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?Chapter 19 Father and Son

Yun Guoan saw Xu Zhenhua give Yun En a precious gift, although he didn't say anything, but when he saw Yun En unwrap the gift, he was still shocked.

He never thought that Xu Zhenhua cared so much about his child's birthday. The glass ball was as clear as crystal, and he thought it was beautiful, but he never thought that it was really made of crystal. , but in that era, it was very powerful to be able to give a child such a toy.

Yun Guoan didn't dare to show too much expression, but Yin Yin's mother watched from the side and praised, "This thing is so beautiful, as beautiful as crystal."

Asked how much money Xu Zhenhua paid, Xu Zhenhua naturally did not answer.

Yin Yin's mother immediately knew that she had said something wrong. She glanced at Xu Zhenhua's face and saw that he was naturally not angry, so she was relieved and relieved.

When Yun Guoan was secretly startled, a thought came to his mind. He felt that Xu Zhenhua treated Yunen too well, and he was not the one who spoiled children like this. He wanted to remind Xu Zhenhua a few words, but seeing Xu Zhenhua's calm and dignified face, he When the words came to his lips, he swallowed them back.

For a moment, he didn't know what role he was in to remind Xu Zhenhua. After thinking about it, he felt that his status was awkward, and it was not offensive to tell Xu Zhenhua not to spoil Yunen too much.

He felt that he was ashamed of the child first, and now that he has finally found someone who is good to the child, he still wants to stop him, which is a bit wrong.

Yun En happily put away the gift from Xu Zhenhua, but stared at his father expectantly, and asked him, "Dad, where is the gift you gave me? Is it at grandma's house? When shall we go back and see?" Woolen cloth?"

Yun Guoan knew that the gift he gave his son was naturally not as valuable as Xu Zhenhua's.

But when he was choosing a gift, he also spent a long time choosing it, and finally bought it after asking Yun En's preferences.

Facing his son's innocent face and joyful expectation, the corner of his mouth was bitter, but he forced himself to smile at Yun En.

He said, "It's at Grandma Fu's house. I haven't lost it. You can see it when you go back now."

Yun En was very excited when he heard his father's words. He didn't know what kind of gift it was, but he jumped out of bed immediately and asked to go home.

He was so young that he couldn't see the worry on his father's face at all, he was just happy for the gift his father gave him.

With a faint wry smile on his face, Yun Guoan said goodbye to Yin Yin and his mother who were in the same ward, and said that he would invite them to play in G City if he had the opportunity in the future.

Afterwards, Xu Zhenhua and Mrs. Fu took their son home together. Yun En held his hand all the way, not knowing that he was leaving today.

While seeing the gift Xu Zhenhua gave Yun En, Yun Guoan felt a sense of discouragement in his heart, and at the same time gradually felt that Yun En would be farther and farther away from him if he followed Xu Zhenhua like this.

He still held the child's hand and didn't let go, but for some reason, he hadn't left yet, but he felt that Yun En had started to move away from him.

Yun Guoan has always known that he cannot compare to Xu Zhenhua's economic strength, and he will not feel discouraged about this.

But watching Yun En follow Xu Zhenhua, Xu Zhenhua gave him good food and good clothes, the child was young and didn't realize the power of money, so he didn't know what Xu Zhenhua gave him, he just accepted it as an ordinary thing.

It's been a long time like this, and Yun En grew up living in such an environment, I'm afraid that when he becomes an adult in the future, it is very unlikely that he will recognize his poor and short-sighted father.

He was not afraid that Xu Zhenhua would take away his child, but what he was afraid of was that Yun En's heart had changed.

This is not to say that Yun En was brought up by Xu Zhenhua, and in the future he will grow up to have the temperament of a mother who has a milk.

But he, Yun Guoan, has always believed that reality is more powerful than emotional ideals.Those blood relations, father and son, and the saying that blood is thicker than water, in his world, are not as powerful as money.

He had no money, so he had to divorce Tan Li. He had no money, and he couldn't raise his head to speak in front of Du Xiaoli and his brother. He didn't have money, and he couldn't give Yun En a good life.

It is because he knows too much about the good and bad of money that he has to be vigilant about the corrosion and softening of money to people's hearts.

He thought, Yunen lived with Xu Zhenhua in the future and got used to wearing gold and silver. If one day Xu Zhenhua married another person and didn't want Yunen, at that time Yunen came back to be with him, would he still be able to get used to it?In other words, will he still recognize himself as his father in the future?

The human heart is unfathomable in the face of any realistic force.

Knowing that human nature is complicated, you should not test it, lest you see the cold truth and increase your disappointment and despair.

Yun Guoan took Yun En's hand and walked back to Aunt Fu's house. He was suddenly afraid that Yun En would look down on his uselessness in the future, and be ashamed of himself as a father, and even hate himself for being incompetent and abandoning him in the end.

He knew that his entrusting Yun En to Xu Zhenhua sounded like an adoption, but in essence, what was the difference between this and a father who abandoned his child?

He did hand over his son to a friend to discipline him because he didn't have enough ability and couldn't hold up his face in the Du family. The eyes of the family, suffering from such separation, have to hand over their son to an outsider to discipline them?

Yun Guoan had never thought about these issues before.

He never thought about how Yun En would think of himself as a father when he grew up, and he never thought about whether Yun En would hate them for the fact that he was abandoned by his parents. He just felt that it was too sinful for a child to follow him, So Xu Zhenhua took Yunen away.

Thinking about it now, his behavior at that time was full of suddenness and impulsiveness. Even after he went back, Du Xiaoli didn't see Yun En at home, so she asked curiously.

Yun Guoan said, "The child is gone with Xu Zhenhua," then turned sideways and lay down on the bed without speaking.

Du Xiaoli had always disliked this child Yun En, but when she suddenly heard her husband say such a sentence, she reacted in her mind for a while before she understood what her husband meant.

When Yun Guoan sent Yun En and Xu Zhenhua away, he couldn't feel comfortable. After he got home, he lay down all morning. Later, he didn't even cook lunch, and it was rare for Du Xiaoli to get angry at him and ask him to get up to cook.

She got up to cook by herself in her pajamas, and then asked Yun Guoan if he wanted to eat.

Yun Guoan had never hated his own weakness and incompetence as much as he does now, recalling the scene of sending Yun En away at that time, it was as if it happened yesterday, not the past few months.

He has been deliberately suppressing himself to regret it, lest he really regret it. He regretted it at the beginning, and he regretted it too late. He didn't even have the courage to ask Xu Zhenhua to ask Yun En to go back.

However, when he really realized that he had regrets in his heart, he hated him so much that he even thought that if he could have Xu Zhenhua's family background, then he wouldn't be living like this.

At that moment, his thoughts were extremely complicated, and he even thought about taking Yun En to bid farewell to Xu Zhenhua and go back to G City!

He feels that he is still young, only in his early thirties, and if he works hard, he might be able to make it through; Not enough, so he had to make the child suffer; he felt that he was Yun En's biological father after all, if he brought him back, it would be a bit of a hardship, but when the family is together, no matter what kind of difficulties they will overcome... ..

Yun Guoan was irritated by Xu Zhenhua's simple action, and this was not caused temporarily.

In the final analysis, he has always been afraid of Xu Zhenhua's strength in his heart, but he has no choice but to cling to him. While he hates his own weakness, he also hates the kindness that Xu Zhenhua gave him in the past.

He thought, if Xu Zhenhua hadn't treated him like this and looked down on him as the son of a drunk cook like others, then it would be impossible for him to think that Xu Zhenhua was a good person and would be friends with him.

He has always been grateful that Xu Zhenhua chose to be his friend, has been helping him, and helped him financially, so his feelings for Xu Zhenhua are also somewhat grateful and respected.

But this feeling changed when he met Yun En.

Xu Zhenhua's past goodwill has become hypocrisy, and Xu Zhenhua's generosity has become an act of buying people's hearts. Yun Guoan became paranoid, and almost went through all the previous interactions between the two of them in his mind, and even felt that Xu Zhenhua had always treated him in the past. In fact, the friendship in the past is a kind of charity.

The unequal economic status of adults will eventually cause a psychological gap.

And the most frightening thing about this gap is that it will lead people into the quagmire of jealousy.

The original pure friendship will never be found again.

Therefore, if people want to associate with people who are much taller than themselves, they often need an extremely strong psychological quality, so that they can be worthy of standing beside friends with strong abilities.