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?Chapter 13 Separation

The air in the countryside on summer mornings is filled with a unique smell of grass and trees and the humidity of paddy fields.

Xu Zhenhua bid farewell to Aunt Fu and came out, and Yun En was held in Aunt Fu's arms.

Although he hadn't woken up because he woke up too early, reluctance and fear were already showing on his immature face, with an expression of about to cry, and he didn't want Xu Zhenhua to go.

Aunt Fu told Xu Zhenhua, "Let's go, the car will not be crowded if you go earlier, and you should sit in the car to warm up when it is late."

Because the countryside here is dirt roads, the village-to-village road project has not yet been implemented at that time, so a decent road has not been built in a coastal countryside like K City.

At that time, there was no air-conditioning in the bus. It was cold in winter and hot in summer. Sometimes it was an ice cellar, and sometimes it was a steamer. Aunt Fu didn't want Xu Zhenhua to endure the torture on the bus, so she asked him to get up before six o'clock in the morning and hurried away Morning bus back to K City.

Xu Zhenhua said goodbye to Yun En.

He nodded to Aunt Fu, and reached out to stroke Yun En's hair, showing his love, but he didn't know what else to say to him at this moment.

I couldn't coax him well last night after trying to persuade him all night, so it probably won't help me to say more now.

He sighed softly, intending to turn around and leave.

He said solemnly, "Yun En, goodbye."

His deep and gentle eyes rested on the child, and the emotions inside made people unable to see clearly in the light of the dawn.

At this time, the corners of Yun En's mouth were tearing because of his farewell words, feeling sad and uncomfortable, and pretended to cry.

Xu Zhenhua immediately turned around and took him from Aunt Fu's hand and hugged him in her arms.

He smelled a unique familiar smell on his body, so he held back his voice and didn't cry on the spot.

He stopped making trouble immediately, his eyes were covered with water, and he looked at him in panic and with special retention, not wanting to be separated from him.

Xu Zhenhua understood that he never thought so himself.But the reality does not allow him to do so, his eyes are deep, but his expression is very soft.

He nodded to Mrs. Fu, indicating that he wanted to hug Yun En before leaving, so that he could stay with him for a while, so as not to make him feel so uncomfortable.

Aunt Fu watched him move and could only sigh.

She withdrew her hand and watched Xu Zhenhua coax the child, hugged the child with one hand and patted the child's back with the other, talking softly.

She felt that the relationship between her own father and son was nothing more than that.

Xu Zhenhua is quite good at coaxing children.At least he's good at Yun En.

He knows that the child can't yell at him harshly, and he can't forcefully instill the truth when he is emotional. It won't work, but it will make the child even more rebellious and wronged.

He didn't treat Yun En like this, he just reasoned with him every time until the child completely accepted it from the bottom of his heart.

Aunt Fu didn't know that he had such good patience and temper towards the child, but she thought Xu Zhenhua was so kind to him because he really liked the child.

Seeing the reluctance of their father and son, she was unconsciously moved by Xu Zhenhua's actions and expressions.

Her eye sockets couldn't help getting a little moist.I don't know if it's because the countryside gets up early and the water is foggy. Watching Xu Zhenhua comforting Yun En made her feel sore and itchy in her nose, and she felt like crying.

Xu Zhenhua took Yun En and hugged him for a while, comforting and saying good things, finally gradually calming down Yun En's crying mood, and then formally said, "Yun En, I'm leaving, I'll come back to see you later , you are obediently following your aunt here and being taken care of by her, you know? I won't go for too long, I'll be back in a month at most, don't be sad, time passes quickly."

Yun En's big bright and dark eyes frantically looked around at his face in the dim morning light, feeling scared and at a loss for every word he said.

He was so afraid of being separated from a person, as if he was frightened like a frightened bird.

This was also the first time he was so afraid of parting.

When he was in the small county town of G City, because Yun Guoan didn't explain that he was asked to follow Xu Zhenhua from then on, he didn't have that deep fear of leaving his father.

I feel that this is just a temporary farewell, and that one day I will be with my father again.

But after leaving his father's side, all kinds of encounters made him gradually understand that his father didn't want him anymore and handed himself over to a stranger to be raised.

Although he still doesn't understand what it means to be adopted, he understands that his father doesn't need him, and he doesn't want to go back to him by himself. Such feelings make him feel very hurt.But because I was young, I didn't know how to deal with this kind of discomfort and mood.From this, Xu Zhenhua made it clear for the first time that he wanted to leave him for a period of time at a time, and he was greatly touched. He was afraid that Xu Zhenhua would be like his father, making up a random excuse to come here, and then abandoning himself.

Xu Zhenhua repeatedly explained and explained that this was not the case, and assured him that he would never transfer him to someone else or throw him away, but he refused to listen. The first thought that popped up was that he couldn't leave Xu Zhenhua, and couldn't be separated from him.

He has already had a strong psychological shadow on the separation, and of course he will strongly resist and struggle.

But when it was time to go to bed, Xu Zhenhua coaxed him to sleep.

I don't know what comforting words Xu Zhenhua said, but Yun En listened to his soft words and solemnly promised not to abandon him again and again, which made him not so afraid of staying alone, and obediently agreed to fall asleep.

But how did I know that I woke up from a nap this morning, and left behind the things I clearly promised before going to bed last night.

He reverted to his old ways and became stubborn and afraid to stay in the country.

Aunt Fu didn't hold much weight in his heart at this time, so he could only stand aside and watch Xu Zhenhua talk to him.

She was anxious, but she could only be anxious, and there was nothing to say.

Yun En shook his head to express that he didn't want to stay here, and wanted to go with Xu Zhenhua, and murmured, "I don't want to be here alone, you take me away, take me away."

His voice was very weak, but it was sticky, entwined like vines and wouldn't let anyone let go.

Xu Zhenhua felt a little sweet in his heart for what he said last night. The feeling like being hugged by his own child made him feel the joy and satisfaction of being a father.

But at this moment, he forgot about this feeling, and just wanted to reason with Yun En and make him listen to him.

Said, "It's okay, it's only a month, you stay here and be good, I'll ask Dad to come and see you in a month, okay?"

Every time when it was critical, Xu Zhenhua had to move out of Yun Guoan. Although he was sometimes unwilling to use this method, he had to admit that this method was effective.

This way made him feel frustrated, as if he had been nice to Yun En for so long, but he still couldn't catch up with his father's status in his heart.

He didn't intend to compete with Yun Guoan for the position in Yun En's heart, but Yun En's natural trust and sense of security towards Yun Guoan did make him a little jealous and unwilling.

At this time, the expression on Yun En's face only hesitated for a moment, and then immediately shook his head like a rattle.Grinding humanity, "No, I don't want to stay here, let me go with you, let me go with you, I want to go back to City K!"

Xu Zhenhua was a little irritable because of his disobedient behavior, and he said with a heavier tone, "Yun En, be obedient!"

His tone was so heavy, it seemed that his father was really educating the child who lost his temper.

He added, "Stay here with your aunt, K city is too dangerous, what if you are taken away again, then I can't find you, won't you be afraid?"

In desperation, he actually used the threat method.

When Yun En was said in this way, his memory nerves twitched as expected.

He became quiet and didn't dare to speak casually anymore.

There was anxiety in his expression, like a panicked and weak hamster, Xu Zhenhua didn't want to scare the child, but he had no other choice now except this.

He didn't know what else to do.

Facing Yun En, he always has a way to torture him to the point of failure.

He immediately realized that his tone of voice was wrong.

After hugging for a while, he squatted down and put Yun En on the ground safely, and said in a different tone, "Yunyun, don't be afraid, Uncle Xu said that if you let Dad come to see you, he will definitely let him come to see you, okay, you are here Be good, don't be mischievous, when dad comes and let him go to see the big white goose with you, don't you like it very much, can you take dad to see it too?"

He knew that Yun En liked poultry and animals, so he deliberately persuaded him in this way.

The way he frightened Yun En first and then coaxed him showed success. He imitated Yun Guoan's tone and called Yun En Yunyun, and promised him a bright future. Yun En was shocked by what he said, and unintentionally wavered stand up.

He was still afraid, but that fear had changed from worrying about being lost by Xu Zhenhua to being worried about offending Xu Zhenhua and not wanting himself.

He was extremely sensitive, and when he was agitated even a little bit, he became extremely timid. He was afraid that he might not do well, so Xu Zhenhua didn't want him anymore.He has very low recognition of himself in his heart, so he needs the affirmation of adults too much to affirm his own world.

As a result, he didn't dare to mess around, and became cautious, as if he was gradually trying to please Xu Zhenhua, so that he would not lose himself.

He tentatively said timidly, "Well, when was that? Dad was in G City, far away. He said that Auntie Du was going to have a baby, so he wouldn't take care of me..."

In the end, his voice gradually became quieter, and at the end of his speech, he probably felt ashamed and inferior because of the fact that his father didn't want him anymore.

His tone was weak, and he couldn't even describe his fear of being abandoned by his father, because the fact was that he had already been abandoned.

The only thing he has now is the sadness and shame that he is not loved by his father.

As if the truth was abandoned because I was not good enough to deserve the love of my parents.

Children who are not affirmed by their parents often have this kind of inferiority complex.

Xu Zhenhua had this feeling before.

He understands Yun En.

It's just that when we were separated at this moment, I heard the child say such pitiful words without knowing it, and I didn't know how heartbroken I was.

Yunen is soft and small, but he can always give his heart a gentle tug.

His hands seemed to be pulling the thread that was holding his heart, he hooked his fingers at will, and his emotions were all affected by him.

He couldn't bear to treat this child at all.

He also struggled with Yun En's words of showing weakness, and almost instantly had the urge to change his mind.

But in the end, he endured it again and didn't say anything, thinking that he would leave sooner or later. If he continued to be entangled like this, he might not be able to leave even today.

The only thing he could comfort Yun En was to reach out and stroke his eyelashes, and his fingers were itchy from his flapping eyelashes.

Yun En bowed his head in silence, and he was also troubled in his heart.

Aunt Fu saw her at the side, and she was also very distressed by what Yun En said.

The kind of inferiority complex that I don't know, and I still feel hurt because of myself, but it is not caused by myself, is the most heartbreaking.

Mrs. Fu couldn't help seeing the child bear so much at such a young age, so she stepped in at this moment and said, "Yun En, just listen to your uncle and stay in the country with grandma. It's safer here than in the city. There are children abducted and trafficked, but there are no bad people here in our countryside. Your father asked you to follow Uncle Xu. It was only after thinking about it that it was best for you. Your Uncle Xu is busy with work and has no time to take care of you. I am afraid that you will be alone. You were taken away by human traffickers again, so you let grandma come to watch you, listen to grandma, you will feel that there are more things to play in the countryside than in the city after living here for a long time."

Aunt Fu was warm-hearted and impatient, she couldn't bear to see Yun En and Xu Zhenhua separated so painfully, so she stood up to speak for Xu Zhenhua.

It's just that she said that there are no bad people in the countryside, and there are only human traffickers in the city, which is too biased.

After hearing her words, Xu Zhenhua knew that she meant well, but he shook his head at her, motioning for him to persuade Yunen.

Aunt Fu was pleased, she looked at Yun En and wanted to say a few more words, but she could only stop talking.

Yun En was not moved by her words, he focused on Xu Zhenhua, what Xu Zhenhua said was the most stable existence in his heart at this moment.

He looked at Xu Zhenhua, the purpose of showing weakness was still to hope that he could take care of himself and take him away.

Although Xu Zhenhua was reluctant in his heart, he was not the kind of person who could not be clear about his emotions.

He can usually coax Yun En, and he can satisfy his requirements on small things, but he still won't let the child's temperament do it when it comes to some relatively big issues.

Especially when it was a good thing for the child, he would show some determination in his character, show some concern to Yun En, and then pack his luggage and leave.

Seeing that Yun En couldn't keep him no matter how much he stayed, it was useless to cry or anything.

Immediately, he chased after him and wanted to follow him. Xu Zhenhua didn't turn his head to worry about him at all. He was tall and long-legged, and he shook off Yun En in a few steps, and strode away.

Yunen's legs are short and his limbs are not flexible. Halfway through the pursuit, he couldn't catch up with Xu Zhenhua's walking away figure, and tripped over a small stone, but he immediately got up and chased after him regardless of the pain or dirt.

After all, Xu Zhenhua couldn't catch up. He noticed that the child fell down behind him. He was stunned for a moment and turned his head to see that Aunt Fu had already run up to pick up the child.

Yun En's knees and elbows were worn out, and the gray wound was mixed with blood and mud. He was crying, and his pitiful appearance seemed to be that he really didn't want to be left alone. It seemed so lonely and helpless.

Seeing him fall, Xu Zhenhua immediately wanted to run over to help him up.But as soon as he was cruel, he took a last look at Yun En with heavy eyes, and then he really stepped into the car and left.

Seeing that he really left now, Yun En didn't cry.

As if resigned to fate, she was hugged by Mrs. Fu and she still patted the dust on her body.

He watched the car drive away with clear and calm eyes, leaving behind a cloud of dust, and he didn't know what it felt like.

It's just that after returning home, he still couldn't get out of the scene where Xu Zhenhua turned around and glanced at him after he fell down.

He couldn't believe that Xu Zhenhua really left him and left like this.

Mrs. Fu got gauze and iodine to disinfect and bandage the wound. The stinging pain burned his skin, but he didn't cry out.

It's just that his eyes are a little dazed and dazed looking at everything around him, as if he has never known this place, and he feels that this is not the place where he lived last night.

It wasn't until Mrs. Fu cleaned his wounds that he rubbed his eyes and jumped off the stool. He felt his heart was soft, and he was too weak to express any emotions.

At this time, Mrs. Fu said, "These wounds should not get wet until they are healed. Be good at home and don't go out to dirty the wounds. When all the wounds are healed, you will see Zhenhua come back."

What Yun En said to her was half-believing, and he didn't know whether he shook his head or nodded his head in response.

In fact, he was extremely uncertain in his heart, unable to judge whether Xu Zhenhua's words were true or not.

It's just that Mrs. Fu told him to stay at home and wait for Xu Zhenhua to come back, so he had no choice but to agree.

As a result, he was in a daze for a long time. Xu Zhenhua called him to answer the phone after he arrived in K city, but he didn't answer it. Aunt Fu saw that he was not in good spirits after Xu Zhenhua left.

She guessed that the child depended too much on Xu Zhenhua and was unwilling to let him go, which made him look so lifeless.

Therefore, I didn't worry too much about Yun En.

Xu Zhenhua returned to K City and stayed there for ten days or so. Sometimes when he thought of Yun Enlai, he also felt that he turned around and left that day, which was too cruel to the child.

Afterwards, he felt that he could have been softer and gentler, but he never gave Yunen these things, he just bid farewell to him in a very silent and simple way.

He can't give him enough comfort and sense of security. These are the places where he feels that he has failed as a father.

It's just that he is quite lacking in these emotional communication aspects. He is groping to teach Yun En well step by step, but he also needs to grope how to communicate with the child step by step.

This made him feel uneasy whenever he thought of Yun Enlai, and he couldn't sleep well.

He had never been so worried about any woman, but because of an adopted child, he couldn't sleep at night.

While he was busy with work, he suddenly received a call from Mrs. Fu from the countryside, saying that Yun En had contracted typhoid fever and was sent to the hospital in very bad condition.

The moment Xu Zhenhua heard the news, his mind went blank for a second or two.

After he realized it, he immediately called Yun Guoan, and hurried to Que County himself.

When he arrived at the hospital, Yun Guoan had already arrived one step ahead of him.

When Yun Guoan saw him coming, he immediately stood up and greeted him.

Xu Zhenhua breathed a sigh of relief, walked into the ward, and asked, "How is Yun En?"

The author has something to say: Hey, didn't you leave a message?Xiao Yunen is seriously ill, I don't know what Father Xu will do...

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