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"Who is crying?" He Zhao sniffed lightly.

Yi Shi gently wiped away the moisture from the corners of He Zhao's eyes with his fingertips, without making a sound.

"You don't need me to like you? As long as I live well, are you satisfied? Will you be happy seeing me with others?" He Zhao asked with his head raised.

It is enough for him to have this period of memory, and it is already a utopia in his life to have such a period of time.

Yi Shi really wanted to answer this way, and he answered himself countless times like this.

But he couldn't deceive himself, how could it be enough?How is it possible not to want more?

People will become more and more greedy.

"No," Yi Shi gently closed his eyes, "I'm very greedy."

From the very beginning, I wanted to stay with him for a long time.

"I'm also greedy, so I don't want to retreat with you. It's so hard to get so close, how can I retreat?" He Zhao rested his chin on Yi Shi's shoulder again, and kissed his collarbone, "I still don't dare to say I will like your words all my life, but I really like you. I'm sure I can't regret it, so you can boldly like me, boldly let me like you."

"Got it." Yi Shi touched his face.

"You don't know! You just know that it makes me feel bad." He Zhao didn't know what to think, and bit his collarbone lightly as if revenge, "Why do you insist on adding so many thick background colors to your life? The future will definitely be colorful."

"No more." Yi Shi said.

"I may not be as smart as you, and I may not think as comprehensively and profoundly as you. Maybe you think I am childish and impulsive, but I have thought about liking you for a long time. I know what you said, everyone said so, young The relationship was immature during the period, and it was difficult to reach the end." He Zhao hugged him and continued in a low voice, like a whisper, "17-year-old He Zhao fell in love with 17-year-old Yi Shi, and 18-year-old He Zhao fell in love with him. Like the 18-year-old Yi Shi, the 19-year-old He Zhao may also like the 19-year-old Yi Shi... The immature He Zhao likes the immature Yi Shi, and the mature He Zhao may also like the mature Yi Shi .Like is a momentary thing, but why is it impossible for He Zhao to fall in love with Yi Shi again and again? Who stipulates that the object of many relationships cannot be one person? After all, Yi Shi is so good, it is entirely due to He Zhao's aesthetics. "

After a long time, Yi Shi hugged He Zhao even tighter and hummed.

"Although I seem to be loved by many people, I'm actually lonely a lot of the time." He Zhao rubbed against Yi Shi's arms, "You know I'm afraid of loneliness. I'm definitely lonely without you. I don't want You are good for me, can you just be good for me? There are too many people who are good for me, they are always standing opposite me, can you always be by my side and accompany me, don't worry about anything else. "

Being nice to him is not the same as being nice to him.

To be good for him is always to stand your ground, but to be good to him is to be by his side.

"Okay." Yi Shi kissed the corners of his moist eyes.

"Really or not? You illiterate, do you understand what I'm saying?" He Zhao's tone was filled with complaints.

"Understood, I only listen to you. Unless you say that you don't need me, I won't leave you." Yi Shi said.

He Zhao suddenly didn't know what to say, it was all about what, he didn't mean that!

But Yi Shi seems to be right.

If one day Yi Shi said that he was no longer needed, he would let him go, right?

But how could he not need Yi Shi?

The room was very quiet, listening to Yi Shi's steady heartbeat, he felt at ease and a little numb.

"Can you hold me tighter?" He Zhao asked.

Yi Shi hugged him even tighter, and the two embraced tightly.

"Let me tell you first, I'm not trying to fall in love with you, nor is it just impulsive, I'm very serious." He Zhao said again, "So you have to hold me tight, don't let me get lost casually gone."

"I know." Yi Shi said.

"I'm not only thinking about the present, I'm also thinking about the future. I want to go to college with you. Although I'm sure I won't be able to get into your college, I can get into a nearby school." Wronged.

Their love has just begun, he only thinks about this, but Yi Shi seems to have thought further.

He respects Yi Shi's life, and it is good to have the maturity and thinking of 17 years old at the age of 27, but he hopes that Yi Shi can relax.

"I know." Yi Shi said again softly.

"Is my face hot? I mustered up [-]% of my courage to say everything I said, and I'm gnashing my teeth in embarrassment now." He Zhao took Yi Shi's hand and put it on his face, "I like it." You, I like you very much. You are the first person I like and also my first love. I have no experience and I am naive and impulsive. I don’t know how to make you have confidence in me. But I hope you can give me time to prove myself, Prove my heart."

He spoke softly, but seriously.

Yi Shi's mind is heavy, he hides it deeply and loves to hold back, it's hard for him to fully know what Yi Shi is thinking, he can only tell him his own mind.

"I'm also afraid, afraid that you don't like me. Sometimes I'm stupid. If you don't show it, I won't feel that you like me at all, so I will keep guessing." He Zhao finished his pitiful words , and deliberately moved to the corner of Yi Shi's mouth and kissed him, asking for a kiss.

"How do you show it?" Yi Shi stroked the back of his neck.

"I used to always want others to give me care and love a little more freely, in my way. But you are different, I don't want you to give me freedom, I want to love me in your way, hug me and kiss me I can tie you by your side, I like you like this, if I feel uncomfortable, I will definitely tell you directly." He Zhao's tone was lazy, as if he was serious and coaxing him, "I didn't do it because of what you paid. I like you, I like you because you are worthy of being liked. It is because I like and obsess over you so much that I enjoy your giving and your love. Don’t take my giving and my love as a burden, let alone repay anything, I I just like you, as long as you like me. We are in love, and love is not one-sided. We are together to bear and enjoy each other's physical and psychological needs, and share the joys and sorrows of life. This is a very Good things, of course, are sometimes a little bit bad, but you can’t deprive me of enjoying the good just because you don’t want me to see it.”

After a moment of silence, Yi Shi kissed He Zhao on the tip of the ear, and said in a low voice, "I really know how to say nice things."

He Zhao did say too many nice words of love, using the best words to teach Yi Shi how to love him and how to be loved, so nice that Yi Shi was persuaded by him in a trance.

Didn't he only want He Zhao to like him?

He had already realized that unless He Zhao called to stop, it was impossible for him to stop loving He Zhao.

He has been in such a state for a long time, he can only love He Zhao regardless of the consequences, he can only throw himself into this relationship regardless of his own safety, it is meaningless to think about anything, there is no other way at all.

Why don't you just follow what He Zhao said, don't think about anything at all, just hug the person in your arms tightly, and enjoy everything at the moment until he pushes yourself away.

"Aren't we complementary? I can say that you are so capable." He Zhao began to laugh.

Yi Shi is the kind of person who will do a lot in silence, but hide everything in his heart, and only reveal a point of his heart after doing very well.He Zhao is a person who thinks very much in his heart, and can fully express it, and sometimes he can be keenly aware of Yi Shi's unspoken thoughts.

The conversation tonight may not be useful, nor will it necessarily change Yi Shi's mind.But it was still a successful heart-to-heart exchange, at least he knew what Yi Shi was thinking, and Yi Shi knew what he was thinking.

He Zhao felt a lot more relaxed. He optimistically felt that as long as they still liked each other, these wouldn't be big problems. As long as they were still together, there would always be a solution.

Yi Shi kissed on the tip of He Zhao's nose, then kissed his forehead, eyes, chin, and collarbone... The delicate kisses fell on every place, as if expressing his unspeakable love.Sensing that He Zhao couldn't help but slightly raised his head to cooperate with him, he put the last kiss on the side of He Zhao's neck.

Yi Shi seldom uttered the words hidden in his heart like tonight, let alone communicated with others. Every word to express his heart was very difficult. He Zhao was nestled in his arms and listened carefully. Warm breath breathed softly on his neck.

This feeling is very strange, very intimate.

From birth to now, Yi Shi has been so close to a person for the first time, so close that he can exchange thoughts and breath.

He used to think he would always be alone.

It's not that he has never met kind, enthusiastic, and excellent people who have shown him kindness or even love, but it seems that he has a nature engraved in his bones, and it is difficult for him to get close to others.There are also friends and relatives, who basically maintain a distance of not too close or too far, until they meet He Zhao, and they get close to each other time and time again.

Yi Shi often introspects and is used to thinking deeply. He knows that it is more difficult to accept others' kindness to him than to be kind to a person.He was used to walking alone, he didn't want to owe anyone, and he repaid every point he accepted from others.

The person in his arms was the opposite of him.

He Zhao is good at expressing and accepting love.

In the silent darkness, after an unknown amount of time, He Zhao's breathing gradually became calmer.

His head was pressed against Yi Shi's neck, and the soft and fluffy hair touched his skin, itching.Yi Shi could smell the shampoo on his hair, it was the same shampoo as his, but it seemed a little different on He Zhao's body, it really smelled good.

He gently kissed his hair, his voice was very soft and almost silent: "Good night, baby."

But He Zhao suddenly opened his eyes and raised his face: "Tsk, I heard, you called me baby."

Yi Shi was stunned for a moment, kissed between his eyebrows, and urged: "Hurry up and go to sleep."

He Zhao turned over and hugged him, pressing his whole body on him: "Call again."

"Haven't you heard your mother call you enough?" Yi Shi said.

"Then how can it be the same, why are you calling me secretly? Don't you dare to face me?" He Zhao was persistent, with a hint of provocation, "If you call again, I will let you go."

"Sleep, baby." Yi Shi felt helpless.

"Perfunctory, it doesn't sound as good as it did just now, and it doesn't sound as good as it did just now." He Zhao said, lying down again, "But I like it when you call me that, so let's call me that in the future."

He Zhao was really sleepy, so he quit when he was done, and didn't make any more troubles, just hugging Yi Shi like hugging a pillow, and closed his eyes.

Just when Yi Shi thought he was asleep, he said again: "Have you ever kissed anyone else? Did you all kiss each other when you were abroad?"

He Zhao moved slightly before opening his mouth. Yi Shi knew that he was about to speak again, and originally planned to pretend he couldn't hear, but he had to answer these two questions.

"Which other person?" Yi Shi asked.

"Anyone else, let's put it this way, is this your first kiss with me?" He Zhao changed his way of asking, and moved away from Yi Shi's arms after asking.

Yi Shi took him back again: "Who am I with?"

"How do I know! Anyway, it's my first kiss!" He Zhao raised his voice a little.

Seeing that He Zhao was really excited, Yi Shi chuckled and stroked his hair: "There is no one else but you."

"Then why are you so skilled?" He Zhao thought for a while, and added, "It's not like I know how to gnaw, especially tonight is so good, I really like it, my legs are so soft..."

Yi Shi's kisses have always been gentle and comfortable, but He Zhao was a little messy when he was in love, and acted recklessly with instinct, and he also patiently guided Zhou Xuan.

Yi Shi didn't know where He Zhao's brain was twitching again, just now he said that his face was hot with embarrassment, now his skin thickened intermittently, and he couldn't bear to cover his mouth: "Shut up, are you going to sleep or not? "

He Zhao protested twice with "No no".

Yi Shi said again in a low voice: "Knowledge doesn't have to be experienced in order to be learned."

He Zhao became even more excited when he heard the words, and pulled his hand: "Have you checked the information? Did you look at the text, pictures or movies? When did you check it? Don't you always look at... um"

Yi Shi precisely kissed him on the lips, blocked his words, and whispered: "Go to sleep, I will teach you another day."

He Zhao seemed to be waiting for his words, and bent his eyes in the darkness: "Tomorrow?"

"En." Yi Shi responded, closed his eyes, and made up his mind to ignore what He Zhao said.

However, He Zhao didn't speak any more, and fell asleep after leaning against him.