Shen Shu

"Encountered a bottleneck so soon? Okay, okay, I'll help you settle it." Shao Zixun was responding to his junior's call for help, while listening to the rhythmic sound of another junior typing on the computer keyboard and typing text .

"Actually, I've always wanted to ask." After putting down his phone, Shao Zixun lay down on the sofa, stretched his arms around Zhou Tong's shoulders, and poked his head out of the edge of the cushion to look at his screen, "You can also take pictures directly of."

Zhou Tong's hands continued to work: "I was thinking, if I repeat this process, will I have more inspiration for the interpretation of these words—" Before he finished speaking, his hand suddenly Hanging in the air, it seems to have seen something special.

Shao Zixun frowned, sat up while supporting the armrest, leaned on Zhou Tong's neck from behind, and asked softly, "What's wrong?"

"It's okay." Zhou Tong also leaned back naturally, and the two exchanged breaths in a very close distance. "Just saw this," he pointed to the place where he just entered it in the diary, "he mentioned another person again."

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In the army, sometimes you can meet people who are close friends like you and me back then.Not to mention brothers.In the last battle, I watched an elder brother push his younger brother down the ditch, gave him half of the grenades I gave him, and then I carried the rest of the grenades and jumped out of the ditch to charge.Before running halfway, he was shot by a machine gun and fell to the ground without making a sound.

Before his brother could cry on the spot, he yelled and rushed up with a gun.Just a few shells hit here, and the dust raised up also covered his figure.I couldn't see where he rushed.

When I was resting, I suddenly saw a grenade that I hadn't had time to use. What echoed in my mind was not only the military song sung before the expedition, but also the old boatmen who pushed the boat out of the port when we first met on the pier more than ten years ago. The chant that was yelled from time to time.At that time, your legs were ill, but you insisted on leaving your crutches and following your uncle. You could see the stubbornness in your bones from your eyes.At first, looking at your expression, I thought it was because you didn't want to see me; but later you told me that you saw me rushing out with my father, my clothes were not in order, and my description was not neat.

When I said this, the weather was the same as it is now, and it was so hot that my heart was cooked with oil.And here and now, I can't find anyone who can give me the same state of mind and comfort as before.

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"Obviously, isn't it?"

"It can't be more obvious." Shao Zixun maintained the posture of embracing Zhou Tong, and most of his breath hit the back of his neck, making Zhou Tong couldn't help but dodge to the side, and simply leaned against Shao Zixun's waist.

"Don't make trouble—" Before he finished speaking, Shao Zixun curled up his upper body while lying on his side, approached Zhou Tong's neck from the side, and gnawed lightly on it.It wasn't until the relationship was confirmed that Shao Zixun really discovered his courage and flirting skills, just like the physiological education films he watched overtly and secretly in the past few years are only now playing a role.

In this regard, despite the inevitable embarrassment, Zhou Tong did not take an attitude of rejection. "Although the air conditioner is turned on, to be honest, it's quite hot like this." It seemed that there was only such an excuse, and it was directly ignored by the other party.

"To be honest, you can't delay the pro-test confession. If you delay, you don't know what will happen."

"This must be agreed."

"But judging from their situation, they are probably too young to see clearly."

"It's too late."

But now the flames are out.Zhou Tong adjusted his sitting posture backwards, turned his upper body to embrace Shao Zixun's head and kissed it actively.

——Fortunately, Lin Luo left, otherwise their mobile phones would be blown up by their college classmates in three or ten minutes.

Shao Zixun was thinking about it.

After the end, Zhou Tong paused the work in his hand, and quickly browsed through it, and seemed to find more valuable spoilers. Even if it revealed the location and time of the battle, this kind of information was enough to help them push forward more. intelligence.But it seems that due to the tension of the war, the content of the diary in the next year and a half is extremely brief, and a considerable part of it is even just a date and weather, with place names that are scrawled and difficult to distinguish.

When I turn to the longest article, it is the last part of the whole book.

When Zhou Tong was about to start watching, his hand was held down by Shao Zixun: "Could it be too fast?" Before Zhou Tong could answer, Shao Zixun had quickly rearranged his thoughts, and then let go of his hand: "Oh, it's still too fast." Let's watch it now, maybe there will be something in the end." Zhou Tong glanced back at him speechlessly.

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I thought I could wait until the end to say these words in person, but now I have to prepare for the worst.

Four days before, our supply lines had been cut; afterward reinforcements had broken the enemy lines, but were soon blocked back.Fortunately, the reinforcements brought some food and ammunition, allowing us to stay on the ground for another day and a half.After that, there is only a last stand.Just now, we received the final order: to launch a final attack in the early morning to break through. If successful, we will take a small road and turn into the mountain, and then follow another road to escape the pursuit.To be honest, no one has the intention or extravagant hope of living, but as I thought and wrote before, when you die, you must turn your back to your own trench.

I remember when we were still in Shanghai, I told you many times: I don’t believe in destiny.This is indeed what my father taught me.He said that he changed from a poor fishing boy to a company tycoon not by his life, but by hard work.Now that I think about it, I can't tell whether I was lucky to have a friend like you at that time.If not, then how much did we pay for such an encounter.It has been four years since we parted, and I have seen countless faces in these four years, most of which have only been alive in front of me for less than half a year.Looking at them I often think of you, but none of them are you.

I don't know what your plans are after I leave Shanghai. I wrote you a letter in the autumn of 27, but I haven't heard back so far. I don't know if it was lost when I sent it or we had already transferred it when you replied.But I believe you are just like me.Sometimes I imagine that you are still studying medicine in Shanghai, and now you should also work in the hospital, saving lives and healing the wounded like the ideal you said; I also imagine how you join the army-you must be very suitable for military uniforms.When I see someone your height in uniform, I always secretly imagine his face as yours.Once I almost laughed out loud and hugged him, which startled the brother I didn't know.

But after every fight, I wonder if you would be in the same danger, or even worse, if you followed the same path as me.At times like this, sometimes I dare not look at the wounded and dead soldiers being carried back from the battlefield, for fear of seeing a face I no longer know well.After thinking about it, you are more likely to become a military doctor directly, and the place of work is relatively safer, at least you can live longer than me.Thinking of this, I began to look forward to the time when I carried my comrades to the rear hospital, even if I was shot because of bad luck, they came in to help me get the bullets to bandage the wound, and by the way scolded me for "not long-term" like before, it will be you.

The first time I found out that I missed you so much, I was so shocked that I couldn't fall asleep. I was as nervous as when I took you to climb a tree when I was a child, but I couldn't go down, and my sister cried loudly on the cradle in the house.I used to think that the relationship between you and me that I expected was the confidant who talked about everything and was inseparable after living together for more than ten years. When I was 12 years old, I thought about studying abroad together and returning to China together when I grew up. I also wanted to buy a house. Next door; at the moment when you sent me away, I even thought that when our army returned in victory, after several ten years, whichever of the two of us passed away first, the other would make arrangements for his funeral and write a eulogy for him.Victory and triumph are inevitable and just around the corner, but I may not be the one who returns home with honor.

Now that I think about it, you may mean more to me than a friend, or even a confidant.I dated a girl or two when I was at school, as you know.But then I suddenly discovered that what lulled me to sleep in the cloudy gunpowder smoke was not the beautiful image of her turning into the next classroom when I was young, but you pulled me to watch a movie, recommended a good book to me, and were happy when I received my gift. laughter.In the past four years, I have thought about the time I spent on my father's fishing boat and the harbor pier when I was just walking, and I remembered the scene of swimming with you when I was a teenager.

It's like when I took you to the beach when I was ten years old, I talked to my mother when I went home for dinner: If only you and I were a family.That way you don't have to go through the inevitable separation and long pain, and even the burial is closer to you.

There's a lot to say, but that's all I can say.Half an hour later it was a fight to the death.More bad luck than good, this book cannot be kept by your side, and it is unpredictable whether it can reach you.Although the above has denied the destiny, but at this time, I hope that some kind of power can give it to you, even if I just heard this distant statement in my dream.

Shao Heng, it is my greatest regret that you and I cannot see each other off this time; but I will wait for you in another place for hundreds of years.