Self-cultivation of spare tire

The box door was pushed open heavily - a drunken figure rushed over.

Chen Zhu recognized the handsome man who leaned on Xu Lanting's shoulder just now.

The man had a delicate and beautiful face, his eyes were stained with alcohol, and he looked very clean and well-behaved.

Chen Zhu sighed softly, Xu Lanting's taste was really the same as before, and to a certain extent, it was considered specific.

"Drink, what's the matter with you guys, keep going!" The handsome man dangled and tugged at Xu Lanting's arm, and with the most well-behaved face, said the most rude words, "Fuck, I finally came out to let the wind go, Lao Tzu Don't drink to death you few chickens!"

Xu Lanting grabbed the person who was about to bump into him with one hand, "Zhixia, you are drunk, my brother called a car for you, you can go back by yourself later."

Zhixia...so intimate that even others would think that they should be a natural couple.Chen Zhu looked coldly at Xu Lanting, who was half-embracing him, and sent the beautiful man to the car.

"Okay." Xu Lanting sent people away, let out a breath, and said to Chen Zhu, "It's our turn."

He went to the high bar stool and sat down, stepped on the stool beside him with his long legs, kicked the stool in front of Chen Zhu, and then took a bite of a cigarette, "Sit down and talk about it, why am I such a scumbag, um ?”

Chen Zhu ignored the teasing in the man's eyes, put his schoolbag on his back, and prepared to leave.

The thing couldn't be more obvious, Xu Lanting already has a new love, he will never be cheap enough to be a third child.

Seeing that someone was about to leave, Xu Lanting paused for a moment on the lighter's hand, then got up and held Chen Zhu's wrist.

"Chen Zhu." The man finally showed a serious look, "Let's chat."

Talking again, Chen Zhu thought, it's time to have a good chat.After all, only by making it clear can we "get together and get together well".

Chen Zhu followed Xu Lanting to an unoccupied box. As soon as he sat down, Xu Lanting leaned over and sat on Chen Zhu's lap.

The man had well-proportioned bones and a tall stature. Although he was sitting on Chen Zhu's lap, he seemed to be imprisoning the person in his arms, leaving him nowhere to escape.

Xu Lanting was born tall, Chen Zhu had to raise his head to see the man's downcast and deep eyes.

"Xu Lanting." Chen Zhu endured it, so he didn't speak foul words.He raised his hand and pushed the person on his lap, "Is this your attitude in chatting?"

During the pushing and shoving, the man's skirt was wrinkled and slightly opened, revealing his straight and long collarbone.

Xu Lanting opened his neckline, looking disheveled and dispirited, and approached lazily, but he was too strong to allow Chen Zhu to refuse: "Azhu, do you believe what scumbags say?"

Chen Zhu couldn't push people away, and he didn't want to see Xu Lanting's ostentatious eyes.He simply closed his eyes, and said in a deep voice, "Xu Lanting, let's break up."

"Scatter, how come?" Xu Lanting put his arms around Chen Zhu's neck, and whispered in his ear, "Chen Zhu, you can't let go." He had already seen through the young man's hidden affection, and pointed out Chen Zhu's deathbed.

Xu Lanting pinched the back of Chen Zhu's neck, rubbed it slowly, and said honestly and kindly: "You will be very sad, you will not be able to sleep, you will think of me day and night—maybe, you will hide in your small bathroom Cry every day." He asked in a low voice, "Chen Zhu, do you want to do this?"

"It was agreed at the beginning, we will leave when we have played enough. But now, isn't it time to leave?" He leaned over, kissed Chen Zhu's cheek, and coaxed, "Ah Zhu, this is not how games are played, understand Is it?"

The box was very spacious, but Chen Zhu felt almost suffocated.He closed his eyes, struggling to breathe.

He felt Xu Lanting's lips moving slowly, from his cheeks all the way to the tips of his ears, Chen Zhu had the illusion of being surrounded by poisonous snakes.Trapped in Xu Lanting's arms, he could only close his eyes tightly and let him kiss wantonly.

But the shallow kiss can never be deep.Just like their absurd feelings, they can only stop at superficial desires in the end, easily stranded in the cruel truth.

Xu Lanting pecked and kissed the young man's soft lips, tentatively, and bit the corner of Chen Zhu's mouth.

But the person in front of him is like a stubborn stone that has lost his feelings, motionless, without any response.

Xu Lanting tossed and turned, but was still unable to impress Chen Zhu.

The man gradually lost his patience, and pinched Chen Zhu's chin, forcing him to raise his head, "Be good, open your mouth."

Chen Zhu opened his eyes, staring quietly at Xu Lanting's thin lips for a while.

He suddenly recalled his grandfather's words—"Azhu, although we can't judge people by their looks, we should avoid those who are ruthless."

At first, he only thought that no matter how good his grandfather was at poetry and books, he would inevitably be imprisoned by old-school thinking.But now, Chen Zhu had no choice but to believe it.

Xu Lanting's heart is too shallow, too thin, so shallow that no one can hold it, and it is so thin that it will disappear like a bubble when touched lightly.

"Xu Lanting." Chen Zhu's voice was hoarse. He looked up at the person in his life who he couldn't let go of, but said, "Let me go."

He just wants to live a little bit of color in his ordinary life, he just wants to taste the sweetness of candy a little bit, he just, like countless young people who are looking forward to love, is looking forward to someone coming through the wind and rain, Only for him.

However, Chen Zhu met Xu Lanting.

The color of desire/thought is too dazzling and strong, the candy is too sweet and turned into poison/drug, the sincerity of the young man is trampled on the soles of his feet, no one rushes to him, he can only wait foolishly under the eaves, and suffer alone The wind and rain that shouldn't have been endured.

Xu Lanting's movements paused, and the usually eloquent man was unexpectedly silent.

Maybe Chen Zhu was too pitiful, or maybe Xu Lanting suddenly developed a little conscience.

He let go of the hand that was pinching Chen Zhu's chin, and brushed Chen Zhu's cheek with his palm.

Chen Zhu heard a long sigh, and Xu Lanting's helpless but bastard words: "Chen Zhu, if you want to blame, blame you for being too likable." He said, "Sorry, I can't let you go for the time being."

Chen Zhu laughed back in anger, he tried his best to restrain himself, and tried not to be too embarrassed, "Xu Lanting, why do you think that I will be so cheap as to be your underground lover? Yes, I can't let you go, but so what? As long as I live, I'll always meet new people and fall in love with other—"

Before he could finish speaking, Chen Zhu felt a pain on his lips——Xu Lanting bit down on Chen Zhu's lips fiercely, tearing at Chen Zhu's lips almost cruelly.

The man vented his anger in the rudest way.He had shed his daytime disguise, just like his savage figure under an expensive suit—it was just a wolf in sheep's clothing, whose tail was stepped on, and he was about to bite someone back.

Chen Zhu saw Xu Lanting's true face clearly in the pain, and pushed harder to resist the kiss he didn't like.

He tried his best to turn his head, and got a breath of fresh air under Xu Lanting's strong restraint.

Chen Zhu took a deep breath, and Xu Lanting raised his finger to wipe away the blood at the corner of his mouth.

"Chen Zhu, why did we make such a fuss." Xu Lanting slowly pressed Chen Zhu's lips, his anger still lingering, "Let it be, isn't it good?"

Chen Zhu sneered, raised his hand, and tapped on the man's chest, directly on Xu Lanting's heart, "Xu Lanting, you pretend to be only yourself here, but you want me to never forget you for the rest of your life? You don't deserve it."

"A lifetime is too long, Ah Zhu—" Xu Lanting leaned over and hugged Chen Zhu, "I only want your day and night."

Xu Lanting leaned on Chen Zhu's shoulder, Chen Zhu couldn't see the man's expression clearly, only heard Xu Lanting's usual lazy tone.

"All misunderstandings, grievances, and anger, I have a way to make them disappear." He said, "But, Chen Zhu, you have to stay with me for a while longer."

Xu Lanting rubbed against Chen Zhu's shoulder, as if he wasn't the one pressing on every step of the way just now.

"You know, I won't love anyone—that man just now was my childhood friend, but a long-lost friend." Xu Lanting hugged the young man's thin waist and said slowly, "Although I don't know how to love you, But I can’t love others either. It’s not that I don’t want to, it’s just that I’m born that way.”

Chen Zhu was stunned. He had talked with Xu Lanting countless times at night on the bedside, heard his coaxing, his sweet talk, and the past that he accidentally mentioned.

But he never really heard Xu Lanting's sincerity.

But at this moment, Xu Lanting confessed his sincerity with a nonchalant attitude.

"Chen Zhu, have you ever heard of a kind of footless bird? They never land until the end of their lives, and they don't know where their end is." Xu Lanting said.

Chen Zhu: "So, you are a footless bird that never lands."

The man shook his head and said with a smile: "Do you know why my vx name is Landing?"

Chen Zhu didn't know - because he didn't have any social accounts of Xu Lanting.

Xu Lanting: "It's not that I don't want to land, but I can't." He said, "Chen Zhu, only with you can I take a short rest. Azhu, let me stay with you for a while, just for a while, Is it ok?"

Chen Zhu didn't speak, he could calmly deal with Xu Lanting's coercion and temptation, but he didn't know how to deal with the weakness of the always strong person.

He had to admit that Xu Lanting's methods were extremely superb, he firmly pinched Chen Zhu's lifeline, and refused to let him go at all.

The dark box, the humid air, the suffocating atmosphere.

Chen Zhu wanted to end all this, but couldn't do it.

"Why." Chen Zhu sank into Xu Lanting's arms, he could even hear Xu Lanting's strong heartbeat, but he knew that that place was a place he would never be able to touch.

He doesn't understand.Maybe Xu Lanting was too complicated, or maybe Chen Zhu was too stupid.

In Chen Zhu's world, there is always a clear distinction between love and hate, black and white.But Xu Lanting drew a long gray area in his world.

The boundaries of morality are gradually blurred, sincerity can be ignored, love and perfunctory are mixed, and everything becomes ambiguous.

"I like you, Chen Zhu." Xu Lanting kissed Chen Zhu's forehead, "Stay with me a little longer, and I will let you go."

If Chen Zhu didn't come to answer, there would only be a man's bewitching and affectionate eyes in front of him.

He subconsciously closed his eyes, not daring to look, nor did he want to look.

After a long, long time, Chen Zhu opened his eyes and looked at Xu Lanting in despair, "So, you just refuse to let me go."

Xu Lanting sighed: "Chen Zhu, why do you think so much. I won't tie you down forever." Ironically, it was always someone else who kept him. Now that the feng shui turns, it can be regarded as retribution.

Chen Zhu didn't speak, and responded to the man with silence.

But he knew that he had no other choice.

Xu Lanting didn't play enough, so he could only play with him to the end.

After Xu Lanting's kiss fell, he stroked the boy's soft hair and gently pried open his pursed lips.

Chen Zhu stared at Xu Lanting's long eyelashes for a while, and finally closed his eyes.

He is already in the game, unable to escape, unable to let go, unable to forget.

That being the case, then simply throw yourself into the abyss, let the fire burn his last love for this man, exhaust all his remaining expectations for Xu Lanting.

The only way to regain life is to put it to death.

Xu Lanting, I will play with you.

Chen Zhu clearly heard the sound of cracking and collapsing somewhere deep in his soul.

He is like a moth, with a broken heart in his heart, he flies to his destiny in despair.