Love before marriage

He pulled out the package, unwrapped it, and found Lu Xu who was almost suffocated under the layers of tattered fabric.

Under the condition of hypoxia, people will be unconscious to some extent. Lu Xu's face was flushed and his eyes were open, but he seemed to not recognize the person in front of him at all. When he was carried out, he struggled subconsciously. The voice It's not crying, it's a wail of fear and trembling.

Lu Mingyan hugged the child tightly, holding the child's face in one hand, "Xuxu, it's me!"

Only then did Lu Xu stop, gasping for breath, focusing his gaze, and finally seeing the person in front of him clearly.

The panic of fear finally dissipated at that moment, and Lu Xu's tears rolled out, sobbing violently, unable to speak at all.

"Xuxu is fine, everything is over, don't be afraid," Lu Mingyan kissed his forehead, "Let's go home."

Lu Mingyan let the child stick to his chest, Lu Xu clutched his clothes tightly, buried his face in his arms, and finally burst into tears.

Lu Xu was very tired, and her crying gradually stopped, shivering in Lu Mingyan's arms.The warm and generous embrace made him feel safe, and he was finally not forced to curl up like before.

Lu Mingyan patted the child on the back with light and slow force, carried him out of the station, then walked all the way, got on the elevator, and finally got into the car and gently closed the door. During the whole process, he gently comforted the child.

At the beginning, Lu Xu was panting and trembling violently. After being comforted, he gradually turned into sobbing and pulling his clothes. Finally, he gradually calmed down, and the ups and downs of his back gradually became gentle.

"I want dad... woo, woo..." Lu Xu said the first sentence tremblingly.His dearest Chi Heng was not there, and Xiao Bao wanted to cry sadly, but at this moment, Lu Mingyan gave him a much more secure feeling than ever before, so he curled up in Lu Mingyan's arms, grabbed the other's skirt with his small hands, and pushed hard into the depths of his embrace squeeze.

The manic rain before has finally weakened slightly after some catharsis, and the development of the whole situation has finally improved somewhat.The driver increased the speed of the car, and the car drove back to the original scene of the accident smoothly and quickly.The assistant turned around when he heard the sound of the brakes, and saw Mr. Lu returning safely with the child. At that moment, a big stone was lifted from his heart. He took a breath, wiped the sweat from his face, and walked over quickly, "Mr. Lu, the police said When you have time, please go to the Public Security Bureau to make a record, and besides, when you left, Mr. Chi came."

While wrapping the child in a raincoat, Lu Mingyan asked, "Where is he now?" He still doesn't know that something happened to Chi Heng.

The assistant hesitated for a while and didn't say anything.

Lu Mingu asked: "Chi Heng guessed that something happened to the child, so he is angry?"

"I'm not angry... It's just that Mr. Chi seems to be in a bad condition, and Dr. Qi has already picked him up."

Lu Mingyan's eyes immediately became serious again, "What do you mean he's not in a good condition? What's wrong with him?"

"I don't know, but his face is a little pale, and he looks tired and lack of energy. He asked me to call Dr. Qi over, and I don't know if they went to the hospital or where..."

Lu Mingyan immediately called Qi Ran, but no one answered the call.

Lu Xu lay on Lu Mingyan's shoulder and watched the two adults talking. Although they couldn't understand many words, at least they could hear their father's name several times, and the expressions on the faces of the two adults were a little serious. It also made Xiao Bao start to worry, he tugged at Lu Mingyan's collar, "Find Dad too... okay?"

Lu Mingyan nodded, then turned his face and told the assistant a few words to deal with the matter here, and then he carried Lu Xu into the car again.

The assistant couldn't describe what Chi Heng's illness was, and he didn't dare to say it was serious. It was also very difficult for Lu Mingyuan to guess that it was a miscarriage out of thin air. He didn't think about it at all.I have a condom every time I have sex, and I always feel that it is safe enough.Although he later learned that condoms cannot guarantee the success of contraception [-]%, after all, condoms sometimes leak, especially when the number of times is high, the probability of tadpoles swimming out is greater.

Lu Mingyan arrived at the base, and while walking in, he called Qi Ran.Pushing open the door of the consulting room, Qi Ran sat there, motionless, the phone was vibrating non-stop in his hand, but he didn't answer it.

Lu Mingyan saw that he was obviously depressed, walked in and asked, "What's the matter, what happened to Chi Heng?"

Qi Ran was silent for a long time, then took out two pieces of paper from the medical record card in front of him, raised his hand, and threw it on Lu Mingyan.

The two pieces of paper were thrown to the ground, Lu Mingyan bent down to put Xiaobao from his arms, and then picked up the two pieces of paper.

He shook out the paper and saw that the words "major bleeding" on the first line made his heart sink. Then he looked down at the medical diagnosis, and the conspicuous word "abortion" made his eyes burn.

It turned out to be...a miscarriage.

"I couldn't keep the baby, one died," Qi Ran's voice was full of exhaustion, "Why didn't you know you were pregnant for four weeks? I have to guess, are you trying to get revenge on Chi Heng who lied to you last time and hid you for taking off your baby?" A child?" When he saw Chi Heng's appalling amount of bleeding, he knew that the child could not be saved, and the only thing he could do in the first aid was to tell Chi Heng not to go with the child.

"I haven't noticed..." Lu Mingyan put down the two pieces of paper, his arms seemed to lose strength.During that time, he didn't want Chi Heng to go crazy and swallow contraceptive pills. Although he didn't find contraceptive pills at home, he found them later in the store. Chi Heng hid them all in the store. It was changed to something else, and Chi Heng thought he hadn't been noticed, and then every day during the day he would go to the store to secretly take the medicine.Later, he seriously wanted to use the pill to prevent pregnancy, not opportunistically swallowing a large amount of it to try to change his body as before.

But the medicine has been changed.

Originally, the chip implanted in the body was used to monitor Chi Heng's physical condition in real time, but Chi Heng had already cracked it quietly, because it could no longer be physically destroyed. He sneaked into the data room in the middle of the night and changed a series of information codes so that The monitoring status displayed has been stuck in the past. If there is no major change in the data for a long time, clues will definitely be discovered, but one month is not long enough, and it is normal for short-term data fluctuations to be small.

So no one noticed the abnormality, not even Chi Heng himself.

They calculated and calculated, planned and planned, you won one move and I won another move, but in the end it led to this result.

Chi Heng didn't have a sudden miscarriage, but the violent and frequent sex made the fetal bed more unstable and finally slipped off. Compared with the heart-piercing pain and severe bleeding, this kind of medical abortion is like a chronic disease, miscarriage It started as early as a week ago, and it has been bleeding little by little for nearly a week. Until today, the driver was stunned, stimulated by the gas and the car was bumped heavily, and the last bit of filthy blood was completely bleed.

In the past, Chi Heng would bleed from time to time after intercourse. Although the amount was very small, the black blood was mixed in it.

Chi Heng always tried every means to avoid the "torture" every night, but he was caught out without exception. He never succeeded once, but this time, he was finally able to get rid of it without thinking about various methods.

"Chi Heng got in the car and dragged me and said that the child must be cleaned up. Do you know what that means?" Qi Ran supported his forehead wearily, "He doesn't want a child, even if he can keep him..."

At that time, Chi Heng had already hated Lu Mingyan to the extreme. Even if it was just angry words, it represented deep despair and deep hatred to a certain extent. Because of hatred, because of despair, because of heartbreaking pain, he didn't want to have his love anymore. I don't want to... have any ties to it.

"You listen to me but not to him," Lu Mingyan said slowly, pursing the corners of his lips.In a short period of time, the emotional emotions that were still there just now have slowly subsided, and he seems to have recovered his original calmness and rationality, even if he has fragile emotions, he has been hidden, "Don't tell him that he is twins, and don't tell him One of them died, you just have to tell him, the child is saved."

Qi Ran felt chills down his spine, but he didn't say much, just nodded.

He knew that he was not qualified to criticize Lu Mingyan, because he was the same before, even colder towards Chi Heng, and had little sympathy.Later, there was such a change of state of mind, and he began to feel pity and soft-heartedness, but it was because Chi Heng was very similar to that person. He really did, and he also gave him an aborted child, but he was not as "lucky" as Chi Heng. At that time The child was more than six months old and already able to move. When he cut open his stomach and cut out the doomed fetus, the child's hands were still bouncing up and down, as if struggling to move. Stay in this world for even a second longer.

Blood dripping, almost a heart-wrenching scene.

When Qi Ran had just performed surgery on Chi Heng, as if that scene had reappeared, he was in a rare stupor, as if he had lost his soul, and it was only when the nurse at the side wiped his sweat vigorously that he suddenly regained his senses, and then continued the operation.

When he found out that it was twins, Qi Ran was very shocked and sweated all over his body. Even though Chi Heng said to clean it up, he still fought against the god of death and finally saved the fetus inside.

But the fetus near the mouth had drained, and there was nothing he could do.

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Qi Ran put the two pieces of paper back into the medical record, and he wanted to make a new copy to show Chi Heng, telling him that the fetus was saved.

He narrowed his eyes slightly, and he didn't know if the accumulation in his eyes should be called sadness or sadness.

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Chi Heng was injected with a small amount of diazepam, and was lying under the white sheets at this moment, with his eyes tightly closed.He was still awake when Lu Mingyan entered.

Lu Xu was not as tall as the bed, so he could only stand on tiptoes and grab the edge of the bed with both hands, looking eagerly.

"What's wrong with Dad?" Tears welled up in Lu Xu's eyes, and he turned to look at Lu Mingyan for an answer.

"He'll wake up in a while." Lu Mingyan took a chair and put it beside the bed, then sat Lu Xu on it, and finally didn't have to stand on tiptoe.

Lu Xu grasped Chi Heng's finger with his own little hand, and prayed in a low voice: "Dad, Dad, wake up, Dad, open your eyes quickly..."

Chi Heng fell asleep for a long time, and didn't wake up until after ten o'clock in the evening.Lu Xu stayed with his father all night and now he is sleepy, dozing off from exhaustion, but as soon as his head hangs down, he immediately raises his head again, sits upright, rubs his sleepy eyes vigorously, and then continues to watch.

Lu Mingyan patted his head, "If Xuxu is sleepy, go to bed."

Lu Xu shook her head, "Father hasn't woken up yet."

"I'm here, I'll watch," he hugged Lu Xu, "as soon as Dad opens his eyes, I'll wake you up, okay?" He gently put the child on another bed and wrapped him in a blanket Wrap it tightly, "Hey, go to sleep, you will have the strength to protect Dad after you sleep, right?"

Lu Xu nodded obediently, and grabbed Lu Mingyan's fingers again, "Call me when Dad wakes up..."

"Okay." He kissed Lu Xu's forehead.

Lu Xu finally closed his heavy eyelids with peace of mind, couldn't resist the fatigue and sleepiness, and soon fell asleep, and before falling asleep, he whispered "Dad".

On the way, the nurse came to change the dressing, and Qi Ran also came to check the situation.

Taking off Chi Heng's clothes, there were sporadic scars on the clean skin, new and old, in different places.Those scars were not serious, pale red and short, more like deep hickeys.

Lu Mingyan carefully picked up Chi Heng, holding Chi Heng's wrist with one hand, and there was a trace of being strangled by a tie on that wrist, as thick as a knuckle.

The nurse is very good at observing words and expressions, and as soon as she enters the room, she can feel the atmosphere that outsiders can't get into. As soon as the medicine is changed, she hurriedly goes out with the tools and closes the door.

Qi Ran spoke softly: "Have you considered letting him go free?"

"If you don't love him that much, then it's a big deal to let him go. If you love him, you can also give him relief for his own good. What do you think?"

Lu Mingyan was silent for a moment, and replied: "Freedom is relative. If you feel free, then you are free. If you feel not free, it will be useless for outsiders to give you more."

"But you never gave it, so why talk about it?"

"But this is the maximum I can give," Lu Mingyan said in a deep voice, "He forgets me again and again, and every time he is a stranger, he keeps starting again. Who ever gave me relief?"

Qi Ran was at a loss for words, and had nothing to say in return.

Forgetting is cruel, but it may be a relief to some extent.I don't remember that before, Chi Heng's psychological pressure had actually shrunk, but Lu Mingyan remembered, from the very beginning to the present, every bit of it.How painful should he be?

Why are many of them cold-tempered, because indifference and indifference to emotions can make them live better, and they still have a sentimental heart in the face of this reality and reincarnation, and they have long been tortured to death by themselves million times.No one is born cold or silent or alienated or playful or mean, just to adapt to the environment, just to live better.

Lu Mingyan gently stroked Chi Heng's wrist, looking down at the reddish strangle mark, then he gently raised Chi Heng's hand, put his lips on it, and kissed his wrist little by little.

"My freedom is him. You want me to give up my only thought? Why do you think I endure all this, because there is him here."