you are the cutest in the world

[September 2016, 9/Sunday/Cloudy

I moved into the dormitory today. It’s my first time to live on campus. I’m not used to it. Fortunately, my roommates are very friendly and the environment is also very good. I hope I can adapt as soon as possible.

Thinking that I will live in this city for a long time in the future, I can't help but feel happy.

Recently, I often imagine that if I meet my brother by chance on the road, what should I say?

I imagined several situations, and I couldn't help laughing every time I thought about it.

Although he doesn't know me now, and there is no memory between us, even so, I still want to see him very much.

I don't know where he is now, but I am waiting in his hometown, and I will meet him one day! 】

【October 2016, 10/Sunday/Overcast

Taking advantage of the free time on the weekend, I went alone to the Temple of God of Wealth that I had been to before.

The weather was not very good, it was so dark that it might rain at any time, but there were so many people coming to the summit today, and the journey was packed with crowds. I checked the calendar and found out that today is the Double Ninth Festival.

The team for unwrapping the lottery was as long as ever, and it was finally my turn after queuing for two hours.

I asked the master when my wish would be fulfilled, and he said that the fate has not arrived yet, so I need to wait, and it can be fulfilled within five years.

I don't know if he is bluffing me, five years is a long time, and I have graduated from university at that time.

But it's better to have a specific waiting period than nothing, and I'm still willing to believe him. 】

【January 2017, 1/Sunday/Sunny

New Year's Day is off, and the roommates have all returned to their hometowns.

I had nowhere to go, so I went to Jinyang High School.

Compared with summer vacation, this winter is much quieter.

Today is very windy, but the sun is also very warm, I walked along the road he took me last time, and then went to the supermarket to buy a bottle of water.

Unexpectedly, the cashier at the supermarket still remembered me. She remembered that we came together a year and a half ago. She has a really good memory.

She said it was because you brothers are good-looking, and it is rare to see such a handsome boy, so she was very impressed.

Let's take it as her complimenting our appearance.

I asked her about my brother, and she said that he used to come to buy a kind of sour fudge called Xiaoyan. He liked the blueberry flavor, and he often bought five or six sticks at a time.

I bought one, the candy is really sour, but after the sourness, it becomes sweet, which is quite delicious.

You can buy more, and keep them refreshed while studying. 】

[September 2017, 9 / Sunday / light rain

It took two days and finally moved out yesterday.

I've been very busy recently, and I'm dizzy from being so busy. I woke up today and found out that I have a fever.

I went to a nearby pharmacy to buy medicine and a thermometer. When I came back, I was so dizzy that I almost fell on the stairs. The height of the floor was still a bit difficult.

I just fell asleep, and dreamed that I was back when I was very young, probably in the second or third grade of elementary school. I dreamed that he told me stories and coaxed me to sleep, but I haven’t seen his face clearly yet. When I woke up, those warm pictures disappeared without a trace like phantoms.

An unspeakable loss...

Probably sick will become fragile, I really want to hug him.

I don't do anything else, I just want to lean on his shoulder and smell the reassuring smell on his body.

When I lived in the dormitory, I thought my roommates were too noisy, but now I feel lonely living alone.

I have a headache, and I can't read the book...

Go to bed early after taking the medicine later. 】

【October 2018, 2/Sunday/Overcast

I went to a high school reunion today, and Liu Weiwei showed us a video of the New Year’s Eve party in the first year of high school, saying that I saw it on the school’s post bar.

I suddenly had a thought that maybe my brother had participated in similar activities before.

After returning, I found the post bar of Jinyang High School on the Internet, and searched for the video of the New Year's Day party in it.

Probably because the time is too long, the video quality found is very blurry.

It took me an afternoon to watch all the videos of his New Year's Day party for the past three years, and I finally found him in the video of the party in the first year of high school.

What he participated in seemed to be a catwalk performance by a club, and he walked on the stage with a female partner.

That girl... I don't know where my intuition came from, but I always feel that she is his first girlfriend.

Although it was uncomfortable to see him standing with others, I downloaded the video and remembered to cut off that girl later. 】

【August 2018, 8/Friday/Sunny

On Qixi Festival, I was forced out by my classmates to sell roses in the square. These speechless behaviors are not the point. The point is that when I went back, I saw someone who looked like my brother at the subway station.

No, he must be my brother!

But we were too far away, and there were so many people in the subway.

When I saw him, I was still on the escalator, but he was already getting into the car.

I hurriedly squeezed through the crowd and rushed down, but still missed, the door of the carriage was just closed...

pain!regret!

There is nothing more unfortunate than this in the world, why can't I go down 2 minutes earlier, why can't I walk faster, I am so mad at myself!

I wrote down this route, come here tomorrow and wait and see, God bless...]

【August 2019, 8 / Thursday / sunny to cloudy】

I received a lot of birthday wishes in the morning, and I made an appointment with my roommate to have a meal at the lobster restaurant I often go to.

I don't know if my mood has changed. It's obviously the same restaurant. I feel that the lobster is not as delicious as it was four years ago.

After lunch, I went to the beach alone and wanted to watch the sunset, but the weather was bad, so I didn't see it.

In the evening, I went to the snack street again. The photo I took for my brother is still my mobile phone wallpaper. When I saw the ice cream truck, I felt like I went back in time for a moment.

When I came back, I passed by the theme hotel where I stayed with my brother when I was traveling.

Maybe people are more emotional at night. The rental house is not far away, and I spent 200 yuan to stay in this hotel for one night. Thinking about it now, I am really stupid.

But since it's my birthday, it's okay to be self-willed. 】

【August 2020, 8/Sunday/Rain

In a flash you have been away for five years, time flies so fast.

At the beginning, I felt that 2020 was so far away, but now it is already halfway through.

I remember you said that you went back to the past at the end of this year, did you see me when I was a child soon?

Suddenly I feel a little envious of me when I was a child...

The five-year deadline that the master said is getting closer, and I am still waiting for you.

Show up quickly, brother...]

[XNUM X Year X NUM X Month X NUM X Day

I found him, on video software.

If I had known this earlier, I should have watched more online videos!

I can't describe the mood at that time, it was like dreaming.

Probably no one will cry to the point of tears watching a funny travel video, I'm the only one.

The hand that writes is shaking like chaff...

Take it easy, you've been waiting for so many years, and it's still a few days away!

Sent him a private message, hurry back to me, hurry back to me...

Does he read private messages?

No, I'm going to send a few more emails. 】

This is the end of the latest date of the diary, Wei You closed his eyes, let out a breath, closed the last diary and put it aside.

The mood is like a mess, as if he has participated in a long movie. At the end, the actor has been immersed in the emotions of the characters in the play, and it is difficult to break free and escape.

He only knew that Wei Xu had waited for five years. Although he could imagine the difficulties, he couldn't empathize with him personally. It wasn't until he read the other party's diary accumulated over the past five years that he realized the unforgettable longing and love.

He couldn't help asking himself, having been loved so strongly and sincerely by Wei Xu, does he really still have the ability to fall in love with others?

I'm afraid it will be very difficult. He can no longer imagine the picture of himself getting married and having children in the future.

At this moment, Wei You suddenly had an urge to tell Wei Xu that he was willing to accept him.

It was hard to find reason and calm down, but in the process of calming down, instead of fading away, the thought intensified, and even the heartbeat accelerated.

Then, he actually did.

Picking up the phone, quickly typed "Let's be together" in the dialog box, and clicked send.

After sending it for three seconds, Wei You withdrew the message again, not because he regretted it, but because he saw the sending time and realized that it was already one o'clock in the morning.

At this time, Wei Xu should have fallen asleep, so he couldn't see his news, so naturally he couldn't respond to his turbulent emotions.

Besides, such an important moment should not be held hastily over the Internet, even if you don’t prepare special surprises, at least you should talk about it in person.

After a little hesitation, Wei You decided to wait until he saw the other party tomorrow.

Just about to exit the dialog, several messages suddenly popped up in the dialog.

[Wei Xu: Do not withdraw!

[Wei Xu: Withdrawal is invalid, I have seen it. 】

[Wei Xu: Can I come over now? 】

The author has something to say: Going to get vaccinated tomorrow, it is very likely that it will not be updated, so let me know in advance.