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On the way back, He Zhao was not in high spirits and didn't say much, but politely exchanged a few words with Xiao Yun, not letting her words fall to the ground.

The heater was turned on in the car, and the dry warm wind made He Zhao a little hot, so he took off his coat.

Back in the community, He Zhao got out of the car first, and Yi Shi took He Zhao's coat and wrapped it around He Zhao's body as soon as he got out of the car.He Zhao opened his hand naturally, and Yi Shi patted him on the head, but he still cooperated to help him put on his coat.

After walking a short distance, Yi Shi held his hand and asked directly in a low voice: "What did Yi Qian tell you?"

"Nothing." He Zhao said.

"I asked Yi Qian." Yi Shi said.

He saw Yi Qian talking to He Zhao, if it wasn't for what he said, He Zhao wouldn't be so obviously in a bad mood in the car.

"Don't ask, I'll tell you later." He Zhao moved his fingers and interlocked with Yi Shi's.

As for when it will be later, he hasn't figured it out yet.

"Okay." Yi Shi nodded.

Walking downstairs, unexpectedly meeting Lin Peiling, He Zhao immediately let go of Yi Shi's hand reflexively.

Fortunately, the winter clothes were loose and the lights in the neighborhood were always dim. Lin Peiling saw them and asked with a smile, "I came back so late, where did I go?"

Should not have seen it.

"Yi Shi's uncle invited me to dinner." He Zhao secretly breathed a sigh of relief, and walked to her side in a few steps.

"It's so good, do you thank me? I just came back from eating at your aunt Ma's place." Lin Peiling walked into the stairwell with them.

"Mom, why don't you take the elevator?" He Zhao helped Lin Peiling up the steps.

"What kind of elevator are you taking? The doctor told you to exercise properly." Lin Peiling didn't let him help her, and took his arm affectionately.

"Then why don't you choose some safe sports, just walk on flat ground." He Zhao reminded, "Be careful of the steps."

"On the stairs in our building, I can walk with my eyes closed." Lin Peiling said with a smile.

"It's amazing, but don't really walk with your eyes closed," He Zhao said, "How scary."

"Why do you speak more and more like your grandma?" Lin Peiling was a little amused.

"What's so strange about this, I'm my grandma's grandson, isn't it normal to be like her?" He Zhao said, "Isn't it right, Yi Shi?"

Yi Shi, who silently followed behind them, paused, and replied, "En."

"I've been knitting hats for my baby recently, so I'll try them out with you first, and knit a knitted hat for both you and Xiao Yi." Lin Peiling laughed again as she spoke, "You're not at home, I hung it on your door before I go out, you His is dark green, and Xiaoyi's is black."

Green...hat?

"Why is mine green?" He Zhao glanced at Yi Shi.

"Don't you like green? When you were a child, you always bought green hats." Lin Peiling said.

"Then I was not sensible when I was young?" He Zhao said.

"Where do you have so many ideas for a child? The dark green is so beautiful. I originally wanted to knit red for Xiao Yi, but seeing that he always likes to wear black clothes, I still knit black. Black is fine, how cool is it?" " Lin Peiling said with a smile.

"Thank you." Yi Shi said.

"Thank you, Merry Christmas, Xiao Yi, and you too, baby, Merry Christmas." In just a few words, Lin Peiling stopped and patted the back of He Zhao's hand intimately when they had already reached the sixth floor.

"Merry Christmas, Mom." He Zhao gently hugged Lin Peiling.

On the seventh floor, there was a paper bag hanging on the doorknob.

He Zhao took out two knitted hats. Lin Peiling was good at handwork, and the fine woolen threads were neatly drawn.

He handed the black hat to Yi Shi, and casually put his green hat on his head: "Why do I think yours hooks better than mine? I just tried this one, right?"

Yi Shi grabbed He Zhao's coat, asked him to take it off, and hung it on the coat rack at the door, then took the knitted hat, and looked back and forth.

He Zhao ran into the bathroom and adjusted himself in the mirror, and when he came out, he saw Yi Shi was still studying the hat.

"What's wrong? Don't you like it?" He Zhao asked.

"No." Yi Shi said.

He Zhao walked over, put the knitted hat on his head for him, and bent his eyes: "It's so handsome, so cool. Have you confiscated the gifts made by the elders?"

There was no need for Yi Shi to answer, he added: "My mother is like my grandparents, she especially likes to make things with her own hands, you will get used to it more and more in the future."

Yi Shi sat on the sofa, held his hand, didn't speak, and looked up at him slightly.

He Zhao stood in front of him, bent down and kissed him.

"Yi Qian didn't say anything to me. He just said that your life was not very good before, so let me treat you better." He Zhao recovered a little and took the initiative to say, "I'm not unhappy, just a little angry."

Loving someone should not be self-righteous to think about others, but love him in a way that the other person can accept and understand.No matter how you want to treat someone well, you should respect him as an independent individual. This is what He Zhao learned from his grandparents.

Sometimes you think you know a person very well, but you have to admit that sometimes you can't know exactly what another person is thinking, no matter how close you are, there is no way.

Don't deliberately hide, just say what you have, don't make wild guesses, ask what you want to know.

I have to know that you love me, and I want you to know that I love you no matter what.

On this point, He Zhao was very sure that Yi Shi had the same thinking as him, and he didn't want the other party to hide anything from him, even if the other party was for his own good.

"Why are you angry?" Yi Shi asked.

"I can't tell, I'm just angry. Angry that they don't know you well enough, and they don't treat you well enough." He Zhao said, "Anyway, I just can't hear people say you are bad, no one is good, I think you are very good, very good No matter what, it's fine, I like you so much."

After hearing He Zhao's words, Yi Shi probably thought of what Yi Qian said, and raised his hand to pinch He Zhao's cheek: "Don't be angry, didn't you say that adults are very capricious?"

He Zhao sat next to him and hugged him: "But I love you so much."

Yi Shi patted He Zhao's head, tilted the knit hat he had put on, and straightened the hat up with his hands, and said in a low voice, "Everything he says is just his thoughts."

"Did your grandma treat you very badly?" He Zhao leaned on Yi Shi's shoulder, "My grandma is fine. My grandma will definitely like you very much. You see, my mother likes you very much. Let's go to see you when we have time." Let's play with grandma."

"Okay," Yi Shi said again, "Don't think about it, for me, their thoughts are not important, and they have no influence on me."

He has never experienced the warmth of ordinary people. For him, it is something out of reach. He knows it is very precious, but he does not feel regretful because he has not had it.

As for grandma, she was sick, and when he was very young, he was used to her punishing him excessively when she was sick, and hugged him and cried after the punishment.Maybe she wasn't so unconscious, she only got sick when no one was around, and kept a kind and decent appearance in front of people.At that time, he was too young to understand that it was abuse, but he was used to his grandmother's punishment, so he could only endure it in silence.

As he got older, his grandmother's health became worse and worse, and the physical fitness of the two was very different, so there was no further physical punishment.But grandma's spirit was getting worse and worse, and she attacked and insulted more and more frequently, and at the same time she cried and apologized to him when she was awake.Yi Ruan and Yi Qian didn't know about these things until the nurse discovered the abnormality.Grandma was already suffering from illness at that time, and they couldn't criticize grandma harshly, and they couldn't believe that such a thing would happen. They could only keep asking him why he didn't tell them, why he didn't tell them earlier.

It's as if all this is in his control, but he was not born young and mature, he also grew up from a child who knew nothing.

He Zhao was right. Adults are very willful. When he was a child, they hoped that he would be sensible and independent, but when he grew up, they regretted that he was not like a child.

After that, his father, Yi Rou, and Yi Qian tried their best to make up for him, wishing to give him all the love he had lost these years.But no matter which family he is in, he can't get into it, and he is an outsider who is out of place.

The more carefully they took care of him, the more clearly he felt that he was alone.

He is like a discordant note, accustomed to exist alone, and there is no way to blend into their melody, no matter how it is arranged, it is wrong.

Ironically, the more disharmonious he is, the more they feel guilty and regretful, the more they want to make up for him, but the more aware of his disharmony, it's like a vicious circle.

"Don't keep messing with my hat, it's all crooked," He Zhao said in a muffled voice, "You're cool, I love mine, and I'm not as cool as you."

Yi Shi hugged him, and after a long silence, he said, "Don't feel bad, if you hurt, I will hurt too."

Those unpleasant memories, lonely childhood, missing love and care are all in the past, but only a small part of his life, and the future will shrink and shrink.He is no longer the small and helpless little boy who can only be accompanied by the violin. He has already supported his own life alone, including those gloomy and heavy misfortunes.

Whether it's his father David or Yi Rou Yi Qian, he knows that they want to make up for him, and he knows that they are trying their best to treat him well, but he has no way to deeply understand their feelings, and he doesn't need their extra care and attention. take care of.It is enough for him and them to stay at a distance that is involved but does not disturb each other.

He is 17 years old, and he can't accept the care and closeness of his elders as naturally as he was 7 years old.

He didn't blame anyone, nor did he deliberately refuse, he just grew up.

For him, growing up means being independent and being able to take full control of his life.

Regardless of whether the original family is good or bad, as long as they are willing to go out, they will not imprison a person for a lifetime.

He doesn't want to live in the quagmire of the past, he wants to move forward, and He Zhao is the one who will accompany him to move forward.

He can feel He Zhao's complex emotions, like instinct, he can always detect He Zhao's emotional changes.

He didn't want He Zhao to be happy, even with him, He Zhao could be unhappy for no reason, but his heart was closely connected with He Zhao.Ever since He Zhao said the word "distressed", his heart also began to swell and ache, and was slowly filled with turbulent emotions.

He realized what He Zhao said before, that he felt pitiful because someone pitied him.But he didn't feel sorry for himself, but felt distressed because someone loved him.

This person is He Zhao, his beloved treasure.

For the first time, Yi Shi admitted to himself that he loves He Zhao, not because he likes him, but because he loves him.He said he liked it just to match He Zhao's rhetoric at the time, but he knew very well in his heart that he liked He Zhao far more than just.It just seems that saying that he likes it will make it easier for He Zhao and himself.

Yi Qian should have seen it, or guessed it earlier, from the time he decided to stay in China, and told He Zhao to treat him well.But Yi Qian doesn't know that He Zhao is his heart, and only when He Zhao treats himself well can he be well.

He Zhao smiled, bit his ear and said, "You are really good now, you can talk about love."

"Not as good as you." Yi Shi said.

"You should add the word 'baby' in front of this sentence at this time." He Zhao said, "It will look tender and affectionate."

Yi Shi: "I can't call out."

"Why can't you scream? Didn't you scream last time?" He Zhao was upset, and put his arms around his neck, as if he would never give up if he didn't shout these two words.

He originally thought that Yi Shi would not be obedient, but Yi Shi kissed his forehead and called softly: "Baby."

He Zhao blushed a little, and touched his nose: "You don't need to use such a lewd - angry tone."

Yi Shi gently tapped his forehead with his knuckles.

"Hey, I know you're going to ask me what I'm thinking again." He Zhao smiled and kissed him, "I'm not a cold and abstinent person, I can't think about it yet?"

"What did I say?" Yi Shi slightly raised his eyebrows.

"Need to say, the way you look at me is like looking at a hooligan." He Zhao said, "Anyway, I just want to be a hooligan to you, I just want to be a hooligan to you."