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Yi Shi has been sensible, independent and smart since he was a child. Life, studies, violin... It seems that he doesn't need others to worry about anything, and he can always do what he thinks he should do well.When he was younger, he also cried to find his mother. When he grew up a little bit, he understood and accepted everything. Even when his parents remarried, he could calmly wear a dress to attend the wedding.Yi Qian completed his undergraduate studies and went to graduate school. During this period, he started a business with his friends. He was very busy and seldom went home.It was also suddenly one day that I discovered that the silent and precocious child had quietly grown up in a place where no one was watching. Not only did he grow taller, but he also changed from being taken care of by his grandmother to taking care of his grandmother who was in poor health.

It's not that Yi Qian didn't feel bad for Yi Shi, and he also thought that when his career and life stabilized, so that he could have time and energy to accompany and take care of the child better, he should compensate him more for his mother or as his uncle.

But after several years of tossing, career, love, marriage, and childbirth, adults always seem to have insufficient time.With the support of Yi Shi's grandmother, Yi Qian finally decided to seize the opportunity to return to China for development.When he has time after returning to China, he will still take his wife and daughter abroad to visit them, but the frequency is only a few times a year.In these few meetings, Yi Shi's naked eyes can see that he has quickly grown from a sensible and independent child to a tall and stable boy.

He doesn't need anyone anymore.

Maybe he has always been touched and brooding about this silent and lonely child. When his daughter grows up a bit, Yi Qian will take time to accompany her no matter how busy he is, even pampering her a bit.Mrs. Yi once criticized him very directly, telling him not to make up for Yi Shi's guilt on Yi Xiaoqiao. This would not make up for Yi Shi, and would not be conducive to Yi Xiaoqiao's growth.

Because she is a journalist by profession, Mrs. Yi has always been sharp and sharp.

At that time Yi Qian denied it with a smile, but he knew in his heart that it was true.

He thought that if he or Yi Rou had given Yi Shi more care and love at that time, Yi Shi might not have grown so fast.

Growing up fast is not a bad thing, and different children naturally grow at different speeds.It's just that Yi Shi seems to be too fast, his childhood is fleeting, and even Yi Qian can't remember whether Yi Shi had a so-called childhood.

Yi Qian felt that he was a bit hypocritical, and did not support Yi Shi when he needed it. When he entered middle age, his life was completely stable and stable, and when he looked back at Yi Shi, he felt regretful and always wanted to make up for it wishful thinking.

Yi Shi looked at He Zhao and twitched his mouth: "Not everyone can be like him."

Yi Qian's eyes fell on He Zhao and Yi Xiaoqiao, and he smiled lightly: "I didn't expect the two of them to play together."

Yi Shi: "The mind is about the same."

He Zhao looked up immediately: "Do you think I can't hear you?"

Yi Xiaoqiao followed suit, and echoed, "That's right! Brother Xiao Zhao and I just pretended not to hear. Brother Xiao Zhao told me to listen to how you praise him."

Yi Shi: "Childish."

Yi Xiaoqiao thought that Yi Shi was talking about her, so she wasn't angry, and said with a smile, "I was originally a child."

He Zhao deliberately continued, "That's right, how can you say that the children are immature, who are you?"

Yi Shi: "..."

Leaving Yi Qian's house at eight o'clock sharp, Yi Xiaoqiao reluctantly told He Zhao many times to come and play frequently, and He Zhao patted her head and smiled in agreement.

As soon as he got in the car, He Zhao immediately changed his face, and put on the posture of asking a teacher: "You are finished, I have heard all the bad things you said about me."

"What did I say?" Yi Shi asked.

"Did you not know what you said?" He Zhao said.

Yi Shi: "You mean you are childish?"

"What is childish, your sister is not childish, children are mature now, ask me if I have a girlfriend, and what kind of girl I like. I asked her if there is a boy she likes, she said not yet, because they The boys in the class and even the grade are too ugly, and they asked me if there are many handsome guys in No. [-] Middle School, and she will also be admitted to No. [-] Middle School in the future." He Zhao was a little thirsty, so he picked up the mineral water on the center armrest of the back seat and unscrewed it to drink Take a sip.

Yi Shi: "What kind of girl do you like?"

"It's pretty." He Zhao said casually, "I'm also color-controlled."

Yi Shi glanced at him slowly for several seconds, then suddenly asked, "Have you been drinking?"

He Zhao: "I just drank a little fruit wine, the alcohol content is so low that it can be ignored, you can see that?"

In the middle of the chess game, Yi Xiaoqiao was afraid that He Zhao would be thirsty, so he ran to get him a bottle of drink. The can was full of incomprehensible words, which were Italian by visual inspection.He Zhao couldn't see why, he took a sip and found out that it was fruit wine, but the number was very low, and it was sweet and delicious.

"It smells." Yi Shi said.

He Zhao opened the front of his T-shirt and sniffed it, but there was no smell of alcohol at all: "Are you a dog?"

Interrupted by Yi Shi, He Zhao forgot that he was asking the teacher for the crime. Instead, he remembered the chat with Yi Xiaoqiao, and sighed: "What's the matter with your family? I asked Xiao Qiao what class she likes the most, and she said Olympiad." class, and said that your uncle used to major in mathematics."

Yi Shi: "He majored in mathematics as an undergraduate."

He Zhao: "It's really inherited. It stands to reason that my dad's grades were also very good when he was studying, especially science grades. Why didn't I inherit it? How about you, are your parents' grades good?"

Yi Shi: "My parents graduated from Stanford."

"Lying grass?" He Zhao opened his eyes in disbelief, staring at Yi Shi, trying to tell if he was joking from his face, but found that he was not joking, "So you are not a rich second generation, but a school bully second generation." generation?"

"Well, keep it secret." Yi Shi said.

He Zhao was still in shock at first, but he was a little more amused to hear him say this slowly: "I'm not a sledgehammer, but you guys are really awesome. Uncle Yi Qian is also a famous school bully, right?"

Yi Shi nodded, and casually reported the name of a well-known school.

He Zhao clicked his tongue: "It's the first time I've really seen a real top student from a top ten university in the world, why didn't you say earlier that I should shake hands with him to get some wisdom, or let him go straight from the university?" Wisdom is poured into my spirit cover."

Yi Shi snorted dismissively.

He Zhao imitated him and snorted. Of course, the top student would not understand the scumbag's academic difficulties. More than once, he imagined that he would be injected with skills by a master like in a martial arts novel. From then on, he would get through the two lines of Ren and Du to dominate the campus and reach the pinnacle of life.

"Speaking of which, Uncle Yi Qian is the domineering president in a living TV series. Do you know what the necessary skills are for a domineering president?" He Zhao asked.

Yi Shi: "I don't know."

"Not just a domineering face, but also a doting smile and a helpless tone, just like what Uncle Yi Qian did to his daughter, he wanted to be indifferent to the outside and gentle to the inside, a kind of contrast that hit people's hearts." Lin Peiling likes it When watching idol dramas, He Zhao often followed her to watch them, and his analysis was clear and logical.

Yi Shi: "Are you still studying this?"

"Just do some research," He Zhao asked, "What about you, nephew of the domineering president, what school are you planning to go to? Let me learn a lot by telling you, and I won't be surprised by what you say now."

Yi Shi: "It's not confirmed yet. I used to get into the high school with the gold medal in the violin competition. I originally wanted to go to the university of music, but now I have no chance."

The tone is very flat, a very easy tone.

However, He Zhao was keenly aware of a little difference. When he talked about the violin in the afternoon, Yi Shi was also very calm, but it was a kind of calmness of silently accepting the result, but now he seemed to be more relaxed and revealing an indistinct calmness.

It was as if something had been confirmed, something that had been floating had been dusted.

He Zhao was a little surprised.

In fact, he heard Yi Xiaoqiao talk about something tonight.

Yi Xiaoqiao said that she likes Mathematics Olympiad class the most, and hates violin class the most. He Zhao asked casually why you brothers and sisters all play the violin, is it a compulsory course for the family?

Yi Xiaoqiao hissed softly: "You don't want to play the violin with my brother, he will be very sad. My brother used to be very good at the violin and won many awards, but last year he had a car accident on the way to participate in the violin competition and injured his hand. Dad and the others hired a lot of doctors to treat him, but it was useless. After my mother-in-law passed away this year, I secretly heard my father and mother saying that my brother’s high school should not be able to go on. It happened that my aunt also wanted to apply for a job transfer and return to China. If my brother is willing, let him My brother went back to the country with us first, so it was convenient to take care of him. Later, my brother still didn’t go with us, but suddenly he came back by himself. My mother told me not to disturb my brother, not to play the violin, and not to mention my mother-in-law, because my brother would be secretly sad in his heart. Let’s see Not coming out, but that doesn't mean he's not sad."

At that moment, He Zhao seemed to be stabbed by something in his heart. There was a dense pain and a little soreness. He held the chess piece and resisted the urge to look up at Yi Shi.

Was it last year?When he listened to Yi Shi talking about the car accident in the afternoon, he thought that it had passed for a long time just like his childhood.

It all happened this year.

How did this year's change of time come about?His hand was injured and he couldn't continue to play the violin. His dependent grandmother passed away, and he came to a completely strange environment alone.

As if there was no time left to breathe, all the shelters were shattered one by one.

Yi Shi said that he wanted to visit this city.

What are you looking at?

Maybe I also want to change to a strange place where no one knows to relax.

He Zhao seemed to see Yi Shi standing in front of the tombstone with the broken violin on his back, saying goodbye silently, and crossing the Pacific Ocean to the other side alone, with a lonely and stubborn figure.

On the evening of the day we met, Yi Shi stood silently in front of the dilapidated house and looked at it seriously, as if he wanted to keep that house in his mind. What was he thinking at that time?

Yi Shi said that he was like an outsider in both families. He grew up with his grandmother, who should be his closest and most important person.

He Zhao touched death because a Pomeranian he raised when he was a child died of an illness. He was a little dazed but didn't cry.A few days later, I passed by a pet shop on the way from school, and saw a Pomeranian through the glass, which was actually not the same as the one he raised, but seemed to be hit for a moment, and suddenly realized that it was impossible to see his little friend again , to die is to lose forever.He was suddenly so sad that he couldn't restrain himself, squatting at the door of the shop and crying bitterly.

After a while, He Zhao was very afraid that Lin Peiling would leave him forever. In fact, he had no idea about heart disease before. Only then did he realize the fragility and preciousness of life.

Life and death separate people, and there is really no way out.

He Zhao didn't dare to imagine what it would be like to lose the most important person. No one should go anywhere when he returned home, and he felt like wandering in the world.

Maybe that kind of powerless and painful emotion will not appear all the time, but it will be constantly triggered by some small things.

He Zhao felt very sad, sad when it was difficult.

Yi Shi is only about the same age as him, but he has experienced too much heat and cold.He Zhao does not agree with the saying that suffering can sharpen people. Suffering is suffering, and what it brings is pain. Strong and brave people are strong and brave, so they can survive layers of pain and loneliness.

But Yi Shi's calm tone at this moment was like a silver needle, piercing a small hole in the sad balloon that He Zhao had suppressed in his heart, as if all emotions were released slowly and steadily.

He Zhao squeezed the mineral water bottle and said, "I never thought about it, I always take one step at a time, and hold on to my feet and struggle to my death."

"I usually think ahead and follow the plan step by step," said Yi Shi.

"Wow, you are a very scheming old fox." He Zhao said.

"It's useless to make a plan. My luck has always been bad. However, encountering an accident doesn't seem so bad." Yi Shi said these words quickly and softly, which sounded natural and indifferent. An unusual temperature.

He Zhao turned his head to look at Yi Shi, but Yi Shi didn't look at him, he leaned back on his seat and looked straight ahead. Still sharp and indifferent, but under the outline of the mottled night shadows, it appears somewhat soft.