falsehood

I want to convey the feeling of loving you so much that you want to cry. At that time, I didn't realize that I love you so deeply.

The sound of footsteps approached step by step, the rain fell on the grass, and the most poignant red petals were flying all over the sky, so red that I couldn't open my eyes.You come close to hold me tightly, your breath is so familiar, your trembling body is so tightly imprisoning me, Qingcang, you said that the most beautiful and saddest thing in this life is to fall in love with someone who shouldn't be loved.What I never thought at that time was that your figure was engraved in my mind so long ago, like a tree root tightly grasping the earth, unable to be pulled out and lingering.

The sky was also drizzling like this that day, and the air seemed to be stained with a layer of bright red blood.You lay quietly in my arms without any breath, I just watched you slowly dissipate in front of me, Xingyun, the tears in your eyes are so cold, like snow floating in winter I am so heartbroken.Do you know that the greatest luck and the greatest misfortune of my life is to fall in love with you. Falling in love with Shang is a fruitless result. If I face up to this matter earlier, it will not be so painful now.

"Xingyun...I'm late..." Your curled up body is in such pain, and your heart hurts like something is grabbing you.

Xing Yun just buried his head in Qing Cang's arms, there was the warmth he wanted there, as long as he hugged tightly, all the pain seemed to disappear, as long as it took a while, it would be fine after a while.

There was warm wetness on his chest, Qingcang didn't think about whether it was Xingyun's tears or something else, at this moment he just wanted to hug the person in his arms for a little longer, a little longer.I'm sorry for imposing my will on you, but how can I be willing to let you disappear in this world, it's so dark, so cold, I can't bear it.

"Xingyun, I'll take you back and live a good life. Don't look for death anymore. Think about the Shang clan. If you disappear, I'm afraid I will destroy the Shang clan and bury you with you." You can blame me for being selfish, call me sinister Forget it, no matter how painful it is, I have to live well and live with my nostalgia.

Qing Cang holds Xing Yun's face in his hands, even though Xing Yun's painful consciousness is confused, he can see the undisguised affection in Qing Cang's eyes.There was a pain in his chest that he had never experienced in his life, which made him almost out of breath. "Qingcang...I hate you..." Why do you make me feel such pain, why do you have to pay so much for me, why do you want me to be bound.

Seeing Xing Yun say these words weakly, Qing Cang smiled wryly and said: "Well, it's okay to hate..." Then he leaned over and kissed Xing Yun.This kiss was not deep, it was just a symbolic touch, but it made Xing Yun's heart tremble, and the heartbeat sounded "thump, bang, bang" from inside.There really was a heart in his chest, but it made him... so sad.

Qing Cang stared at Xing Yun closely, as if he wanted to engrave him deeply into his mind again, if you would think of me occasionally in the days when I was not around, even if the whole soul was broken into billions of pieces in the next moment, I would Always waiting for you where you can't see, until the long river of time buries you and me. "Xingyun, I'm sorry... Even if it's for your people, I have to live. I love you so much, and I can't bear your pain, but I can't help making you sad." I'm sorry to leave you alone again, If possible, I want to accompany you through every moment.

Qing Cang embraced Xing Yun's hand and grabbed it forward, then slapped something hard into Xing Yun's body. Before falling asleep, Xing Yun saw that powerful man looking at him with dead eyes, as if he was Say goodbye without a deadline.If I could...I want to hold your hand tightly and tell you that I love you so deeply, and I am nostalgic for the warmth you give me, but why...don't even give me such a chance, the world is so big and I can't find you I can't find it anymore.

In the 25th year of Qiyuan in Ningguo, the crown prince Jiahao died on the way back to Beijing in Acropolis. The emperor was in pain, and the tax was reduced for three years to pray for the crown prince.In the second month of the same year, Gu Yunjue died of illness, and the emperor named him the General Protecting the Nation, and buried him next to the prince's tomb according to the prince's last wish.

This day Qi Wen visited the Shang clan as usual, and at some point, he felt a deep sense of powerlessness when facing Xing Yun.Although Xingyun still treats him the same as before, he still can't help but want to escape when he sees the expression of nostalgia, remorse, and grief on the occasional expression of nostalgia, remorse, and grief on the originally indifferent King Shang.

"Qi Wen, I can't hold it anymore, he is so decisive, he is so ruthless, hehe..." I never knew that a caring person can be so painful. Was Qingcang back then waiting for the years like himself now? Is it too late for time to go back and forth?If this is your punishment for me, please tell me how long is this period?

Qi Wen has never seen Xingyun like this before. He is obviously smiling, but the tears in his eyes never stop leaving tear marks on his face. He is usually eloquent and doesn't know what to say to comfort his eyes at this moment. people.It's just a person who is trapped by love...

"What did he tell you in the end?" Xing Yun asked after a long time.At that time, white snow was flying all over the sky, and the wind was howling, as if performing a stage play that ended in tragedy.Lying beside his already cold body, he felt the most painful heartache at that time. It turned out that this is love, so sweet but so painful.He and Qing Cang were the only two left in the whole world, and the voice in his ear was getting farther and farther away. It wasn't that he didn't want to hear it, but he just didn't want to destroy the tranquility between him and Qing Cang at this moment.Caressing the face of the man who had lost his breath, Xing Yun chuckled, slowly picked up the lying man, and kissed his cold lips.

"He didn't say anything except let me take care of the aftermath." He said, let me take care of you.He said, if time can go back, I want to give you the warmth you want.He said, don't tell you that he wants to hold your hand so hard and never let go.

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The reason for Qingcang's death in this chapter will be explained in the hand in hand volume, and there will be more detailed memories of the events in the human world.