Rebirth of self-redemption

I'm needed.When I went to beg you, you must have laughed at me in your heart, right?When I rejected you when you had nothing, and now I come to you again, I probably called you brothers and sisters because of money. "

I don't think I think so, but I'm also a little uncertain, and even I can't figure out my own thoughts.However, who can be blamed?All my teenage flair, all my enthusiasm was drained in the three years since I came out.The poor life, Le Yang's rejection, the gossip from classmates and teachers, the accident where he was ordered to drop out of school, and the death of both parents are enough to make an immature teenager collapse.It's just that I didn't choose to collapse, I chose to change.

I can't change the environment, I can change myself.

That's why I am who I am now.Even, I don't know if the pure love for Le Yang is still there.The only thing left is his own instinct, instinctively wanting to take him as his own.

"I'm not reconciled, Song Qi, am I going to live like this all my life? Just because of my alcoholic father, I have to spend my whole life with me? I even regretted it a little at the time. But it was my father after all. "

"Yang Yang found me and promised me a lot of money. Don't you think the company is very important? But now you are dead. To tell you the truth, I said I don't love you, and I never Lied to you. I, Yu Leyang, have never liked men since the beginning. Not now, and never will. Both of you make me feel sick! But I can't stand that you don't love me after being nice to me for three years I won’t get anything in the end, you’ll get tired of it sooner or later, you’ll find another person, spoil him like you loved me, I won’t let this happen, so you have to die.”

So that's why he wanted to kill me.

I gave him all the love of my life, but the reason why he wants to kill me is because he thinks I don't love him?

I feel my failure as a human being.

I looked at him silently.Complicated feelings.

I know Yang Yang won't let him go, he won't let himself be held in someone else's hands, Le Yang won't survive a week.But so what?Do I still have to worry about him?For someone who doesn't love me, but kills me for money?The moment I died, I was exhausted physically and mentally, and I couldn't love anymore.

But what I can't figure out is why Le Yang said that both of you make him sick.

Who is the other person?Yang Yang?Does Yang Yang also have such thoughts for him?

I looked at him without emotion, not knowing how to get away even though I had no interest in witnessing his death.

Could it be that I still want to be a conscious body and follow him until he dies?

As soon as I thought this way, I felt the world spinning for a while, and the world in front of me began to turn white.

Dimly, I have a kind of consciousness.

This time I really want to leave.

My, Song Qi, my short but long life has come to an end in this way.

I felt a little out of breath, with a tightness in my chest.This is what it feels like to be a human being.

When I opened my eyes suddenly, it was pitch black.

I reached out and touched my forehead, sweating profusely.

Confusion and confusion gradually flooded into my heart.Am I not dead?Feeling the firmness of the bed beneath me, I frowned.If God told me at this time that everything before was just a dream I had, then this joke is really big.

Suddenly, there was a soft snoring sound from somewhere in the darkness.Immediately afterwards, there was a soft murmur, "Xu Yue...Xu Yue..." It seemed to be a dream, but it was enough for me to judge the identity of that person and my current position.

After thinking for a while, I finally remembered that Xu Yue was the object of pursuit of my college roommate Li Mian in his freshman year.Almost every night I dream of calling her name.I'm impressed.

As for this place, I squinted my eyes, and the thin moonlight shone in from the window, spreading silver frost on the ground.I try to think back, it seems to be my college dormitory.

What are you kidding?After being hit and killed by a car, it brought me back to the university school that was like purgatory for me at the time?

I couldn't believe it, and at the same time, a stronger sense of weirdness hit my heart at this moment. Why do I always feel that something is wrong?The softness of this bed is not like the bed I have slept in for two years, but I am sure that I am in my own bedroom. What is wrong?

When my head was in a mess, there was a slight sound of opening the door, and a black figure crept towards me. I squinted my eyes and couldn't see who it was.But what is there to be afraid of who has died once?He didn't seem to notice that I was awake, and slowly climbed up the bed from the escalator next to him, trying not to make a sound.

I felt a cold shadow on my hand, I slowly raised my hand, it was a luminous watch.It was showing the time 11:29.This watch is not mine, and neither are these hands.

In our school, the lights are usually turned off at 11:00 and the door is closed at 11:30.And coming back so late, there is only one person in our dormitory.And I stayed here for three years in college, and I always slept in the upper bunk.The current position is obviously wrong.

An extremely absurd guess came to my mind.

I swallowed a mouthful of saliva in my dry throat, I tried my best to ignore my beating heart, and opened my mouth, "Song Qi?" Qingyue's male voice was not my voice at all.

The person on the bed turned over, and there was no sound for a moment. Just when I was about to question my conclusion, a soft "Is there something wrong?" floated down from above.

Now I can't even lie to myself.

I was reborn into my college moment as my own roommate.

I am not familiar with the original owner of this body, to be precise, I am not familiar with anyone in this dormitory or even this school.No one wants to be involved with a gay man with a reputation.

The person who slept on the lower bunk at that time, that is, the person I am now, is called Gu Jianzheng. I actually have a deep impression of him.There is no other reason, because he has too much personality—even though he has excellent grades and is loved by teachers, in the entire university, the number of people who have spoken to him is no more than a single digit, and he exudes an aura of not getting close to strangers all day long .

Although it is a dormitory, I haven't spoken a word to him.

Probably this is also the reason why I called Song Qi just now, and the past me was stunned for a long time before answering.

There was no movement on the upper bunk for a long time, and I didn't speak anymore. I knew that Song Qi must be in an inexplicable situation now, but I didn't intend to continue to explain the reason for calling him.He can think whatever he likes, now my situation is even more chaotic than his, and I don't even have the heart to take care of others.

This sleep was very restless, and fragments of memories that did not belong to me swept towards me quickly in my sleep, filling my memory.

With a splitting headache, I accepted all the memories of the original owner.

Gu Jianzheng's past is as boring as I imagined.

He is a robot-like guy who only knows how to read from a perfect family. His father owns a company and his mother is a senior engineer. They rarely take care of him.Gu Jianzheng not only seldom talks at school, but also at home, and his parents also seldom talk, no wonder they raised such a son.

Besides, there are almost no friends.

In my opinion, this cannot be called apathy, but a personality disorder.

When I woke up the next day, it was just dawn, and my whole body was covered in cold sweat from last night's dream. I dreamed about the scene before my death again, and there was a faint hatred in my heart.

This body probably has developed a biological clock for waking up regularly, so there is no alarm clock at all.

I found the cabinet corresponding to the position of the bed, and took out the bag that used to belong to Gu Jianzheng and now belongs to me.

Looking at the three people sleeping soundly in the dormitory, his gaze was fixed on Song Qi's bed for a while, and the strange feeling in his heart was a bit lingering - going back many years ago, he and himself became like strangers.

I quietly walked out of the bedroom.

All the way out of the dormitory door, came to the deserted playground.

Looking at the extremely familiar and unfamiliar scenery in front of me, my emotions are so complicated that it is difficult to describe.I haven't been here for nearly two years, nothing has changed, Song Qi is still the same Song Qi, the weak and stupid self, the one who still has expectations for the teacher and the school.

The one I loathe.

And I became Gu Jianzheng.

I took a deep breath and cleared my chaotic thoughts.He took out the original owner's mobile phone from the bag, and opened the screen lock according to the picture in memory.

After confirming the time, I put the phone back into the bag, threw the bag on the stone steps beside the playground, and started a day of morning exercise, running five laps around the playground.This is not only a habit left by the original body, but also a habit I have had in the past two years.Only by being healthy can I live better and longer, and then I can take revenge on those who provoked me back then.Sometimes when I think about it, maybe my life is the best revenge for them. At that time, I can crush them to death like an ant at any time.

This year is 20xx, I am a freshman.

It's been less than three days since rumors of my coming out and photos of me going to a gay bar spread, and it's time for speculation.

It was also when I was still cautiously trying to curry favor with Yu Leyang, but he turned a blind eye to me.

I don't intend to use my current identity to appear in front of everyone as a protector. The first is that I don't want to get into trouble. The current Song Qi is at best a stranger to me.Second, as I said, I hated my past self so much, I think he should be taught a lesson for his stupidity