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In fact, there must be someone who cares about Fang Yan in his life, but people are very forgetful creatures. When they see the predicament in front of them, they forget everything in the past.Otherwise, Fang Yan is also heartless, Wei Xianzhi is fine, at least Zhao Wei treats him well, but when you get depressed, you even forget Zhao Wei.

Zhao Wei said that he wanted to talk to Fang Yan in his dream.

In fact, he could sense that Yan Beicheng seemed to be accommodating him intentionally or unintentionally. Fang Yan has now entered a dead end. When others treat him well, he feels that others are sympathizing with him. If they treat him badly, he feels that others look down on him.

This is the kind of person who is outcast by society.They accomplish nothing, but they still have some self-esteem, so their lives are very distorted. After all, the reality is that he is powerless to change his life, but he hates himself for being so depraved.In the end, I project the dark side of my heart onto others, as if it is the fault of others that I am like this.

Fang Yan kept telling himself that it's not because of others that he is so useless now, but because of himself, but he still couldn't help thinking that his father didn't spoil him back then, if Wei Xianzhi could show some consideration for him, If so, he can do so.

The scariest thing about this kind of mentality is that complaining is fun for a while, and the whole family is cremated.

If he complains that he is not motivated, it is still helpful, because he can change himself.

And what if you blame others for disrespecting you?Then there is basically nothing to save, Fang Yan can't change others.Others will not change for Fang Yan, everyone has their own judgment.Although Fang Yan feels very comfortable getting along with Yan Beicheng, but this is comfortable, and there are some elements of self-pity in it.

He thought he would be able to live on the sympathy of others.

Yan Beicheng can get along well with others because he doesn't feel that others are better than him, nor does he feel that others are worse than him. To make friends on the basis of equality, I won't take advantage of you. You can take advantage of me, too. It depends on how far I am with you. If the relationship is close, it doesn't matter. If the relationship is far away, I won't scold you. I will gradually alienate you in the future.

Fang Yan assumed from the beginning that everyone hated him, so he either avoided others or was extremely humble.

How is it possible to make true friends like this.

In the early years, he was extravagant and dissipated, spending money like water, and desperately committed suicide. Compared with today's prudence, he just went from one extreme to the other.

Fang Yan's attitude towards others has always been kneeling. He was not confident from the beginning to the end, and he didn't feel that he had any advantages.After assuming that everyone hates him, he seems to have found a way out, because he can be an annoying person with peace of mind.

Generally, anxiety is not because you are not doing well, but because you want to change but are powerless.Since Fang Yan doesn't want to change, why worry?Goof off.

But now he has almost no way out, and he has gone through all the way out before.There was only one way of life left, and it was a way of life that would cause him special pain.It's easy to die, but it's painful to live, but who wants to die, even Fang Yan subconsciously doesn't want to die.

If he said these words to others, they would definitely think he was hypocritical again.

So he chooses to keep his mouth shut.

Wei Xianzhi and Chu He were playing chess when Yan Beicheng and Fang Yan returned to the shop.Wei Xianzhi was obviously in a bad mood, so he didn't even have the idea of ​​letting Chu He and his sons.Even Chu He didn't bother to argue with him. Although Chu He also had his own faults, he was not as narrow-minded as Wei Xianzhi.

When Wei Xianzhi saw Fang Yan came back, he didn't know what to say, he made a clean break, threatened, snarled and rolled, does he still have the face to talk to Fang Yan now?Do you have a face?Do you have a face?Do you have a face?

Obviously not.

Fang Yan couldn't see and didn't know he was coming, so he said that he went back to his room first.Wei Xianzhi watched Fang Yan go away helplessly, or else Wei Qin was shameless when he pretended to be a grandson with others, how could he cherish his own face now?It's nothing more than feeling that Fang Yan doesn't need to coax him in such a low voice, and digging deeper, he thinks it's no good to please Fang Yan himself.

Wei Xianzhi's little self-interested thoughts began to "swish" up again.

Seeing this, Yan Beicheng asked him if he wanted to stay for dinner.

Before he could answer, Yan Beicheng said again: "Since Mr. Wei is going back, then I won't keep you."

Yanbei City!Your eyes saw that I was going back!

Wei Xianzhi was about to die of anger, and he walked out angrily, thinking that it was a waste of time to play a few games of chess with Chu He in one afternoon!Hey!Do you think Chu He is willing to play chess with you?He is still full of grievances!

"This Wei Qin is too annoying, Beicheng, please return Fang Yan to him, I don't want to see him anymore."

"How can you say 'return'? He is not an object, he also has his own ideas."

"Okay, what are you going to eat then?"

Yan Beicheng smiled.

"I forgot to tell you, we ate outside, you can eat some yourself."

what's the situation!Yan Beicheng, you are too much!I want to divorce you!

Seeing that he was really angry, Yan Beicheng went over and poked Chu He.

"Just kidding you, I brought you food."

Chu He snorted and became arrogant.

So Yan Beicheng went to coax Chu He again. Although flirting with Chu He would make Yan Beicheng very happy, it would be bad if it really made him blow up.Creatures like Tsundere are also miraculous.

Let’s talk about Fang Yan, he didn’t even know that Wei Xianzhi had been here, the two of them always didn’t make it clear, they just guessed wildly, and finally both of them were able to clarify their thoughts to each other, but the following question was even more serious Wei Xianzhi didn't know why Fang Yan didn't like living with him even though they both liked each other.

At the same time, Fang Yan didn't understand that both of them liked each other, but Wei Xianzhi never knew what he was thinking.

Sometimes Fang Yan doubts whether Wei Xianzhi likes him or someone he fantasized about.

At first he thought that Wei Xianzhi was playing tricks on him, but after realizing that Wei Xianzhi was serious, it was even more painful.In his impression, falling in love is a very happy thing, but Wei Xianzhi is too bad in this aspect, he can't be considerate, he doesn't understand romance, he can't even talk sweetly.

Fang Yan thought about what it would be like for two people to be together, but he never thought of it, never thought of it, it would be better not to mention it, at least it would be a little fantasy.

Wei Qin is good-looking, but he is blind and can't see.Wei Xianzhi has talent and learning, but he is not interested in these.Wei Xianzhi is exquisite in all aspects, but he only treats himself simply and rudely.

Fang Yan scolded himself if he was blind for falling in love with such a person.

He was stunned for half a second and suddenly realized:

Oh...he seems really blind...

He doesn't want to talk to Wei Xianzhi now, it's not that he doesn't like him, but the two of them simply can't understand each other, they're completely talking to each other.Besides, as soon as he met Wei Xianzhi, he couldn't organize his words.So both of them need time to calm down and reflect on themselves.

Fang Yan, are you kidding me?Wei Xianzhi, the kind of person who would reflect on himself?

After Wei Xianzhi returned to his house, he was still depressed. At this time, a servant came to report that there was a master Zhu outside asking to see him. Master Zhu was a wealthy local businessman.Wei Xianzhi let Master Zhu in, and the two sat down and exchanged greetings for a while, and then Master Zhu said that he would invite him to the place of fireworks to drink flower wine.

Master Zhu said it very euphemistically, but the core content is to offer bribes.

Wei Qin hated those so-called places of fireworks. It turned out that when he was hiding in the brothel, he watched Zhao Wei and Fang Yan kiss me every day, and the dry vinegar he ate was enough to drown the world ten times, so he heard the words brothel and Goulan. Is he annoying?So Wei Xianzhi simply rejected Master Zhu.

Master Zhu saw that this plan failed, so he said that he would introduce his daughter to Wei Xianzhi.Ms. Zhu is very good-looking, unforgettable at first sight, and she loves her when she sees her again.Wei Xianzhi frowned, thinking what the hell is this, if he looks good, he will marry him!Can their backyard fit in?

Besides, these vulgar fans are no match for Fang Yan.

It seems that Wei Xianzhi is quite blind...

"Master Zhu, I saw you. If there is nothing else, I will take a rest."

Ms. Zhu is also very embarrassed. Although she doesn't want to marry, this kind of "betting on orphans" attitude is too hurtful.So Miss Zhu left first, and Master Zhu couldn't stay any longer and left in disgrace.

Wei Xianzhi snorted, thinking that this group of people also didn't understand his own thoughts, if someone could get Fang Yan back for him, then he would definitely agree to anything.He didn't know that Mr. Zhu regarded him as an upright and upright official. After this reputation was spread, almost no one dared to give him gifts. He has been an official all his life, so clean that even Wei Qin himself was very moved...

Someone else made a portrait of him...

Fang Yan said afterwards that it seems that the melon-eating people in this world who don't know the truth are still too naive.

Wei Xianzhi has very few hobbies, except for Fang Yan who is reading.Otherwise, drink tea, grow flowers, and grow grass.He doesn't smoke opium, doesn't drink alcohol, doesn't approach women, and doesn't go whoring//prostitution.So when Fang Yan left, he took half of his life away.In addition to dealing with official documents, he only reads books.

After reading the books on several shelves, he entrusted others to go to other provinces to buy them.

He felt that he was living a leisurely life, but others thought he was leading a cultivation practice...

When Wei Qin was in the capital, he earned a lot of money, he did the math and thought it was enough, and he didn't think too much about money.It seems that his moral level is quite excellent!Uh... If someone says that, Wei Xianzhi himself will be the first to disagree. He is simply not interested in things that other people are interested in, okay?

There are no books at hand, the flowers and plants have been watered, and the official documents have long been read.

Wei Xianzhi was too idle, and when he was free, he started thinking about Fang Yan, wanting to see him and talk to him.But after he went there, he couldn't hold back his face. After thinking about it, he suddenly remembered that there was one thing he hadn't done. He hadn't eaten seafood at the beach!Wei Xianzhi felt that as a parent official in Quanzhou, he was too dereliction of duty!

He changed into civilian clothes and went out alone with his purse.

Wei Qin's father made a living by fishing. When he was very young, he told him that the seafood in the sea was all kinds of strange and delicious, so Wei Qinzhi left an obsession.He walked for a long time before he found the market. There were shrimps, crabs, and all kinds of seafood in the market. The store not only bought them, but also cooked them.

With his hands behind his back, Wei Qin bumped here and there, and was almost caught by the crab's big pincers.So he was honest, found a place to sit down, and asked the store to cook some shrimps and crabs.

He sat alone in front of a very large table. After a while, the boiled crabs were served. He peeled and tasted it and felt that it had more meat than river crabs.As the number of people gradually increased, the waiter in the shop asked him if he wanted to share a table.

"My lord, is there anyone coming here soon?"

Wei Xianzhi froze for a moment, then replied:

"I'm alone."

I don't know why his throat was a little hard when he said this.

Seafood is not as delicious as I imagined.

But I was even more lonely than I imagined.