Watching you quietly outside the window

The evening in early winter came very quickly, as if it was just afternoon, and it immediately entered dusk. After Chen Jun designed a clumsy supporting actress who was about to appear on the stage and always caused trouble, it was already past the time to get off work.He tidied up his desk in a hurry, and rode his bike to the intersection closest to the school. Lan Ye was already standing at the intersection, leaning his back on the light pole, his face was a little pale, and he looked into the distance blankly, not noticing Chen Jun.

Chen Jun quietly rode behind him, and patted his shoulder, "Hey!" Lan Ye turned around in a panic, and when he saw Chen Jun, he took a deep breath.

"What's wrong?" Chen Jun felt that something was wrong with Lan Ye.

"It's nothing." Shaking his head lightly, he turned his gaze to the distance where the setting sun was about to be silent, and more worries appeared in his eyes.He seemed to have something to hide from him, but he didn't say it. Although Chen Jun hoped that he could say what he was holding back in his heart, he couldn't ask too much about what Lan Ye didn't want to say. He was afraid of seeing Lan Ye's sad look. Immediately changing the subject, he said softly, "What do you want to eat today?"

"I love to eat whatever you do." Lan Ye tilted her head and said softly.

"Then I'll make you stewed bedbugs with earthworms?"

"No." Lan Ye symbolically beat Chen Jun's leg.

"Let's go home and eat." Chen Jun put his arms on his shoulders, "Today is my first day at work, and it's time to celebrate. Let's go buy wine and drink."

Chen Jun went to the supermarket to buy a few bottles of fruit wine, and he made pot-wrapped meat, fried lettuce with fungus, and a cold dish of shredded cucumber and enoki mushroom.Considering that Lan Ye had to go to school tomorrow, Chen Jun only opened two small bottles of 250ml plum wine. When Lan Ye drank, it was like a dull wine.He may not be used to drinking this kind of wine. After dinner, when he walked back to the bedroom, he even shook a little, and the anxiety in his eyes became more obvious. Chen Jun helped him to the bed, he cried, and he pulled Chen Jun He might be unable to control his emotions after drinking, he murmured incoherently: "Ah Jun, don't go, don't go...Ah Jun..." Chen Jun regretted letting Lan Ye drink, and felt distressed for a while, he held Holding Lan Ye's hand, he comforted him and said, "I won't leave, don't be afraid, it's me..." Lan Ye clenched even tighter, and the ring on his ring finger cut Chen Jun's fingers sorely. "If there is anything, it might be better to say it." Chen Jun lay down next to Lan Ye, stroked the corners of Lan Ye's eyes wet with tears, and held his cheek, "No matter what it is, you can tell me " Lan Ye looked at him with those extremely worried eyes, as if hesitating, but also seemed to be immersed in the hallucination of drunkenness.Chen Jun stared at Lan Ye lovingly, and said in a low voice: "I hope you can believe me." Lan Ye's eyes flickered, sighed softly, and said with some slight sobs: "I believe you , but I don't believe in myself." He slowly closed his eyes, turned over, his body was still trembling slightly.Chen Jun hugged his slender body wrapped in the quilt from behind, Lan Ye seemed to calm down, he curled up, and pillowed into Chen Jun's arms like a timid little beast, crying Gradually fell into a deep sleep.

At night, it started to rain again. It was not yet November, and there was no heating in the room. It was a bit cold in the bedroom, and Lan Ye’s hands were getting colder. Chen Jun quietly walked out of the bedroom, took out a double quilt from the cabinet, and followed Cover the blue night together.

The next morning, Chen Jun made breakfast and asked Lan Ye to get up to eat. He pushed Lan Ye's body, and Lan Ye lay motionless on the bed. Chen Jun pushed a little harder, and Lan Ye wrinkled slightly. He frowned and snorted. "Get up quickly, it's already 6:40." Chen Jun said softly.

Lan Ye opened his eyes tiredly, then frowned deeper, "Ah Jun..." He gasped slightly, "I'm so uncomfortable."

Chen Jun touched his forehead, it was hot and hot, my God, he has a fever again!

Chen Jun wondered if he caught a cold last night, maybe it was caused by not adding the quilt in time, or maybe he already felt uncomfortable after school yesterday, but Chen Jun didn't notice...why am I so careless?Chen Jun sighed with some remorse, he helped Lan Ye up, put a cotton cushion on the head of the bed, let Lan Ye lean on it, and then brought a bowl of vegetable and lean meat porridge, Lan Ye leaned weakly on the bed When Chen Jun sat down on the edge of the bed, Lan Ye leaned his head on his shoulder, his body was extremely hot, and his forehead was covered with cold sweat.Chen Jun gently wiped off his sweat with a paper towel, and said distressedly: "Eat some liquid food first, or the resistance will drop." He scooped up a mouthful of porridge and fed it into Lan Ye's mouth, which had a long mouth. It was very small, at most half of it was swallowed, and the rest lay down along the corner of the mouth. Chen Jun hurriedly took out several tissues to help him wipe.

"Can't you eat it?" Chen Jun felt sore, and couldn't help frowning, Lan Ye shook his head, "It's delicious." He said in a low voice.

"Then after you finish this bowl of porridge, I'll buy you antipyretics."

"Ah Jun, I don't want to go to school today." He raised his head with some difficulty, "Can you ask for a leave of absence for me?"

The first time he asked Chen Jun to help him, it was such an insignificant matter, Chen Jun was stunned for a moment, of course he couldn't go to school with his appearance, what is there to ask for?No matter how much he wanted Lan Ye to rely on him and trust him, it seemed that there was an unexplainable gap between Lan Ye and him, and the distance between them was widened.Why does he distrust me so much?What the hell is he thinking?He looked at Lan Ye, and Lan Ye's eyes were still full of endless worries... He felt that his cognition of Lan Ye's heart was still at the interface of ignorance, and Chen Jun's inner activities were all based on imagination, which made Chen Jun More anxious, but unable to show it.

After a moment of silence, Chen Jun smiled wryly and said, "Okay, I'll tell your homeroom teacher." Chen Jun quickly asked for leave from Lan Ye's current homeroom teacher. I agreed.Chen Jun said to Lan Ye: "Don't think about unnecessary things, and eat as much as possible if you don't want to eat."

Lan Ye nodded, the worry in his eyes didn't decrease in the slightest, it seemed to increase a bit, he only drank half a bowl of porridge and couldn't finish it, he leaned on Chen Jun's shoulder, Chen Jun didn't stand up immediately, He hugged Lan Ye's feverish body, and asked: "Do you feel better?" Lan Ye rubbed Chen Jun's clothes with the side of his face, and whispered softly: "Ah Jun, you are so kind to me."

"No, I'm not good enough for you." Chen Jun stared into Lan Ye's eyes, Lan Ye seemed to avoid it intentionally, Chen Jun gently lifted his jaw, turned his face to face himself, "I You won't be hurt any more."

"Ah Jun." Lan Ye put her thin hands on Chen Jun's chest, "Don't go to buy medicine yet, just stay with me for a while, okay?" Some crystal tears.

"Don't talk, lie down and rest first, I'll be here with you." Chen Jun pulled the quilt over, wrapped it around Lan Ye, and then hugged him into his arms. Lan Ye gradually closed his eyes, and his breath gradually became calmer , lying motionless on Chen Jun's arm, he was suffering from the high temperature, his cheeks were flushed, his long eyelashes were shaking, and there was some seductive watery light, Chen Jun looked at his quiet face, couldn't help but Live and kiss lightly.When Lan Ye fell asleep, Chen Jun carried Lan Ye to the bed and quietly went out the door.

Chen Jun went to the pharmacy downstairs and bought a box of antipyretics. After thinking about it, he bought several boxes of granules for colds and capsules with stronger medicine.When he got home, Lan Ye had already sat up from the bed, holding her knees with her hands.

"Lan Ye, why are you sitting up?"

"Ah Jun?" Lan Ye's wandering gaze slowly turned around, he didn't look very sober, and looked at Chen Jun dully, "I thought you wouldn't come back." Speaking of this, he smiled softly Get up and start coughing again. "Lan Ye, what nonsense are you talking about?" Chen Jun walked up to him in three simultaneous steps, "Don't scare me, if it doesn't work, let's go to the hospital."

Lan Ye panted unevenly, and his body trembled from time to time. Chen Jun helped him cover his body with the quilt. Lan Ye suddenly clenched his hands together, and he said, "It doesn't matter to me. I'll be fine after taking the medicine and sleeping for a while."

"I won't let you go. If you feel uncomfortable, just say it. I will ask the leader for leave." Chen Jun tried to speak to him in a calm tone, suppressing the indescribable anxiety in his heart.

"I'm fine, really, it's always been like this..." He lowered his head and buried his face in his knees.

It was almost 8:40, Chen Jun hesitated for a while, and he said suspiciously: "Then you take the antipyretics first, and lie down obediently, I will be back at noon."

Lan Ye nodded slightly.

At noon, Chen Jun came home by drip, and he opened the door as quietly as possible. When he entered the bedroom, Lan Ye was still lying on the bed with his eyes closed. He was probably still sleeping.Chen Jun walked over lightly, Lan Ye still had his eyes closed, but his pupils moved under his eyelids with blue silk, obviously he had noticed Chen Jun's approach, Chen Jun stroked his forehead, and the fever had subsided.Lan Ye slowly opened his eyes, as if he didn't quite believe the scene in front of him, he stretched out his hand from under the quilt to put it on Chen Jun's hand, and then exhaled, he whispered: "Ah Jun, when will you come back? of?"

"Just now." He whispered softly, "Your fever has subsided, and you can drink another pack of shock later to strengthen it."

Lan Ye struggled to stand up, Chen Jun helped him, Lan Ye sat against the head of the bed, his stomach gurgled a few times, Chen Jun smiled and said, "Are you hungry?"

Lan Ye also smiled faintly, but the sad look in her eyes immediately returned, "A little bit."

"I'm going to heat up the porridge. You're too weak this morning, so there's a lot left." Chen Jun raised the corners of his mouth and said half-jokingly, "I'll eat the rice if you drink the porridge. I'll make a steamed fish."

Lan Ye reluctantly smiled again, a very perfunctory smile.

Chen Jun's heart skipped a beat, and then he felt some unknown sadness. He wanted to ask Lan Ye what was going on, but he knew that if he didn't tell Lan Ye, he definitely didn't want to.He immediately overcame the urge to ask and went into the kitchen to cook.

The phone in the bedroom rang suddenly, and Chen Jun ran over to answer it, and the display showed: Mom, Chen Jun picked up the phone and asked, "What's the matter?"

"Chen Jun, are you a vagrant now?" My mother asked impatiently on the phone, with angry gasps in her words.

"I'm going to work soon, don't listen to other people's nonsense." Chen Jun took a deep breath helplessly.

"I heard that you were expelled from the school because you beat the parents of the students in the reception room? I also watched the video. How could you do this?"

"That's not a parent of a student, Mom, let me tell you again, don't stop other people talking nonsense!" Chen Jun emphasized, "If you just come to tell me the shit that others told you, when I have time Say it again."

"Oh, Mom is worried about you! Then you are still a teacher at school?" The tone on the phone changed immediately.

Chen Jun said coldly: "I resigned and found a new job in CG company."

"What is a CG company? Is it serious? Don't be fooled! If it's a pyramid scheme..."

"I will still call you 3 yuan a month like before. You don't have to worry about the money. I'm busy now, so I have time to talk." Chen Jun hung up the phone.

"You have a bad attitude every time you talk to your mother." Lan Ye turned her head sideways and glanced at Chen Jun.

"Being forced, talking to her is like being shot."

Lan Ye lowered his eyes, "I used to talk to my mother like that..." He shrank his body into a ball, looking so lonely.

Chen Jun was stunned. In the next few seconds, he turned around and quickly put aside the topic, "The fish is almost done steaming. I'll go and turn the pot."