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The phone vibrated and fell from the armrest of the sofa to the cushion. Yao Shuhan woke up from the memory, picked up the phone and looked, it was Shu Yan's call.

Yao Shuhan's eyes moved, but his mind was still dazed. He pressed the answer button, "Hello, Shu Yan."

"Shuhan, I'm getting on the train." On the train, Shu Yan was sitting on a small stool by the window, and passing by a fruit cart, the steward called, "Come on, let's see if anyone wants some fruit. Ma'am, please step aside." Shu Yan hurriedly withdrew her foot and sealed the lid of the instant noodle paper with a plastic fork.

"Okay, pay attention to safety in the car." Yao Shuhan raised his hand and patted his forehead, thinking about going to wash his face with cold water later to sober up, "Huh? When will you arrive in City C?"

Shu Yan looked at her watch, "It's eleven o'clock."

"Anyone pick you up?"

"Well, my dad."

"Row……"

"Shuhan," Shu Yan stirred the noodles, "it's boring in the car."

Yao Shuhan smiled, took the cushion and lay down, "Listen to the radio when you're bored."

Shu Yan took the phone away from her ear, and the radio was broadcasting an introduction of the local customs of city c and county x, she grinned, and said to Yao Shuhan, "Hey, let me tell you, my hometown is being introduced in the car, let me listen Listen—" She lifted her mobile phone up, looked around the roof of the car, but couldn't find where the radio exit was.

There was a messy noise in Yao Shuhan's ears, and he frowned and called her, "What are you doing, you can hear a fart."

"Hey," Shu Yan put back her phone, "Didn't I hear it, and I want you to listen to it too? I'm really looking forward to the summer vacation, and when it's summer, I'll take you down the river to fish for shells and ride on the back of a big buffalo Chase the ducks."

Yao Shuhan imagined for a moment that Shu Yan was wearing braids, wearing a bamboo hat, sitting on the back of an old buffalo with bare feet, holding a straw in her mouth, and inviting a group of fat ducks to walk to the river with a bamboo pole. "Everyone rides oxen to drive oxen, why don't you ride ducks to drive ducks?"

Shu Yan replied, "Can a duck be the same as a cow? I sat down and the duck was flattened!"

Yao Shuhan laughed again, "That's right. I read a miscellaneous note before. It said that in ancient times, a man was practicing Taoism. One day he saw a red-crowned crane and thought it was sent by the gods to take him to the sky. But he sat on it and the crane collapsed. Haha, hahaha..."

Shu Yan followed her to laugh, and after a while, all the people in the car turned their heads to look at her, making her blush a little, and gestured with her hands apologetically, "Sorry, sorry." Get up and go to the junction of the cars, there are still people smoking there , Shu Yan didn't bother to bother.

Yao Shuhan glanced at the calendar on the wall of the living room, a little disappointed, "But the summer vacation is still early, and the winter vacation has just begun."

Shu Yan said, "It's okay, I will go back to school in a few days, and I will bring you some special products later."

"City C is not far from City L, is there any special product that I can't buy?"

"Well, do you think I'm a specialty?"

Yao Shuhan choked when she said, "You grew up in City L, right? If the special products are also special products in City L, and you have the nerve to say that you are a specialty in City C, you are a traitor!"

With noodles hanging from the corner of Shu Yan's mouth, she ate and laughed, almost choking, "Mr. Yao, now you can finally shout 'shut up' after arguing with me in less than three sentences. Not bad, you have made progress."

Yao Shuhan laughed, "Shut up."

Shu Yan sucked a noodle, "Just now you said that you have improved, but you stopped cooking again."

"I won't tell you."

Knowing that Yao Shuhan was about to lose his temper again, Shu Yan quickly changed the subject, "Hey, are you home? How are you, uncle and aunt?"

Yao Shuhan's face darkened, and he was silent for a while, "Okay, it's just that I'm usually very busy, so I don't see much of it."

Shu Yan nodded, "Oh... that's really hard work. It's rare to get together during Chinese New Year, just be happy."

"Hmm..." Shuhan lowered his head to look at his hands, his round and crystal nails glowed with luster under the light, and his thoughts gradually drifted away.

It is true that her parents seldom come home, but not because they are busy, but because they are disappointed in her.

Yao Shuhan's grades could have been the best Chinese major in China, and then he took the postgraduate entrance examination, read a Ph. Sex-orientation correction in a psychiatric center.After the correction, the doctor issued a certificate saying that the child was normal, but the first sentence Yao Shuhan said: "I don't like women anymore, but I won't like men either. In this life, let it be like this. Anyway, some people don't like it anymore. I can't see it anymore, I have nothing to look forward to."

Father Yao was in a hurry and was about to hit her in front of people. Yao Shuhan suddenly raised his head and stared at him. His eyes, dark eyes, made people fall into it, and the silence was terrifying, "Dad, you say you are like this, what can I do?" Expectation? You are all like this, what can I expect?"

Father Yao yelled at her, "What do you expect! What else do you expect!"

"Old Yao, it's all right, don't yell at her," Yao's mother hugged her husband anxiously, her voice could not hide the helplessness, "The doctor said she was fine, Hanhan has been stubborn since she was a child, you don't know that, She just couldn't bear it in her heart, and said a few words, what are you serious about!"

Yao's father broke away from his wife's hand, pointed at Yao Shuhan, and said sharply, "You better behave yourself! Go back and study hard. If you dare to think about nonsense again, I'll see how I deal with you!"

Since then, Yao Shuhan has become more silent than before.She used to be quiet, but later she became completely withdrawn.She just listened to what her parents said, and tried her best to obey their wishes. If she didn't want to, she just kept silent, and she just didn't do it anyway.At the beginning, Father Yao wanted to teach her a few words, but after a long time, he said he was tired and lost the energy to take care of her.

After graduating from high school, Yao Shuhan went to B Normal University. During the university, he worked hard to earn scholarships, tutored, and contributed manuscripts to earn manuscript fees. With his own efforts, he saved a little bit of hard-earned money. When he was a sophomore, he was able to pay tuition and living expenses by himself. By the time I was in my junior year, I no longer needed family supplies at all.After graduating from senior year, Yao's father asked her to study in graduate school, but Yao Shuhan refused. Yao's father sneered, "If you want to be self-willed, the family will ignore you." Yao Shuhan sighed, "If you don't care, I don't depend on my family for food anymore. The director recommended me to go to Yingcai for an internship, and I will become a regular after one year, so I want to try to work first."

"Shuhan," Yao's father suddenly stopped her, with a heavy tone, faintly tired, "Do you still remember the way your father treated you back then?"

Shuhan froze for a moment, shook his head and smiled, "I don't hate it. I'm just very scared. Because you said you would protect me before, but you became the person who hurt me the second most. The change is so fast that I am a little scared. Trance."

Father Yao was stunned, and opened his mouth, "The second thing that hurt you the most... Tell me, who hurt you the most?"

Yao Shuhan looked out the window, the leaves started to fall from the tree, she thought for a while, and said, "She's dead."

Father Yao's eyes dimmed, and he smoked half of the cigarette with trembling fingertips, "Shuhan, you are getting old. Before, your mother and I thought that it would be best to return to the right path. If you really... in this life, the time is so long Long, no one can watch you from the beginning to the end, some roads are too dark, who of us would like to watch you suffer? You are my daughter after all, what do you think, dad knows."

Yao Shuhan turned his head to look at his father, and suddenly found that the handsome man who used to hold him in his arms and play in mountains and rivers, reciting poems and reciting poems was much older. When did father get so old?

Perhaps deep down in her heart, she still hated him to some extent, otherwise, how could she not care about him so much, and didn't even know that he had so many white hairs on his head?

"dad……"

"Whatever you think, just do it. Your mother and I are old, and I really don't have the energy to take care of too much, and you don't need it. Hanhan, Dad said one last thing, you are alive, you have to be responsible. What will you do in the future? Make up your mind, decide."

Yao Shuhan vaguely felt that there was something wrong with what her father said, and she seemed to have missed some important information, so she shouted, "Dad, what do you mean by that?"

Yao's father walked over slowly, touched Shuhan's head, took a puff of cigarette, and exhaled a long puff of smoke, "Your mother used to teach in Yingcai and left you a teacher's apartment. Your mother and I have also been tired all these years. I want to go outside and look around. Hanhan, don't be unhappy."

Yao Shuhan suddenly felt a tightness in her chest. She shook her head with a dazed expression on her face. This was not the result she wanted, "Dad, do you and Mom want to leave me alone?"

"How can we be willing to go out for a walk, look at the scenery, and write something. When we are tired, we will come back to see you."

"Dad, you and Mom are still blaming me, so you can't accept me—"

"Hanhan, don't talk about it, we all know it. That's it. Don't be unhappy." After speaking, Father Yao turned his back and went into the study room, put out the cigarette butt in the ashtray, and carefully read the copybook.

Yao Shuhan looked at his father's back for a while, bowed his head in silence, and walked away quietly. The next morning, he moved his things and moved into Yingcai's teacher's apartment, and began to get used to living alone.Every month, she would receive postcards from her parents from other places, such as the flying eagle in Nepal, the clear lake in Geneva, the majestic church in Paris...

For five full years, her parents never came back to see her.

Despite this, Yao Shuhan is very fortunate. Compared with those who came out of the closet with their parents forcing them to sever their relatives, her parents are much more enlightened.

"Shuhan, why didn't you speak suddenly? Shuhan?" After waiting for Yao Shuhan's voice for a long time, Shu Yan was a little anxious, thinking that something happened to her.

"Ah?" Yao Shuhan immediately came back to his senses, "It's okay, I was distracted just now."

"You said when will you get rid of your mind-wandering problem? I don't know when someone will be abducted. I don't worry about you going out alone." Shu Yan couldn't help but blamed, her tone was a little bit like An imperceptible pampering.

"Don't worry, I think you are more likely to be abducted."

"Why?"

"Because you are short-sighted." Yao Shuhan replied with a smile, and then hung up the phone. After a while, the phone rang again, but she ignored it, took a hot bath and fell asleep.Before falling asleep, Yao Shuhan thought, this year's Spring Festival, I won't go home to live, but I will be alone, where can I spend it?

But by the seventh day of the Lunar New Year, Yao Shuhan regretted this decision.

On February 2th, the sun was just right, the door lock clicked, and someone came in.

At this time, Yao Shuhan, who didn't know it, was still nestling on the bed where Shu Yan was sleeping, hugging Shu Yan's pillow, curled up and dreaming of Spring and Autumn Dreams, Shu Yan took off her coat and threw it on the sofa, ready to drag the suitcase into the bed. In the room, he looked at the bed and was stunned.

Shu Yan rubbed her nose, coughed, her expression was unnatural, "Yao Shuhan, why are you sleeping on my bed?"

"Huh...?" Shuhan barely opened one eye, her eyes were full of confusion, and she saw a figure in a daze, with a flat face, and those fox eyes that could tell she was full of bad water at a glance. She was still dreaming, and the person in front of her eyes was still the woman she was thinking of that appeared in her dreams every night, she suddenly giggled, stretched out her hand to hook Shuyan's neck around her body, raised her head to find her mouth and was about to kiss her, "Haha, I caught you, now you can't escape!"