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Fang Yan hadn't been taken care of like this for a long time, and he still had some dependence on the servant who took care of him.He has not been cultivated the good quality of "independent self-care" since he was a child, so he always relies on others to take care of himself.

When the day comes when no one takes care of him, he can only learn to degenerate.

Fang Yan thinks about it now, how could he be so desperate at the beginning, saying that he would not be able to live, those are actually excuses, just to make himself feel more comfortable and not feel so much guilt That's all.All his life, he had been looking for psychological comfort and a way out for himself, which was why he was in such a miserable situation.

When he was a child, he should have studied hard, but he felt that he had a house and a field at home, and life was boundless.

What book to read!Get off!

After being ransacked, he should have lived a steady life, but he felt that there was no need to worry about having an old servant to support him.

What to do!Get off!

When the old servant died, he should have used the money to pay for the funeral, but because he was depressed, Mr. Zhao set up a trick to frame him.He was afraid of death, of being beaten, and of being caught in the net, so he was obedient and quiet like a chicken, so he became a duck.

What festival is it called!Get off!

Now that Jing An was a duck, he should have collected money to redeem himself, but he started to provoke Wei Xianzhi again.

What the fuck!Get off!

He didn't know it at first, thinking that Mr. Wei's situation was the same as his own.It was only later that I found out that Mr. Wei had caused a lot of trouble at that time, and Prince Lian protected him and asked him to change his identity.For Mr. Wei, entering the brothel is to do things for the sake of having a lot of people, but for him, it is a wandering in the world and being bullied by others. It is obviously completely different.

Looking back on the past, Fang Yan felt ashamed of his inaction and regretted his wasted years.

He is a typical kind of person who smashes a good hand of cards. When his family is rich, he is not enterprising, but he is a dude. He has some money left when his family is in decline. Bigger than a horse.

It is all because of his own death that he has come to this step today.

Fang Yan thought to himself that he was almost 30 years old, mediocre and accomplishing nothing.

His life has been completely ruined by himself.

He never blamed Wei Xianzhi, because he knew very well that although Wei Xianzhi was using him, it wouldn't have happened if he didn't want to. Wei Xianzhi didn't force him with a knife on his neck, but He likes it himself.

So who is to blame?

You can't always think that someone else caused something to happen, Fang Yan just regrets himself, regrets that he has indulged himself for so many years, yes, he will be 30 years old soon, his eyes are blind, and his throat has become like this, what? None, if Wei Xianzhi didn't order others to take care of him, he wouldn't even be able to eat.

What should I do afterwards?

dog leash?Or keep messing around like this?

Fang Yan was a little scared. No one would take care of him in the future, and he had to face everything by himself.Although the servant took Wei Xianzhi's money, he couldn't take care of him for a long time. Even if he was of excellent character, he would marry a wife and have children in the future, so what happened to him being caught in the middle.

The most likely thing is that he will give others some money and let others take care of themselves.

Later he became a liability, blind and old, to be pushed around, to live on the meager handouts and consciences of others.

Whenever Fang Yan thought of these things, he would feel uneasy. He knew that he had to start planning for himself, but he still wasted his time every day, refusing to do anything at all.

It is clear that if this continues, it will only be abandoned in the end.

But what is he doing every day now?

Fang Yan groped and stood up, thinking that at least he could not let others help him when he walked every day.When he went to the restaurant that day, he asked someone else to take him there, hey... he had to rely on others for food...

Don't blind people generally have a stick or something? Well, how could I not have this standard equipment for blind people!

He leaned on the fence and walked downstairs. This was the first time he came down by himself in the past few days. When he saw him, Xiao Er immediately surrounded him and asked him what instructions he had. He simply said that Xiao Er would let someone go immediately. Buy, Fang Yan asked about Yinzi again.Xiao Er smiled and said: "Young Master, you are too worried. The one who came with you paid a large sum of money to let us take good care of you."

"Where did he go?"

"Say it's something, and I'll be back in a while."

Fang Yan nodded, turned around and wanted to go back to the house.

"If you have anything, you can ask his servant boy, who lives next door to you."

Fang Yan froze for a moment, startled.

Paid a lot of money?And a page?

He hurriedly stumbled upstairs, called "Xiao Lian" tentatively, Xiao Lian answered in the room, opened the door and saw Fang Yan, and said to himself that he was going to reveal his secrets.Quickly put on airs and said: "Mr. Fang, why are you here?"

"You've been living next door?"

"Just came, the master asked me to send some money, if there is nothing else, I will leave first."

Fang Yan nodded, thinking that it was true, how could Wei Xianzhi put down what he was doing to take care of himself.Seeing that he believed it, Xiao Lian breathed a sigh of relief.

It's annoying!What's the matter!

"Then, do you know who lives next door?"

Xiao Lian was stopped by the question, glanced left and right, happened to see Wei Xianzhi, and quickly waved him over.Fang Yan heard that he didn't answer for a long time, so he asked again. "Xiao Lian, are you still there?"

Wei Xianzhi frowned when he heard him calling Xiao Lian, thinking that Fang Yan knew something.

So he opened his mouth and said:

"What do you call Xiao Lian?"

Hearing Wei Xianzhi's voice, Fang Yan forgot all the doubts he had just had, and laughed dryly for a moment.

"It's okay, it's okay."

When Fang Yan was embarrassed, Xiao Er came up with the bamboo pole he had bought. He just wanted to say hello to Wei Xianzhi, but Wei Xianzhi gave him a stare. went downstairs.

"Then... I'll go back to the house first."

Fang Yan smiled stiffly, tapped with a bamboo pole and went into the house.

After Fang Yan entered, Wei Xianzhi scolded Xiao Lian with a bad face.

"what happened!"

Xiao Lian explained the cause and effect, and Wei Xianzhi thought that Xiao Lian was quite clever, so he finally did not reveal the matter.He nodded and asked Xiao Lian to go back first. Since Fang Yan knew he was coming, he should go in as Wei Xianzhi and say a few words.He pushed the door open and went in, only to see Fang Yan asking a little nervously.

"The one?"

"it's me."

Fang Yan nodded uncomfortably, and asked in a measured tone.

"What are you... doing?"

Young Master Wei didn't know how to answer for a moment.

"Are you here to find Xiao Lian?"

"Yes."

After finishing speaking, the two were a little silent. Since Wei Xianzhi knew what he was thinking, he could no longer pretend to be fierce, and became more obedient. Xu felt that the atmosphere between the two was awkward, and Fang Yan froze. smiled.

"It's getting late, I have to rest too."

"It's just noon, so it's getting late?"

Hearing what he said, Fang Yan could only explain with a little stammer.

"Probably, probably because I can't see, I don't know the time."

Wei Xianzhi saw that Fang Yan's ears were a little red, and his heart moved slightly.She squeezed his chin and kissed the tip of his nose.

Fang Yan was startled and quickly pushed him away.

"What? Don't you like me?"

"I like you, but you don't have to coax me anymore. I'm a useless person now, and I'm useless to you. You don't have to be like this..."

He spoke very slowly, but Wei Xianzhi interrupted him before he finished speaking.

"Needless to say, I'm going back."

Fang Yan lamented in his heart, finally had a chance to get along with Wei Xianzhi, but he messed it up again!

In fact, Wei Xianzhi was also depressed. He even felt that Fang Yan must hate him in his heart. No wonder, because Fang Yan was blind, it was inevitable that Fang Yan would treat him like this.

Wei Xianzhi stood outside for a long time before knocking on the door and entering.

Fang Yan was slightly embarrassed when he heard the door opening.

"who is it?"

Fang Yan heaved a sigh of relief when no one answered.

"You're back?"

Wei Xianzhi took his hand and wrote "Yes" in the palm of his hand.

Fang Yan smiled.

"Xianzhi came here just now, have you seen him?"

Wei Xianzhi was stunned when he heard him calling him so intimately.

"That means it's gone."

After that, the two had no communication. Wei Xianzhi watched him tap on the house with the pole, as if he was getting familiar with how to use it to find the way. After a while, Fang Yan said, "I'll go out for a while."

Wei Xianzhi didn't want him to leave his sight for a moment, so he also stood up and wanted to go with him.

Fang Yan originally wanted to cultivate his self-care ability, but he didn't want Wei Xianzhi to follow him, so he refused in every possible way. In the end, Wei Xianzhi had no choice but to let him go by himself, but he said he was going by himself, but he still followed behind.

Fang Yan didn't have any money on him, and he just wanted to walk around. There were people coming and going outside, and he was bumped several times, so he groped and walked against the wall for a while, and when he was a little tired, he sat on the stone steps to rest.After sitting for a while, the door opened, and a child came out of the door and asked him not to block the door.

After hearing this, Fang Yan was a little embarrassed, smiled and stood up quickly.

The child looked at him back and forth for a long time and suddenly laughed, scolded Fang Yan as a blind man, and even asked his friends to come and watch with him.Fang Yan couldn't help but wanted to leave, but just as he turned around, a child snatched the bamboo pole from his hand.Wei Xianzhi watched from behind, and originally wanted to go up and scold those children, but in the end he didn't move.

Fang Yan was humiliated by the child this time, so he probably has no idea of ​​coming out by himself in the future.

It's good for him to shut himself in the house, and it's convenient for him to take care of himself.

He was right, Fang Yan's heart was hot, and his face was hot.

"Give it back to me!"

Seeing that he was annoyed, the group of children were even happier, and ran away with the bamboo pole.Fang Yan couldn't hear their footsteps and knew that he couldn't catch up with that pole.He suddenly became terrified, even children bullied him, wouldn't it be even more terrifying to get along with adults.He didn't dare to go out of the house anymore, after all, coming out was just to be laughed at.

Fang Yan suddenly felt that it was funny that he still wanted to live by himself.

Why?

Is it because he is blind?

If he couldn't do it, he definitely couldn't do it. He should have known that he was a waste.

How nice it is to eat and wait to die like before.