Rebirth of self-redemption

Then he opened his eyes, and met Song Qi's flustered gaze that he didn't have time to look back.He froze there, maintaining a distance of no more than five centimeters from me, as if he didn't know what to do.

I suddenly remembered that he had the same expression when I drove him home not long ago and said the words of rejection to him.

Why is he always so cautious?

I was a little taken aback.

In just one second, many things that should not be remembered at this time suddenly flashed through my mind.

I saw him sitting next to me, trying not to watch me eat; the sparkling eyes when he put his face on my neck when he was drunk and looked up at me; his lonely and desolate figure when he walked out of the hospital gate alone.

After he was hurt, he could still smile optimistically; after being kidnapped, he could still think about the interests he never wanted to think about for me.

While sitting in the passenger seat, he hummed along with the music, "Although this life is like a journey, it is only complete after it has passed.

Who never doubted, believed, hurt, left,

It's all worth it. "

is this me?I looked at this Song Qi who became uneasy because of a stolen kiss, and thought to myself.

Never knew I could be such a wonderful person too.

Suddenly I didn't want to think too much, because it was so beautiful here, it made me dizzy.

So I did as I thought.Even though I might regret this decision afterwards.

I reached out and pressed Song Qi's head, and pulled him down again, deepening the kiss just now.

32

I think, I like him.

If I defended and helped him at the beginning, it was to prevent that tragic fate from repeating itself, and it was to take revenge on those two people who murdered me.Then drinking with him, sending him back to school, giving gifts to his house on Christmas Eve, and the fear of his being kidnapped are not explained by those ordinary reasons.

These, I don't know clearly, but I have been avoiding them.

Because I still don't know if it's right or not.

Being with Song Qi gave me a sense of incest-like disobedience.This is the biggest reason preventing me and Song Qi from further developing.

But in this place, my emotions beat my reason one step ahead.

Song Qi has always maintained the posture of lying on my body, his whole body is stiff.

I asked for it between his lips and teeth without any scruples. Feeling the cold face of this man, I frowned indiscriminately, stretched out my warm hands to cover his ears, and continued.

After an unknown amount of time, Song Qi seemed to lose half of his strength.I let go of his lips, sneered and pressed his face down to my side, then turned my head and whispered in his ear: "What? Weren't you very courageous when you stole the kiss just now? How do you talk to him now?" motionless like a log?"

Song Qi struggled to get up, looked at me incredulously, his face was flushed.

I folded my hands behind my head, looking back at each other in a leisurely manner.

"Gu Jianzheng, you just..." Song Qi struggled for a long time but could not utter a word.

"You didn't sleep just now?"

I raised my eyebrows, seeing that the other party regretted asking such a stupid question, I sneered shamelessly.

"If you want to ask something, ask quickly."

Encouraged by me, Song Qi immediately strengthened his courage: "You just came back with a kiss, right?"

I looked at him quietly without answering.Isn't this obviously nonsense?

"That is to say," Song Qi swallowed, and looked at me nervously: "Are you willing to accept me and be with me?"

Looking at the other person's face full of excitement and anticipation, I suddenly felt in a trance.

This sentence is with me, it seems to have magic power, and a small ripple fainted in my heart.Even the trace of regret caused by his impulsiveness just now disappeared completely.

Looking at the other person's gradually becoming anxious eyes, I chuckled: "Yes."

Yes, you beat me to it.

On the way back to school, the smile on Song Qi's face never stopped.No matter how I looked at it, I felt stupid, and I couldn't stand it anymore, so I said with a little disgust: "Don't laugh."

"……I can not hold it in."

Song Qi stretched out his hand and rubbed his face vigorously, his face was flushed red.

"What are you doing?" I couldn't help but reach out to stop this fool from self-harming.

"Hey," Song Qi turned to look at me with bright eyes, "Let me see if I'm dreaming."

"What's the conclusion?" I actually started to follow him stupidly.

"Not dreaming."

After a while, he said again: "Gu Jianzheng, thank you."

Hearing the strange tone of the other party, I frowned.Song Qi didn't look at me, he seemed to be looking at the road ahead seriously, the corners of his eyes were slightly red.

I froze for a moment, feeling an unspeakable sourness in my heart.

"I didn't expect much from your response," Song Qi said seriously, "I've already decided to stay in the corner and not speak, watching you for the rest of my life."

Since rebirth, I have always disliked his tone of inferiority and weak attitude.But never more than at this moment, I feel sorry for this young man who expresses despair.

"Song Qi." I called his name in a firm tone: "It's not necessary."

You don't need to stay in the corner, watch silently, and be so humble.Because you already have that aboveboard capital - from the moment I responded to you.

Song Qi seemed to understand what I said, and suddenly stopped, turned his head and looked straight into my eyes: "Then can I speak now?"

"What?" I didn't respond at first.Then I remembered that I should have interrupted him in the coffee shop.

Song Qi looked at me with a gentle smile: "I like you, Gu Jianzheng."

I was stunned, as if I couldn't hear other voices in my ears.Just leave this sentence like.

Knowing it in your heart and hearing it with your own ears are two completely different feelings.

"I..." I wanted to say that I did too.

But seeing Song Qi's serious expression, I thought of myself in my previous life, and my heart became a little dazed.

do you really not careFacing a face exactly like himself?

He is Song Qi, the past you.Ever since I realized that something was wrong with me, there has been a voice in my heart telling me this.

Of course I knew he was me.I answer.

It's ridiculous for me and myself to do such a thing, Song Qi is because he doesn't know about it, but you don't know about it either?

Song Qi looked at me with dim eyes, and I felt an inexplicable panic in my heart. Just as I was about to speak, he suddenly stepped forward, put his arms around my neck, put his chin on my shoulder, and said softly: "It doesn't matter if you can't say it."

I reached out and hugged him a little dazedly.

His scarf rubbed against my neck, itching.I rubbed my hand against his soft short hair.

"I can wait." Song Qi said, his tone unquestionable.

My hands tightened.wait?

He has been waiting for so long, but I still want him to wait?

"No need." I sighed softly, feeling the other person's back stiffen.

I knew that Song Qi was me in the past.I answered that voice in my heart, but, absurd or not, it was never a reason for me to wrong myself and others emotionally.

"I like you too, Song Qi."

What is the life of a moth, what is absurd is not absurd, go to hell.

If I like it, I like it, and the object is myself, and I also recognize it.

I know that the next thing will not be easy.Just taking care of parents and mothers is a headache.

But once I have chosen this path, I will stick to it to the end.

In five years, I have changed a lot.But my attachment to this point, after seeing Song Qi again, seems to have been dug out from my bones again.

33

It was already late when we returned to the dormitory.

As soon as I walked into the bedroom door, a strong smell of alcohol came to my face, and I frowned.

Song Qi quickly turned on the light.

After getting used to the light, we silently stared at the four or five empty wine bottles on the ground, and someone who was sitting on the ground half leaning on the bed and sleeping soundly.

Resisting the urge to touch my forehead, I looked at Wang Xinyong, who was so drunk that he looked like a ghost or a ghost, and then I remembered that there was still this trouble.

"What's up with him?"

(What's the matter, some people are proud, and naturally some are frustrated.)

I stepped forward and pushed the half-dead person: "Wang Xinyong."

The other party didn't seem to be really asleep, and looked at me with half-opened eyes, with a confused expression.

"Wake up and go to bed."

"... Gu Jianzheng?" Wang Xinyong pouted his tongue, glanced at Song Qi behind me, narrowed his eyes and said, "Eh... isn't this your wife? Haha, where are you going?"

Song Qi blushed.

"I'm still in the mood to make fun of you, so it's probably not a big deal." I ignored his words, turned around and said to Song Qi, "Go take a shower first."

Song Qi nodded, walked around Wang Xinyong, found clothes in the cabinet, and went into the bathroom.

"You made yourself like this because of Li Mian?" I rolled my eyes and walked back to my bed.

"...you think I think?"

"If you don't want to, you should cheer up."

Wang Xinyong lowered his head, and it took him a long time to say: "You know, the night I was drunk, holding him was like getting the whole world."

I froze for a moment before realizing that he was talking about Li Mian.

"Then I thought, as long as I apologize and treat him well in the future, maybe we can live an ordinary and happy life... But when I woke up the next morning, there was nothing next to me, and it was cold. Can you imagine the feeling of the whole world slipping away from you before you are happy for a few seconds after you get the whole world?"

I didn't speak, and my emotions were complicated and unspeakable.It was the first time I saw such a dejected expression on a calm and calm person.

After hesitating for a while, I was more troublesome: "Have you asked Li Mian's family?"

"Of course I asked... You think I'm stupid, I can't even think of this?"