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Maybe it was because of excessive exercise, He Zhao didn't sleep well that night.

My body was exhausted, my legs were sore, and I was half asleep and half awake and had a lot of messy dreams.

Woke up in the middle of the night for no reason.

He Zhao has always slept well, rarely like this, and basically sleeps until dawn.

It was raining outside the window, and the raindrops fell on the window sill, subtle and crisp, like a lullaby, which made people feel soft and peaceful.

I didn't draw the curtains before going to bed, and the shattered light came in, giving the room a dark, hazy light.

He Zhao lay still, and after a while, he didn't feel sleepy, but his thoughts became clearer.

In such a quiet and deep night, it seems that all emotions can be magnified, and it seems that it can contain everything, and all the thoughts that are just around the corner during the day and have not had time to think about it all come to the surface.

After an unknown amount of time, he moved his legs and took a deep breath. It was so sour, his legs were filled with lactic acid.

There is no connection at all, he suddenly remembered Yi Shi, he took off his shirt in this room that day...

It should be damp and cool outside, but the room is very warm, especially under the quilt, He Zhao felt a wave of heat spread up.

Boys this age are used to how their bodies respond.

But this time is different.

I feel a little flustered.

And a little ambiguous.

He actually noticed it early on.

How could it not be noticed?

It's just that I dare not think carefully, dare not delve into it, dare not touch it, and every time I subconsciously suppress those crazy little thoughts in my heart.

When I hear his name, my heart will always be moved. When I hear others praise him, I can’t help curling the corners of my mouth to feel proud. When I see his name by chance, I will look more often. When others mention emotional topics, I will think of him. Only think of him.

Even if he stood quietly by the side, he was the most special one in the crowd, and he could be found at a glance.

He likes him.

He likes Yi Shi.

It was already obvious.

The little thoughts that always want to talk to him when you are bored, the micro-currents that come from inadvertently touching the warm skin, the throbbing heartbeat under the romantic starry sky, the lost thoughts when you can't see him, the jerky and transparent admiration, the care in the name of , and those hazy expectations and jealousy...

I can't think of what I like about Yi Shi, but I think he is very good in everything, very good.

He studied hard because he really wanted to be admitted to a good university, but it wasn't just that. He Wenyan would at best speak sarcastically if he failed to get into a good university... and because Yi Shi was too good.

It turns out that the first reaction to liking someone is a little inferior.

A child who grows up with love and tolerance has enough self-esteem and confidence, and has never shown any timidity that cannot be exposed.He Zhao has a sensitive and delicate mind, but he has hardly developed any inferiority complex since he grew up.When he was learning piano when he was young, He Zhao knew that some people are very talented in some aspects, but no matter how hard he tried, he couldn't catch up.It was a bit embarrassing, but that was all. I naturally accepted my own imperfection.

I can't say why I feel inferior. It can't be said that I'm afraid that I'm not good enough, and I can't say that I'm afraid that Yi Shi thinks he's not good enough. I just want to work harder to make myself better and shorten the distance between him and Yi Shi.

How could he fall in love with such an outstanding genius?

He Zhao sometimes feels that Yi Shi is very close, probably except for his family and his closest people, and sometimes feels that Yi Shi is far away from him, as if he is not from the same world as him.

Yi Shi was really nice to him, but how did he think of him?

classmate?

good friend?

Or like a younger brother as the fat man said?

Yi Shi seems to have a younger brother... that's why he tolerates him so much?

What does Ke Yi have a younger brother to do with him?

But with such a thought, He Zhao felt aggrieved and annoyed.

At this age when you can’t say love out loud, if you fall in love with someone who can’t say it out loud, should you keep hiding it or be brave?

If you say it, you can't go back?

But why are you willing to just be friends with him?

What was Yi Shi thinking?

Yi Shi should have thought nothing of it.

He Zhao didn't know when he fell asleep. When he got up and brushed his teeth, he vaguely remembered what was on his mind in the middle of the night, his heart beat suddenly, and he woke up.

He touched his heart in a daze, which seemed to be beating faster. It turned out that liking someone was such a feeling, a heart hanging in the air, but thinking of him was full of soreness and joy.

This is the first time he likes someone.

You can pretend to be deaf and dumb if you are not sure of your own mind, but how do you properly clean up your emotions at this point?

He Zhao understands himself, he is impulsive and patient, and he is always prone to impulsiveness when he is frizzy and impatient.

Now is a very impulsive period, the clattering heartbeat and love in the eyes slipped out completely uncontrollably.

that's terrible.

It's really too bad to be in a state where I can't help but want to vent everything.

Maybe it would be a relief to speak out my restless and restless thoughts heartily, and there will be results no matter what.He Zhao's character is inherently frank and self-willed, and he can cry and laugh casually. At most, he can hide and cry so that no one can see him, but he won't hold it back all the time.

Besides, he is very astute, and he has always been tolerant when he realizes that Yi Shi has always been tolerant.

Even if Yi Shi didn't understand his feelings, he would forgive him.

But once he said it out, it seemed that handing over the decision-making power to Yi Shi was equivalent to throwing all his troubles to Yi Shi.

Throw it to that silent and lonely Yi Shi.

He is not willing to just be friends with Yi Shi, and even less willing to push Yi Shi away, which makes him embarrassed.

Yi Shi shouldn't have to suffer the growing pains of adolescence when he was 17 years old.

He Zhao thought to himself, let himself be entangled and troubled, he deserved it.

When having lunch, He Zhao was immersed in his own thoughts, had no appetite, and casually ate a few grains of rice.

Lin Peiling said, "Baby, Mom has something to tell you. Mom and your uncle are going to live with your grandparents for a few days. You will be with Xiaoyang for a few days..."

He Zhao didn't even think about it: "I want to go too."

He's hot right now and needs to calm down.

Lin Peiling was stunned for a moment: "Ah? But you have to go to class, high school is busy, this..."

He Zhao knew where Lin Peiling's weakness was, lowered his head and whispered, "I miss my grandpa and grandma, I haven't seen them for a long time."

Lin Peiling glanced at Zhang Peng hesitantly. Neither Lin Peiling nor Zhang Peng cared much about her grades, but every time Lin Peiling called her teacher to ask for leave, the teacher would brainwash her into thinking that she was busy with high school and should put her studies first. Putting it behind the study, if there is no important thing to ask for leave, I will not ask for leave, and if I miss a day of class, I will not be able to make up for it... Lin Peiling's ears are soft, and she subconsciously feels that asking for leave is not good, and students should go to school.

After He Zhao finished the sentence just now, he stopped talking and quietly picked up vegetables for dinner.

Soon, Zhang Peng said: "Xiao Zhao, let's go with us, Xiao Zhao is so smart and has a good heart, so it's not a problem to go for three or two days."

"Tell the teacher that Xiao Zhao is sick again?" Lin Peiling couldn't help laughing, "Is He Zhao too weak? Does the teacher believe it?"

Teachers in high school are very strict and don't give leave easily.Tell the truth that I am afraid that I will catch the parents to do ideological work. If they encounter such a violent temper as the grade leader, even the parents will be scolded.

He Zhao still picks up the rice and doesn’t eat it, just like playing, he said sincerely: "This is the last time, I will definitely take care of my health, study hard, and improve every day. I really miss my grandparents so much. Last time I saw My aunt’s circle of friends misses them.”

Lin Peiling had always spoiled He Zhao, so she didn't want to see him lose, so she said immediately, "After lunch, I'll call your Teacher Zhou to try it out, and say you didn't eat properly and you got food poisoning, what's the matter?"

Zhang Peng: "Yes, yes, eat first, eat first."

Zhang Jiangyang shook his head secretly, these parents are so unprincipled.This kid is capricious enough, and he can handle people.

"Then Xiaoyang..." Lin Peiling looked at the remaining Zhang Jiangyang.

"It's okay, just let him stay at home by himself." Zhang Peng said, "What else can he do, he won't starve to death at this age."

Zhang Jiangyang has long been used to his father's completely different attitude towards him and his brother. He has no mother since he was a child, and his father is not at home all year round.Sometimes He Zhao is like an older brother, sometimes he is more delicate than a girl, not to mention Zhang Penglin Peiling, he always has to look at his face, he is the tyrant of the family.

But we are all a family, just be happy and harmonious, and nothing else matters.

Lin Peiling kicked Zhang Peng under the table and said angrily, "How do you talk?"

Zhang Jiangyang didn't have too many twists and turns, and said bluntly: "You guys go, don't worry about me, high school has a heavy workload, I have to go to school every day."

He Zhao's eyes widened, he couldn't believe what nonsense he heard.

Zhang Jiangyang was not annoyed when he saw his expression of hell: "Brother, didn't you let me think about what to do in the future? I have thought about it, and I plan to enter the police academy."

Now not only He Zhao was surprised, Zhang Peng and Lin Peiling were also surprised, but their surprise was different from He Zhao.

He Zhao: "Do you want to be a policeman?"

Lin Peiling: "Hey, Xiao Zhao made you think about what to do in the future? When?"

Zhang Peng: "You really listen to your brother, Xiao Zhao's words are more useful than my father's [-] sentences."

Zhang Jiangyang ate without any fear, and answered the doubts of three people in a row: "Yes, I want to be a policeman, but my grades are too bad. My brother asked me to think about it. After that, I listened to my brother because he spoke wisely." Reasonable, I shouldn't continue to muddle along."

At that time, it was because Zhang Jiangyang's grades were really bad and he wanted him to improve his score. He didn't expect him to think so far. He Zhao, who was still in a daze and didn't know what the future was, blinked and said: "Come on! .”

In the evening, He Zhao bumped all the way to the countryside where his grandparents lived in Zhang Peng's broken car.

Every time He Zhao came and went to his grandparents' house, the weather was always sunny. In his memory, his grandparents' house was always bright.

He walked along the path by the river to his grandparents' yard, and the setting sun was setting in front of him, making the whole sky red.

He raised his phone and took several photos, wanting to share them with Yi Shi, but held back.

Grandparents are very open-minded and open-minded people. They knew that Lin Peiling was unhappy with her pregnancy for a long time, but when they met her and saw her slightly protruding belly, they immediately forgave her waywardness.

He Zhao has been taking pictures non-stop since he arrived here, taking pictures of the scenery, the children next door, the big yellow dog in the yard, the dishes made by his grandpa, the flowers planted by his grandma... the phone ran out of battery soon, I forgot With a mobile phone charger, his mobile phone and other people's mobile phone chargers did not match, so he simply stuffed the mobile phone in his backpack and ignored it.

Every time he comes to his grandparents, he can be a complete child.

Just play fun, just act like a baby, don't think about anything.

He likes this feeling.

He Zhao stayed here for three nights, and every night his grandfather said to him, "I don't care if you sleep in, you can sleep as long as you want, no one cares about you", but he knocked on the door at seven o'clock in the morning to wake him up for breakfast. Let him eat breakfast before going to bed.

Lin Peiling liked this village very much. She walked around the village several times a day with nothing to do, and Zhang Peng always accompanied her.

He Zhao's legs were still sore, and he lay in the yard for a whole day, watching his grandpa perform Tai Chi for him like a rainbow, and watching his grandmother happily choose wool and knit sweaters for the child in Lin Peiling's belly.The two can't be free at all, they have to do a lot of things in a day, and they always have to be together.Even if what you do is not related, you have to stay in one place.

As for He Zhao, if you want to read, you can read, if you want to be in a daze, you can be in a daze, and if you want to roll, you can roll.No one cared about him except that the big yellow dog was sticking to him, but the big yellow dog was also lazy. He Zhao stepped lightly on his back, and it let him step on it, neither running nor hiding.

The next day he couldn't lie down anymore, and he did a lot of things. After breakfast, he went back to sleep, got up to learn how to step on the sewing machine, watched his grandfather grind ink and write calligraphy, went to the field with his grandmother to pick the vegetables he wanted to eat, and walked around with Lin Peiling. Take a walk around the neighborhood.He walked around, watching people herding cattle, watching people catch fish with large nets, and after watching for a few minutes, he went to other people's houses to move a small bench and sit at the door drinking tea and chatting.In fact, there is nothing to talk about. It is nothing more than scolding someone's dog for barking in the middle of the night, and someone's son getting into college and marrying a beautiful wife.

After lunch, He Zhao felt that the whole village was as quiet as two o'clock in the morning, but it was only two o'clock in the afternoon.

After doing so many things, it's only two o'clock in the afternoon.

The sun made him dizzy, so he ran to take a nap.

He Zhao felt as if he was back in the summer vacation of elementary school, as if he hadn't grown up, and his grandparents hadn't grown old either.

But he has grown up after all, and his grandparents are also old.

After waking up and taking a nap, I don’t know what time it is. Grandma is wearing reading glasses and sitting in the sun knitting a sweater. The big yellow dog is lying at her feet. He Zhao is also sitting next to her with a small stool.

Grandma didn't raise her eyes: "Is there something on our minds when Zhao Zhao grows up?"

He Zhao rubbed his nose, neither denying nor admitting.

Grandma said again: "In another year, your father-in-law and I will not be here. Everything here is good, but medical transportation is inconvenient. We are getting old, your father-in-law has high blood pressure, and my eyesight is getting worse. Your aunt contacted a family The nursing home, said the environment is very good and there is a small courtyard, a group of old ladies and old men live together lively, we will like it."

He Zhao asked, "Where is it?"

Grandma smiled: "At your aunt's house, we will invite you to our new home as a guest and cook your favorite food. As long as we see you, your father-in-law and I will be happy from the bottom of our hearts."

He Zhao nodded: "I will definitely go, I miss you and Eunuch very much."

"You are the only baby in our family." Grandma put down the half-knitted sweater in her hand and touched his head. "It's just too far away. I can't give you any good food and drink in time."

Grandpa and grandmother only have two children, and my aunt was married and divorced and has no children. Apart from the one in Lin Peiling's stomach now, there is only one child, He Zhao, who is a treasure in the palm of her hand.

"When I finish my college entrance examination, I can visit you and your father-in-law often," He Zhao said.

"You will talk good things to coax people, and I don't see you coming. It's okay, you have your own life, live a happy life, and grandma and father-in-law are happy." Grandma's tone was very gentle, and she didn't even change the subject, so she asked , "Is there someone you like?"

He Zhao said in a low voice, "Huh?"

"What? Your mother can't tell. I'm not stupid. I've been acting in dramas all my life. There's nothing to be ashamed of. You're normal at your age. It's strange if you don't like it. Your aunt is in her teens. I didn't stop my boyfriend." Grandma said lightly.

He Zhao was not in the mood to be shy, and pursed his lips a little melancholy: "I have someone I like, I don't know if he likes me..."

"Are you so troubled? If you are troubled, let it go first. Everything is always changing. People who like it may not like it, and people who don't like it may change their minds. When I was your age, I wanted to sing. , I wanted to be an old girl all my life, but I met your father-in-law, got married and had a child, delayed my career, and failed to be a pillar. At that time, I was not reconciled, I wanted too much, I wanted to be strong, I saw my friends who were not as good as me surpassed me, and I slept all night No. But you said that I gave birth to your mother, did your aunt regret it? I regretted it, but most of the time I didn’t regret it.” Grandma recalled when she was young, her slightly cloudy eyes were shining.

As she said that, she looked down at He Zhao, her eyes were full of kindness: "Your aunt was so ugly when she was a child, she loved to play around and asked her to learn to sing to say she was not interested, and said she wanted to be a model. At that time, she never thought that she would fall in love with singing in the end. When she became a pillar of the stage, she still loved her to the point of not having children and getting divorced, so she insisted on going all the way to the end. And your mother is cute and timid, and one day she suddenly said that she fell in love with your father and wanted to marry him to death. When I heard it was so serious, it was far from It's a little far away, marry if you want, and you will leave if you love it in the end? But because of this, you, a baby, were born."

He Zhao likes to hear grandma talk about these things in a relaxed and long tone, as if nothing is a big deal, and he can't help laughing while holding his chin.

Grandma went on to say: "Just relax and be yourself. Isn't it just that you like someone? It's okay. If he likes you, he likes you. If he doesn't like you, he doesn't like it. It's no big deal. You think you like it. When he is happy, he likes it. When he is not happy, stop thinking about him. Do other things first. When you look back, you may change your mind. Children, they all grow up like this. Life is long and just now. In the beginning, you yourself are thousands of possibilities."

"Well," He Zhaoying defended himself, "I didn't just do it on a whim, I just... like him right now."

I don't know what will happen in the future, but now when I think of Yi Shi, I know that I like him very much.

He has thought enough these two days, he can give Yi Shi a little hint, and see his reaction, if he doesn't say it, he won't be too embarrassing.

Whether Yi Shi likes him or not, he likes Yi Shi, it's just a question of how he should like him.

He clearly thought about it, but he was still a little tangled up, and He Zhao didn't know what he was tangled up in.

Maybe love is like this, it will make people worry about gains and losses, and people will never understand.

There was a wind blowing over and it was cool, but I didn't feel cold because I was sitting in the sun.The wind eavesdropped on the boy's thoughts and secrets, and then blew into the uninhabited forbidden valley.

He Zhao was already very tall, much taller than his grandmother, but he sat on a low bench with his head only reaching his grandmother's waist.Grandma touched his face affectionately like comforting a crying child: "It's okay, grow up slowly."