The three-year itch, the seven-year luck

?On July [-]rd, most of the school's students had finished their final exams and returned home.These days, Xiaoyan is always carrying thick examination papers and correcting them in the dormitory.And all I can do is quietly accompany her.

I'm leaving tomorrow afternoon. After I told her about it at noon today, she didn't react very well.I went back to my dormitory, dragged out the suitcase that I hadn't used for a long time, and packed my things.After a while, the place was empty again.And I looked at the pair of AJs, looked and looked, carefully wrapped them, and put them in the box.

Seems like it's time to leave.I sat on the bed, thinking about things quietly.For nearly a year, my life has been turned upside down.And the state of mind, actually changes again and again, I can't figure it out.According to Professor Zhang, this project will probably last for a long time, and it will play a vital role as my first project after my Ph.D.In Sichuan, for our business, the most attractive place is Sanxingdui.This really makes my blood boil, no matter how much suffering I suffer, I am willing to do so.

I think, after I go there, I get busy again, and maybe I can really sort it out.I don't know what kind of feelings Xiaoyan has for me.But since her real choice is back, I should also give up my position.Getting along day and night for the past six months is suffocatingly sweet to me.Do you regret it?I have no idea.

However, there is no turning back in life. Now that we have reached this point, there is no need to turn back.

Saying goodbye to Lucky, I really don't know when I will see you again this time.I kissed its head and said, "Don't cause trouble for your sister Yan, find a girlfriend quickly in the future, and be a father before sterilization. Do you know?" It might see the suitcase behind me and get excited all of a sudden. Regardless of wanting to throw me down, Xiaoyan called me over, feeling depressed.I checked the time, it was one o'clock in the afternoon.He gave the dormitory key to Xiaoyan: "Can you return it for me when school starts?"

She nodded and said, "You really don't need me to see you off?"

"Need not."

There is nothing more to say, I opened my mouth and found that I was at a loss for words.He picked up the box, smiled at Lucky, and turned around.I didn't look back when I went out, and I didn't look back when I went downstairs.I didn't dare to see her standing pretty and alive, and I couldn't bear to look at her at all.

I took a taxi to the train station and took the booked ticket with my ID card.I stood in the crowded waiting hall, and for a while I didn't know what night it was.Something seemed to be stuck in my throat all the time, and my heart felt like it was being drained again.

The round clock hanging in the waiting hall passed by second by second, and I just stood there.Scenes of past events flashed in my mind, some joy, some sadness.I used to be ignorant, thinking that if I gave up so much, I would definitely be able to keep it in this life.Then everything fell apart overnight, and I found my dream, but lost the person I cared about the most.

I don't seem to have told her well what you mean to me and how important you are to me.I once saw a certain emotion in Xiaoyan's eyes, but now that I think about it, it must be anticipation.

My mind became more and more chaotic, and my hands began to tremble.Trembling, I pulled my luggage and carried my bag and walked outside the train station, without any hesitation.I took a taxi again to go back to school, and when I got out of the car to pay, I realized that I was trembling more and more.When I walked outside Xiaoyan's dormitory step by step, the door was closed, and I knocked on the door, but there was no one inside.I didn't hear Lucky's voice and knew she was leaving.

Not reconciled, I ran to the fifth floor again, and the door was also closed.I don't know how long I stood there, I just know that I became conscious again and walked again.From school to home, step by step.

This is the second time that this road has been measured with footsteps.At the end of the road, I don't know if it will be Xiaoyan.But this time, I couldn't bear it anymore and started running.The exhaustion of physical strength brings about a very clear mind.When I got to the community, I felt that my legs were no longer my own.

When I opened the door, Xiaoyan was curled up on the sofa, Lucky nestled at her feet, and looked up at me.I went in panting heavily, trying to say something but couldn't utter a word.Running long distances makes my heart and lungs explode.She looked at me with bright eyes.I let go of my luggage and ran into the kitchen.Lie down on the ground and opened the cabinet, I reached in and touched it, and took out the dusty box.

Then I tried my best to kneel in front of Xiaoyan.I wiped the dust on the box vigorously with my clothes, whether it can be cleaned or not is the same thing.I think I must be so embarrassed that I can feel the sweat dripping down my chin.

"Xiaoyan," just as I called out her name, I started coughing, and I couldn't finish until I was tearing up my nose and snot.She just kept the posture when I saw her, looking at me quietly.And I finally finished the words in her red eyes: "Xiaoyan, I love you, I want to be with you, I don't want to be separated from you. I know that sometimes I am too bored, everything is boring I don’t want to tell you. I know I said that I trust you, but I didn’t do it. Xiaoyan, I really can’t do the job of a civil servant. It’s too torture. Xiaoyan, can you stop talking to that Zhao Zhouqiao got married, I can't stand it. Xiaoyan, my father actually agreed, he asked me to take you home for dinner, will you go?" I couldn't stop talking, saying everything I wanted to say these years She came out, but before I finished speaking, her tears fell like broken beads, and she reached out and hugged me to her chest.

"Xiaoyan, I don't want to be separated from you." I finally said this, clasped her shoulders, and felt relieved from the bottom of my heart.After kneeling for a long time, my knees started to hurt, so I just sat on the ground and hugged her directly from the sofa to my arms.

She kept saying nothing, and I started to get a little scared.Shaking hands, he opened the box and approached her in front of her eyes, but kept staring at her eyes: "Can you promise, everyone kneels on one leg, but I am on both knees, no one is more sincere than me."

She finally burst into tears and smiled: "Is this your sincerity?" She looked at the box and then at me. I was suspicious, so I turned around and looked, huh?Where is my ring?

"Hey, I obviously put it in, why..." This was too stupid, how could anyone propose with an empty box.I didn't know what to do, but I saw Xiaoyan's expression was playful. "Well, you found it long ago! Didn't you?"

"Yes, yes, yes!" She admitted quickly: "But who made you think about everything in your heart, sometimes I really want to take your head off and see what's growing inside."

I held her face in both hands, and didn't ask where the ring was. I looked into her eyes and asked, "Yang Zhiyan, would you like to be with me forever?"

She stopped laughing, and looked at me fixedly: "Zou Chen, you will be with me for the rest of your life, okay?"

Look, even at this moment, my girl has to bow her head first.I smiled and nodded: "Okay. Okay!!!" She also smiled with me: "Then I am willing."

Then I will.

Five words, to me, means detachment.

I was overjoyed at first, and then couldn't stop crying.In the end, the two cried together, completely losing their image, scaring Lucky to howl at the side.

When I had some strength, she drove me into the bathroom to take a shower.Taking advantage of this time, Xiaoyan re-booked my flight ticket for the morning.After all, I have to go back tomorrow, so I can't delay.When I came out, Xiaoyan was packing my luggage. She took out a lot of my things, but put in more.When I saw it, they were all clothes.I leaned over and hugged her from behind. My whole body was exhausted, and I felt extremely exhausted, but I was so excited mentally that I couldn't fall asleep at all.

The two of them didn't sleep that night, they turned on the air conditioner and hid in bed.Xiaoyan started talking about it when my mother went to school, and I finally understood the whole situation.

Zhao Zhouqiao was the one who was there that day, and he understood the matter of Xiaoyan being with a woman after only one sentence.But this man is really a gentleman, he never threatened Xiaoyan.He only said that he hoped that Xiaoyan would give him some chances to get along, maybe Xiaoyan would change his mind.After all, they are colleagues in the same unit, and Zhao Zhouqiao and Xiaoyan are working on a project together. From the perspective of their own cooperation, both parties recognize each other's ability.

At that time, Xiaoyan didn't dare to guarantee Mr. Zhao Zhouqiao's character, for fear that if he refused miserably, he would be called out, and that I would have to resign first.So I agreed to it, and pretended to be a snake.After a long time, Xiaoyan realized that Zhaozhou Bridge is really the same.And the time I ran into it, it was indeed Professor Zhao who was confessing his love, but it was also the last time he failed to confess.They finished their project that day, and it was not just the two of them who went to the restaurant to celebrate, but also the dean and the secretary.After that, Xiaoyan made it clear to Zhao Zhouqiao that the two were simply friends.

And after I knew the ins and outs, I really wanted to strangle myself to death. "Then why didn't you tell me?"

Xiaoyan didn't save my face, so she bit my neck several times, and said bitterly: "How did I know that your problem was here? When you left, you didn't say break up, and you didn't say what you were going to do." She was so wronged that she couldn't say anything more.I patted her on the back lightly, said these comforting words, and slowly eased her grievances.

After a while, she continued: "Your character, if you didn't enlighten yourself, do you think it would be useful if I said more?" At the end, she bit my lip and said, "Zou Chen, from now on you won't You must be silent again. I can't know all your thoughts, you have to tell me, you know?"

"I know." I had mixed feelings, I just kissed her deeply, making up my mind that I would never let her go in this life.

One night passed in the heart of the conversation, and all the misunderstandings were finally resolved.When she got up, Xiaoyan took out a cloth bag from under the pillow, which contained my ring.She handed it to me, smiling.At this time, I will no longer understand the customs, and really read so many poems and books for nothing.I knelt firmly on both knees, took the ring from her reverently, put it on the ring finger of her right hand, and said with a smirk, "This is mine now, no one will think about me not looking for trouble!"

Xiaoyan looked at it, seemed quite satisfied, grabbed my right hand, bit my ring finger, and said, "Let's leave it as yours first, it's mine anyway."

I am very happy to leave this time.She took me to the airport, and carefully told me that I had to eat on time, and that I had to call her when I was free.

When I got off the plane, I turned on my phone, and there was a photo from Xiaoyan on WeChat, Lucky's collar.The picture is very clear, and the three lines of words are mottled with time, but they are printed on my heart.

"Fortunately to meet, fortunately to have. Fortunately to stay together."

Xiaoyan engraved the words many years ago, this time I will definitely keep my promise, and I will never lose. ?

☆、Zizhi Qingyang

?My mother studied physics all her life, and even the Ming and Qing Dynasties couldn't tell which was the first and which was the last. My grandfather was only her only daughter. I thought it was a pity, so I devoted too much effort to me.Although my grandfather taught me some poems and books since I was a child, I am really not interested in those books, but I am very sensitive to those Arabic numerals.So when I was divided into subjects in high school, I chose science without hesitation, and I have never read anything too literary since then.Life is pragmatic, and in my opinion, it's all the sour smell of sadness and sorrow, and it's boring.

In fact, I don't care much about love.Since junior high school, he lived on campus and went home once a week.Later, when I was in college, my grandfather said that Changcheng University’s economics department was fairly solid. I thought that I would wait until I had laid some foundations, and then go to a foreign country to study systematically. Besides, it would be much more convenient for my life to stay, so I didn’t say much and applied for a volunteer.This decision made me see him for the last time.

My grandfather died of illness when I was a freshman, and now I can only describe it as sad when I think about it.At that time, the phrase "the child wants to raise but the relative is not there" suddenly popped up in my mind. Looking at the photos he left, I suddenly understood a little bit what the power of words is.It felt as if my heart had been dug away, and a surge of sorrow came, and it was the first time I realized what parting from life and death is.

This kind of pain is deeply rooted in my heart due to the busyness of my studies and gradually fades away.I thought that this kind of pain would never be experienced again in this life, but I didn't want to encounter the magic obstacle that I was destined to encounter later.This person makes me hate it, but I can't bear to say anything cruel to her.

No one would really believe that my original intention to play games is just because I need to be familiar with computers.Zou Chen has always only known that my undergraduate major is economics, but he didn't know that I also have software programming.In high school, computers had almost zero appeal to me.Some seniors who are good at programming told me: "Sister, if you don't play a game, you can almost understand it."

I don't think it's too much trouble, so I readily agreed.And after I was almost familiar with it, those senior brothers took me to do the task with great joy.I was a little annoyed, so I transferred the service area under the pretext of selling my account.The account I practiced by myself, even if I throw it in a corner to eat ashes, it is impossible to sell it.I remember that my grandfather's favorite was Xin Qiji's "Partridge Sky-Boshan Temple Works", so I didn't think much about it and chose the partition of Partridge Sky.

After I transferred, someone who thought he was elegant pulled me into their regular team.I looked at his ID and had the urge to block it.At that time, the most urgent thing was to earn money, and I didn't have the habit of playing games with money.So I took the order from Roewe, played a field PK, earned a sum of money, good turnover, and maintained basic expenses.And this PK, let me see him among the red names of the six opponents at a glance.

Zou Wuwei, this name made me laugh for a moment, thinking that he is really a sour person.At the end of the fight, all the people in Rongwei died. At that time, facing the two of them, I felt afraid that I would have to die once.This Zou Wuwei's operation is really sharp, I'm afraid it's not much better than my senior brother.And his partner turned around and left. I was wondering when his voice came over.

But he turned out to be her, and I felt happy, thinking that she was really a wonderful person, and the resistance in my heart disappeared.She asked me directly, but I hesitated for a while and answered truthfully.I appreciate her unobtrusive character at this time, and when she invited me to join their regular team, she readily agreed without hesitation.

I also follow others to call her Lao Zou, which is kind and natural.She is indeed a history student, and she took part in the imperial examination together. She took care of the text and I agreed. The emperor's edict was enough to exchange for several Wenqu stars.Later, I gradually realized that I seemed to like her. When this emotion first spread, I was also afraid, but when I was hesitant, I couldn't bear to refuse her to pull me to be a scenery party to waste time.When I got home, I briefly mentioned it to my mother.She explained to me that existence is reasonable, but instead she asked me to make up my own mind.If I really fell in love with a girl, she asked me if I had the courage to withstand all kinds of pressure in China.

I don't know how to answer.

I didn't know how to answer this answer until she came to Changcheng and studied hard for the public exam every day and night.I looked at her and didn't understand at that time what a sacrifice she had made.As much as I like my major, Zou Chen likes written history as much.Asking me to give up the economy I like, can I be as relentless as she is?But she plunged into the public examination without any hesitation at all.

If I knew, it would wear away her halo and self-confidence, and I would rather give up my own.But it was too late, I was too young after all.Maybe I can predict the market accurately and know which stocks will go in and come out when.But I don't know the direction of the relationship, how to steer it.When I woke up to the change between us, I was at a loss and didn't know what the problem was.Too young, don't know how to communicate with each other, only know that she shouldn't bother her when she is upset, but unexpectedly both of them think the same way, and they get farther and farther apart.

Zou Chen became more and more silent. Many times I knew she had a lot to say, and I thought she would always say it, so I relaxed and waited.I waited patiently, but this time, it turned out that she was going to leave.

I was amused and very angry, so I just didn't say a word and waited for her to explain.In the end, this guy really didn't explain a word, turned around and left with the box, just like she came directly with the box.That heart-piercing feeling struck again, but it was even more violent, piercing slowly.I was caught off guard, lost my mind, squatted at the door of the house, and cried out.

When I found out that Lucky was gone, it was like crazy.I searched all night, and finally found Lucky walking with his head up five stops away.I yelled, and when it heard it, it ran to me and yelled aggrievedly.I immediately hugged Lucky, and finally cursed: "Your elder sister Chen ran away from home!"

In the few months since Zou Chen left, I lived like a walking dead.When I'm alone at home, I don't know how to deal with it.We held hands to decorate this home together. I still remember how excited she was at that time, and how she looked like a child when she was arguing with me that the bookshelf must be taller or older.Now I am the only one left, facing all the memories.Until one night, Lucky was probably starving and was rummaging in the kitchen.I really don't have the energy to take care of it. I'm sitting alone in the study, but I don't know what to do.

After a while, Lucky presented a small dusty box in his mouth, and I came over in a daze, opened it and saw it was a diamond ring.

I held it in the palm of my hand, cried and cried, and thought hard: Zou Chen, you have to come back sooner or later.

I took off the piece of sugar white jade Zou Chen gave me and hung it on the lamp.Life had to go on, so I gave up the chance to go to London and gave it to Zhao Qiao.But with it, the constant touch will make me unable to concentrate on academics at all, so I have to hang it up and see it sooner or later.Every night before going to bed, looking at its suet-like luster in the light, I was thinking, Zou Chen, how long are you going to make me wait?

But I didn't expect that after waiting for this, the seventh year would be over.

When Principal Guo mentioned Zou Chen's name, I didn't realize that it was her.Then after a man shouted excitedly, I finally heard her voice: "I'm here." It was her usual tone when she was in a daze, and I recognized it immediately.My heart was depressed, and the depression in my chest slowly turned into longing.Seeing her foolishly walking onto the stage from below, Principal Guo's introduction was so sonorous and powerful.And what she looks like now is so strange to me.But her temperament has a little of the long retreat we met when we first met.

At that time, she picked me up at the train station, deliberately took my student ID card, and after reading it, she smiled at me: "Zi Zhiqing Yang, Yang Qi Yan also?"

The name my grandfather gave me was pronounced by her as a joke.There was a smile on his face, but his eyes were clear.I nodded and said with a smile, "You are actually a book bag."

She snatched my luggage and was very proud: "There is a world in my chest."

Now she has the look of that time again, but she looks very depressed.Soon, Principal Guo read my name.God knows how much pains I took to stay calm and self-possessed. I went on stage indifferently, pretending that I didn't see her.

She looks flustered, why is she so afraid of meeting me?My mood dropped to freezing point for a while, and I drank indulgently for a long time.With red wine in my throat, I'm betting whether she will take care of me.But the more he drank, the more aggrieved and sad he felt.

By the time I got to the bathroom to throw up, I really had given up.The last consciousness was that Zou Chen came in and supported me.I think I made the right bet. By her side, I no longer have any fear and am intoxicated.In a trance, she fed me, and there was her breath in the bed, and I was so greedy that I couldn't bear to let go.

This is the first time I've slept so deeply since we separated.When I woke up, half of Zou Chen was lying at my feet, with his head tilted to one side, and he was sound asleep.Her hair has grown, and the baby fat on her cheeks has faded away, leaving her with a bit of weathered smell.But the white hair mixed with her long hair makes my heart scratch and tug.

She must have had a hard time these two years.

Just as I was thinking, Zou Chen woke up.I was so annoyed at the tongue-tied, pretending to be a stranger, so I just pretended to be.

And the shoes she handed me stupidly, why can't I recognize that I bought them?I could tell she hesitated when she gave it to me.I really wanted to slap her in the face and ask her when she was going to explain it to me.

When I stepped in, I realized that the soles of the shoes were much thinner.I was wearing her clothes, which were all faded after washing.Taking advantage of her not paying attention, I quickly wiped my eyes and forced her to follow me home.

I left her in the living room to exchange heart and soul with Lucky, and I changed my clothes, reluctant to return them to her.But I found that she seemed to have misunderstood me, she didn't say anything, let me ask her first?Think beautifully.

But when she left this time, I was certain: Zou Chen, sooner or later you will be willing to enter this door again.

There was a meeting in the neighboring province, so I decided to let Zou Chen bring Lucky without thinking about it.When she got excited, she finally said something, and I quickly recalled what happened that day.It turned out that she saw it. No wonder she only prepared noodles for me that night.Thinking of the ring again, I couldn't help but smile bitterly in my heart.Going around, we always hide some things from each other that we think should protect each other, but this concealment stabbed each other black and bruised.

Meeting these days, I keep thinking, how much longer are we going to torture each other?But I also know that my heart has been opened, but what about her?Zou Chen's temper, if he didn't really enlighten himself, no matter how much I say, it's just a waste of words.I really don't know where her stubborn temper came from.Thinking of this, the yearning became even more impatient, and he decided to go back early regardless of the fact that the meeting was not over yet.

There is no air ticket, so I have to buy a train ticket, which is still a hard seat.Along the way, I suddenly realized that she carried a simple suitcase, gave up everything, and came to Changcheng from Liu'an. It must have been mixed with too much anxiety.When I rushed to the school and saw her having so much fun with Lucky, I thought it would be okay, and I would be willing to pay whatever price it takes to get it back.

She turned around and realized something was wrong with me before I could.Without any hesitation, she stepped forward to pick up my luggage and took me home.Perhaps it was because a sick person would be particularly vulnerable, so I begged her in a low voice not to leave.Sure enough, she didn't even hesitate and stayed.There were clothes in the closet that she hadn't taken away before, and they were much looser after she put them on.I snuggled into her arms, and I couldn't help shivering at her trembling.

Her tenderness has not changed in any way from the past, but I hooked her and kissed her lips over and over again, indulgent and greedy.

After this night, I think we have entered into a strange circle.We seem to be getting back together. She didn't live in the dormitory with me on the first day, and she lost her temper and said harsh words, which made me laugh.But she was so nice in the back, I could even feel that she was spending all her time with me.

And we seem to be just lovers.In life, she took good care of me, but there was no sweet talk between them.It wasn't until Zou Chen's little Jiang Yan came and questioned him with a gun in his words, and after I explained, she got Zou Chen drunk and talked with me all night, and I finally understood what was going on in this guy's mind. Think about something.It's true that she is engaged in literature, so her imagination is too rich?Where did my fiancé come from? I don't know why?

No wonder I bought her something, but she took it, but there was always a bit of self-deprecation in her expression.This guy is really stupid when he reads books!

I remember Jiang Yan said: "Zou Chen, you have to force her to go, she has never made any decisions on her own initiative in her life."

And I was noncommittal, since I knew what was wrong with her, I had to find a way to cure her.I have to let her break through this barrier by herself and get enlightened.Otherwise, she will always have these strange ideas, and I don't want to spend the rest of my life just guessing.

Zou Chen finished his work and had to go to Sichuan soon.I waited for three full days before she went away, but no useful word came out of her mouth.After she left the dormitory with her luggage, I took Lucky home and regretted it.Curled up on the sofa alone, I slowly thought about the details of the reunion in the past six months, and the more I thought about it, the more I regretted it.I even thought of quitting my job and going to Sichuan to find her. This kind of thinking was absurd to me before, but now I think it makes sense.

But in the end she was the one I chose, and she didn't disappoint me.She rushed in as if she was fished out of the water, looked at me and ran into the kitchen again.I knew what she was looking for, and I couldn't help but look forward to it.

"Xiaoyan, I love you, I want to be with you, I don't want to be separated from you. I know that sometimes I'm too bored to tell you anything. I know that I said I trust you, but in fact I I didn't do it. Xiaoyan, I really can't do the work of a civil servant. It's too torture. Xiaoyan, can you not marry that Zhaozhouqiao? I can't stand it. Xiaoyan, my father actually agreed , he asked me to take you home for dinner, will you go?" She was a little stuttering at first, but the more she spoke, the more smooth and illogical she got out of her uncle, she had never seen someone who confessed and brought his own family .

I also didn't care about her giving people nicknames, and my hanging heart began to sink. Finally, after hearing her say "Xiaoyan, I don't want to be separated from you" with my own ears. , Get down to the ground.All my long-standing expectations for her have become reality, and I suddenly feel that these years seem like an instant, but they have become an eternity in front of these words.

For so many years, we have been entangled with each other and have grown up step by step.Fortunately, the love for each other never changes.Now I no longer think too highly of myself, and she also knows how to share with each other, echoing an old saying-keep the clouds open to see the moonlight.

After sending her to the airport, I returned home, replaced Lucky with an old collar, took a photo and sent it to Zou Chen.

Estimated time, I received a picture.Zou Chen was wearing the white T-shirt he took away from me, gesticulating with scissors, his eyes were bright and clear, and he smiled brightly.

When I was thirty and I was standing, I am glad you finally came back to me.