The three-year itch, the seven-year luck

?The winter smog in my hometown became heavier and heavier. When I came back, I was very uncomfortable and had two days of injections.I rented a house in a familiar area, and relied on the accounting certificate I got from my previous unit to get some work, and some scholarships, no more, no less, enough to pay tuition and support myself, not to mention that this is something I love so much, I am already satisfied.Occasionally at night when I go home with a late-night snack, when I meet cats and dogs on the road, I will think of my Lucky, wondering if it is as lucky as its name, and has a better owner—unlike me, who will eventually escape, Made a deserter.

I dare not think about this kind of memory, dare not indulge in it.I have thought about it countless times to accompany me, how sad I am after exhausting its life.Now it all stops abruptly and silently.Just like living abroad for the past two years, I only dared to keep myself busy endlessly, not daring to stop for a moment.

It was snowing then.On the way back to my residence, I suddenly thought of Xiaoyan's words: "Although Changcheng is cold in winter, it never snows. Will you take me to Harbin to see ice sculptures and snow in the future?"

"Are you okay?" She always said these three words softly, so I just wanted to answer her yes.Missing for a moment is like a flood, breaking down the dam I deliberately cast, leaving only the shell.That night, I went back to my residence, drank cold water, sat on the edge of the bed and looked out the window all night.

In fact, our problems exist unconsciously.From the day I doubted her, from the day I learned the truth, it took me a few days to tell her to install a camera at home.Subconsciously, I have always known that the gap has just appeared, but I am stubborn and unwilling to admit it.As for Xiaoyan, she has already noticed the problem between us, even though she is as smart as she is, she still can't figure it out.

This is a ditch dug by ourselves without knowing it, so if we are not careful, we are doomed to fall to the bottom and cannot climb up.

The days are going on normally, Xiaoyan continues to be busy with the subject she said, and I finally have the time to catch my breath after finishing the calculations. Lucky kept gaining weight and finally by the time I got back to normal weight, he was overweight.Since then, its snacks have been halved, and it's useless to me - it has to be to Xiaoyan.When I walked it in the morning, I had to carry the car down, and it dragged the car and dragged me to walk it.The little guy was aggrieved, but his nature is as active as it is, but he fell in love with the sport of pulling a bicycle. He dragged me past the community, and almost threw me out so many times.

Summer's tail, when Lucky finally threw me out, he broke the bone of the little finger of his left foot as a cutoff.It didn't hurt too much at the time. I have always been less sensitive to pain. I didn't realize it was wrong until I got home.When Xiaoyan saw my swollen bun foot, she checked the schedule and asked for leave from the Academic Affairs Office calmly. She came over to check, but her light touch made me cry out.So I didn't dare to delay any longer, I called the section chief to ask for leave, and hopped on one leg to fill up the dog food for Lucky who got into trouble. I don't know where she dug out the winter slippers to protect me downstairs.

Leaning on the co-pilot, Xiaoyan turned sideways to fasten my seat belt. I saw her eyes were red, and I gritted my teeth to tease her: "Look, steamed buns with human feet, what kind of flavor do guest officers like?"

She looked at me fixedly, then turned away and said nothing, her hand holding the steering wheel was very hard, and her knuckles collapsed tightly.I opened my mouth. After all, it was the first time I encountered a bone injury. I was already sweating from the pain, and I thought my face had changed.She drove very fast and arrived at the city hospital in a while.

After registering to take a film, he really broke his bone.During the whole process, Xiaoyan pursed her lips and kept a cold face, until the steel nails were fixed and a thick cast was applied, then her expression relaxed a little.

Of course, Xiaoyan took the medical records from the hospital to prescribe the false work at the unit. After she was discharged from the hospital and went home to start recuperating, I found out that Lucky had successfully lost weight.It seems that during the time I was hospitalized, Xiaoyan didn't care about it at all.Seeing me now, Xiaoyan was about to pounce on me, Xiaoyan yelled at it: "Go away!"

Lucky was wronged and lying on the side, with tears in his silly eyes.I looked so funny, sat firmly on the sofa, and waved to it, Lucky was very obedient, lying on my feet, licking my feet covered in plaster, whining twice. "Looking at you, you know you're crazy. You must be in trouble now. Sister Yan doesn't love you."

Xiaoyan took my luggage into the bedroom to pack, and couldn't hear my nonsense.I felt sorry for Lucky being so thin, I bent down and rubbed its head: "Wait for Sister Chen to cook something delicious for you, do you want chicken or cow?"

These days, Xiaoyan runs around from school to hospital, and she has also lost weight.I don't blame her for being angry with Lucky. Between me and her, only I am naturally fond of dogs. Lucky even said that he was a little afraid of Xiaoyan, and he was as obedient as a golden retriever in front of her, and he never saw anything messed up.

Rubbing Lucky's head for a while, a strange emotion came out of my heart.But before it was too late to study it quietly, Xiaoyan came out of the bedroom after tidying up, and saw that I was out of my mind, and felt a little helpless.

Raising my head, I have been used to her exquisitely dressed and perfect face in the past few years. I have never seen her look haggard without makeup.I couldn't show much affection to her in the hospital. This is home, but wanton indulgence can be tolerated.I bent the corners of my lips to ask her to sit over. She seemed unwilling to argue with me, but she followed my heart, leaned into my arms, and closed her eyes.

I looked at my watch, it was still early, and I said to Lucky, "Be good, son, go get your sister Yan a quilt."

"What are you messing around with? I have to cook for you later." Xiaoyan was a little surprised to see Lucky running into the study room and grabbing the little quilt that covers my stomach when I usually read.

"Stop cooking, I want to eat that chicken pot, and I'll order takeaway later. How about you, just sleep with me obediently. You can't sleep well in the hospital, and the clinical snoring is too bad." I looked after myself Looking for the most comfortable position, he put his left leg on the inside, and pulled Xiaoyan into his arms, using it as a human mattress for her, and covered the two of them with a shake of the quilt. Lucky has already lay down on the sofa by himself, resting his head on his paws, closing his beautiful double eyelids and getting ready to sleep.

"But you have to make up..." She was still about to say, I leaned over to cover those delicate lips, and sucked it lightly, and I was not satisfied with it after a while, lingering and lingering, lingering and lingering, reluctant to let go.

It's been a long time, we haven't kissed like this before, and finally our inner mind is raised again, I put our foreheads against her, closed our eyes, and let go of all scruples. "Zou Chen..." She called my name in a low voice with a helpless expression.I patiently coaxed her: "It's fine, it's fine."

Obviously exhausted, I patted her on the back lightly, and before I knew it, both of them fell asleep.In my dream, there was a vast ocean, but I fell into the sea, and everything I could see was blue, and I couldn't see my surroundings or myself clearly.

When I woke up, it was the sound of Lucky whooping, she was still sleeping soundly, I made a silent posture, Lucky stood obediently, and stopped screaming.Look at the watch, it's time for it to go out for activities on weekdays, but Xiaoyan is so asleep, how can I bear to wake her up?She was leaning on my right shoulder, her legs were far away from my left foot, her arms were wrapped around my neck, her breathing was shallow, and she was in a deep sleep.

It seemed that there was no other way, I made a gesture of waiting for Lucky, he was very smart, and ran back to his balcony to look at the scenery very unhappy, but I couldn't sleep, just thinking about things with the light coming in from the window.

During the hospitalization, I don't know how they knew, but they came from my hometown.His own biological parents are not as relaxed and comfortable as Da Zhou.However, my current appearance is much fatter than in college, my face is rosy, and Xiaoyan dislikes the uncomfortable hospital clothes, so I changed into the home clothes that Tete brought me. Anyway, generally speaking, I live very well, even Very moisturizing.

After a few polite words, I really lost my patience.My mother looked at me and hesitated to speak. After several times, I finally lost my patience and issued an order to evict the guest.Dad frowned the whole time, as if I owed him a lot of money.After they left, the patients in the same ward asked me who it was. It didn't look like visiting patients at all. I seemed to be absent-minded and didn't answer.

In my memory, my family is also ordinary. My mother is nagging and my father is very strict.But after that, in their eyes, my only daughter was like a scourge, a different kind, a monster, and an existence that could not be mentioned.What's more, they didn't hesitate to cut off my tuition and living expenses. What did my mother say at that time, oh, she said: "Zou Chen, we raised you and provided you with a good education, not for you to be so shameless Since you are obsessed with your obsession, then bear the consequences." I don't hate this, but at that time, facing an empty wallet, I suddenly understand the warmth and coldness of human relationships, and sometimes close relatives may not care about your next meal. There is no food to eat.

Now that I think about it, I have taken the consequences pretty well.Therefore, when we met unexpectedly, I was confident and confident, and I didn't feel that there was anything wrong with me.

Maybe the ones who will accompany each other in the future will not be the present each other, but I will remember what Xiaoyan did for me when we met and fell in love.Sometimes I also think, if she leaves me one day in the future, how should I live?

There is no answer to this question, the only certainty is that I am afraid that I will not be able to fall in love with anyone else in this life.The love she gave me is so beautiful, it is what I have been looking forward to, and it is also the plain feeling I have always been looking forward to.Maybe I will have a good impression of someone and like it, but for love, I can only give Xiaoyan——Yang Zhiyan.

About the matter of my parents coming, I hold it down, not going to tell Xiaoyan.Looking at the time, I felt that I had to wake her up, otherwise I would completely miss dinner time.I leaned over, bit her ear and called her, "Baby, it's time to wake up."

After calling a few times, she finally opened her eyes, with a hazy expression, I couldn't help kissing her forehead and eyebrows, and asked her one voice: "Baby, are you awake?"

She grabbed her body and sat up, hiding her shyness: "It's so nasty, ah, it's so late."

I touched my mobile phone, called for dinner, and said to her, "You go downstairs, Lucky, if you don't go, you have to stay at home if you don't go, and we have to clean up. Also, I want to eat oranges. Bring me some oranges. both."

Xiaoyan stood up and tidied her hair, changed her sneakers, took some change from her wallet, called at the door of the study, and said to me: "Be honest at home, wait for me to come back. I will wait outside, delivery If it comes, I’ll just lift it up. You’re not allowed to move around.”

"Understood, housekeeper." I remained motionless and pretended to be lying dead, Lucky slid down from the door in a hurry, it should be miserable.

Lying like this, I feel that I am too dirty, and I really want to take a bath.But looking at the plaster, I gave up anyway.If Xiaoyan finds out about this—it is inevitable, I will definitely not be able to get close to her for several days.

It's already early autumn, and I honestly wrapped myself in a thin quilt to watch TV, laughing out loud at the entertainers in variety shows.After nearly four or ten minutes, I heard Lucky's unique panting sound, and I knew she was back.

The door opened, and she was holding a huge takeaway in one hand, and a bag from the fruit supermarket at the door with two round oranges in the other.I wanted to rush over, so I bent down to look at her, staring at the bag. Lucky announced that it had returned to the territory with a howl, walked around the room twice, and obediently came over to use it as a floor mat for me.

"The oranges are not very good. You should eat them first, and I'll bring them to you tomorrow. Drink some water, and we're going to have dinner." Xiaoyan put down the oranges, went into the kitchen to get the tableware, I wiped my hands with a wet towel, and waited for dinner.

She always eats very little at night and pays attention to health preservation, but today she ate extravagantly with me, and even finished the large portion of chicken pot.I looked at the time, it was nearly nine o'clock, and I lay down on the sofa, feeling a sense of satisfaction spontaneously: "I'm exhausted, do you have class tomorrow?" Xiaoyan paused, then nodded: "It's in the afternoon, not in the morning go."

"Then how is your project? Are you almost finished?" I chattered casually, wondering how I could take a bath and feel comfortable. Xiaoyan cleaned up the mess, added more water to Lucky, and threw a few dogs at him Biscuit: "The process is going smoothly, and it's not too late. It should be completed by the end of the year."

She went into the bedroom, came out after a while, and said to me, "Take a shower?"

Look, she knew my thoughts so easily, "Okay, okay." She came over with a smile, as if reading a joke, and my old face blushed, but the situation was stronger than others, so I was obediently supported by her to take a bath.

After everything was tidied up, we hid under the covers and watched "Green Snake" together. Joey Wang was coquettish and dignified, Maggie Cheung was silly and sexy, and they were so beautiful.Old Monster Xu's works at that time showed a sense of compassion and compassion, which can no longer be felt in the current films.

Later, when I was abroad alone, I sprained my ankle on the streets of London, so I had to take two days off from the shop where I worked, and stayed in a small apartment to write my thesis.I have to jump around to do anything, which is very inconvenient.After washing at night, I hid in the narrow quilt, took out the tablet and watched a movie, watching the badly watched "East and West", tears kept streaming.

This is the first time I've shed tears after being separated for a whole year.I don’t know why, I’m afraid that missing me has already hollowed out me, only the so-called body.I have always wondered why I love her so much, but why I have come to such a point, separated by thousands of mountains and rivers, but I can't have a greeting.In the past years, I only remember her kindness, and the scenes occupy my brain and my heart, repeating and repeating.

And I can only watch myself sink, fall into such longing, sink forever, and never get out again. ?