The three-year itch, the seven-year luck

? By the time I got home with Lucky, it was already past eight o'clock in the evening. Lucky was led back from school by me. He was so hungry that he went to the balcony to eat.The light at home was on, Xiaoyan came out of the bedroom, her hair was wet, and she just took a shower.I turned around and pretended to take off my clothes and change my shoes to hide my uneasiness.She asked me: "Where did you go? Did you eat?"

She asked so naturally, and I answered naturally: "I have eaten." Then I stood up, gently held her in my arms, and subconsciously exerted force.Her body was scented with bath liquid, and her neck was still wet.I suppressed all my emotions so that I could pretend to be nonchalant and whisper in her ear: "Xiaoyan, happy birthday."

"What about my birthday present?" She didn't notice my abnormality, and didn't struggle, so she hid in my arms, acting softly and coquettishly.

I felt sore, thinking of the ring in my pocket, tears almost fell down: "I was supposed to cook noodles for you, but you are full, so you still don't want to eat."

"That won't work, I have to eat. Can you make it for me?" She was still the same, I gritted my teeth and said, "Then blow your hair and I'll cook the noodles for you."

The noodles were reconciled in advance. I kneaded, rolled and rubbed the noodles, washed the vegetables, and chopped the green onions.Everything is in accordance with the tradition of our hometown, a bowl of noodles is only one, and a bowl of sour soup noodles is cooked for her, with a poached egg on top and sesame oil.When I served the coffee table, she came over with a ponytail, with joy and a very happy look. Lucky had a full stomach and came over too.

This is a warm scene, and I don't know how I finished it.After all, Xiaoyan didn't finish eating the noodles, but she was unwilling to give up. I leaned over to suck the noodles and finished the rest of Herod.

When she was about to fall asleep, Xiaoyan lay in my arms.This is a tenderness I haven't had in a long time, but my mind is a mess.I pretended to be nonchalant and said, "The school is so bad that you are actually asked to work overtime at this time. I don't know if it's your birthday."

She muttered vaguely: "It can't be helped, but it solved a big problem after all."

big problem?It seems to be a problem between us.When Xiaoyan was tired, she fell asleep completely after speaking.And I was so stiff until dawn, I got up and went for a walk with the dog to cover up.

All day long, I was in a daze, my mind was in a mess, and I couldn't eat.However, the leader kept going to work, which also made me breathless.When Da Zhou walked away from get off work, I was still working on unfinished work.By the time I finished, it was already dark.The two missed calls on the phone were all from Xiaoyan.I didn't return, I leaned back and leaned on the chair silently.

I have thought about it a lot, from the time we met, to now, I just feel sad.If she has something to worry about, I never ask her more than once.Based on the principle of respect, she has always kept her circle at a respectful distance.In fact, why don't you think it's strange that you appear in her circle.And Xiaoyan just accepted that man's pursuit without saying a word, which made me not know how to deal with myself.Yes, that's right, from the moment I saw that scene, I believed that Xiaoyan had accepted it.Otherwise, she wouldn't have changed her clothes at school, and she wouldn't have gotten into someone else's car so calmly.

I think I'm still in love, it's just time to leave.Home?That can't go back.If I go back, there may be some harsh words, I can't bear it.But where else can I go?Looking at it now, it doesn't matter if I want this job or not. Now that I've left Xiaoyan, I don't have to care at all.

When this idea came out, I even listed many whimsical solutions.But when I reacted, I was frightened.Do you really want to leave her?We have known each other for six years and we have been in love for five years.Since the age of 22, she has been my obsession.But after thinking about it, it doesn't seem to be a big deal.

At this time, the phone turned on again. It was a text message, not Xiaoyan.I took it unconsciously, unlocked it and opened it, it was Xia Jin.I accidentally sent back a message: "What if I contact you?"

There was a reply soon. After reading it, I simply replied with one word: "Okay."

When I really came to London with my luggage, I realized that the change that one word brought to me can be described as earth-shaking.At this time, I have been away from Changcheng for half a year, and I have been busy with English and professional knowledge that I need to use. I am so busy that I have no energy to worry about other things.With the address in hand, I took a lot of effort to find a place to put down my luggage. I walked into the narrow bathroom and looked at myself in the mirror. In half a year, my hair had grown a lot, and I looked like I hadn’t developed my body in high school.I tugged at the corners of my mouth, intending to smile, so I had a face that was uglier when smiling than crying.

In a few days, Professor Zhang and the others will also arrive.When Xia Jin saw me, she obviously looked like she had seen a ghost: "Old Zou...are you playing Xiaoqian?" I smiled and said hello: "Lose weight, it seems the effect is remarkable!"

After dinner, Professor Zhang called me into the room, asked me a lot of relevant questions, and then nodded: "It seems that Xiao Xia is right, you haven't left the knowledge behind. I will say at the school, you close disciple I In the end, I still kept it. The time is very tight this time, the British only agreed to study for us for three months, and you are the person I brought with the worst education and the narrowest knowledge.”

I thought to myself, Professor, you don't have to bury me like this, but the latter sentence made my heart surge.

"But you are the most talented child I have ever seen in this aspect. Back then you left without saying a word, and I have always regretted not being able to find you earlier. Over the years, I have always wondered if you would give up because of tuition fees." Graduate school. If I had told you earlier about your graduate study, would you have a better life?" Professor Zhang's hair was gray, and his expression was gentle at this time, but what he said made me grateful—after all, when I was an undergraduate, I But only a few times with him.He thinks that I have such a bit of talent, which is so rare in today's society.

"Professor, don't worry, I won't run away." I held back my tears and promised him: "When your subject is finished, I will listen to your arrangement honestly and give you all the books I owe you in the past few years." Read it back. I will give you a lifelong blow and help you with the project."

"What nonsense, then I won't be an old goblin." He finally smiled, his face was full of wrinkles, and I said before going out: "Do your research well, and you won't lose your health, you know that?"

I nodded heavily outside the door: "I know."

So in the last few days when I was 27 years old, I went back to being a student, thinking that maybe this is what I owed, and I have to pay it back after all.

After the project was finished, Professor Zhang felt that my understanding of this aspect was very unique, so he used his personal relationship to let me stay here as a research assistant.The topic of the master's thesis he left for me was in this aspect, and I couldn't refuse it, so I had to agree.But I don't have much money, so I can no longer live in the apartment rented by the collective at that time.

I declined Professor Zhang's help, and I found a new house, and the money I got after finishing the project was just enough to cover my rent for four months.But how can you just sit and eat?The money from being an assistant is just enough to pay the rent, but I still have to eat.So I started doing various odd jobs. At first, I was cheated miserably, but later I became smarter and more courageous. I earned enough food for a week or even a week and a half in one day. Of course, don’t expect it to be so rich. As long as I don't starve I'll be thankful.

This stay is twelve months.I finally took a breather when I finished writing the thesis and sending it back via email.I am very tired. Every day I bury my head in the pile of old papers, read those Chinese characters, carefully flip through the transcriptions with gloves on, and my eyes are tired for a long time.But when doing these things, my heart is at ease.When I don't do this, I'm at a loss.

We have been separated for 22 months.I don't know if she is married, and if she is married, whether she will or has already had a baby.I don't know if Lucky is okay, I left in a hurry at the time, and it seemed to have the courage to chase me outside the community.Xiaoyan is not me, I don't have the patience to find a lost dog.

These, only late at night, when everything is quiet, I dare to think about it quietly.It is always myself who is tortured, but the road has gone and there is no turning back.

The international flight landed in Shanghai, and I transferred from here to my hometown, without saying hello to my parents, and went to school to register first.Professor Zhang saw me and said nothing else: "The paper is good, but the details need to be revised. I'll mark it out for you. Take a look and give it to me at the end of the month."

He typed it out, and I flipped through it roughly, marking each paragraph for me. "Thank you, Professor Zhang." Besides thank you, what else can I say?After chatting for a while, I said goodbye and left.I am not used to living in the dormitory, the reason is very ridiculous, I occasionally sleepwalk in the middle of the night, for fear of scaring people.But since it is my hometown, it is not difficult to rent a house.I found Fa Xiao Jiang Yan, who now runs a company, has a son and a daughter at home, and her husband is gentle, so she matches with a hot-tempered person like Jiang Yan.

When eating together, she didn't shy away from asking me what happened to me when I escaped all these years.I hesitated to speak, but she poured me on.I'm afraid even Xiaoyan doesn't know this method. I drink Qingdao Jiudu, and after three bottles, I will be in a half-dream and half-awake state.

Later, I thought, I was willing to drink exactly three bottles for her, probably because I was really aggrieved and wanted to talk to someone.

I've been talking on and off for a long time, and from the moment we know each other to the present, we haven't fallen behind at all.I think she will definitely scold me, because I fell in love with a better woman as a woman, and got to the point where I am now.

Unexpectedly, Jiang Yan lost his temper: "You just left the house like this?"

I nodded, and my last impression was that Jiang Yan started cursing, and I poured beer expressionlessly, completely drunk.

The house was found by Jiang Yan for me. It is near the school. It is a small apartment with furniture, and it costs [-] yuan a month.I think the price increase is still acceptable, after all, it is better than London.I simply bought some daily necessities, and I just moved in.Later, when I went home, it was an explanation to my parents - I went back to school, had a job, and could support myself, so don't worry about it.As for my mother's faint mention of wanting me to go on a blind date, I simply ignored it.

I can understand their thoughts, after all, here, there are only three people who know that I like women, besides myself.They may think that I have had enough fun, that I should settle down and start a family, and then take care of my husband and children, and move on to a "normal" life.I'm going to be thirty soon, that's right, I'm an older leftover girl.But so what?I know that I have someone in my heart, even though we can't be together, since I have her, if I go to get along with other people, I will feel sorry for others, and even more sorry for myself.

Professor Zhang probably knows about my situation, as long as I participate in the project, I will be paid.He's a rare breeze in his sleeves, and for that I'm grateful.Finally, the thesis was knocked and hammered, and finally successfully completed.The school finally admitted that Professor Zhang was right to pull me back after many years.These two years of suffering, in the end, can I get a master's degree in exchange for it.I took on some odd jobs by myself, and then continued to read, fulfilling my promise to Professor Zhang.

This so-called odd job is doing accounts.One of the survival skills left to me in those five years - I have an accounting certificate, and I am not bad at doing accounts.Coupled with the scholarship and the remuneration given by the professor, it is indeed enough to support me.

On this day, I just came out of the research group, and I received a call from my father, saying that he had arrived at school and wanted to chat with me.I touched my wallet and it was enough, so I met him and picked him up to a tea room opposite.

He has changed a bit, but he is still in the old style, with a serious and serious face.I silently sat opposite to drink tea, waiting for him to speak.

"Your mother thinks that no matter what, it's better here. So before I retire, I want to transfer it back to you after I have not retired." What he said was as I expected, and I waited in silence. "Who knew that you were so terrific that you resigned and disappeared completely. When we found your school to inquire, you had already gone abroad. I have no objection to coming back to study again. It's not good for girls to be in politics."

I'm a little annoyed, but I have to be patient and listen.

Dad didn't care how impatient I looked, and said to himself: "But look at your appearance now, how come the bigger you are, the worse you are before? I didn't feel too worried when you broke your foot, after all, you are so energetic It's all good. You quit your job, and your mother is angry, and I don't think there's anything wrong with it. After all, it's my daughter with a bit of courage. But why are you like this now?"

I was taken aback, a little overwhelmed.With that said, why does it sound like he is on my side?

Dad was a little embarrassed, took a sip of tea and continued: "I have also read many articles over the years. The Taiwan bill is often mentioned in the news, and I heard that it has passed the first trial. Your mother is stubborn, and when you were young, your great-grandpa That private school teacher is so stupid, I can't tell her, but I don't want to talk about her. Your father and I have been in politics for [-] years, if we don't know how to keep pace with the times, how many times will we have to step down. "

"Dad, are you okay?" I mumbled, a little dazed.

He finally looked unnatural, but he was still full of airs: "Your mother gave you a blind date or something, don't bother. Study hard and keep watch with other girls. When your mother has completely passed menopause, I will help you talk about it." .”

In the end, he still had a look of hating iron but not steel: "Look at what you've become!"?