trace in his throat.

——"Help me...don't hurt me anymore, let me go!"

——"I love you! I love you! And you're doing this to me!"

——"Why do you want to do this to this extent?!"

——"Please, don't punish me again! Let me die!"

——"Why can't you be nice to me...?"

Qi Le's subconscious cry lingered in his mind.

Of course he loves Qi Le, of course he wants to be nice to Qi Le, and indeed he gave Qi Le all the tenderness of his life.

But his methods are by no means wise, or even foolish.

Of course the beast doesn't know how to love someone.

Even if you give him the best, he will be scarred at the same time, how can he enjoy it?

Everything is too late.

"How much you love me, I really feel it." Qi Le wrapped his arms around Zhang Zechen, and patted Zhang Zechen's back, "I love you too, really, I love you. It's just Chener, our Love is not that great after all, it is not a love worthy of praise, because both of us are too selfish."

Qi Le paused, and then said: "Even if you don't break my leg, I won't leave your side. You don't have to plot against me, as long as you treat me sincerely, I will follow you wholeheartedly." I'm still not cold-hearted, I'm loving you with all my heart, it's just a little uncomfortable."

"I'm sorry, Lele..."

"You didn't apologize to me, now you listen to me." Qi Le's head started to hurt, "Don't hurt yourself, and don't think about dying, you will hurt, and I will hurt when I look at it, you agree first Me, okay?"

"Okay." Zhang Zechen nodded.

"Zhang Ran is our child, your own flesh and blood. She is still young and needs you very much now. Another child... He may not want us to appear in his life again, so let him. But you Make sure Zhang Ran grows up safely, okay?"

"it is good."

"That girl who looks exactly like me, she is not from our world, so don't let her get involved, okay?"

"it is good."

"This way I can rest assured..." Qi Le kissed Zhang Zechen.

Zhang Zechen had already anticipated what Qi Le wanted to do, but he had no right to interfere.

Qi Le wanted to leave.Because he no longer has the courage to live.

Sure enough, Zhang Zechen felt Qi Le's hand reach into his clothes, took out the gun, put it in his hand and clenched it tightly.

"Close your eyes, it's too ugly." Qi Le said to him.

Zhang Zechen felt his nose sore and his eyes swell.

He couldn't say anything, and he had no right to say anything.

Tears fell drop by drop on Qi Le's face, filled with remorse, guilt, uneasiness and other feelings towards Qi Le.The warm liquid ran across Qi Le's face, and he couldn't open his eyes.

"Don't be like this, I've lost all the courage I've managed to gather."

"do not die..."

"This is your punishment, who told you to keep bullying me."

The cold metal against the temple, the sunlight pouring in from the window, the immature voice of a child outside the door, and the scent of a lover lingering in the nose.

—but it's all over.

Death is just a moment of pain for the person concerned, but it is a lifetime of misfortune for those involved.

There is no such person in Zhang Zechen's world anymore.

The radiating blood on his face slowly solidified. He stared at the people below him for a long time. When the people outside the door heard the gunshots coming in, they saw him sitting on the edge of the bed in a daze, with tears streaming from his eyes. , stained pink by the blood on his face, dripping down.

Everything slows down and the sound is stripped from the world.

Zhang Zechen feels that the world is gray