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ks held its annual performance meeting on the last day before the annual holiday.The content of the meeting is no exception: a summary of the major events throughout the year at the beginning, arrangements for the new year's plan in the middle, and an outlook on the future at the end.As a result, there appeared in the audience a group of prominent and respectable people in public who were absent-mindedly holding notebooks, seemingly recording, but in fact their minds had long been lost.

Lu Xiao also wrote and drew on the paper rather boringly, and looked sideways at Shen Fu, who was crossing his legs and resting his hands on his chin.Still maintaining an expression of serious thinking, the person has fallen asleep breathing evenly.And the expression on Chen Xue's face on the other side of Lu Xiao is simply a ghost, Manager Shen would actually do this kind of thing seriously...

As soon as the meeting was over, the audience immediately exuded an atmosphere of relief. For most people, this year was truly over.Lu Xiao looked at Shen Fu who was still sitting on the seat, and was surprised that the other party was more soundly asleep than he imagined.

"Did you have a lot of things to do a few days ago?" Lu Xiao patted Shen Fu's shoulder lightly. Shen Fu slowly opened his eyes and looked at him, only then realized that he had fallen asleep again.

He has been particularly lethargic recently, opening his eyes groggyly, and it seems difficult to concentrate.Fu Shen didn't know if it was a problem with the medicine He Qing prescribed for him, and he hadn't seen He Qing for a long time.

"Let's go." Lu Xiao thoughtfully stretched out his hand to pull him up, "I'm too sleepy to sleep in the car."

Just like that, Lu Xiao took Fu Shen and his luggage on the journey to City Z.

They drove by themselves this time, and the main reason was to avoid the peak of the Spring Festival travel season. There were so many people at the airport, it was inevitable that they would not be recognized.Lu Xiao turned on enough warm air in the car, and soft music played. In the cold wind whizzing past the window and the slightly dark sky, Lu Xiao was in a trance for a moment, feeling that the two of them were just like returning home for the Spring Festival. An ordinary couple.

But in fact, isn't that the case?Lu Xiao drove the car and looked at Shen Fu in the passenger seat. For some reason, the other party seemed worried after the meeting ended.

"What are you thinking again? Haven't all the things that should be resolved before leaving have been resolved?"

"It's nothing." Shen Fu came back to his senses, and continued to look down at the book in his hand.

"When I go back this time, should I prepare something for the children in the yard? Xiaohan probably misses you very much." Lu Xiao thought seriously, "New Year's clothes, stationery and other things should be good."

Shen Fu stroked the pages of the book with his fingers, and said hesitantly, "You really..."

Lu Xiao didn't even know Xiaohan's true identity or whose child she was, so he simply accepted her existence.

"You said that she is not your child." Lu Xiao looked forward and continued to drive, "Even if she is your child, I may not care as much as you think, so you don't need to worry about it all the time. These things."

"Thank you." Shen Fu took a while to say a word.

The two of them remained silent for a while, thinking about different things in their hearts, the car instantly became quiet, and a weird atmosphere permeated.

"Fu Shen, I hope we can stop because of..." Lu Xiao finally surrendered again, "Well, I admit that I really can't do it now...it's as easy as I said, but it's a living thing after all. children."

The man's voice was getting lower and lower, and it could be felt that Lu Xiao was trying to suppress his emotions, "You haven't even mentioned anything about her to me these years, Shen Fu, even if you can understand a little bit, I don't know. It takes time to go…”

Shen Fu didn't speak.In fact, he knew that it was impossible for Lu Xiao not to mind at all.That is a man who is very arrogant and arrogant. He was once so angry because of Xiao Han's affairs, but now this man compromises time and time again.He has a well-defined profile, but he keeps lowering the bottom line because of him.

"Do you still remember... I said that day, I have something to tell you?" Shen Fu suddenly changed the subject.

"Remember." Lu Xiao's voice still sounded muffled, "Why, are you going to tell me what's going on now?"

"Turn right." Shen Fu pointed to the intersection not far away.

"To the right?" Lu Xiao confirmed the navigation again.

"En." Shen Fu suddenly became firm, "I want to go to a different place before going back."

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Lu Xiao's car finally parked slowly on a street in the suburbs.There were birds passing by, and the far-reaching calls drifted away, which sounded particularly sad in the silence of the surroundings.

Lu Xiao got out of the car, the winter sky was gray, and the cold wind near dusk blew on his face, sharp as a knife.Lu Xiao looked in front of him and said nothing, even though it was a well-planned cemetery.

Shen Fu walked in front of him, lowered his head and stepped up the steps. Surrounded by holly trees, rows of marble tombstones stood upright, engraved with golden-brown handwriting.

It can be seen that he is very familiar with the layout here.Shen Fu slowed down and stopped in front of one of the tombstones. The man's face showed an expression of relief. Shen Fu knelt down gently and looked at the girl in the black and white photo. There seemed to be someone here not long ago. Came and left a bouquet of pale pink lilies.

Lu Xiao looked at the girl's familiar smiling face, and suddenly thought of the photo he saw in the orphanage.

"Her name is Yuqi." Shen Fu reached out his hand to caress the cold stone tablet as if nostalgic, "She, Feng Tai, and I have been together since childhood."

These three children had longed for the glamorous entertainment circle since they were young, and decided to join this circle resolutely in the year of graduation, but they found that everything was not as simple as they thought.

"Later, I also watched her die with my own eyes." Shen Fu's voice was very calm, as if he was just stating a fact, "I shouldn't have let her go that time. She was just a girl without any background. , She trusts me so much, Lu Xiao, I didn't think of it at that time... It's not that..."

It's not that I didn't think about the dirty things that would happen afterwards.Shen Fu closed his eyes, trying to calm down.

"I don't want to either..."

"I don't want to do this either...but she jumped right in front of me..."

Nightmarish memories, the moment when the body ruptured and the scalding blood splashed on the hands, the heart-piercing cry of the child in my arms will never be forgotten in my life.In the cold wind, her fingers were so cold that there was almost no warmth, "She is still so young, she can still have so many opportunities, but her whole life has been ruined by those people."

Lu Xiao could only feel the shock and chill between his lips and teeth, "After that incident, she...pregnant?"

Shen Fu seemed to have heard nothing, and said to himself, "She gave up everything, and then Xiaohan was born, if I could have noticed that she was getting more and more abnormal...she couldn't control herself, those abnormalities were clearly They are all calls to me for help... so many times, but I..."

How could he be worthy of all this, living is just a sin.You can only get a little repentance in the day-to-day self-torture.That handsome man spoke everything for the first time, and the foreground was almost blurred.

He couldn't bear it...too many things happened one after another, he really couldn't bear it.

"Enough, stop talking." Lu Xiao put his hands on his thin shoulders, "What happened...is beyond your expectation."

Shen Fu stared blankly at him, "I'm not worthy to be her manager, I'm really not worthy...she trusts me so much..."

"Don't think about it anymore...it doesn't matter." Lu Xiao bent down, almost coaxing him.He was surprised by this story, but Shen Fu in front of him was more calm and frightened him. "It wasn't your fault, and I know it wasn't your intention."

"It doesn't matter, I don't care." Shen Fu's pale lips were shocking, Lu Xiao would rather watch the other party shed tears than him calmly, tearing open the wound and torturing himself as if it had nothing to do with him.

Shen Fu just looked down at him in a daze, "You don't want to know these things, do you? You don't want me to be like this..."

"Fu Shen, don't think about it anymore, don't think about it anymore, did you hear me!" Lu Xiao repeated these words, turning his body.

Those eyes were obviously still as clean as lake water.

The man's gasping on the verge of collapse was blocked between his lips and teeth.

"No... Lu Xiao..." The man buried his head in his arms but was suddenly forced to raise his head to bear his attack.

"I don't care... Shen Fu, I said I don't care..." Lu Xiao bit his lip hard, sweet blood filled his mouth, and his throat was choked like a child.

How to imagine such a thin shadow has to bear too much.

He burdened himself with too much.

"I don't care what happened between you and Feng Tai, I don't care what happened seven years ago, all the sins will be given to me... I can take all your mistakes for you..." I don't know the reason for the repeated grinding between the lips and teeth What to keep, being forced to be helpless, Lu Xiao even pleaded in a trembling tone, "As long as you are happy, please Shen Fu, don't put everything in your heart to torture yourself anymore, as long as you can be happy ..."

Maybe he is an accomplice, but even if the crime is serious, as long as he can have the warmth in his arms, he can feel at ease.

I never knew that Lu Xiao would be so aggressive and gentle, "Shen Fu, look at me...do you love me?"

Knowing that he was unwilling to show weakness after all, she patiently stroked his sweaty hair with her hands, and said in a low and hoarse voice, "Tell me, Shen Fu."

"I..." looked blankly into his eyes.

A tear trickled down the corner of his eye.Shen Fu suddenly fell on his shoulder and cried loudly.

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Seven years ago

Seven years ago, Feng Tai, Shen Fu and Yu Qi stepped into the entertainment industry together, and the love they grew up together made them choose Shen Fu as their manager without hesitation.How difficult is it for three people with no background and experience to survive?Lu Xiao could imagine that at that time, it was still an era when many young artists needed to be accompanied by wine to recruit jobs. As a female artist, Yu Qi had a unique advantage.

Did Shen Fu hesitate too?Looking at the girl's clean face, it might be Shen Fu's first attempt to compromise with this circle. When he took Yuqi into the dinner party, he didn't expect that something unexpected would happen after getting drunk that night. matter.

"That chick is quite upright..." Someone lit a cigarette.

"A young actor on the 28th line, I haven't taken a single script, I want to be famous, I want to go crazy."

There was a burst of laughter around.

"Yo...then I have to give her a chance..." It was impossible to see who got up first in the smog, "she must be eagerly waiting for my chance, right? Hahaha..."

Yu Qi was taken away without anyone knowing, and she was so drunk that she didn't even have any ability to protect herself. When Shen Fu and Feng Tai rushed into the room, the room was already empty, only the clothes scattered all over the floor and the curled up The girl in the corner.

No idea who the culprit is, so everyone is a criminal.

As Shen Fu said, he didn't expect it.She didn't expect everything that would happen, let alone that Yu Qi would get pregnant because of it.The girl who was on the verge of a nervous breakdown cried so heartbreakingly in Shen Fu's arms, and Shen Fu hugged her to comfort her trembling shoulders. "I will take care of you, I promise you, I will take care of you."

Yu Qi's life is ruined, but Feng Tai accidentally got a chance to audition for the second male lead.

"Congratulations, Brother Feng Tai, you must work hard!" Yu Qi lay on the hospital bed and made a V sign to Feng Tai.

She no longer has any hopes or thoughts about the entertainment industry, but insists on giving birth to a child.She said she did not have the right to deprive the child of his life.

"When the child is born, if it's a boy, we'll give him a name of Daixuan, and if it's a girl, the name must have the word Han in it." The girl's pale and haggard hand stroked her lower abdomen, but she smiled wryly, "But I don't even know what my kid's... last name is."

"Shen." Fu Shen put her hands back under the quilt and covered them, and lowered her eyes, "The surname is Shen, okay?"

Yu Qi looked into his eyes, tears streaming down suddenly, "Thank you."

Because of this sentence, Shen Fu's chest was filled with various emotions. The man put his hand on his forehead wearily, "Yu Qi, it was my fault. If I didn't ask you to go there that night, everything..."

"No, that's my own choice." Yu Qi shook her head, "I could have refused to join the party, but I was really eager to get a chance. These...in the end, it's my own fault."

"Marry me." Shen Fu didn't know why he said this sentence.

"what?"

As long as you marry him, he will be the legitimate father of the child, no one will make irresponsible remarks, and she doesn't need to bear the pressure anymore.Shen Fu seemed to have suddenly made up his mind, "Marry me."

The other party's clear eyes just looked at her seriously, and a trace of emotion flashed in the girl's eyes, followed by more tears streaming down, "Brother Shen, you don't need to do this because of guilt."

"No." Shen Fu was eager to prove something to her, "Yu Qi, we will get married after you give birth to the child. I will definitely become a good husband. I said I will always take care of you."

There was a contradiction between confusion and happiness in Yuqi's eyes, but she still shook her head in disbelief, "You lied to me... didn't you...Brother Shen, I know you don't like me, we..."

Her next words caught in her throat.

Shen Fu got up and kissed her lips.

With an extremely gentle kiss, Shen Fu's hand lightly wrapped around her shoulders, and his lips touched softly. There was a warm and moist smell on the man's body, which inexplicably made people feel at ease.

Yu Qi's face was more than half red.

Feng Tai successfully got the role of the second male lead that day, and he was busy with the filming process of the crew for a long time. Since he rarely had time to come to the hospital, Yu Qi spent most of his time with Shen Fu.

Shen Fu is a caring person. He can say good morning to Yu Qi every morning after opening her eyes, and he can patiently pour warm water to help her get up and take medicine. Even the pregnant woman in the next ward will tell her enviously, "Your family My fiancé, you are good-looking and have a good temper, the point is that you still love you so much."

My...fiance...

Yu Qi looked at the figure with his back turned to her, and silently recited these words in his heart.

But does he really... love her?

Love is too heavy a subject.

It was so heavy that in the afternoon when Feng Tai came back after the finale, when she told Feng Tai that they were going to get married with a little embarrassment, the next moment Feng Tai got up and rushed to the hot water room.

Yu Qi didn't know what happened. Feng Tai's reaction at this moment gave her a bad feeling. She got out of the bed with difficulty, and it was so difficult and painful to walk when it was approaching the day of labor.

She saw that Feng Tai's arms were bulging with blue veins, his hands were tightly clutching Shen Fu's wrists, the hot water in the water glass spilled all over the floor, and it was still steaming faintly.

But... isn't that her fiancé?

"I thought you'd understand even if I didn't tell you!" Feng Tai's slightly mixed-race brows frowned and looked at him, "You want to marry her? Huh? Do you think you two can get married?"

"Why do you..." She couldn't see Shen Fu's face clearly across the table, but she could clearly hear what he said, his voice was slightly surprised, "What does my marriage to Yu Qi have to do with you? "

"But you obviously love me! Don't you!" Feng Tai almost roared out these words.

There was silence.

Yu Qi could hear her heart beating wildly.

...what are they talking about...

Those are the two people she grew up with...they came to this city together...why she can't understand what they are talking about now...

"Answer me, Shen Fu!" Feng Tai's voice reverberated in the empty hot water room.

Yu Qi clenched her hands unconsciously, and she didn't even notice how much she was shaking all over her body.

answer him... answer him...

Tell him that answer.I beg you.

But she only heard Shen Fu say lightly, "Feng Tai, these are meaningless."

Yu Qi covered her mouth with her hand in surprise for a moment, tears poured down her face, why...why did he say that...

Immediately afterwards, there was a loud sound from inside, and the sound of the cup breaking was as if hitting her heart, she didn't know what happened to the two of them, the girl's immediate reaction was to run, to escape from this place as soon as possible... She wants to go back, go back to the ward, as long as she goes back, everything will be the same, right?Everything can start over, can't it...

She fell heavily to the ground, her face paled instantly from the severe pain in her abdomen, she saw Shen Fu running out, followed closely by Feng Tai.

"Don't come!" she almost screamed.

"Yu Qi, you..." There was a pool of bright red blood on her body, Shen Fu tried to approach her, "I'll help you up first."

"I'll call the doctor." Feng Tai calmly ran past her.

"Don't come here, don't come here!" The girl was like crazy, with sweat clinging to a strand of hair on her forehead, "Who are you? Who are you?"

He has the same eyes, the same clean outline, and even the breath on his body is so familiar, but why is everything different all of a sudden?

"I'm Shen Fu." He paused, walked over and held out his hand to her, "Yuqi, I'm Shen Fu."

"Liar! You are a liar!" She yelled loudly, not caring that a group of patients and family members who had heard the sound had already surrounded her. Remember: "You made me like this! You lied to me all the time!"

She couldn't see the expression on the other person's face clearly in the black double image in front of her eyes, but her hands were still cold, and that voice once reassured her so much! "The doctor will be here soon, don't be afraid."

"Go to hell!" She pushed him away with strength she didn't know where she came from, and then she heard a commotion, several doctors lifted her up and put her on the operating trolley, her ears were buzzing and she couldn't hear clearly what they were doing. What did you say, but Feng Tai's words came to my ears verbatim, "She is crazy, are you okay? Shen Fu, are you hurt?"

"......."

"......."

Yu Qi once thought that she just died like this, but when she opened her eyes and saw the sunlight shining by the window and him standing there, a tear rolled down her eyes, sore and painful.She realized that the feeling of being alive had never been so vivid.

"Where's the child?" Her lower body was almost numb, and she knew it was the effect of the anesthetic.

"In the intensive care unit." Shen Fu approached her, "It's a girl."

Yu Qi moved her lips, feeling dry and uncomfortable, "What about him?"

He knew who she was talking about.

"Let's go first." There was no extra emotion in Shen Fu's eyes.

Those pupils clearly reflected her appearance.

That's why she always thought it was true.

"Fu Shen." She turned her head away and heard herself say, "I hate you so much."

He didn't speak, why didn't he even bother to explain.

"I really hope that one day you will be punished too." She continued, leaving the most vicious curse in her life, "Why didn't you... die sooner."

She didn't know that one day this sentence would come true, but at that time, the things in this world had nothing to do with her anymore.

He covered her with a quilt, "You should have a good rest first."

"Fu Shen." She suddenly reached out and grabbed his sleeve, and asked, "Is my child... pretty?"

"Well, she's very beautiful." Shen Fu said, "You can go see her after you have a good rest."

Yeah?Yu Qi was laughing, tears streaming down her face, "I want to eat oranges, and there are oranges in the fruit shop in front of the hospital."

Shen Fu was startled, as if surprised by her sudden change in attitude, "You can't..."

"Then buy it and put it on my bedside, okay?"

"Yes." Shen Fu got up, "I'll go later."

After watching Shen Fu go out, Yu Qi struggled to get up bit by bit. She could hardly use any strength in her whole body, and she was out of breath just walking to the window.She tried her best to open the window, even her fingernails were broken in the process, and tiny blood oozes out.

Her mind was chaotic and she didn't know what she was thinking, but the air at the height was very fresh.Yu Qi's legs were drooping, and she was sitting on the high window sill. The evening wind was blowing on her body. The girl shivered, but she felt extraordinarily comfortable.

Destruction is always mixed with a guilty pleasure.Yu Qi felt that kind of desperate madness and pleasure right now.

The setting sun was like blood, and she finally saw Shen Fu walking downstairs.

The man was wearing a white shirt, and his outline looked so beautiful.

He seemed like a warm and reliable home.

"Shen Fu!" It was the first time she called out his name so loudly, without any girl's fear and shyness.His name echoed throughout the hospital as she shouted, yes, that's it, the moment the other party turned around, there was even a moment of doubt on his face.

This is his revenge and her own punishment.

Yu Qi smiled and opened her arms towards him, and jumped with the last of her strength.With the trace of viciousness in his heart, he jumped down fiercely.

......

......

The world is silent.She closed her eyes.

Yu Qi couldn't see the expression on Shen Fu's face anymore, but she thought that this time, she would probably stay in his eyes for the rest of her life.

The author has something to say: Thank you Gu Qi for the mine!