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?Chapter 15 sweetness and sorrow

When Xu Zhenhua heard Yun Guoan say this, he froze for a moment, his eyes flickering.

He didn't speak, Yun Guo turned to him again, and said, "It's true, Yun En said when I came here before that he likes you very much when he is with you, he thinks you are good, and he is very dependent on you."

When he said this, his eyes shifted a little to look at the ground on one side, his tone was filled with regret and sigh, and he said, "I didn't expect you to be so kind to him."

But after a while, he raised his eyes and looked into Xu Zhenhua's eyes, "So, really, Zhenhua, I want to thank you. Thank you for taking care of Yun En like this. You really treat him well."

When Yun Guoan said these words, his tone was sincere and sincere, and his expression was particularly gentle.

Xu Zhenhua saw the light in his eyes flickering slightly, but he was somewhat melancholy and guilty.

He understood that Yun Guoan felt that he could not give Yun En, but an outsider did a better job than him, so he felt melancholy and guilty.

All the cares and negative emotions that had accumulated in his heart before this moment suddenly disappeared.

He nodded as if he was about to escape, feeling delicate and relaxed for a moment.

He was happy and relaxed to hear Yun Guoan say that Yun En liked him, but he was a little disappointed and frustrated because he saw Yun En and Yun Guoan had a close relationship before. I feel guilty, how can there be such a thing as an outsider who is jealous of his biological father.

Therefore, he felt that what Yun Guoan said liberated himself and made him feel at ease, but it also made his intimacy feel unbearable.

Yun Guoan never noticed his thoughts, and said happily from the sidelines, "Yun En told me that you bought him a lot of toys and took him out to play around when you were in City K. He has never seen There are so many good-looking and fun things, all of which make him very happy. He never said it, but you know that he has that kind of temper, and his mouth is not sweet. It's up to me. Don't think that taking him is a joke. Liability, in fact, he is very dependent on you in his heart, but he is embarrassed to say it out of his mouth, don't pay attention to this, he is actually very good."

Yun Guoan told Xu Zhenhua all about Yunen and his conversation, and he didn't pay attention to what Xu Zhenhua was thinking.

He just wanted to tell Xu Zhenhua that Yun En was really dependent on him, so don't let him lose Yun En, otherwise, given his current situation, it would be an impossible task for him to bear two children.

Because of this, he especially didn't want Xu Zhenhua to grow disgusted with his son, and he didn't want to raise him anymore, so he wanted to return Yun En to himself.

It's not that he doesn't want to raise Yun En, it's just that he really doesn't have the ability to afford a woman and two children.

After he said such a thing, he could hope that Xu Zhenhua understood what he meant.

After Xu Zhenhua heard what he said, his expression seemed normal, but in fact, only he himself knew that his heart was not at peace.

His heart stirred up waves because of his words, as if he was thrown into a lake of pebbles, the clear waves swayed slightly, but he was a little shaken.

He never thought that Yun En would express his affection for him, and it was still in front of Yun Guoan.

He never thought that Yun En thought of him in this way.

He always thought that the child was not close to him because there was no blood relationship, and there was indeed friction between the two of them. He reflected on whether he was not suitable for raising a child, or whether he just didn't like Yun En, and he liked him. But he doesn't like himself.

He was not as good as Yun Guoan, and he couldn't change the bond of blood relationship, so he could only try not to look at the relationship between father and son, so as not to make himself feel too unfair.

It's just that his heart is always concerned about Yun En, and he can't let him go. He feels that the child is so young, and it is pitiful not to receive the care of his parents. If he doesn't treat him better, I'm afraid it will be bad for Yun En. It's a pity to say.

I didn't get enough care in my childhood, even when I grow up, I feel very sad and disappointed when I think about it later.

He didn't want Yun En to have such disappointing feelings when he grew up, so he has been trying to love him in his own way.

He tried very hard not to get involved between Yun Guoan and Yun En, because he knew that they were the real father and son, the real family.

But seeing Yun En and Yun Guoan's good relationship, there is still a natural intimacy after being separated for so long, he has to admit that he is a little jealous and also a little self-deprecating.

Children, in the bottom of my heart, I still like my parents more. This is human nature, and there is nothing wrong with it.

Since he wanted to choose to be nice to Yun En, he couldn't purposely have extravagant hopes that Yun En could repay him with the same affection.

That would seem too utilitarian, too purposeful.

He was kind to Yun En, and he never thought of getting anything from him.

This is what he thought before.

Although he had always thought so before, but seeing Yun Guoan appearing now, he had to admit that from the bottom of his heart, he was still a little bit jealous and still cared about Yun En's feelings for him.

He wants to know what is his position in Yun En's heart, whether he really depends on and likes him, and he has taken care of Yun En for so long, and he is sincerely good to him, he doesn't want, and doesn't want, after this For a long time, Yun En still regarded him as a stranger, leaving no trace of him in his heart.

So when he heard Yun Guoan say that Yun En liked him, his eyes widened at that moment.

It's like I can't believe it, but it's more like I'm happy and lucky to hear this sentence.

In fact, he really wanted to ask Yun Guoan the question "Really?", and wanted to confirm the authenticity again.

But with his personality, he wouldn't ask questions.

So I could only simply nodded, and said calmly, "It's good that he likes it. I was too busy to take care of him before, and I was worried that I would neglect him, so I sent him here. This is where my family used to work. The nanny's hometown, she is nice and caring, willing to help me take care of the children, I thought it would be good for Yun En to grow up in the countryside, and after I have a stable job in K City, I will pick him up to go to school in the city, you Come today, I will just tell you these things, you are his father, and I should be responsible to you and him."

Xu Zhenhua has never been a vague person.

He is serious about everything, including his attitude towards Yun En and Yun Guoan.

Yun Guoan just had the opportunity to come out from home to visit Yun En this time, so Xu Zhenhua felt that it would be best to explain everything clearly at once and give him an explanation.

Some words carried more weight in person than on the phone. Although Xu Zhenhua kept talking to Yun Guoan on the phone at a certain frequency, it was not as powerful as face-to-face communication.

He should be responsible to Yun En, but he also had to give Yun Guoan an explanation, so that he didn't seem to have any intention of fooling Yun Guoan.

Yun Guoan knew what he was like, and had great confidence in his character.

So after listening to his simple and concise words, he said, "You are very thoughtful in thinking this way. I don't have any objections. On the contrary, I would like to thank you for taking care of the child. You know that my situation is difficult, so I don't care about it here." What to say to you. As Yun En’s father, I have nothing to offer my child, but I hope he can get a good education and grow up healthy. If you want to get married and have children in the future, tell him directly, and tell me, I will tell you all about it I can understand, and I will make Yunen understand you. You have helped us to the utmost, so don’t worry about what you can’t say. I, Yun Guoan, am very grateful to have a friend like you. Really, Zhenhua, you are so grateful. Don’t feel embarrassed to speak up.”

Yun Guoan is an adult after all, so he thinks more realistically.

When he spoke, he already expected that although Xu Zhenhua didn't marry a wife and have children, it would be easy for him to take care of his children, but in the future, if he had his own family, he would have to take care of Yun En. A more difficult matter.

He said it so bluntly today, not because he was afraid that Xu Zhenhua would marry and form a family behind his back, and then silently leave Yun En aside and ignore him.

But since he said this, it means that he is prepared for this kind of thing that may happen in the future. He also hopes that Yun En will have such a psychological preparation, so he told Xu Zhenhua bluntly that if he wants to organize himself in the future If you have a family and have your own children, don’t feel uncomfortable telling him just because you adopted Yun En. He can understand and understand, and Yun En can also understand and understand. After all, no one can stop others from pursuing happiness.

Yun Guoan understands this truth, and he will also teach Yun En to understand this truth.

He speaks clearly and firmly, because they are good friends, so they don't hurt each other too much.

But Xu Zhenhua frowned slightly after hearing what he said, and said, "Guoan, it's too early to say this now, Yun En is still sick, let's not talk about this, let's take care of the child first."

Yun Guoan saw that he didn't want to talk about this topic, so he agreed.

He didn't force Xu Zhenhua to agree to himself or promise anything. We are all adults, so we have some sense and dignity.

He and Xu Zhenhua walked into the ward after talking. The conversation just now was neither pleasant nor heavy. To them, it was just a simple conversation in ordinary life.

He didn't need Xu Zhenhua's promise to take care of Yunen until he reached adulthood. Although Xu Zhenhua had outstanding abilities, no matter how capable he was, he didn't want to be dragged down.

Yun Guoan knew that it was valuable for a friend to help him for a while, and it was naive and ridiculous to think that he wanted the other party to help him forever.

The two walked into the ward. Yun En was eating on the bed. When he saw his father and Xu Zhenhua coming in, he stopped eating, turned his eyes to them, and called out in a gentle voice, "Dad."

Yun Guoan heard that his voice was hoarse, but he was unusually gentle. He walked over a few steps and asked, "Is it better now? Are you full? Do you want to eat more?"

Yun En lay down, nodded, "It's better, I'm full, I can't eat anymore."

Yun Guoan saw that Mrs. Fu had eaten half of the dinner that fed the child in his hands. He also knew that Yun En ate about the same amount, so he didn't force him to eat more. He asked Mrs. Fu to clean up the dishes and sat down to talk to the child.

Yun En answered obediently, his thin face was flushed with fever, rouge, powdered, really pretty.

He didn't look like a sick person, but like a melancholy beauty with quiet, deep and bright eyes.

Seeing his appearance like this, Yun Guoan thought of his mother a little.

Tan Li is also beautiful, but he hasn't seen her for a long time.

Thinking of this, Yun Guoan sighed softly, leaned over the child and asked a few words of concern, "Your birthday will be in a few days, and now you are sick, dad will stay and take care of you, will you live your life?"

Yun En never thought that he would be given such preferential treatment when he was sick. Before he was ill, he had a high fever at Mrs. Fu's house, and he almost fell into a coma.

It must be because he has a weak stomach and is not used to the hygienic environment in the countryside. He didn't pay attention to eating for a while, and he contracted such malaria after eating food that mosquitoes crawled over.

But now he is sick. Although he is sick all over his body, his father came to see him, and Xu Zhenhua also rushed back. The fact that his father came made him feel so good that he even ate an extra bowl of rice, but it was because he wanted more. Feel the warmth of my father feeding me for a while.

Now that Yun Guoan proposed to celebrate his birthday, he was naturally happy, his long-term depression was swept away, the light in his eyes lit up, and he said cherishingly, "Okay, thank you Dad, I want to eat birthday cake , and a birthday present, okay?"

Yun Guoan knew that he was too weak to eat these now, but it would be nice to not eat cakes and buy them back for him to see.

Yun Guoan complied, looked at him lovingly, and reached out to smooth his hair.

Seeing Yun En smiling at himself, I felt love and pity in my heart.

Xu Zhenhua listened to the conversation between the two.

Seeing Yun En like this, on the contrary, he can't remember how he used to cry and ignore her.

He looked at him like this, as if he had returned to the time when he first saw him at Du's house.

At that time, his eyes were clear and firm, and there seemed to be light in his pupils.

That light shone into the bottom of his heart, like the clear moonlight cast in an ancient well.

When Yun Guoan was talking to Yun En, Yun En inadvertently turned his eyes and glanced at him.

Xu Zhenhua happened to be looking at him too.

The two people's eyes met and looked at each other, Xu Zhenhua somehow felt a special feeling in his heart.

He was touched by what Yun Guoan had said before, and now, looking at Yun En Ye Mingzhu's big eyes, he felt even more turmoil in his heart.

But Yun En glanced at him calmly, then blinked again, and soon, he looked away, no longer looking at Xu Zhenhua.

Xu Zhenhua was taken aback by his indifferent and ignoring actions.

That kind of feeling is like a little boy who hears from a classmate that a certain girl has a crush on him, and his heart jumps for joy, but when he actually meets that girl, the other party gives him a blank stare, making him feel affectionate, so embarrassing.

But Xu Zhenhua was not in the heart of such a little boy, at most he was stunned for a moment and didn't understand why Yun En ignored him directly.

But after he was stunned, he suddenly remembered that he must still be angry about his leaving before.

Having figured it out, he sighed silently and walked out of the ward.

I can't help but feel that children's memory is really good.

Then I remembered Yun En's birthday in a few days, and thought about what to buy for him.

After thinking about it for a while, he felt that Yun En liked a lot of things, but he didn't have the desire to greedily occupy them.

He wanted to give a gift to please Yun En, and there was no way to ease the relationship between the two.

Just a person standing in the hospital corridor smiling.

The place in the left atrium feels slightly sweet and slightly sad.

He feels that this is really the mood of raising a child, he is happy for him, but also worried for him.

The author has something to say: Hahaha, Father Xu actually cares about little Yun En very much, but he doesn’t say anything, neither does Yun En.But it takes such a sullen temper to get sullen~ Fortunately, Daddy Yun appeared, to ease the friction between the two of you, and warm up the relationship by the way~~~~~~~~~~~

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