[Black Basket] Never expected

It seems that recently my mood is always tangled in the trade-offs.The cold wind at the gate of the school kept blowing, and after the end of daylight saving time, the sky darkened early before six o'clock every day.

I lowered my head and kicked the stones on the ground with the toe of my shoe.

--Walk?

— or not to go?

this is a problem.

I don't know why, but now I'm a little scared to see Ryota's face.

Guilty for no reason, my mood at the moment cannot be described with a simple adjective like uneasy.

But maybe it’s Libra’s own curse—although I already had a premonition in my heart that “an embarrassing scene may happen next, if possible, it’s better to slip away as soon as possible”, but because of the obviously serious tone of the other party in the text message, I hesitated .

As far as I know Ryota, he basically has no awareness of the concept of time.

But the 5 minutes this time was more accurate than I expected.

When I finally made up my mind to run away, his voice suddenly came from behind, "Hello!"

Hey what, hey, this is the attitude of talking to elders!

Nowadays, the etiquette learning of young people is really lacking!

I turned around angrily, and said righteously: "Ah, I just want to go to the toilet." As soon as the words fell, I immediately mourned for 30 seconds for my immoral self.

"Why do you have to go outside if you want to go to the toilet?"

"...Don't pay attention to those details."

"..."

A moment of silence.

Tell me what's going on with this atmosphere.

I said, "If you have nothing else to do, I'll go home first. See you tomorrow." I lifted up the shoulder strap of my schoolbag and waved to him with a natural and docile expression.

The guy was still wearing the big shorts he used to play basketball on his lower body, his sneakers hadn't been changed, and he was wearing a uniform jacket over his basketball vest.And this huge object emitting heat was in the cold outdoor air, and I vaguely saw a wisp of white smoke coming out from the top of his head.

He took out a tissue and handed it to him, "Hurry up and go back, you'll catch a cold if you run around outside dressed like this."

Hearing this, his frowning brows finally tended to relax.

He slowly reached out and let me stuff the tissue into his palm.The hand of the teenager who can hold the basketball with one hand and the printed tissue bag look a bit inconsistent in the same picture. His palms tightened, as if he mustered up his courage, and suddenly said without thinking: "These two days of training are very busy. I promised my seniors that I must win this game with everyone, so I can't relax no matter what."

"Although it was not my intention to be regarded as the trump card when I first entered the basketball team, since I have been given high expectations by everyone, I must not let them down."

I didn't quite understand what was going on with this sudden "confession". I was stunned for a moment, but then I instinctively responded: "Well. I know, we Ryota will definitely not lose."

In fact, since I became aware of gender in junior high school, I rarely use this name for him anymore.

As soon as the words came out of his mouth, his eyes suddenly changed.

"So... I couldn't go to your house before, it was definitely not because I didn't want to study, or I didn't want to get along with you... or something. After IH is over, I will definitely study with you every day!"

……

Words are good words, but why do they sound weird...

I smiled cooperatively and rubbed my hair, "Hey, don't worry about that kind of thing. After all, the competition is a matter of the moment. Learning or something is not something that can be seen in three or two days. Take your time. The distance There is still a long time to go before the exam."

Hearing him say that made me feel a little more relaxed.

I didn't expect that he wanted to say these things. Really, I was thinking about something indiscriminately before.

"Also!" His voice suddenly became louder, which made me tremble in fright, and then I looked up at him with wide-eyed eyes. Like the clouds floating on the horizon reddened by the setting sun.

"What, what's the matter...?"

He hesitated for a while, then stammered, "That girl just now..."

--really!

I just relaxed, and the next second finally came to the topic I wanted to avoid as much as possible.

I interrupted him first, and I hastily answered: "After all, you are a popular model. I completely understand this situation. I would not do such childish things as small reports. Don't you worry about me?" Huh, how sad." I swallowed desperately, and continued before Ryota could speak, "Speaking of which, that girl looks really nice, if you really date, please let me know."

what……

Why did the surrounding temperature suddenly drop a lot after I finished saying this sentence.

And what happened to Ryota's expression!The sad little eyes in anger filled me with a sudden sense of guilt.

Under his gaze, my heart was beating wildly.I swear, even when I was confessed by Sakamoto, I never experienced such strong psychological fluctuations.

Something must be wrong!

His eyes fluttered around, and he didn't dare to look at him because he was afraid of being found out that he was uneasy: "By the way, I suddenly remembered that I had an appointment with a friend for dinner. You should go back to training quickly."

Casually throwing away this lame excuse that is not convincing at all, I turned around and started to run.

"It's impossible to have a girlfriend or something."

"It's enough for me to have you."

——The heartbeat stopped for a beat!

Could it be that I have auditory hallucinations due to excessive mental stress? !

His calves were shivering helplessly, and his throat suddenly became extremely dry.My chest was heaving up and down violently, but I kept telling myself "this is not true" over and over in my heart while speeding up my pace.

The new shoes I wore today didn’t fit my feet very well. My mind was full of complicated thoughts. For a while, I didn’t notice a crack in the stone brick road under my feet, and I even stumbled and stumbled accidentally.

But my movements didn't stop at all.

If it was normal, I would probably reply jokingly: I will beat you if I say this again, and other innocuous "threats", but right now, my brain has completely shut down, and the movement of every cell seems to have There was a dull rusty click.

I didn't look back, but at the corner of the street, I occasionally turned to the gate with the famous brand of Haichang University from the corner of my eye.That kind of height makes people want to ignore it.

Still maintaining the original posture and standing there, although I can no longer see his face clearly, I can clearly form his expression at the moment in my mind.

Did not intend to escape.

But even if I stayed, I didn't know how I would respond.

It would be a complete lie to say that I didn't notice it at all.

During the period between the end of the previous relationship and the present, some of his erratic behavior was the source of my distress in the past few days.I also thought of possible reasons.

However, because I am used to self-comforting excuses such as "it's just a neighbor's younger brother" and "I must have made up too much", I have never seriously considered that this relationship that is drifting away from the starting point should lead to where.

After all, this is not a simple question of right and wrong.

When I got home that day, I immediately turned off my phone and hid myself like an ostrich. After that, I still felt flustered, as if my phone would ring at any moment, so I simply unplugged the phone card.

In the next few days, I took the first tram to school early in the morning every day. After school, I seriously participated in the dance club activities and didn't go home until it was completely dark.

Maybe Ryota didn't tell Ryona what happened before, but she still got a glimpse of something from my performance. Once when I was unprepared, she suddenly asked me seriously: Did you quarrel with Ryota? ?

I choked and remained silent for a while before shaking my head and answering: That's not the case.

But Liang Nai's expression clearly shows disbelief.

However, this painful ordeal did not last for many days.

I finally arrived at Kim Yo Il, but my mood didn't get any better because of the upcoming weekend.While there may have been an element of self-indulgence in it, the worry that we might inevitably see each other during the holidays made my heart feel even heavier.

Because I was thinking about something on my mind, I was also absent-minded when walking. During the lunch break, I rubbed my temples and walked out of the classroom half-wandering. Just after I walked out the door, a shadow suddenly enveloped my whole body.