you are the cutest in the world

If it was said that Wei You was still in the stage of guessing about his thoughts before, seeing Wei Xu's performance now, he immediately confirmed most of that guess.

The air seemed to freeze, and the surroundings were silent, even quieter than a snowy night.

Then Wei You sighed, leaned back on the sofa, and said calmly, "Come and sit, I have something to ask you."

Wei Xu strode forward with difficulty, and his slippers barely made any sound as they stepped on the floor.

In the past, he would sit directly next to Wei You, but this time he sat beside Shan Moqixi

His eyes glanced at Xiao Huan on the table and then his gaze sank.

Wei You turned his head to look at him, the young man lowered his head, half of his face was hidden in the shadow, his expressionless face was as cold as porcelain.

In an instant, Wei You felt that he was a little strange again, calm and indifferent like a mature adult, completely different from the melon boy in his memory.

After a moment of silence, he cut to the chase and asked, "Do you still like the girl you liked in junior high school?"

Wei Xu nodded quietly.

Wei You: "Did you still not tell him?"

Wei Xu: "No."

"Why don't you say it?"

Wei Xu took a deep breath and replied, "I'm afraid that if I say it, he will leave me."

Wei You swallowed unconsciously, his chest was throbbing rapidly, and he asked, "Is he from your school?"

Wei Xu shook his head.

"Did I learn to paint with you?"

Wei Xu paused, but still shook his head.

"Is it a girl?"

"Brother," Wei Xu looked up at him, "You have already guessed it."

He stared straight at Wei You without any hesitation in his eyes, as if to say: You already know it's you, why don't you dare admit it?

"Shall I say his name?"

"No, there's no need." Wei You closed his eyes, feeling almost desperate in his heart.

He really couldn't figure it out, recalling every time he got along with Wei Xu in the past, he never gave him any hint of this.

Since renting the house, the two have grown up with each other. In terms of words, deeds and usual teaching, he only treats each other as a younger brother. Why Wei Xu has such feelings for him is hard for him to understand.

What made him even more fond of him was the cub he raised with his own hands, which was much more difficult to deal with than a friend who had been with him for more than ten years suddenly confessing to him.

Even if Xia Guangsi suddenly bent over and told him that he had been secretly in love with him for many years, he would never be as entangled and uncomfortable as he is now.

"Is it difficult?" Wei Xu said lightly in a lack of energy tone: "Actually, there is no need to be embarrassed. You can pretend that you don't know. I was also prepared for you to never know. I said it a long time ago. I just want to like it silently, and I don't want to add other burdens to you."

"I've already talked about this, how do you want me to pretend." Wei You said in a bad tone, inevitably a little wanting to vent his depression.

Wei Xu pursed his lips, his Adam's apple slipped, his face was very pale.

After a moment of silence, Wei You breathed a sigh of relief, tried to calm down, looked at him and asked, "When did it start?"

"The real confirmation was at the age of 14," Wei Xu replied, "but it may have started very early."

So, it's been over three years.

Wei You couldn't believe it.

This brat had already had that kind of affection for him when he was thirteen or fourteen years old, but he didn't realize it at all.

He couldn't help but think back to the past three years ago, and many incomprehensible pictures of the past rushed into his mind.

No wonder Wei Xu would post those ambiguous remarks in the space at that time, no wonder he was interested in the movie "Farewell My Concubine", no wonder he would say "you don't understand" so sadly during the quarrel that day ...

Now, all the actions that he could not think of in the past have clear answers.

Even though Wei Xu said that he could not care about his feelings, Wei You still felt very ashamed when this happened, and he was too ashamed to face the reality.

His eyes fell on the row of dolls in front of him. When he was not around, what kind of mentality did Wei Xu have to create these remnants that resembled him? He couldn't imagine.

"The doll looks quite similar. When I saw it, I was shocked." He said in a self-deprecating tone.

"Because I poured love into it." Wei Xu said almost in a broken jar.

Wei You felt a little difficult to answer the words. Although the scene was very quiet, his mind was full of vague noises, which made him anxious and fidgety.

After holding back for a while, he still couldn't stand the atmosphere at this moment, suddenly got up and said: "You made me sick!

After saying that, he walked towards the room with big strides as if fleeing.

Wei Xu got up after him, and called "Brother" before he entered his room.

Wei You stopped in his tracks, but did not turn around.

"Do you remember that Teacher Ma who said he would wait for you?"

Before Wei You could speak, Wei Xu continued, "She got married last year."

"Oh... really, that's pretty good." Wei You said dryly.

"I've always been jealous of her before, and I can say this to you openly, but now, I have the opportunity to say that too."

Wei Xu watched his back, and spoke slowly and clearly: "Perhaps Don't make a promise to wait for you, but they will all give up in the end, I'm different, I won't give up.

"All along, I grew up waiting for you to come back. I have been waiting for so many years. If I don't continue to wait, the past time will be wasted. This is my concept all along, so I said wait You are waiting forever."

Wei You really wanted to reply, "Don't always talk about your whole life when you are young", but when he came to speak, it seemed that a stone blocked his throat, making it difficult for him to speak.

Finally, without saying anything, he entered the room and closed the door.

Turning on the light, Wei You originally wanted to sit on a chair, but when he lowered his head, he found that the table was full of Wei Xu's books. Turning his gaze, there were Wei Xu's pillows on the bed, and Wei Xu's clothes were also left on the bedside.

In three years, Wei Xu has filled the room with his traces.

I said before that I moved to this house because of the good lighting, but now that I think about it, it’s not that simple.

Wei You lay down on the armchair and covered his face with a blanket.

His ability to face reality calmly is not as strong as that of a sophomore in high school, which makes him feel a little ridiculous.

But he can't be blamed for this, no matter how you look at it, it happened so suddenly that he didn't have any time to prepare.

That kid is also, he admitted so simply, obviously he has been hiding it for so long, why can't he continue to hide it?

Just make up a reason to make up a few sophistry, if you are not sure, he will believe it.

For a moment, Wei You, who was desperate, had such an idea.

His mind has never been so chaotic as it is now. Reality and memories are intertwined and intertwined, making his already chaotic thoughts as if wrapped in an unknown fog, unable to struggle or escape.

I can't wait to hide and sleep for a while, so that I may wake up and find that this is just a nightmare.

However, reality is reality, and Wei You knows better than anyone that he must find a solution.

He lay on the rocking chair and thought hard for a long time, but still couldn't think of a good countermeasure.

What's the next step?

Do you want to stay here, or leave decisively?

It would be cruel to leave.

Although long-term pain is worse than short-term pain, but only for Wei Xu, he couldn't bear to bring him pain.

This kid was already unfortunate enough in his only ten years of life, and he didn't want to be the source of misfortune for the other party in the next few years.

But he can't give the other party the response they want, isn't it a kind of torture to stay here?

And it's torture for both parties.

Although his thoughts are chaotic and complicated, there is one thing Wei You has always been certain of, that it is impossible for him to accept Wei Xu's love, at least not now.

Not only because of gender and age, the bigger obstacle is that Wei Xu is the child he watched and grew up. He has always regarded Wei Xu as a younger brother, and has never had the slightest thought of surpassing him. No matter what, It is impossible to cross that obstacle.

Wei You bent his body on the rocking chair, sighed again and again, and realized for the first time how bad his indecisive character was.

He naturally wants to find a solution to the problem that has the best of both worlds, but how to solve it?

The best possibility is, of course, that Wei Xu got his emotions wrong. He only has the kind of admiration for his elders, not love.

Maybe Wei Xu made a mistake.

He may not like himself at all, but because he is the best and closest to him, and because he has left from time to time in the past ten years, he mistakenly regards dependence as liking in waiting and missing, and stubbornly surrounds himself in such a kind of "I love you". As if liking him" in the hallucination.

That's not love, it's just obsession.

Love has no solution, but obsession can be resolved.

Having said that, Wei Xu looks mature, but he is only 17 years old. How much can a 17-year-old know? Looking back on his first love when he was 17 years old, doesn't it seem ridiculous now?

Thinking of this, Wei You suddenly regained his energy, as if wandering around the complicated mountains late at night for a long time could not find a way to leave, but now he was guided on the right path by an accidental discovery, and the scenery in front of him suddenly became brighter.

The more he thought about it, the more he felt that this was the case, and finally decided to go out and have a heart-to-heart chat with Wei Xu, if he hadn't slept yet.

Wei Xu really didn't sleep, not only didn't sleep, but also didn't stay in his original position.

Wei You opened the door, and saw him squatting on the ground next to the door, just like when he was beaten when he was a child, sitting with his back against the wall with his knees down and his head motionless.

"What are you doing here?"

Wei Xu raised his head slowly, looked at him with black and white eyes, and said in a slightly trembling voice, "I'm afraid you're leaving."

He seemed to have cried, the corners of his eyes were slightly flushed, but his face was still pale, making his face fragile and pitiful but also extraordinarily beautiful.

"I won't leave." The pitiful appearance of the other party reminded Wei You of his childhood experience, and unconsciously slowed down his tone and asked in concern: "Have you had the soup yet?"

Wei Xu shook his head.

"not hungry?"

"hungry."

"I'm going to drink soup when I'm hungry, and I'll go too." Wei You stretched out his hand to him, "Get up."

Wei Xu was stunned for a moment, then raised his right hand and placed it on his.

Wei You felt the heat coming from between his palms, and his eyes unconsciously fell on the two cups of light.

Perhaps it was because of his different mood towards the young man, it was the first time he noticed that the blue veins extending from the back of the other's hand stretched so gracefully.

When I walked to the kitchen, I heard rustling sounds from outside the window. There was a layer of fog on the glass window, it should be raining.

"Did the weather forecast say it will rain tonight?" Wei You asked in a normal tone while taking a bowl from the cupboard.

Wei Xu looked at him cautiously, and said in a low voice, "It seems so."

The soup has been kept warm in the casserole over a low heat, and the rich aroma wafts out when the lid is lifted.

Wei You filled two bowls of soup, and put a piece of bone in Wei Xu's bowl.

Suo Yuexian went to the dining table, turned on the electric light hanging above her head, and the dim yellow light fell on the tablecloth printed with willow leaf patterns.

Wei You stared aimlessly at the corners of the vase's glass that was glowing with color, while mentally writing a draft, thinking about how to speak.

At this moment, he heard the crisp sound of the bone hitting the ceramic bowl, looked up, and saw Wei Xu was holding the chopsticks weakly, the bone was lying in the soup bowl, and a few drops of soup splashed on the surrounding tablecloth.

"It wasn't clamped properly, it slipped." He pursed his lips and explained.

Wei You realized that at some point in time, his eyes were red again, tears were pooling in their sockets, and there were flashes of moving badgers and toads.