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Day after day, Chu Haoran lived very well in the country of America, and his condition was relieved to a great extent, but the contact between him and Lou Xiangsi became less and less, to the extent that they hardly communicated for a whole year However, at first, Chu Haoran thought it was because Lou Xiangsi was delayed because of some things, and he also thought that Lou Xiangsi was about to come to the United States and reunite with him. He fantasized and expected night after night, but gradually calmed down in disappointment. Feeling.

His heart was like still water, and he began to slowly run his own business in the United States. He knew that there was something wrong between himself and Lou Xiangsi that made Lou Xiangsi cut off contact with him, but he never thought about it, he worked hard. Let yourself become a more mature person, stop being a person who is afraid of what others think, and become a real grown-up adult.

He always thought that by dressing up like an adult and showing some adult behaviors, he really grew up and became an adult. It turned out that he had not got rid of his childish thoughts, and he had been hiding in the house built by Lou Xiangsi like an adult. Children also only feel safe and at ease, repeatedly ignoring how cruel this society is.

It has been so long that Chu Haoran has forgotten how long he has stayed in the country of America. He has thought about going back to the country of China more than once, and wanted to ask Lou Xiangsi why he has not contacted him for so long. Later, his relationship became weaker and weaker. , This matter became a grudge in his heart.

He can still laugh heartlessly, but he still feels very lonely being alone in his room overlooking the panoramic view of the city.Until one day he realized that he had been single for a long time and couldn't be tempted by the people around him, but he longed to no longer be alone. He knew that he should go back, and he should end his relationship when he went back.

He bought the earliest flight and flew back to Huaguo. He came to the place where Lou Xiangsi stayed, but found that Lou Xiangsi no longer lived here. He seemed to have lost track of him very early. No one knew where he was going where.

Chu Haoran visited many of their friends back then, and even went back to Lou Xiangsi's hometown, only to get a fact that made him feel very sad and unbelievable. Lou Xiangsi had already passed away in a car accident.

The reason why this news was not told to Chu Haoran was because when Lou Xiangsi's family was sorting out Lou Xiangsi's funeral, they did not think of contacting Chu Haoran who was far away in the United States, nor did they tell Lou Xiangsi's past friends.

Seeing the indifferent expressions and eyes of Lou Xiangsi's family members, Chu Haoran finally understood what he had missed.He asked where Lou Xiangsi's tomb was, and said goodbye to Lou Xiangsi's family.

In front of Lou Xiangsi's tomb, Chu Haoran had a stern face, and put the flowers in his hands beside the tomb. There was no one in the gray cemetery in the early morning, and even the guards of the cemetery were called by Chu Haoran early. Together, it opened up this land inhabited by the undead.

He looked solemn, as if he was the elder at a funeral. Even though the relatives behind him were crying heartbroken, he still stood upright, standing at the front of the crowd, guarding the coffin, as if he was guarding the coffin that had not yet dispersed. The soul far away, no one in the family has experienced more life and death than him, he has already looked away, but watched this world silently with this sadness.

However, there was no one in the empty cemetery, and even the cemetery guard, who was called up early, went back to sleep because of sleepiness, and seemed to realize that no one in this cemetery could perceive his fragility. He was blown by the bleak morning wind like a piece of paper, and he knelt on the ground, looking at the photos on the tomb.

He didn't say anything, tears were already falling.He only hated himself why he didn't come back to find Lou Xiangsi earlier, why did he guard his poor self-esteem and refused to come to this place?If he had made up his mind earlier, he could have met Lou Xiangsi, and perhaps the tragedy would not have happened.

Chu Haoran's thoughts were very complicated. He thought a lot, but he didn't understand anything. He thought about countless possibilities, but he didn't want the reality in front of him to happen again.But he found that no matter how he imagined, he couldn't change the situation in front of him. He had a splitting headache, tears fell down like a broken thread, the sky was slightly brighter, the thin red sunset rose from the horizon, and the thin yellow The bright sunlight cast on the empty space, and even the hope in my heart became very weak.

Chu Haoran just knelt on the ground like this, the tears had dried up on his face long ago, Chu Haoran seemed to have forgotten the time, kept kneeling on the ground, his eyes were dull, as if looking at the unknown world through the distance, but everyone understood That is already impossible.

Until the voice of talking was heard not far away, it was the first group of people who came to visit their deceased relatives. They looked at the kneeling figure in the morning light, and felt curious in their hearts, but they had no extra thoughts, just slowly approached him.

Chu Haoran stood up suddenly, startling the people behind him. He quickly turned around and walked away. The people behind him didn't see his face clearly, but lost their short-term vision because of the glare of the sun. line of sight.

The last scene is placed on the figure who walked away firmly and silently.

As soon as he heard the sound of the end, Yan Shaoxing couldn't help but his legs went limp, and he knelt on the ground, his eyes were a little preoccupied, and he couldn't think about anything.

"Xiang Si." Yan Shaoxing just kept calling Xiang Si's name, his eyes were blank.

Mai Yantong, who has been worried about Yan Shaoxing, has been paying attention to his state. Seeing Yan Shaoxing collapsed on the ground, he rushed forward, supported him, and called his name: "Shao Xing, How are you doing?"

But this time, Yan Shaoxing did not recover.

After thinking for a while, Mai Yantong understood Yan Shaoxing's state at the moment. In order to stabilize Yan Shaoxing, he shouted in a slow tone: "Hao Ran."

Only then did Yan Shaoxing come back to his senses, looked at Mai Yantong, hugged him as if hugging the whole world, and said, "Xiang Si, you're still alive."

"Well. Come with me, okay?" Mai Yantong pulled Yan Shaoxing up, looked at the director who looked at them with concern, shook his head, and said, "It's okay, I'll take him to relax. Propaganda that neither of us will show up."

The director nodded, originally he was also worried about Yan Shaoxing's mental state, but with Mai Yantong around, he was relieved a lot.

"Okay." Yan Shaoxing looked at him, smiled, and recovered a lot, with a faint smile on his face.

Mai Yantong frowned even deeper, he knew that Yan Shaoxing's condition had become worse at the moment.

Mai Yantong brought Yan Shaoxing directly to the psychiatrist's place. He had brought Yan Shaoxing to consult several times before. It was best not to act in this play again, but under Yan Shaoxing's insistence on acting, Mai Yantong still agreed to his request to act.

But with the death of Lou Xiangsi at the end, Yan Shaoxing's spirit has completely collapsed. He has been too involved in the play, and he can no longer distinguish what is reality and what is a character in the script.

The psychiatrist seemed to have long thought that Mai Yantong would come to him again, but at this moment he had no better idea. He just told Mai Yantong: "The matter has come to this point, there is no better way. I hope you can take him out more to relax , get in touch with the real world more.”

The doctor hesitated for a moment, then added another sentence, and said, "Actually, the reason why he got into the play so much is because he always has a heart disease in his heart. He has a strong sense of substitution in this play, so he has so much mental pressure. , and finally collapsed."

"I understand." Mai Yantong nodded, looked at Yan Shaoxing who was looking at him curiously, and touched his head, feeling extremely distressed, but he understood that there is no better way to solve this matter so far .

Mai Yantong took Yan Shaoxing back to their island again, and they returned to the time when they had only each other.

Yan Shaoxing was very happy, the only thing that made Mai Yantong feel bad was that in Yan Shaoxing's eyes, he was still just Lou Xiangsi.

Until Mai Yantong couldn't stand it anymore, Yan Shaoxing's loss of control also brought him great mental pressure. When Yan Shaoxing was in love, he called Lou Xiangsi's name, and Mai Yantong felt cold and stopped his own words. He moved, looked at Yan Shaoxing, and said coldly: "Look at me carefully, and tell me, who am I?"

Without any hesitation, Yan Shaoxing replied firmly, "Lou Xiangsi."

A trace of anger flashed across Mai Yantong's face. He knew that he couldn't blame Yan Shaoxing, but he still felt very angry. He felt that Yan Shaoxing regarded him as someone else, even if the other person was him. But he still felt unwilling.

"Yan Shaoxing, tell me, do you really love Lou Xiangsi?" There was a hint of sadness in Mai Yantong's tone. These days, he has endured more than Yan Shaoxing, and he is also like Yan Shaoxing. He felt as sad as Xing, but his strong psychological quality allowed him to persevere until now.

A trace of confusion flashed across Yan Shaoxing's eyes.

Mai Yantong sighed, and then said: "You know right? You just imagined Chu Haoran's experience as your own. But you know that we will never become like that, I will not give up on you, and I'll protect you, right?"

When Mai Yantong didn't notice, Yan Shaoxing's tears had already flowed down his cheeks, but he still didn't speak.

Mai Yantong hugged him distressedly. He always thought that the optimistic Yan Shaoxing was stronger than he imagined, but he didn't expect him to have such a fragile side, and said: "Whoever hurts you, I will protect you." Good you, trust me."

"Why?" Yan Shaoxing almost broke down in tears and said, "Why can't we be together properly? In our own home, we seemed to have done something shameful and were kicked out of that homeland, but obviously We didn't do anything wrong, did we?"

ending

Mai Yantong hugged him silently, feeling sorry for the pain he was going through at the moment, opened his mouth, hesitated for a long time before answering: "I've always been here."

"What did we do wrong?" Yan Shaoxing looked at Mai Yantong and felt even more sad. The man in front of him shouldn't be so helpless. Yan Shaoxing's sanity became very clear, and he suddenly felt as if He is still the little boy abandoned by his father, silently learning to grow up, and silently becoming a person who can stand on his own.

At this moment, it should be him standing beside Mai Yantong strong and confidently, instead of hiding behind this man timidly, only letting this man bear all this alone.

Yan Shaoxing closed his eyes, wiped away his tears, smiled, and said, "We can live a good life, but it's not for others to see, as long as we know it ourselves."

"In the past, I always wanted to escape from my original world." Mai Yantong's eyes passed Yan Shaoxing, as if he was looking at that ethereal and unoriented place, he paused, and then said, "Since childhood At the beginning, I hated everything around me, I hated the people from the Mai family who always held prejudice against me, I hated everyone from the Mai family who treated me in a negative way, but you are the only one who is different. I want to escape To leave that world, but I found that there was nothing I could do but accept."

"But I am not reconciled to such a fate. I have fought again and again. I have always understood that to get rid of them completely, what I need is my own strength. Maybe I can't choose what kind of environment I was born in, but I can go Choose what kind of environment you will live in in the future.”

"Maybe it's too late when I can really be independent. But I still think it's enough." Mai Yantong looked at Yan Shaoxing, his eyes were full of exhaustion, he had worked very hard these days, No matter how strong a person is, there is always a weakness in his heart.

"As long as we live our lives well, that's enough." Yan Shaoxing smiled, kissed Mai Yantong, and continued, "It doesn't matter where we live or how we live. As long as we feel good, that's fine. Isn't it?"

Yan Shaoxing hugged Mai Yantong tightly, and said, "Actually, this world is still very kind to us, isn't it? Even though a lot of people around have puzzled and malicious looks at us, there are still a small group of people and We are the same, we are not alone."

Mai Yantong nodded, hugged Yan Shaoxing tightly, and replied, "So let's live a good life."

Yan Shaoxing thought for a moment, and said: "I don't want to make movies anymore, I have experienced too many things in the entertainment industry, even though I know that the entertainment industry I have experienced is much simpler than the entertainment industry you have experienced, because it is Under your protection, but I still can't stay in the entertainment industry anymore."

"Okay, you can make up your mind." Mai Yantong stroked his head, and both of them felt the warmth.

"I want to open a candy store, so that I can eat sweet candies every day. By the way, it would be good to open another dessert store." Yan Shaoxing smiled like a child.

Mai Yantong nodded and said, "Candies and desserts have become a store."

Yan Shaoxing slipped into his arms and smiled, feeling as sweet as eating candy.

===

Return is the best theme of the whole winter.

Mai Yantong and Yan Shaoxing, who caused a bloodbath in the entertainment circle back then, returned to China again, and this time they brought their most perfect works.

"Still Water" was a global box office hit, with public releases in every country where homosexuality was rationalized, and it was the highest-grossing film of the year.

Even in Huaguo, "Static Water" was circulated in private, and while countless people were moved, some homophobic people made their voices and severely criticized these acts.

No one has forgotten that a year ago, when "Static Water" had just finished filming and was about to be released.Mai Yantong, who hadn't been active for a long time, suddenly posted a long list of statements on Weibo.

It deeply condemned those who opposed the relationship between the two of them and caused serious psychological harm to them, and at the same time expressed his anger because Yan Shaoxing suffered from severe depression, but this statement was quickly deleted as soon as it was issued All Weibo, people can only share this incident around by keeping screenshots.

At that time, "Static Water" hadn't leaked any rumors in Huaguo, and no one knew that the protagonists of "Static Water" were the two of them, until a wind of "Static Water" swept the entire Huaguo.

Whether it is a positive comment or a malicious negative comment, it is undeniable that "Still Water" has attracted great attention.

The high degree of attention in the world has allowed them to win multiple Oscars in one fell swoop, and they have become countless same-sex-themed movies that are widely recognized.

And under the director's many exchanges and contacts, the door of Huaguo was also opened for "Still Water", although this is the result of a compromise in "Still Water" where some scenes were largely deleted.

And Mai Yantong and Yan Shaoxing attended the screening ceremony of "Stop Water" in China as the leading actors.

At the meeting, Mai Yantong and Yan Shaoxing were very energetic, wearing exquisite suits, standing there, more beautiful than a painting.

The people sitting in the audience were all big names in the industry. They were invited by Mai Yantong and Yan Shaoxing to participate in the screening. Yan Shaoxing sat on the stage and looked at the familiar faces of the people in the audience. Unhappy, he cleared his throat and introduced the movie.

Facing the reporter's question, he answered calmly. Although the reporter repeatedly made things difficult, Yan Shaoxing still answered these questions with a smile, and repeatedly hoped that the public could understand the relationship between them.

Although there were many twists and turns in the screening ceremony, and he also encountered some malice, but the matter finally ended satisfactorily.

With the blessings of some people and the abuse of some people, they finally returned to the United States without regret. Perhaps when there is more tolerance there, they will return to their own country.

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"Ah, this candy looks delicious." A six-year-old kid lay on the counter filled with candy, kept looking at it, swallowing his saliva, but when he saw the price tag next to it, his face revealed disappointment.

Seeing the eager eyes of the child, the boss smiled, took out a small paper bag from the side, gave the child two candies, handed it to the child, and just smiled.

The child said sweetly: "Thank you." He hopped away with the small paper bag.

The boss saw the background of the child going away, smiled, but felt annoyed, and said, "Will I accompany the whole store with me?"

Standing aside, Mai Yantong couldn't help laughing, tapped Yan Shaoxing's forehead, and said, "What are you afraid of? I'll just support my family."

Yan Shaoxing twitched the corners of his mouth, and seemed to say helplessly: "Okay." He exchanged a sweet kiss with Mai Yantong, but he felt a little embarrassed after the kiss. Didn't notice these.

Mai Yantong clasped Yan Shaoxing's fingers tightly, and refused to let go no matter what.

Yan Shaoxing had a helpless expression on his face, and was arranging things with the other hand.

The guests seem to have long been used to the two bosses of this store always showing affection, which is not unusual in this country. They enjoy the warm and safe feeling brought by this candy and dessert house, and feel the warmth of the afternoon sunshine.

The boss doesn't seem to care about making money, he always gives rich things to the guests, and always gives some candy to the children.Occasionally they would see some security guards standing guard around the candy and dessert house. At first they were very scared, but until there was a terrorist attack or a malicious shooting on the street, this house became the safest existence, and a large number of them quickly poured out When people come to protect this hut.

The guests realized that the confectionery house gave a sense of security.

The owner of this candy and dessert house seems to be a great person on the outside, but the two of them in this room at the moment are a very happy couple.

The guests sometimes wonder why they want to open a candy and dessert house here. When they sit in this room, eating sweet things and enjoying the sunshine, they seem to be able to understand the boss's heart It's sweet.

Many things in the world are not as important as they think. Some people would rather have a quiet afternoon than the busyness that does not belong to him.

The guests sometimes come here with a book, listening to the boss talking nonsense about the contents of the book with them, and finally the boss smiles big, they seem to have found the true meaning of life.