I see the snow

It was another night of sitting from midnight to dawn.

Shen Yan supported the table, trying to stand up and stretch her legs.The courtiers outside the pavilion who were chasing fans for him had already fallen asleep leaning against the pillars, and the gorgeous feather veils were hanging down, about to fall to the ground.

Shen Yan wanted to stand up and walk around, but found that her legs and feet were already numb, and when she went down the steps, she staggered and almost fell.

This night he dealt with a book as high as a hill.

From Guanshan County's repeated urgent requests for relief, to Baiguan's request to strictly investigate and kill the wolf three stars.Shen Yan slowly turned over each letter, annotated and marked red.

Some people are kings, they eat the flesh and blood of the people, and they are greedy for a happy life; some people are kings, but they use their own flesh and blood to support the prosperity and peace of the world, so that thousands of people can live and work in peace and contentment on their own corpses.

It's just...it's just his own corpse.

Thinking of what was written in the memorial, Shen Yan smiled slightly: He will never implicate Chu Yuan.

"His Majesty……"

Seeing him coming down the steps, the waiting old prisoner hurriedly put on his coat for Shen Yan: "Go and sleep for a while. There is still a quarter of an hour before court."

Shen Yan waved her hand, signaling that she doesn't need a cloak.

"No need." He said softly, "I'll take a walk."

So Chun Yuan handed over the ginseng soup that had been boiled in advance, otherwise Shen Yan would not be able to hold on until the day when the ruling and opposition parties were cleared up after reading the booklets all night.

"Chunyuan."

Shen Yan walked slowly in the courtyard. This Xiangxuan Pavilion was where he often came to read and read classics when he was the prince, but the scenery in it often felt strange to Shen Yan.

It seemed that he had done something here, met someone here, but he couldn't remember it when he thought about it.

This hazy feeling is not good.

Shen Yan sighed lightly: "I'm only 25 years old, and my memory has already started to fail. I always forget this and that."

"how come?"

The old prisoner who has been serving Shen Yan since decades ago smiled slightly: "Your Majesty has the best memory among the princes. Back then, the Taifu praised you for your vivid memory."

"is it?"

Shen Yan paused slightly for the hand holding the porcelain lid of the cup: "I can't remember either."

"Your Majesty has been seriously ill."

The old prisoner sighed softly: "At that time you were so sick that you were unconscious, and it was the master of the young pavilion who guarded you for eight days and nights before you recovered."

"Oh, really?"

Speaking of this, Shen Yan was even more surprised.He knew that he had been ill for unknown reasons when he was 20 years old, but he had no memory of Chu Yuan once waiting to take care of him.

"That's why you said that you want to appoint Young Pavilion Master as the God of Stargazing, and this old slave has never objected."

Chun Yuan smiled slightly: "This old slave knows that Master Shao is the one who really cares about you."

Shen Yan was slightly silent. In the past, he was very happy to hear someone mention Chu Yuan to him, and he wished he could always talk about Chu Yuan.But I don't know since when, Chu Yuan and him got farther and farther away, and he didn't dare to mention this name again.

I only dared to take out his face, voice, and expression from the bottom of my heart in a certain late night that no one knew about, as if I wanted to stick it into my soul all the time.

"Where?"

After a long while, Shen Yan opened his mouth, but he didn't look like a high-ranking king at all. Instead, he looked like a puppy who wanted to go home after being discarded. He lowered his eyes slightly and asked the old supervisor: "The place where Xianyu took care of me, where is the place where Xianyu took care of me?" Where? Before I go to court, I will go and have a look."

"Your Majesty really don't remember?"

Now it was Chun Yuan's turn to show a look of surprise on his face, he said: "It's not far from here at the Cangyun Palace. Your Majesty passed by the Qixia Terrace several times, but never mentioned it. The old servant thought it was His Majesty." I thought it was bad luck and refused to go. Did you not remember?"

Shen Yan nodded, said with a wry smile: "I really forgot many things."

"—but maybe if you look at it, you'll be able to remember something."

Every pavilion in Jinghua Palace is majestic, exquisite and exquisite.Cangyun Hall is located in the south of Jinghua Palace. It was originally a beautiful and magnificent hall, but it was abandoned for a long time because of Shen Yan's illness.

When Shen Yan passed by, the hibiscus trees in front of the attic were all dead, and only a few bare branches stretched towards the sky, as if it was a legacy of the previous dynasty.

Indescribably lonely and desolate.

"Just wait here."

Shen Yan said, "I'll go in and see for myself."

The king in fine clothes climbed up the steps slowly, and when his hand touched the cold jade handrail, there was still slight dust accumulated on it.

Shen Yan walked in front of the pavilion, originally he could enter by pushing the door, but he struggled for a moment.

This is the place where he lived when he was seriously ill, but Shen Yan's memory of before and after the illness is quite vague.Even what Chunyuan said about Chu Yuan taking care of him was forgotten.

Originally, Shen Yan didn't think he cared much, but not long ago, the blood-stained black hair caught in the old book caught Shen Yan's attention.

He seems to have forgotten a lot of things...and those things are quite important.

Just like a wanderer who hasn't returned home for a long time is about to knock on the door of his former residence, Shen Yan clenches his fists tightly, then relaxes slightly, and then walks in.

In the closed attic where no one came in for an unknown period of time, there was a stale damp smell in the air.

The decorative china has been cleaned and put back in place.But for some unknown reason, when Shen Yan stepped into the attic, he suddenly felt oppressed and suffocated for no reason.

There seemed to be many memories flooding in, messy fragments suddenly pouring into his mind.

Shen Yan grabbed the skirt of his chest, and subconsciously wanted to retreat, but a voice told him that he could not come here——

But there was also another voice, he shouted with ecstasy, urging him to hurry up and get closer, to find everything back, so as to release his cage!

"Xianyu..."

Shen Yan's breathing was heavy and tight, and after only a short while, a layer of cold sweat covered his forehead.

——"No, Shen Yan... Shen Yan!"

His hand lightly touched a peony vase in the hall, and fragments of unexplained scenes flashed in front of his eyes in an instant. Shen Yan knew that this vase was put here later, and the one that was originally placed here was already gone. Broken.But how he knew, he couldn't remember.

—— "Shen Yan, let go of me, you can't do this!!"

——"I belong to your father... I am your father's stargazer!..."

Shen Yan was the only person in the empty pavilion, but when he looked up, he seemed to see two shadows who had been entangled here.

It was an extremely chaotic and perverted chase, full of bloody struggle and suppression.

A figure was dragged to the center of the hall from the stairs, the stairs, and the attic, and all the tables and chairs were thrown into chaos.It was such a pale and weak person, but no one with some conscience would have the heart to treat him like this, but that person with bloodshot eyes who had obviously lost his mind insisted on forcibly folding his wrist behind his back.

The snow-clothed man's face was covered with cold sweat, and his panting was broken, but he had no choice. In the pavilion with only two people, he had no way of escaping.

Can't escape either.

"Shen Yan..."

He reluctantly called his name softly: "It's me... Wake up. Don't you remember me? Don't give up... Wake up."

Shen Yan seemed to hear a person's voice saying this to him, but he shook his head, but couldn't remember that person's face.

Who, who was speaking to him like this?

At the same time, there seemed to be another person deep in his heart laughing wildly, "Stupid thing, remember quickly, who are you!!"

This kind of inverted trance made Shen Yan have a splitting headache. He propped his forehead and slowly sat down on the old chair as if he couldn't support it anymore. But as he came into contact with the things in the attic, his dizziness became more and more serious. Heavy--

It seemed that something that had been sealed in his heart was about to break out of control, and the secret and balance that had been carefully maintained for so many years could not be maintained after all.

Shen Yan had a terrible headache, staring at the jade porcelain floor that seemed to have double shadows, suddenly shook twice, and fell to the ground.

At the same moment, Chu Yuan, who was getting up in Qiu Xiatai to wash his hair, was waiting for Yan Jin to comb his hair. Suddenly, his heart ached, his pale fingers convulsed and clenched, and he fell on the side of the collapse, trembling and vomiting a mouthful of blood.

……

Zhen Guogong Mansion, Zhan Yuan.

Xihuai usually sleeps in a room in Yinzhichuan, but Zhanyuan, which is full of green trees in summer, is far cooler than Yinzhichuan.

Since a few days ago, Yinzhichuan has been staying at Xihuai's side.

They messed around all night again, at this time it was dawn, Yinzhichuan finally came to rest, he was sweating with his arms around Xi Huai, ready to fall asleep.

But after a while, he opened his eyes and found that the boy beside him was looking at him.

"how?"

So the corners of Yinzhichuan's lips couldn't help but curl up, he hooked a small strand of Xihuai's hair and wrapped it around his fingertips to play with: "Don't want to sleep yet? Then let's do it again?"

Xi Huai shook his head and did not speak.

The young man has a thin nose, fair skin, and black and curled eyelashes.While lying on his side quietly looking at people like this, the hazy morning light from outside the window shone in and happened to fall on his eyelashes.

It seems that a layer of gold powder has been sprinkled on the black and long eyelashes.

"You kiss me."

After a long time, Xi Huai said suddenly.

"what?"

Yin Zhichuan froze for a moment.

"You kiss me."

Xi Huai repeated it again.

"Didn't you kiss me just now?"

Yin Zhichuan's finger was on the young man's collarbone, and he slid down slowly, one of them slid to his chest, and poked it lightly, with a playful and frivolous smile on his face: "Haven't you kissed enough yet?"

"Kiss here."

Xi Huai touched his lips and said in a low voice.

"Okay."

Yin Zhichuan leaned over and kissed him on the forehead, the corners of the eyes, and the corners of the lips: "You can do whatever you want. Sweetheart."

Xi Huai didn't speak, just covered his heart with his hands, closed his eyes and listened for a while.

It seems to be feeling something carefully.

"What the hell are you listening to?"

Yin Zhichuan looked at him for a moment, and seeing his serious and quiet appearance, he couldn't help but stretch out his hand to pluck the boy's curled black eyelashes.

"..."

Xi Huai was silent for half an hour.After a long time, when Yinzhichuan thought he was going to fall asleep, the boy opened his eyes again.

It's just that his eyes seemed a little dazed and shocked, and he murmured after a long time:

"...It seems that it has really become faster."

"My heartbeat, after you kissed me, really got faster."