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?Chapter 8 worries

Xu Zhenhua's attitude towards Yun En was probably doomed from the first time he saw Yun En.

Probably when he saw Yun En for the first time, Xu Zhenhua couldn't bear to see him suffer and suffer when he saw that he was thin and thin, with no one to take care of him, and his features were so innocent and beautiful.

Therefore, this is doomed to the fate of two people's life.

Perhaps, from the beginning of his soft heart to this child, it was all wrong.

However, at that time, he didn't know this, and he didn't expect what happened later.

Therefore, it is only in the long river of time to let some things germinate quietly, and in the future, it will grow into a towering and luxuriant tree.

Xu Zhenhua brought Yun En out from Yun Guoan and brought him to City K. Yun En didn't know that his father had entrusted himself to this handsome man in front of him. Yun Guoan kept silent, and Xu Zhenhua never told him either. he.

If Xu Zhenhua didn't say anything, Yun En was naturally completely kept in the dark.

Whenever Yun En talked about wanting to go home, Xu Zhenhua didn't know how to explain all these things to him, so he had no choice but to coax Yun En in the way of coaxing a child.

Follow his words, buy him all kinds of beautiful toys, and take him to eat delicious and fun food to distract him.

Yun En was still young, and when Xu Zhenhua interrupted him when he was emotional, he would divert his energy to other places.

So after such a long time, he stayed with Xu Zhenhua, and he more or less got used to accepting Xu Zhenhua by his side.

As for Xu Zhenhua, because he hadn't been able to tell Yun En that his father didn't want him, he kept coaxing him, which also made him feel very uneasy.

But the more restless you are, the more you can't explain it every time the opportunity is right.

The words came to his lips, but he couldn't explain them.

The more he couldn't speak out, the more he felt ashamed of Yun En.

I don't think it's right to lie to him all the time.

Such a cycle of repetition further cultivated his soft heart towards Yun En.

This kind of feeling didn't completely change until Yun En grew up and they got together.

Sometimes Xu Zhenhua couldn't help thinking that he must have owed Yun En in his previous life, so he was allowed to be his father in this life, and he would spend his whole life to pay him back.

Be good to him, be serious to him, and be responsible to him.

Soft-hearted to him, accommodating, distressed.

But all of this seemed to be destined by nature, making him happy.

Every time Yunen wanted to go home, Xu Zhenhua was so busy coaxing Yunen that it was too late, and he never thought of explaining what happened to Yunen.

Even if he explained it, Yun En might not understand it.

At that time, things will inevitably become more complicated.

So after thinking about it, Xu Zhenhua couldn't find a suitable opportunity to explain to Yun En why they couldn't go back to G City.It's just that every time Yun En started crying, he would follow Yun En's crying and let him do whatever he wanted, cry as he wanted.

As an unmarried man, he had never brought up children, so of course he didn't know that children would be spoiled like this.

But he couldn't bear to see Yun En shed tears. Seeing Yun En shed tears, he felt bitter and anxious like eating Coptis chinensis. himself.

As long as Yunen doesn't feel so uncomfortable crying, he is willing to do whatever he wants.

As a result, Yun En was gradually used to be arrogant by Xu Zhenhua.

However, his arrogant temper only flares up when facing Xu Zhenhua.

To other people, he still looks like a docile and shy good boy.And it's a little dull, it looks easy to bully.

Only when facing Xu Zhenhua, would he expose his worst, worst, and trickiest side.

It seems that it is precisely because he knows that this man is letting him down, pampering him, and following him, that he will treat him more wantonly.

Because there is no fear in my heart, and I know that this person will never leave me no matter what.

Therefore, the obedient and submissive Yun En used to be around his father disappeared.

When I was with Xu Zhenhua, I started to show my eccentric side.

At that time, Xu Zhenhua had just arrived in K City and planned to establish a foothold here. He brought Yun En here. Yun En was unwell because of the long-distance travel before. Xu Zhenhua couldn't bear to let him follow him all the way, so he found a resident The rental housing in the community is rented out.

At that time, rental housing was still very cheap, because in the early days of reform and opening up, no one had any concept of real estate speculation.

The market economy has just started, and everyone's needs and desires for money are still relatively weak.

Xu Zhenhua saw that this would become the best-developed area in the inland area, so he chose to work here.

It's just his idea and vision, but he doesn't have enough capital to start it.

He went to those old friends, but there were not many friends who had a better financial situation than him.

He went out early and returned home every day and sat in the car for a long time to find friends to borrow money. He often traveled all day, but he might not be able to borrow much money.

Coming back from the outside is exhausting and exhausting.

He stood outside the temporarily rented residential area and smoked, often smoking a whole pack of cigarette butts.

He worries about these things alone, and there is no one around to discuss them.

Yunen is so young, it's not good for him to inhale too much second-hand smoke, so he was allowed to play at home alone during the day.

He dropped out of school from a small county town, and he hasn't found a school in K City yet.

Besides, he is already five years old and almost six years old, and it is also time to enter elementary school.

Xu Zhenhua thought about it, so he wanted to find a good school for him to enroll in, so that it would be good for his future studies.

But there were so many and complicated things, and he was the only one to deal with them, one by one.

After he just moved, because he wanted to take care of Yun En's body, Xu Jianhua wanted to hire a nanny to take care of him, so that during the day, when he was not at home, the nanny could play with Yun En.

But Yun En was very repulsive to outsiders, so the little nanny from Anhui made meals for the whole day, so he asked Xu Zhenhua to pay the bill and leave.

Xu Zhenhua was worried that Yunen would not be able to take care of himself at home alone, but Yunen just looked at him and said, "I can behave well when I am alone at home. I have TV to watch, so I don't need to go anywhere."

Xu Zhenhua and his clear water eyes looked at each other, as if he was in the middle of the beautiful mountains and rivers, washing away the filth of people in the city.

He sighed inwardly, he didn't want to compromise but had to compromise again.

If Yun En doesn't like it, then he doesn't like it. He just wants to find someone to take care of the child, and the child doesn't like it. In fact, he doesn't really like someone being inserted between the two of them.

So he agreed with Yun En's words, put his hand on the top of his head, touched it, and told him, "Stop watching TV at home, it will damage your eyes."

Yun En looked at him with big black and white eyes, and nodded sensibly.

He has no friends here, and he has nothing to study. In the past, someone cared about his watching TV, but now with Xu Zhenhua, he can let go of being addicted to the TV.

He didn't cause Xu Zhenhua any trouble, and then he took the little yellow dog he bought yesterday to sit on the sofa and watch the children's channel by himself.

Xu Zhenhua felt helpless looking at him sitting on the sofa, remembering how he had ever been like this when he was a child.

However, he felt that all of this was actually caused by himself. If the conditions were good enough, Yun En could have a good life, and he couldn't be so impoverished materially and spiritually.

He cooked dinner by himself that night, made three dishes and one soup and put them on the table for Yun En to eat. Yun En immediately put down his toys and ran over when he heard the greeting.

Xu Zhenhua saw the two stars that were about to fall in his eyes, as if he was about to fall into the bottom of the lake in his heart, and he heard his own voice asking him, "What did you do at home alone today?"

The two chatted as if they had known each other for a long time.Yun En held the tomato scrambled eggs in the bowl in front of him, and didn't stop when he heard the question.

Although his hands are small, his movements are graceful and beautiful, and he said, "Play with Xiao Huang."

Xiao Huang is the name of that toy dog. Xu Zhenhua glanced at the toy that Yun En placed on the sofa, and saw that the sky outside was covered with a circle of gold bordered by dark clouds.It's going to rain.

He asked, "Is it fun to play with Xiao Huang? Why don't you want the sister who invited you today to stay with you?"

Yun En stopped his chopsticks and looked at him, with an expression of resistance showing on his face for some reason.

He looked at him, nodded, then shook his head.

Xu Zhenhua already understood what he meant by saying that it was fun to be with Xiao Huang, but he didn't want a nanny to take care of him.

He was silent for a while, and then asked again, "Why? Is it because you don't like it? Otherwise, let's find another one?"

What he meant was that he would be busy with work in the future, so he must find someone to help take care of Yun En.

But Yun En lowered his head, and his eyelashes covered him.

He shook his head, then shook his head again.

He is used to expressing his meaning with repeated actions.

Or maybe subconsciously affirming myself.

He wanted to tell Xu Zhenhua that he didn't want to, but when Xu Zhenhua saw him, he felt a little restless in his heart, but he also felt that his stubborn childishness was a bit pitiful.

A small child with nothing.

There is no other way but to protect yourself in such a stubborn way.

He was frowned for a while thinking about how to persuade Yun En, the golden afterglow from the sky shone into the house, the orientation here was not good, but it was better than staying in a small hotel near the station, Xu Zhenhua tried his best to take care of Yun En.

At this moment, Yun En suddenly heard Yun En whisper, "I want my father..."

Xu Zhenhua's expression froze, and the tired expression on his face seemed like a storm was about to come.

Yun En just kept holding the bowl in his arms, and didn't raise his head to look at him.I felt aggrieved in my heart, and suddenly thought about it, thinking why should I be with a strange woman instead of my father.

The more I thought about it, the more I couldn't control it, so I said in a crying voice, "I miss my dad."

As he said that, the tears fell with a "pop", and fell silently naturally.

The tears fell into the bowl, and Xu Zhenhua watched him cry, feeling irritable for some reason.

He felt a little resentful and annoyed.I really don't want to see my child cry, but I feel a lot of pressure when I see my child crying.

He felt that he was just asking softly, everything was fine, and he didn't do anything to Yun En, but he suddenly cried, although he cried silently, there were only soft sobs on the dinner table And gasp, but such a scene made Xu Zhenhua uncontrollably irritable and depressed.

He was a little disgusted and hated to see Yunen crying at every turn, but Yunen was already like this, so the expression on his face became not necessarily pretty.

The atmosphere at the dinner table was tense for several minutes. Yun En probably also knew that Xu Zhenhua was not someone to rub casually, so he didn't necessarily cry aloud.

Xu Zhenhua endured it several times, wanting to scold him, but couldn't.

Finally, he said, "Okay, you are amazing, you can say whatever you want, I'm afraid of you."

Then he said, "Don't cry, finish your meal, and I'll take you to call your father later."

It was the first time Yun En heard his tone was not good. His voice was deep and not harsh, but he just lost his usual kindness.There is a special sense of pressure and coercion.

This made Yun En know that he could no longer be presumptuous.

He nodded, achieved his self-willed goal, and tried his best to pick up the rice in the bowl, tears still falling into the bowl.

But at least he was able to talk to Yun Guoan on the phone.

He felt that this was enough, and it would be even better if he could go home with his father.

After dinner, Xu Zhenhua took him to the canteen downstairs to make a phone call.

Xu Zhenhua dialed the number and handed the phone to Yun En without saying a few words to Yun Guoan.

Yun En answered the phone, and obediently called Yun Guoan "Dad."

I don't know how Yun Guoan answered on the other end of the phone, but Xu Zhenhua felt very uncomfortable when he heard this shout.

On the contrary, it seems that there is a feeling of having a child who has been born for a while, and instead recognizes someone else's father as a father.

Listening to Yun En and Yun Guoan talking in a more well-behaved and sensible tone, Xu Zhenhua couldn't bear to see their father and son's intimate conversation, so he turned and left.When I arrived at the side of the street, I stood and smoked under a saponin tree.

Seeing a special police notice about abducting children posted on the telephone pole beside him, Xu Zhenhua felt upset, and didn't look at it much. He frowned and took a few puffs of cigarettes to calm himself down.

It's not like he didn't know why he was so upset.It's just that he has been with Yun En for such a period of time now, and he still doesn't get close to himself, and doesn't rely on himself as a father figure, which makes him more or less irritated.

After all, Yun Guoan is Yun En's own father, there is a blood relationship there, Yun En naturally has more closeness and dependence on him, Xu Zhenhua didn't think of these things before, but now thinking of hearing and seeing, he just It felt like a harsh fact piercing his heart.

Let the child feel very upset.

He didn't understand what he was arguing about, as if he was secretly calculating who was more important in Yun En's heart, he or Yun Guoan. After he thought of this, he felt a little unbelievable and absurd.

He threw away the cigarette butt at his fingertips, and then took out a new one to light it. At this moment, he felt that his heart was calmer.

Then he thought, yes, Yun Guoan is Yun En's own father, what is there to argue with Yun Guoan, what is there to argue about?

He had already won over all the things Yun Guoan cared about the most, and Yun En was thinking about Yun Guoan in his heart, so what's the matter?

Yun Guoan and Yun En are biological fathers and sons, they are related by blood, no matter how great his kindness of nurturing is, can he still surpass the kindness of giving birth...

Xu Zhenhua slowly puffed on his cigarette, thinking about these problems, regained his senses, and gradually came out of the irritability just now.

After he finished smoking all his cigarettes, he walked towards the canteen, and when he was paying, he heard the woman guarding the store say, "That kid in your family was still on the phone at first, but then he cried so hard that his face was full of tears." Tears, have you coaxed him home yet?"

Xu Zhenhua was paying for cigarettes, plus the long-distance phone bill, when he heard what the dark-faced woman said, he paused, and then said, "You said he went home?"

The woman with a strong figure and already the mother of two little boys had a weird and embarrassed expression on her face, she smiled, and continued in dialect, "The kid just now, you brought the caller here, I think he said I couldn’t help but cry halfway through the phone call. I don’t know what happened. Later, a man came from the side. I thought it was you. He carried the baby and left. I didn’t even pay for the phone call. I thought it was you. I miss you often If you come to my place to buy cigarettes, I won’t charge you the phone bills.”

Hearing what the woman said, Xu Zhenhua suddenly froze.

A scene of Yun En being carried away by a stranger with his mouth covered quickly flashed automatically in his mind, and immediately after that, the warning he saw just now by the telephone pole flashed through his electrified mind.

Someone abducted a child. The news made him feel as if he was poured with ice, and his eyes were round. The woman in the store handed him the cigarette he wanted, but he didn't take it.

Immediately turned around and ran towards the intersection.

The hazy sky indicated that it was going to rain soon, and the wind was blowing violently on the road, rolling the white garbage bags floating around everywhere.Xu Zhenhua's heart was gradually occupied by a kind of fear. Hearing the sound of the iron roof of the residential building, he felt his heart jump out of his throat while running.

The only thought in his mind was that Yun En might have been abducted by human traffickers.

Although many people were fascinated by the sand blown up by the wind, women covered their skirts while walking with ignorant eyes, and people came and went at the crossroads at the intersection in the city center, but Xu Zhenhua had never been so panicked in his heart, as if this The yellow sand flew across the sky and the ground, and the sky was so dark and gloomy that it seemed like the sky was about to collapse.

He ran forward recklessly, and didn't know to stop when a vehicle passed by.

After being rushed out by him, a car braked suddenly and stopped in the middle of the road. He ran away all the way, but the driver opened the door and got down and cursed.

Xu Zhenhua didn't even hear his curses, but just listened to his own heartbeat and ran towards the front of the road.

He himself didn't know why he ran, but Yun En was gone, and there were often human traffickers who abducted children around here. He couldn't hold anything else in his nervous heart, he just wanted to find Yun En, and saw him in the crowd Shadow is fine.

But in the 90s of the last century, most of the inland cities were underdeveloped.

Although it is not developed, it does not mean that there are no criminal gangs that smuggle people/mouth/organs/officials and traffic/sell/children.

Xu Zhenhua's mind was full of the police notice he had seen just now, and he didn't even have time to think about what to do if Yun En was taken away. The strongest thought in his mind at this moment was to find Yun En.He didn't dare to think about the result of not being able to find Yun En, so he could only stand at the crossroads and search one by one. When he saw a woman holding a child in his hand, he would regard them as Yun En, but they also neither.

At dusk, when it was about to rain, people came and went, and cars and horses kept coming and going. It was easy to find a lost child in such a city with a population of several million.

He looked at the endless stream of traffic intersections, and for some reason he felt that the sky and the earth were spinning. The sweat from running all the way wet the hair on his forehead and his sideburns. On the way, I really felt flustered.

The more anxious he was, the more anxiously he would look forward to seeing Yun En's figure appear. The dazzling afterglow of the sunset and extremely dry mouth made him have no room to notice his own feelings. He just looked from a The child jumped onto another child, trying to find Yun En's figure.

At this time, when the road lights turned red, a large truck that had finished carrying gravel was driving all the way, and a sudden brake suddenly caught everyone's attention.

As if someone had fallen, the crowd gradually gathered around, but immediately dispersed.

A man covering his face fell to the ground, and a kind girl next to him wanted to help him, but before she could help him, he suddenly pushed the girl away with his hands, and stumbled from the ground got up.

Xu Zhenhua didn't notice an accidental traffic situation here.

The crowd rushed over there, and he was still anxiously searching for Yun En's figure.

At this time, a voice suddenly called him "Dad", and Xu Zhenhua recognized it as Yun En's voice. When he turned his head, he saw Yun En wrapped in the crowd.

Yun En's figure swayed for a while, making him think that he had seen hallucinations in the water, but when he took a closer look, he didn't see Yun En again, but he did hear him calling himself.

He immediately ran towards the direction of the crowd. At this time, the masked man who fell on the ground saw him running over, ignored Yun En, and immediately left the scene of the accident with a limp.

Yun En was also extremely frightened. He saw Xu Zhenhua approaching from the crowd, and immediately rushed towards him and hugged him. The force was so great that even Xu Zhenhua was shocked when he bumped him.

But at any rate, he found Yun En for real at this time. He stroked his back and head and comforted him, "Okay, okay, don't be afraid, don't be afraid, it's okay now, it's okay now..."

But Yun En's body was still trembling.

People passing by questioned, "Strange, it wasn't that man who was holding the child just now."

"That's right, why did that man leave the child and go away by himself..."

"It can't be a human trafficker. Recently, there are reports on TV. Don't let the child leave his parents. He may be abducted. Was this child abducted just now..."

Xu Zhenhua comforted Yun En's thin back, and he felt himself trembling slightly.He knew that Yun En must be more scared than himself just now, Yun En hugged his trouser legs, which had already been wet with tears.

He kept saying it's okay, it's okay, he wanted to reassure Yun En, but he felt guilty for a while, if Yun En was really kidnapped and sold by human traffickers, then he would not dare to imagine the consequences.

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