North to Hanchuan

The long street on weekdays was crowded, with long and short horns blared one after another, and Gu Hengbei's car was forced to change lanes several times to cut into the queue. He knocked on the steering wheel and said, "My temper is getting better and better now. If I hadn't Years, I must tell that grandson not to go back..."

The co-pilot, Ji Hanchuan, looked out the window without even turning his head. He didn't hear Gu Hengbei's words at all.

He sighed slightly in his heart.

Gu Hengbei didn't know what Cheng Mu said to Ji Hanchuan, he only knew that after he came out of 2602, Ji Hanchuan was very panicked and hurried, as if he was being chased by something terrible, every pore in his body exuded Anxiety and restlessness.

Ji Hanchuan tightly grabbed Gu Hengbei's hand, clasped his five fingers together, and used such great force that his knuckles cracked.

"What's wrong?" After the two of them got into the car, Gu Hengbei touched Ji Hanchuan's face and joked, "Did Cheng Mu bully you? Did he say bad things to you? To provoke you? Or to show off?" What? You can't even do it with a child, can you?"

Ji Hanchuan held Gu Hengbei's hand and pressed it close to his face. His eyes were flushed, and there were moist drops of water condensing on his eyelashes but they did not fall off. His pupils were soaked to an extraordinarily dark depth, and he murmured in a hoarse voice. It seems to be coquettish, and it seems to be begging:

"Gu Hengbei, I want to go home with you."

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"Cheng Mu, I'm usually busy with work, so I can't spend a lot of time with you. I didn't care if you liked to play before, but with me, loyalty is the primary obligation of each other. My family environment is relatively complicated, so in a short time I I will not bring you into my circle. If we can keep going, one day I will give you an explanation... If you don't mind the above, you will do it, you can accept it, then let's be together, I I can't say that I will give you perfect love, but I will treat you well."

It's hard for Cheng Mu, who can't even memorize the five unique Tang poems, to remember Gu Hengbei's long passage without missing a single word.

At that time, Ji Hanchuan lowered his head and listened, only felt that the softest part on the tip of his heart was bursting with tiny cracks from the deep inside, and the pain was so painful that he couldn't bear it.

For a long time, Ji Hanchuan felt that the choice he made four years ago was right. He told himself over and over again that he had never regretted it. It is the only way of life between him and Gu Hengbei.

But he never thought that it was impossible and should not be possible for the ignorant Gu Hengbei to stay where he was and wait for him. He never thought that for Gu Hengbei, it would be a complete and eternal secret. Gu Hengbei must keep moving forward in his own life.

Gu Hengbei really let him go, Gu Hengbei really thought about building a future with another person, if it wasn't for Cheng Mu's own deviation, even if Ji Hanchuan came back and struggled , and it is impossible to get Gu Hengbei back.

This possibility is like a poisonous bug gnawing at Ji Hanchuan's heart. The pain was so painful that he couldn't even breathe, and he was afraid that he would condense into layers of turbulent cold sweat and fight from his scalp, back, and every sweat gland. Phase rush.

As long as there is even a little bit of inhumanity in fate, he and Gu Hengbei will miss their lives.

The moment Ji Hanchuan entered the door, he hugged Gu Hengbei, with tears streaming down his face, like a lost child who had been lost for a long time and finally returned home. All kinds of hardships, wind, knives, snow swords and scars on the way can be washed away with tears , but the fear and fear deep in his bones could not be removed, he kept muttering: "Gu Hengbei, I was wrong, I was wrong..."

Gu Hengbei was confused: "What's wrong with you..."

The airtight kiss came down, Ji Hanchuan was like a person on the verge of suffocation, using Gu Hengbei as his source of oxygen, desperately snatching Gu Hengbei's mouth, sucking, wrapping, entwining, devouring, and Gu Hengbei accepted this storm-like kiss in astonishment and confusion, and Ji Hanchuan's scorching breath and hot tears also covered his face.

Gu Hengbei could feel that Ji Hanchuan's anxiety and longing were intertwined fiercely, the excitement of gaining and losing and the panic of losing and regaining were tightly intertwined, extremely contradictory and extremely intense emotions, his lips and tongue were gnawed|bited until it hurt Ma, Ji Hanchuan seemed to want to swallow his whole life.

It's still a kiss, Ji Hanchuan seems to want to suck out Gu Hengbei's heart alive, but also seems to want to exhaust his own life, pouring all his heart and blood into Gu Hengbei's chest cavity.

"Shh, Hanchuan..." Gu Hengbei cupped Ji Hanchuan's face and coaxed him softly.

He had to ask clearly, he always felt that Ji Hanchuan was good at everything, but he hid his thoughts too deeply, it was a kind of forbearance and willingness that was almost masochistic, and Gu Hengbei had disliked it for a long time.

"What's wrong? You tell me what's wrong with you? Good or bad, whether the sky is falling or the world is ending, you have to tell me, don't tell me nothing, if you don't tell me, I don't know anything ..."

"I was wrong..." Ji Hanchuan had tears in his eyes.

Gu Hengbei wiped Ji Hanchuan's tears with his fingers: "What's wrong with you?"

"It's all wrong...the past four years...all wrong..." Ji Hanchuan sobbed, and he finally squeezed out the three words from his sore throat, "I'm sorry, Gu Hengbei, I'm sorry..."

The tears seemed to be contagious, and the surging wetness rolled up like that. Gu Hengbei closed his eyes hard, thinking that he would have to wait for a long time before Ji Hanchuan said this.

He doesn't think Ji Hanchuan owes him, but only this confession can make Ji Hanchuan let go of all knots.

"I..." Ji Hanchuan's voice was choked, "I have never been able to tell you what happened back then. I thought that was good for you and for us, but it was not, we Almost, just a little bit..."

As long as his thoughts turn there a little bit, Ji Hanchuan feels as if the tip of his tongue is numb, and he can't say the word "Yongjue" at all.

"I know that you didn't really forgive me..." That's why Gu Hengbei was so close to him. Gu Hengbei kept reminding him, alerting him, and waiting for him to be honest, "What am I doing now?" I told you all..."

Gu Hengbei gently patted Ji Hanchuan's back, and looked at him encouragingly.

Ji Hanchuan held Gu Hengbei's hand tightly: "You...don't be nervous..."

Gu Hengbei smiled: "You look more nervous than me."

Ji Hanchuan put his arms around Gu Hengbei's shoulders: "Then...don't be too scared..."

Gu Hengbei rolled his eyes, put his index finger and middle finger together, raised his thumb and made a gesture of shooting a gun against Ji Hanchuan's forehead: "Have you ever seen someone get shot in the head?"

Ji Hanchuan shook his head blankly.

"I have seen many heads that were shot in the head, half of the skull was lifted, blood and brain paste were everywhere, like half a pot of stewed thick seafood porridge. Find a specific blood vessel in the porridge and suture it..."

Ji Hanchuan covered his mouth, his whole shoulders trembled several times.

"...My fault, you probably don't want to eat seafood porridge for the rest of your life," Gu Hengbei shrugged, "So dear, please tell me what else can scare me?"

Ji Hanchuan shook his head frantically.

Gu Hengbei nodded in satisfaction, and helped Ji Hanchuan to sit down by the sofa.

Gu Hengbei went to the kitchen and poured a cup of warm water. His strong medicine was so powerful that Ji Hanchuan finally stopped crying and vomiting, and was sitting upright on the sofa.

Thus, the story that Gu Hengbei had already known was slowly told through the mouth of the real person involved. Ji Hanchuan weakened the key position of the Gu family in this incident, and only replaced it with "certain high-level Chinese officials" , but even he himself gradually realized that once the Gu family was taken out, his excuse for pushing Gu Hengbei away would become extremely far-fetched.

However, Gu Hengbei didn't ask anything, just looked at him with a pair of clear and tolerant eyes, and asked him to continue talking, as much as he wanted, and as much as he wanted.

As long as it comes from your mouth, I believe and accept it.

Ji Hanchuan finally realized, his pupils widened slightly: "You...you know..."

When this knowledge filled his mind, Ji Hanchuan felt enlightened for a moment. No wonder Gu Hengbei let him go so easily. It turned out that Gu Hengbei knew it a long time ago. Immediately afterwards, his heart tightened violently. An indescribably sour water flowed endlessly.

"Yes, I knew it a long time ago. It was Ji Ningsheng who told me." Gu Hengbei sold Ji Ningsheng straightforwardly. He looked at Ji Hanchuan, his eyes were full of insight and magnanimity, "But I Accepting you is before knowing all these facts, because I know you still love me, and I love you too, not because of some shitty guilt or atonement, I decide to continue to be with you, with this premise, I will go The truth has been investigated, do you believe it?"

Ji Hanchuan nodded in a daze, blinked his eyelashes a few times quickly, then nodded again, let out a deep breath, and buried his hot face into his palm.

The constricted heart suddenly unfolded, and it was only then that he felt relieved, it was... so simple.

He carried a burden that seemed to be as long as a century, and he unloaded it only in this man's few words and gentle and tolerant eyes.

It was a complete relief from body and soul to soul, and even the hard and heavy bones of the whole body were softened.

Ji Hanchuan slid along the sofa legs to sit on the ground, and even pulled Gu Hengbei down.

They are like a pair of twin babies curled up in the mother's womb, leaning against each other in a facing and hugging posture, cheek to cheek, heart to heart.

That is not a suitable posture for stretching the limbs. The long legs of both of them can only be curled back. After a while, their legs will be cramped and numb, but they hug each other very tightly. Even if someone comes to tear them at this time, they can't tear them apart. open.

"You're wrong," Gu Hengbei gently rubbed the back of Ji Hanchuan's head with the palm of his hand, a little stubble appeared there, but it made Gu Hengbei's heart very soft, but he said The words that came out were sharp and merciless, "You made the mistake of being smart and self-righteous four years ago. It was obviously the way of the two of us. You made the choice alone. Why did you make the choice for me? Did I just feel useless, Can't bear a little blow? You don't want to make me sad, but the misunderstanding you created makes me a hundred times sadder than the truth, and I hated you for four whole years!"

"I'm sorry..." Ji Hanchuan said sullenly.

Gu Hengbei didn't kindly shut up because of Ji Hanchuan's pitiful crying.

"Since you messed with me four years ago, I've been in pain four years later. You should be thankful that the psychological quality of our surgeons is relatively against the sky. It's a different person, Ji Hanchuan..."

"Hmm..." Ji Hanchuan responded weakly.

"It's a different person, and I'll tell you to fuck off a long time ago, do you know that?"

"I know." The arms that hugged Gu Hengbei were tightened again.

"You know, but you're an afterthought!"

Gu Hengbei tilted his head and wanted to bite Ji Hanchuan's face to vent his anger, but Ji Hanchuan's face didn't have any flesh, and his cheekbone hit Gu Hengbei's teeth, so he had no choice but to give up.

Gu Hengbei couldn't help thinking of Ji Hanchuan a few years ago when he accompanied him to eat supper until he ate baby fat with bulging cheeks, and heaved a long sigh.

"I can't help but think, if you choose to let me bear the burden at that time, at least I can try to get your mother's forgiveness, and I will let her know that even if my Gu family is really sorry for them, I will always treat their son Well, I will use my whole life to make up for the Gu family's debt to the Ji family, even if I fail, the worst ending is still to be separated... But you didn't give me the chance to fight for the best ending..."

Ji Hanchuan's pupils trembled, he really... never thought that he would have this choice.

He really never dared to think of wronging Gu Hengbei to do this for him.

With deep regret on the handsome face, Gu Hengbei showed an extremely sad smile: "We have been together for so many years, but you still don't know me very well."

Gu Hengbei laughed at himself, "You have overestimated my morality and underestimated your weight in my heart, have you never believed that as long as you are willing to give me your hand, I will hold it even in the vast sea and the middle of the world?" You, I will hold you on the cliff, and I will never let go even if you are a mountain of swords or a sea of ​​fire."

"Gu Hengbei..."

"It's useless to talk about it now," Gu Hengbei finally felt his legs go numb, he pushed Ji Hanchuan away, leaned against the corner of the sofa, and stretched his long legs obliquely inwards naturally, Ji Hanchuan naturally took them over, Putting Gu Hengbei's leg on top of his own, rubbing and pressing his calf, Gu Hengbei squinted his eyes comfortably, "The technique is still so good, praise me."

Gu Hengbei squeezed Ji Hanchuan's jaw and kissed them, the two kissed an extremely soft and delicate kiss, the jaws were half-opened, your tongue touched mine, Ji Hanchuan buried his face in Gu Hengbei's neck after the kiss Rubbing against each other, like a cat being comforted by its owner.

Gu Hengbei shook his legs, and the cat's paws stopped working again, rubbing the owner's legs.

"But actually, I don't trust you enough," Gu Hengbei smiled wryly, "You made such a poor excuse, and I actually believed it that way. When it comes to stupidity, we are not the same. In this test, the two of us Neither passed nor passed, from now on, both of us should stop showing off our IQ, it’s not embarrassing enough.”

"Well," Ji Hanchuan nodded slowly, and added, "You're not stupid, it's all my fault."

Ji Hanchuan felt that his heart was being hit by a heavy blunt instrument, and the pain was very solid, but it was surprisingly reassuring for him. He knew that it was tamped all of a sudden, and he sank his heart heavily, and he would do it again later. It won't be erratic anymore.

"I never blamed myself, and I don't blame you, I can't blame, I feel bad," Gu Hengbei lifted Ji Hanchuan's chin, and touched his forehead with him, it was a bit heavy, and the two of them couldn't bear it They touched their foreheads, and then they all laughed. Gu Hengbei said softly, "I knew from the first day I knew you that you have a monstrous face that harms the country and the people, but you are actually a limp, poor boy."

Ji Hanchuan pursed his lips, and wisely swallowed his dissatisfaction with the evaluation of "limp, poor boy".

"You said that I am close to you, far and near, I admit it, but that is not punishing you, I want you to know that nothing in this world is certain and will wait for you forever, including me. You What you want, you have to take it and grab it by yourself, you have been like this since before, you take whatever I give you, and if I don't give it to you, you won't come to ask for it..."

Gu Hengbei thought of one thing and became happy: "I had speculated before that if your personality fell into the hands of a strong woman like Ivanka, you would be bullied to death. Sometimes I hate you so much that I gnash my teeth. Just thinking about it makes me feel comfortable..."

Ji Hanchuan's gills puffed up like fish bubbles, his eyes were piercingly clear in the bright light of the living room, the white was extremely white, and the black was extremely black: "I will not be bullied by anyone except you. .”

Gu Hengbei looked up at the ceiling for a while, and then laughed: "Me too."

I will not be bullied by anyone except you.

They got together again and kissed densely, lingering and warm, kissing each other's lips like sweet fudge, Gu Hengbei's fingertips massaged Ji Hanchuan's hair roots, full of tenderness Intimacy and pampering.

Ji Hanchuan suddenly raised one eye, silently looking at Gu Hengbei, his eyeballs were dark, he was about to speak.

"What do you want to say?" Gu Hengbei stroked Ji Hanchuan's fingers along the back of his head to the back of his ears, drew a circle on the semicircular auricle with his delicate and soft fingertips, and then pinched his earlobe, "Don't keep talking, just say what you have, even if I'm unhappy, I'll fight to the death!"

These words were like a golden medal, Ji Hanchuan's eyes lit up: "Can you say anything?"

"I can say anything."

Ji Hanchuan's eyelashes drooped, and he didn't even type a punctuation mark: "I just want to know how much you like Cheng Mu. Do you like him more or me more!"

Gu Hengbei had a slapped expression on his face: "You fucking held back for a long time to ask this? Don't you know who I like more?"

This answer was too heart-wrenching, Ji Hanchuan turned sideways, and Gu Hengbei could see from the side that the corners of his eyes turned red again, as if stained with rouge.

In fact, Gu Hengbei knew what Ji Hanchuan really wanted to ask, if it wasn't for the fact that the manufacturers had both passed away, Gu Hengbei really wanted to return the goods.

He raised his long leg and kicked Ji Hanchuan on the shoulder blades with his back facing him, and said with hatred: "Even if I slept with Cheng Mu, you asked for it yourself! Ji Hanchuan, I found that you are young and your thoughts are so rotten, you If you want to find a woman, do you have to test Luohong..."

Ji Hanchuan was like a cheetah that had finally recovered from a serious injury. He nimbly and swiftly rushed over, grabbing Gu Hengbei's lips like a prey.

Gu Hengbei acted impatiently: "Go down, I'm bothering you!"

"Don't bother..." Ji Hanchuan's soft lips rolled across Gu Hengbei's face, acting coquettishly and shamelessly.

"Don't make me angry," Gu Hengbei threatened, "If you want to mess with me again, I don't care whether you are physically healthy or mentally disabled, do you know that I have had an idea for a long time?"

Ji Hanchuan propped his hands on the carpet, hanging vaguely on Gu Hengbei's upper body: "What do you think?"

Gu Hengbei chuckled, and suddenly pulled Ji Hanchuan's neck down, and whispered into his ear: "I've been thinking that I fired you earlier, and if you were obedient, you wouldn't dare to dump me casually." Already!"

Ji Hanchuan was startled suddenly.

Gu Hengbei saw that the boy's eyes seemed to be splashed into a box full of ink, and the pupils were so dark that they reflected his eyes, as if they wanted to suck him in.

Then those eyes slowly bent, and a deep bright color overflowed from the bottom of his eye sockets. If you must use metaphors to describe this process, Gu Hengbei felt that Ji Hanchuan seemed to be... enlightened at this moment?Attunement?enlightened?

"Gu Hengbei," the smile in Ji Hanchuan's voice melted like water, "It was you who said that you should grab what you want by yourself."

Gu Hengbei: "?"

Gu Hengbei: "??"

Gu Hengbei: "???"

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