There is no corner that can't be digged in Kuai Chuanzhi

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You can't love it, you can't ask for it!

I just hate that we met too late and were born at the wrong time!

I only hate that everything came too late!

If there is a chance to choose again in this life, I think I will still choose to meet you, fall in love with you, despite the scars, I still love you and hate you. ——Ren Xin

If there is a chance to choose again in this life, I think I will choose never to appear in your life...... Who can understand my feelings. ——Lu Yuchen

————————Ren Xin—————————

The year I met him, I was 25 years old, I remember it was the beginning of spring, but now it has entered the cold winter, our love finally failed to survive this cold winter and ushered in the hopeful spring.

I am 25 years old, married for five years, and the father of a three-year-old child. I have a family that I consider to be fairly happy.

But I feel that I am not happy, but why?I have no idea!

Until one day I met such people, let me know that life can be so reckless, and I can be so sweet. It turns out that love is so sweet and bitter. It can make you sweet and ecstatic, and it can also make you bitter. Life is worse than death.

Knowing these people can be said to be fate, and knowing him can be said to be destined, or it is a joke made by God.

He is 30 years old this year, just at the age of [-]. He has been married for eight years, is the father of a six-year-old child, and has a family that is considered happy by outsiders.

What kind of man is he?He is a very attractive, cool, and manly person. You can feel the strong evil spirit on his body when you first see him. He is 1.8 meters tall and his skin is dark because of being sunburned all the year round. He wears a pair of Sunglasses, neat short hair, and a pure black outfit.

When I saw him, my first feeling was cool, and the second feeling was fierce.

But I was attracted by him, and I always wanted to get close to him, close to him unconsciously.

I'm not gay, but I fell in love with him.

Remember what he once said, he said: I love you, I want you.

I still remember our first time, when he saw me and my wife embracing each other, he possessed me fiercely that day, I loved him and indulged everything he did to me.

I still remember that we also quarreled because of each other's families.

I still remember that we also thought about the future, thinking about simply getting divorced and then being together.

I still remember the sweet time we were together, he gave me a lot of heartbeat and happiness that I never had before

still remember

still remember

And today we are finished, completely finished.

I'm done with him.

Because of what?

Because his wife knew about it, his family knew about it, and he said, "His family can't be broken up, his mother can't let go, his son can't let go, even if he gets divorced, he can't be with him, and he blames what I said to his wife."

I deeply remember him saying: Don't pester me, we never started, how will we end, if you really love me, don't pester me again.

That night, I didn't sleep, my heart hurts so much!

I know that the world will continue to revolve without anyone, and everyone can live without anyone. Just treat it as something that was stolen or borrowed, and now it’s time to return it. It can also be regarded as leaving a little bit of dignity for myself.

He spoke so unfeelingly, telling me that if you love him, let him go.

I know that it is useless to say more words, I know that I have already said everything that should be said, and it is useless to keep him. He made me understand what it means to be ruthless, and I have no more thoughts.

Hehe, his wife came to show off to me, and told me as if she was a royal concubine. Lu Yuchen said: I was the one who stalked him, and he didn't pay me any attention at all.

Hehe, in the end, what am I, I am nothing in his eyes, I naively thought that at least he has me in his heart, but I didn't expect that he said that to others, yes, they It's the family, and I'm just an outsider, a third party who destroys other people's families.

I know that there are some things that I don’t have to go to find out. Thinking too much hurts my heart and heart. If I choose to let go, let it go completely. Not everything can be figured out clearly.

But I really love him, I really love him, maybe it will be better after a long time, and it will be better slowly.

If he gives up on me, then I will give him freedom, let him go freely, whether he loves it or not, that is, he can't get what he can't let go of.

I have read a saying that when you break up, you should divide it cleanly, cut the mess quickly, delete everything about him, and throw away everything, out of sight and out of mind, but now I am really reluctant to delete it, maybe it will take a long time for me Just forget about it.

Does love mean that you can let go if you let go?If it was really that simple, there wouldn't be so many idiots complaining about women in the world, but I wouldn't pester him anymore either.

I comforted myself, seeing clearly that a man who doesn't love me is nothing more than sad.

Now that it's over, I have to give myself an explanation.It's over, there is no possibility to start over, I don't allow it, even if he regrets it, I don't allow it, just treat it, treat it as an affair on the road of life, no matter how sweet it was before, now we should get off the car and say goodbye It's time, after all, he still has a long way to go, and he is not someone who wants to accompany him on the journey.

No matter how much I love, I will not be that poor man who comes and goes when he is called, and begs for him to give me a look. I can't do it, my dignity doesn't allow it.

Delete it, delete everything, let me read it one last time, one last time, one last time.

Maybe he is not so good, I want to be like the book, thank him for letting me experience not too much feeling, sweet and bitter, and finally calm.

But I can’t thank him, I blame him, what I thanked him, what I really underestimated, what I don’t feel anymore, it’s all bullshit, delete it, delete it all, I don’t want anything, I can’t see it For the net.

I will live happily every day in the future, and every day without you in the future.

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My name is Lu Yuchen, and I am thirty years old. I have met the person I love the most in my life. If I knew that I would meet him when I was 30 years old, I would wait and wait for him as a single person, instead of waiting for him like I am now. as painful.

Before I met him, I was not gay, I liked women and had many women, but he is my robbery, I love him, I love him, I want him, I get him, the first thing I see when I wake up is him, pregnant He is also in the arms, I want him, but I can't.

We have always known that our love is wrong, extramarital affairs, we are willing to be the third party in each other's marriage, we have separated and reunited before, thought about it, thought about being together, and thought about breaking up and becoming strangers, but we didn't I expected this day to come so fast, so fast that I was caught off guard.

He is a very clean and neat man, people want to get close to him when they see him, want to get close to him, get him, possess him, he is the sunshine that a bedbug living in a dark corner like himself most desires.

But now the sunshine has been snuffed out by my own hands, I am sorry for him.

I deeply remember the unfeeling words I said, I said: Don't pester me, we have never started, how will we end, if you really love me, don't pester me again.

My heart is bleeding when I say this, but I have to say it, because the mother hugged the child and threatened: Do you want the mother and the child, or that despicable man? If you want him, I will be someone else in the future Mom, you don't have this son, or you will break up with him completely in front of me, and it will be over once and for all.

I was cowardly, I said it, but I, I just wanted to appease the emotional old man, but ignored his feelings, I thought I thought he could understand me.

do you know?I really miss him, really miss him.

Seeing him heartbroken because of what he said, I wanted to hold him in my arms and think about it, but I couldn't.

Why do you say those unfeeling words, because I want to win over my son, I proposed to break up. My daughter-in-law has made up her mind and wants to divorce, but the son belongs to her, how can I do it.

I've thought about it, since I know about the divorce, let's get a divorce. I plan to, once I get divorced, I will marry Ren Xin.

I have already prepared everything and thought of all the plans, but I only missed him. He didn't calm down and didn't want him. Maybe it's because we didn't have a relationship.

You know, it’s been 30 years, nearly half of my life has passed, and it’s the first time I love someone so much, I love so much that I count everything, I love so much that I want to get him at all costs.

Saying those words made me feel worse than anyone else. I ran downstairs to his house in the middle of the night and looked again and again. I really wanted to call him out and tell him that I miss you so much.

I used to think I was a man and strong enough, but when it comes to love, I have to be strong if I can’t be strong.

I let go, I can't cheat him anymore, I can't selfishly drag him into hell to accompany me, I really don't want to see him sad.

He blamed me like that, I know, it would be nice if he could know that it was not my intention, but I still choose not to let him know, let him think that I am a hard-hearted person, so he will feel better.

I love him, I really love him, I love him more than he does, I just don't want to express it.

When I have time, I will dig out the chat records and take a look, I know how to take a look at it silently, and then I don’t bother, just look at it silently when I miss him.

I thought I wouldn't cry anymore, but when I knew the tears were dripping on my hands, I realized that I could cry, and there were still tears to shed. Who can understand me? I don't want him to blame me so much, I really want to tell him I love him love him love him.

I begged others like crazy, I knew that Ren Xin would definitely talk to her when she was suffering.

I begged her: Please, please send me a copy of what Ren Xin said, and I will silently see if it is okay.

It was like the first time I begged someone so humbly: Please, give it to me, is it okay, please.

She agreed, but with a condition: If I promise, I can't help disturbing Ren Xin, and don't disturb his life anymore, or if one day I can give him happiness and give him results, and then disturb him, he Now I can't stand your second torture. Do you have to torture him to death to feel better? Please, don't bother him.

I agreed, agreed without hesitation, and I also knew that he blamed me, blamed me, and hated me.

How unwilling I am, the person I love the most misunderstands and complains, it really makes me feel mixed, I want to rush out to find him, tell him how much I love, and then possess him fiercely, every time I think of The intimacy between him and others, I was like crazy, possessing him fiercely like crazy, I want him, I want him, but I can't, I can't.

I blame him too, how could he look at me like that!

I'm really not human.

I blame him, why would he miss me so much, can't he feel whether he loves him or not?Doesn't he know it in his heart?In my heart, I feel really uncomfortable.

I want to keep these words, I will not delete them, these are the words written by the man I love the most in my life.

I don't blame him, it's because he reacted too slowly, he couldn't see what was going on at all, he ruined every step of the arrangement, it was obviously possible, but it ended like this in the end.

I think his heart is bleeding, I really want to find a place where there is no one to vent, and say what I want to say loudly to the sky, but what I want most is to tell him.

I hate myself!

it's all over

I deserve it, I only hope that when I meet him again in the next life, I still remember to owe him an explanation.