North to Hanchuan

After running, Gu Hengbei and Ji Hanchuan went to the cafeteria together for dinner. From the west playground to the cafeteria, they would pass through Beiyuan, Gu Hengbei's dormitory area. There was a person standing at the gate of Beiyuan, waiting for Gu Hengbei.

The corners of Ji Hanchuan's eyes twitched violently.

He didn't understand before. He saw some well-dressed boys who behaved awkwardly and only regarded them as people because of their personality. Since he had a close contact with a room full of zeros in the box of Fengze Building, he had a radar for the gay group. keen.

Gu Hengbei stopped and had a conversation with that person, and then wrote a paragraph on the classmate handed over by the other party.

It was early in the morning and there were not many people on the road. Ji Hanchuan stood not far away and heard the conversation between the two of them clearly.

Oh, this is also Gu Hengbei's ex-boyfriend. He is a senior and has found a job. He is going to leave school today. He is afraid that he will not be able to find Gu Hengbei when he returns in June, so he will come here early and let Gu Hengbei be with his classmates. Sign your name on the record and keep it as a souvenir.

After signing, the boy still said emotionally: "I will always remember you."

Gu Hengbei also made a joke with a smile, then waved goodbye.

"He's from Xinchuan Academy," Gu Hengbei put his arm around Ji Hanchuan's shoulders, chatting, "Isn't his voice particularly nice?"

Ji Hanchuan put his hands in the pockets of his sports pants, walked with his head down, and let out a "hmm".

"It's the graduation season again," Gu Hengbei sighed, like a sentimental young literary man, "I have to say goodbye to many people at this time of year, alas, I usually don't feel that we are really going to be separated, and I am still very reluctant, you Are you right, Ji Hanchuan?"

"Don't give up," Ji Hanchuan said sullenly, "Then you go and stay."

"Where do you want to stay? We will go our separate ways once we graduate."

"You are rich, take care of it."

Gu Hengbei laughed softly: "Good idea!"

Ji Hanchuan stopped in his tracks, his masseter muscles bulging, his chest heaving, and he looked at Gu Hengbei patiently.

Gu Hengbei looked at him worriedly: "Why do you look so ugly? Are you running too fast and feeling uncomfortable?"

"Gu Hengbei!" Ji Hanchuan's tense nerve finally bounced off like a spring, "You, how can you be so frivolous?"

"Frivolous?" Gu Hengbei was surprised, "Where am I frivolous?"

Flirty everywhere!So many ex-boyfriends, flirtatious!Signing a classmate record after breaking up, frivolous!Reluctant to others, frivolous!I still want to raise my ex-boyfriend, it's too frivolous! ! !

Ji Hanchuan pursed his lips, and two clusters of angry little flames were lit in his clear eyes. He pointed his index finger at Gu Hengbei, nodded heavily, then snorted coldly, and walked away with "swish, swish, swish".

It was the first time for Ji Hanchuan to show Gu Hengbei's face. Gu Hengbei followed behind him, almost laughing out his inner wounds.

"Hey," the two were in the cafeteria, Ji Hanchuan ate buns with his head down, Gu Hengbei squatted on the table and glanced at him like before, "I'm talking to you, why are you so silent?"

Ji Hanchuan ignored him.

Gu Hengbei: "I found that you are good at being short-tempered now!"

Ji Hanchuan still ignored him.

Gu Hengbei: "If you don't talk anymore, I'll be annoyed!"

Whatever, Ji Hanchuan ignored him anyway.

Gu Hengbei threw out his trump card: "Aren't you...jealous?"

Ji Hanchuan raised his eyes suddenly, his jaw line was straightened, but his eyes did not avoid it.

"If you say I'm frivolous, you've wronged me. The people you've met may not be frivolous to me. If," Gu Hengbei slowed down, the smile in his eyes and voice became obvious , "If it were you, it would be different..."

Ji Hanchuan bit his lip, and asked as if he was being bewitched: "What's the difference?"

"If you're with me," Gu Hengbei said word by word, still in that laughing voice, with the force of clouds and stones piercing through the sky, clearly and slowly, "...then I have a soft spot in my life With nothing to worry about, I will give you everything..."

Ji Hanchuan's eyes trembled slightly, and his cheeks and ears quickly became hot.

The cafeteria was full of fireworks and people, and students coming and going kept shuttling in front of and behind them. Such a noisy environment made it impossible for Ji Hanchuan to tell whether Gu Hengbei was serious or joking, but he still felt that he should respond, Although his mind was blank and his palms were sweaty, he still tried to speak: "I..."

"Ahem——" Two clear coughs came from the loudspeaker in the cafeteria, and the school radio station began to broadcast on time.

"Today is my last broadcast here..." The clear and pleasant male voice rang out on the radio, which was still somewhat familiar. The boy who has been broadcasting on the school station for more than three years said that he is about to graduate and bid farewell to Beijing University , bid farewell to the radio station, and thank his classmates, friends, and lovers who accompanied him all the way. You are."

Gu Hengbei's affectionate face distorted in this song sung for him.

Every line of the lyrics is like a loud slap in the face.

"No matter how I say it, I feel hypocrisy. I have been with you for so long. You said you have suffered. From the past to the present. Who am I? You flower-hearted butterfly..."

"I want to ask, how can I get out, but you say that the world of flowers doesn't have to be taken seriously..." ①

Not long ago, this boy asked Gu Hengbei to sign the classmate record, and Gu Hengbei even said to Ji Hanchuan desperately, "Is his voice very nice?"!

It was the first time that Gu Hengbei knew what the present report was, and the confession scene was overturned and turned into a crematorium.

Ji Hanchuan couldn't even eat the remaining buns, he kicked off the chair and stood up, first turned around to leave, then turned around, he grabbed a bun from the plate and stuffed it into Gu Hengbei's mouth, saying bitterly : "You flower-hearted butterfly! Hmph!"

……

Saturday night is an auspicious day for... working.

Still at the seafood stall in that food street, Gu Hengbei ordered a few old dishes, and asked Ji Hanchuan for a bottle of Wangzai milk.

"Don't drink too much," Ji Hanchuan told the boss, "give him a bottle of Wahaha."

Gu Hengbei rolled his eyes straight: "I don't drink Wahaha, it's sweet and greasy!"

"Then drink Wahaha pure water."

Gu Hengbei: "..."

Nima, men really can't get used to it, really.

In early spring, the weather was neither too hot nor too cold, and the food street was very lively. Many restaurants moved their tables and chairs outside. Gu Hengbei and Ji Hanchuan sat at a table near the street, one picked crabs, the other peeled shrimps, and then put Put the processed shrimp and crab meat into each other's bowls.

Gu Hengbei spoke when the two of them had almost eaten, and Ji Hanchuan was drinking the last sip of Wangzai's milk with his head up:

"I'm going abroad."

Ji Hanchuan's movements stopped, and then he slowly put down the empty bottle in his hand, with the last sip of Wangzai milk in his mouth, with a puffy face, he stared blankly at Gu Hengbei.

He seemed to be very surprised, very surprised, he couldn't believe it and had to believe it, like a child who was caught off guard when he learned that the adults at home were going to go away, panic and grievance were shining brightly, all of which were condensed in his bright eyes.

When he was about to die, Gu Hengbei didn't dare to look at Ji Hanchuan's face. He stared at the pile of shells of shrimp, crab and scallops on the table. He forgot all the lines he had prepared in his mind, and said indiscriminately: "What is that?" , we may not see each other for a long time, no one will buy you Wangzai milk in the future..."

"When?"

"what?"

Ji Hanchuan swallowed Wangzai's milk, but still puffed his face: "When are you leaving?"

Gu Hengbei rolled his eyes guiltily: "Next month... June at the latest."

"Why in such a hurry?"

"It's not in a hurry, it's been decided long ago, but I just forgot to mention it all the time."

"How could you forget to mention this?" Ji Hanchuan said in a daze, "We meet every day."

"Ah," Gu Hengbei rubbed his nose, "It's just that we meet every day so I don't think about it."

Ji Hanchuan was silent for a while, then asked again: "Where are you going?"

"Maybe... Germany?"

"How long are you going?"

Gu Heng Beixin said that the rhythm is not right, I didn't make it so deep, but he still had no choice but to bite the bullet: "One year, two years, three years, it's possible, right? It depends on the progress of the study and how the instructors on both sides coordinate..."

"Will you come back? You said that you will let foreigners come to your door and line up for surgery in the future."

"..."

He still remembered these words, so Gu Hengbei could only vaguely say: "Yes, but I don't know when..."

Ji Hanchuan lowered his head slowly, and unconsciously tightened his fingers holding the body of Wangzai's milk bottle. His fingernails rubbed against the empty bottle. mood.

His sadness was too obvious, like a sensible child who wanted to cry but knew he couldn't cry, was reluctant but knew he couldn't stay.

Although this is what he wanted to see, Gu Hengbei still couldn't bear it anymore, he started to make amends: "Actually, this is not..."

"Airplane, about ten hours." Ji Hanchuan's voice was low and dull.

Gu Hengbei didn't hear clearly: "What?"

Ji Hanchuan took a deep breath, and suddenly turned his head and shouted at the boss: "Boss! Two bottles of beer!"

The boss said crisply: "Okay!"

Gu Hengbei was taken aback by him: "Why you?"

"I will practice it for you."

The boss's action was very agile. Two bottles of beer were placed on the table with a "bang", the lids were opened, and the bubbles inside were hissing. I'm about to blow it with my mouth.

"Wait, wait!" Gu Hengbei grabbed Ji Hanchuan's wrist, almost speaking incoherently, "How can you say it's wind or rain? Even, even if I really want to leave, you can practice it when I leave, you What kind of line are you practicing now?"

Ji Hanchuan said seriously: "Starting today, I will practice it for you every day."

Gu Hengbei didn't know whether to laugh or cry: "What's wrong with you."

"Gu Hengbei, do you know that all energy in this world is constant?"

"Nonsense, isn't it?"

"A person's life, wealth, wisdom, and health are all constant. How many friends, how many gatherings, and how many farewells a person has in his life are also constant. If there is more of one, the other will inevitably be less. Your share is used up, and there will be no more in the future. Before you leave the capital, I will use up my life and your practice, and when we meet again in the future, there will be no more goodbyes. "

In one word, the world is silent.

Every word and every sentence of Ji Hanchuan was like cannonballs exploding in Gu Hengbei's ears. The deafening reverberation tore the last string in his brain, and the blood rolled like a raging fire, boundless The light of the fire burned his internal organs to boil.

"Ji Hanchuan," Gu Hengbei murmured hoarsely, with hazy eyes, as if falling into an illusion, "You must be a monster."

Ji Hanchuan's eyes were slightly red, he blinked vigorously, then broke away from Gu Hengbei's hand and poured beer into his mouth again, suddenly, he seemed to have thought of something, his eyes were foggy and sad Suspicious again, he stared at Gu Hengbei and asked:

"You just said, 'Even if I really want to go'? What does that mean? What is 'even if'? What is 'true'?"

Gu Hengbei was at a loss, he was so moved by Ji Hanchuan that he couldn't remember what he said just now: "What did I say..."

Ji Hanchuan's eyes suddenly widened: "Gu Hengbei, are you lying to me?"

"Ah?" Gu Hengbei finally came back to his senses, he covered his face in embarrassment, "Ah, haha, haha, that, I'm just kidding you..."

"You're kidding me again!" Ji Hanchuan was outraged, "Are you kidding like that?"

"Aren't you kidding me too?" Gu Hengbei mumbled, "If I really want to leave, can you really practice it for me every day?"

"I will practice it for you every day!"

"No, you..." Gu Hengbei didn't know where to put his eyes, and even his voice was weak, "Why are you so serious, I'm embarrassed by you..."

"You know embarrassment?" Ji Hanchuan stood up, threw the wine bottle on the table, and shouted, "Boss, pay the bill!"

The boss came over to pay the bill.

Ji Hanchuan bid the whole ticket, the boss smiled and said, "26 yuan for you, come again next time!"

Ji Hanchuan was expressionless: "You made a mistake, you want to find me at 28!"

Gu Hengbei was thinking about how to coax the kid later, when he heard this, his leg fell, and he lay down on the table with a smile.

The faint yellow street lamps came one by one, and long figures moved from one lamp to another.

Ji Hanchuan put his hands in his pockets, walked forward with his head depressed, and Gu Hengbei followed him slowly. At the end of the food street was a cross road, to the left was Chunjiang Community, to the right was Gu Hengbei's apartment.

Ji Hanchuan wanted to go left, but Gu Hengbei grabbed his wrist.

"Don't pull me," Ji Hanchuan whispered, "I'm angry."

Gu Hengbei knew that he was wrong, but he still insisted: "What a big deal, you are so angry."

Ji Hanchuan looked at him, his dark eyes were full of complex and unspeakable emotions, Gu Hengbei's mind suddenly exploded, he hadn't realized what this temptation meant to Ji Hanchuan until now.

Ji Hanchuan already wanted to be with him, but Gu Hengbei said such provocative words to him not long ago, but Gu Hengbei turned around and said that he was going abroad.

In that short period of time, Ji Hanchuan experienced being teased, abandoned, and separated, but he couldn't even question him. He only hoped that Gu Hengbei would come back and they would meet again.

Damn, Gu Hengbei knows that he lacks great virtue.

"I'm sorry," Gu Hengbei said several times in succession, "I'm sorry."

Ji Hanchuan turned his head, still unable to understand: "Why did you lie to me..."

Gu Hengbei said frankly: "I just want to see that you don't want me, and want you to keep me."

These words blocked Ji Hanchuan's other complaints and accusations.

After a long time, the young man said in a low voice: "Even if you really go abroad, I will not keep you. That is your future, as long as... come back."

Gu Hengbei held Ji Hanchuan by the hand. At that time there were still many pedestrians on the street. Gu Hengbei didn't care about the eyes of others. He put his five fingers into Ji Hanchuan's fingers, and just held him like this, and brought him back to the home.

The door was opened, but the lights were not on, Gu Hengbei pushed Ji Hanchuan into the room, and then pushed him against the door panel.

The curtains in the living room were not drawn, and the moonlight melted through the large glass windows and sprinkled most of the room.

In the shadows, the two teenagers were close together as one, and the two pairs of eyes that were close at hand were shimmering, and they looked at each other closely.

The room was as quiet as the deep sea at midnight.

All the surging deep currents are hidden under the surface, only the entangled breathing of the two people floats slightly.

However, their bodies could not maintain this calmness for too long after all, Gu Hengbei pressed his hands on the door panel, from the chest to the abdomen, and then to the lower waist, hips and legs.

They all fit closely with Ji Hanchuan.

Even through the cloth, the two could feel the scorching heat slowly rising from their respective skins, and then transmitted to the other's body.

And Gu Hengbei's body transmits not only heat, but also hardness.

Gu Hengbei's breathing became rapid first, and Ji Hanchuan's pupils constricted like pinpricks.

Ji Hanchuan retreated instinctively, but his body was pressed tightly against the door, and there was no way he could retreat. His hand behind him touched the doorknob, and he subconsciously wanted to twist the door.

At this moment, Gu Hengbei also moved. He took Ji Hanchuan's hand, put it on his heart, and then leaned over.

It came so suddenly, but it seemed to be expected, Ji Hanchuan was only shocked for a moment at the beginning, and his brain was invaded by a more moist and soft feeling.

Gu Hengbei didn't go any further, he just pressed against Ji Hanchuan's lips, watched him quietly, and waited for him quietly.

Ji Hanchuan's palm rested on Gu Hengbei's heart, which was a convenient posture for him to push Gu Hengbei away at any time.

Yes, longing for you, that's what I want, but you can always push me away if that's what you want.

It doesn't matter if I finish the 99 steps, and it doesn't matter if you let me take the last step. If you don't want to, I can go back.

Gu Hengbei is not a patient and generous person, only for Ji Hanchuan, he always leaves enough room, this kind of tolerance and gentleness is like a tender knife, which can easily pierce Ji Hanchuan.

Ji Hanchuan moved his body a bit, but he rested his head on the door panel behind him.

There was a very slight "boom" from the door panel, and the clothes behind him also made a rustling sound, as if to cover up his beating heart, which could roll out of his throat as soon as he opened his mouth.

Then he took a deep, deep breath through his nose, during the whole process, he never parted from Gu Hengbei's lips.

There are no words, but the body says it all.

"Chuan'er." Gu Hengbei called in a low voice.

This title was very unfamiliar, and Ji Hanchuan was slightly taken aback.

In the darkness, Gu Hengbei's eyelashes seemed to be covered with a layer of fluorescent gold powder. With a slight tremor, the emotional and dense powder fell down. He smiled lightly, and every word he uttered in his hoarse voice Like a little hook, it tickled Ji Hanchuan's eardrums:

"Let me admit first, I still like you, not the soft kind, but the kind that I want to hug and kiss you like this, and want to poke you when I touch you."

The author has something to say: ①The lyrics are selected from Zhang Jingxuan's "Kiss Too Real"

Thanks to the little angels who threw mines: 3 for Lin Xin; 1 for Ruo Xiangxi;

Thanks to the little angels of the irrigation nutrient solution: 10 bottles of lost elk; 1 bottle of Qiyuan; 7 bottles of comouflage; 3 bottles of unknown.

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!