Watching you quietly outside the window

Chen Jun is a person who hates going to school very much. When he was a student, graduating every time period was a kind of relief for him. He thought that his parents would force him to stop going to school after completing his graduate studies in prestigious universities, but in the end he still He returned to a key high school in the province and became a math teacher.Life is so ever-changing, and sudden turning points always catch you off guard, but you have to bear it.

Getting up early to go to work with students every day, eating a meal that looked unappetizing, and leaving school together, this made him enter the nightmarish three-point-one-line life pattern of his student days again.It’s September again, the residual heat of summer has not dissipated, and the sun at noon is still venomous. Walking outside, the scorching light molecules hit the leaking skin, and you can still feel their endless energy, but it gradually turns cold sooner or later. Wearing Cycling with half sleeves is already a bit cold.The new class I took over was Senior [-], a science class. The original head teacher was on maternity leave, and Chen Jun was temporarily in charge of the class.Chen Jun just sent away a group of high school seniors in June, and he didn't know anything about this class.But just two days after school started, he noticed a boy, his behavior was really weird...

In the first class, Chen Jun asked each student to introduce himself as usual. When it was the turn of a boy in the last row by the window, he moved his eyes from the window to the classroom. When he saw Chen Jun, he stared into his eyes for a while, Then he looked sideways, let out a small breath, and said in a low voice: "My name is Lan Ye." Then he sat down and didn't say any more, but because of this simple sentence, Chen Jun began to notice him .

Blue night—blue sky, silent night, I unconsciously thought of him when I saw him.

During class, Lan Ye would wear a pair of dark blue thin-rimmed glasses, which he would take off as soon as get out of class was over.His light brown eyes looked at the blackboard, as if he was thinking, and then lowered his long eyelashes, and buried himself in taking notes. His face was completely covered by his slightly long bangs, and no expression could be seen.When Chen Jun glanced at him from the corner of his eye, he sensitively avoided it.Chen Jun likes to ask some students who are sneaking or deserting to answer questions.But for some reason, he called Lan Ye's name in class.In fact, in that class, he only talked about part of the definition, and there was nothing that required IQ. He asked a random definition, and Lan Ye said it back, his voice was neither very low nor high, and he sat down after speaking.

In the morning exercise, Chen Jun checked the number of people, but he didn't see Lan Ye. Chen Jun asked the sports committee about Sun Ming's situation. Sun Ming said that he was not in good health, and his parents asked him for leave. He never went out to exercise before.

"That should also be the position of the trainee at the end of the row."

"He has privileges." Sun Ming shrugged.

In the middle of playing the music, Chen Jun suddenly ran back to the classroom with an impulse in his mind. Lan Ye was not there, so he ran to the small supermarket in the school, but he was not there.This time is over, Chen Jun pondered for a while, and ran into the men's room to look for it instinctively. He saw Lan Ye flushing his face with cold water, he felt as if he was stunned for a moment, and then breathed a sigh of relief inexplicably.Lan Ye heard footsteps, turned off the faucet, and looked towards Chen Jun. His eyes were wide open, and there was a bit of hostility in his eyes. Chen Jun originally wanted him to go back to the playground and stand in line with other students into the classroom. But at this moment, looking into Lan Ye's eyes, he couldn't say anything, his light-colored eyes were full of doubts, worries and even panic, he was too sensitive.The atmosphere was unusually awkward, and it was Lan Ye who spoke first, "Teacher, are you looking for me?"

"I'm going to the bathroom." Chen Jun smiled unnaturally, and walked in. Lan Ye didn't say something like other students: Goodbye, teacher, teacher, then I'll go first... such clichés, just turned around and walked out, "If you are not in good health, you should do regular exercises to improve your immunity!" You have to say something, otherwise what is the purpose of coming to him?Chen Jun suddenly said this.Lan Ye stopped, didn't speak, glanced at Chen Jun lightly, and left in a hurry.

On the second day, during the exercise, Lan Ye occupied the row and did the exercise with other students, which caused the students in the class and even the neighboring class to look at each other and talk a lot.But he only did it for one day, fucked the next day, and he disappeared again.

Chen Jun also noticed that every day after school, Lan Ye would not rush to pack his schoolbags like other students. He sat calmly on his seat, which is rare for children of this age. The quietness makes people unconsciously think, He should not belong to this world.He dragged his chin and looked towards the unknown distance outside the window. There seemed to be unknown resentment and sadness in his eyes. Under the noisy environment, he seemed to be completely isolated.His hair is light in color, and the setting sun that was pulled into the classroom by long hairs reflects a faint and delicate luster. The loose white school uniform vest is wrapped in fair and firm skin, and the color of the sun almost melts into the color of the setting sun. In the glory.He doesn't seem to be very gregarious, and he does everything by himself. When his classmates gather around to talk, he will always find an opportunity to avoid it. If he can't avoid it, he will answer a few words perfunctorily, and his tone is also very cold.Chen Jun wondered if he had autism or encountered something disappointing for him... He casually asked Mr. Fang, who had taught English in this class, and learned that Lan Ye was often absent from class, and his English scores were average, but he could memorize words. Not strong, the composition score has been very low.

Although Chen Jun doesn't like to be nosy, but understanding the basic situation of every student in the class is an imperative obligation as a qualified class teacher.

After school on the third day, Chen Jun deliberately approved homework in the classroom and stayed for a while longer. Lan Ye didn't pack her schoolbag, but sat on the seat, looking out of the plain window. What is there?Chen Jun pondered.

It was almost seven o'clock, and the security guards went to each classroom to clean up people. Lan Ye started to pack his schoolbag. He hurriedly put his homework into it. When he carried his schoolbag, he stared at Chen Jun for a while, and walked out of the classroom without saying anything.

When the security guard came in, Chen Jun put the homework into a pile and moved it out. Seeing that it was a teacher, the security guard smiled and said, "No hurry, teacher, take your time to clean up."

"I'm leaving now." Chen Jun put his homework back in the office, and there was no one in the office. He took the bicycle key from the drawer and ran to the carport.Lan Ye happened to pick up the car at the shed.The school's carport has two floors, the upper floor is where the students' cars are placed, and the lower floor is where the teacher puts the car. Chen Jun saw Lan Ye unlock the car and push it down the slope, kicked the pedals to go in front of Lan Ye.Lan Ye lowered her head and pushed the bicycle past Chen Jun. On campus, students are not allowed to ride bicycles, but teachers are allowed.Chen Jun caught up with Lan Ye by bicycle, "Are you going home so late?" He picked up a topic at random.

"Teacher Chen?" Lan Ye looked a little surprised, he looked at Chen Jun, slowed down his pace, and then quickened his pace.

"Are you going home by bike too?" When the two arrived at the school gate, the retractable door had been sealed, leaving only a small door for people to pass through. Lan Ye walked to the door first and looked at Chen Jun. He was still waiting for Lan Ye Ye's answer, Lan Ye nodded, stepped on the bike, kicked hard to get into the bicycle lane, his bike was very broken, it was a white second-hand bike, the pole had already grown some reddish-brown rust, he pedaled When driving, there was a creaking sound from the axle of the car. He rode far away, and the white figure was hidden among countless vehicles rushing home.

Because the route was just opposite, Chen Jun did not continue to chase.

There was a class teacher meeting when school was over the next day. When returning from the meeting, Chen Jun paid special attention to the classroom, and Lan Ye had already left.

In the next few days, Lan Ye no longer came home late, and he left in a hurry as soon as school was over. Chen Jun couldn't see him when he went to pick up the car in the carport. Sometimes he would stand in the carport and wait for more than ten minutes, but he was still gone. When he appeared, Lan Ye had probably already left, and seemed to avoid him intentionally.

One day at noon, Chen Jun borrowed a copy of "The End of the World and the Grim Frontier" by Haruki Murakami in the library. When he walked out of the library, he smelled smoke.In school, neither teachers nor students are allowed to smoke, but some students will occasionally smoke two cigarettes in places where no one is behind their backs for the sake of coolness.Chen Jun is very sensitive to smell and has always disliked this smell.He walked in the direction where the smell of smoke was stronger, and it came from the base of the wall between the bushes and the library. Chen Jun walked through the bushes and saw a boy in a white half-sleeved school uniform wearing white earbags with silver trim Squatting on the ground to smoke, Chen Jun was shocked, it was Lan Ye.However, it may be that the music was played too loudly, so I didn't notice that Chen Jun had already walked over.He closed his eyes, his long eyelashes fluttered slightly, and the corners of his eyes reflected bright spots, as if tears were hanging down, was he crying?Normally, when seeing students smoking, Chen Jun would mercilessly catch them and send them to the Academic Affairs Office for disciplinary action, but now, he hesitated.The cigarette had burned to the end, Lan Ye took a deep breath, stubbed it out on the ground, and threw the cigarette butt into the trash can.Class was about to start, there were not many people on the playground, and the boys playing basketball on the basketball court were clapping their basketballs and walking towards the teaching building yelling.Lan Ye stood on the playground for a while, took off his earbags, seemed to have noticed something, turned his head sharply, and happened to meet Chen Jun's eyes, he froze for a moment, Chen Jun wanted to stop him, Lan Ye turned quickly Turned around and ran away.

When school was over, everyone in the classroom left one after another. Lan Ye sat on the seat as before, looking out the window where the sun was gradually fading, her eyes full of worry, like a Suzaku trapped in a closed cage, longing for In the outside world, Chen Jun followed his gaze and looked out of the window. At this time, the sunlight outside the window contained a few strands of hope.

Chen Jun went to the office to get the car keys, and when he was about to enter the classroom, he heard a female voice say delicately: "Lan Ye, I seem to really like you..." Then there was the sound of tearing paper, and a cold male voice, " Are you finished?" Lan Ye said.There was silence in the classroom for a few seconds. A girl ran out of the classroom covering her face. It was the art committee member of the neighboring class. Chen Jun couldn't call her name for the time being.

Chen Jun didn't care about the confession among students, because when he was a student, he had excellent grades and was more handsome than the male voices around him. Many girls sent him love letters in person or through others, and sometimes they were forced by the teacher. Dealing with puppy love, calling the parents of both parties to criticize and educate, is actually only the girl's unilateral reason, there is no need to reprimand the boy who has no idea at all.Chen Jun hesitated for a moment, and was about to walk quickly through the classroom, as if he hadn't heard anything, but when he passed by the door of the classroom, Lan Ye came out with his schoolbag on his back, and threw a bunch of waste paper into the trash can, which seemed to be in some shape. The fragments hooked with lace must be the love letter just now.The two raised their heads at the same time, and Chen Jun had to stop.

Few people were still picking up their bikes from the garage, and Chen Jun waited downstairs for Lan Ye to push the bike down.Lan Ye walked out of the school with Chen Jun with a little resistance, but he didn't say anything, just looked at other places.

"That girl should have liked you for a long time just now." Chen Jun told him in the tone of someone who has been there, "I also encountered this situation when I was in school..."

"If he really knew me, he wouldn't like me." Lan Ye suddenly interrupted him, his voice slightly raised, but still very soft, he breathed out, "I'm different from you."

Having arrived at the school gate, Lan Ye got on the bike and rode out.